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my ocd just said something so gross and weird and i want to confess so bad so i don’t have to hold it in and live with it. it said i was attracted to kids and that i want the intrusive thoughts and that i am actually evil and i need to be in jail. it said other horrific things too and now i am spiraling, it said i am not worthy of having kids because i am a monster and that if people knew then i would be all alone and that would send me to jail. i just feel like crying forever and never leaving my house now. it said other specific weird things that are so horrific and now i am terrified. no one could ever warn you about how evil this disorder really is. i read a lot of triggering stuff on youtube and people not believing in this theme and that it’s fake so now i am panicking even more.

Does anyone have false memories of terrible things that “happened” to them as kids? I know this sounds like they could be actual repressed memories but I’m 99.9% sure they’re not. Does anyone know what would cause this?

Am i the only one that gets anxiety from thinking about thinking

the worst part about hocd/soocd is that i always find myself feeling out of love with my boyfriend. i know i love him but the ocd just makes it so hard.

i’ve just been on the subreddit of the thing i fear to check if i relate to them, and some of the things resonated with me. i’m very anxious now and don’t know what to do because it’s filled me with hopelessness. like maybe i really am my worst fear after all this time. it feels like there’s just far too much proof.

What if I’m not as anxious about my theme but I still feel concerned and very uncertain and doubtful? It feels very real still? Even though I’m in the stay better phase of therapy on here. I’m not sure if it’s just my depression or hormones making it worse, or the fact that I can’t get myself to do the higher exposures. Please help.

Do you think it’s possible to have OCD and be your fear? I’m talking in terms of POCD. I’ve had SO-OCD, Perfectionism OCD, Gender Identity OCD, ROCD when it comes to things I like, but is it possible that I don’t have POCD and it’s the real thing? I was in inpatient therapy for OCD this year, and the thoughts and urges don’t bother me as much anymore, but I feel like I like them now and I hate that. In my mind, “acting” on the urge is looking at a cute kid, or even doing ERP/checking.

I can’t do this no more, I seriously can’t😒

Hello all! I'm brand new to this app/community and I want to know more about others like me. What made you suspect you have OCD? What was your biggest giveaway? How are you coping? Hopefully this gets at least a couple responses.. If it does, thank you!!

Question - so I see lot of different themes on here.. my theme has been worried about being stalked.. I did put my self In a situation where it could have happened years and years ago.. with most themes on here I don’t see really a single person who has put there self in harms way of their theme.. does that still make mine ocd even if I put myself in a situation where it could’ve happened?

Hey y’all i need to know if someone relates to what I’m going through. I feel almost like if I wanted to act on my thoughts but I actually don’t because this doesn’t please me at all. So if someone told me “You have Harm OCD” I would be like “really? So I don’t wanna harm people? Neither am I capable?” I have no clue why would that be my answer when I haven’t desired anything. But somehow it makes me feel like I do, and consequently makes me feel like I’m in denial. So it feels like if an unconscious part of me wants to do it but I am just resisting. I literally can’t go anywhere, I don’t wanna live any second more, because I feel so disturbed all the time. I feel like I’m gonna end up doing it, I feel so overwhelmed by these feelings,thoughts, images, urges, that I would avoid everything, like going anywhere. I hate feeling like this but I feel like there’s no way back, i can’t picture myself being good in the future because I feel like “this is what i want” when it’s not. I feel like it’s a time bomb for me to do something. I do not tolerate this, every minute that passes by I feel it closer to happen. I feel like I’m gonna collapse and act on it. I don’t even know if that’s what I want, but I don’t think it is, I think it just feels like it. Help I don’t know what to do.

My almost 11 year old (in 1 1/2 weeks) son, has just started experiencing Moral OCD. Now that I’m understanding more and more about this type of OCD, I guess there might have been signs of other behaviors, but nothing that interferes with his day to day life. He is having deeply disturbing thoughts over and over! Then he feels the need to confess, I’ve asked him to stop confessing about 2 days ago, and the anxiety has gotten so bad, I’m on the verge of letting him confess them because it’s heartbreaking. He wants to same reassurance over and over and over. Asking the same questions as if we didn’t have a conversation 2 seconds prior! At this point, I need reassurance! Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Ocd and depression. Does anyone have depression with ocd? If so, do you think your depression was caused by your ocd?

Help omg. I don’t want to do anything that my thoughts say but it feels like I’m not gonna be fine until I do them. It’s so horrible because it feels like they’re my intentions or like I’m going to do them every single time I’m with my family. I literally find myself incapable to do anything because my mind is constantly repeating me to harm my family which is terrible!! I have no idea what is going on, and if this is normal for OCD or not. It disturbs me so much to feel that I can’t escape this, I can’t stand it anymore and I’m afraid i might end up doing it. I feel so trapped. I don’t wanna live anymore but I don’t wanna die either. I just wanna disappear.

i’m about to tell my mom about what i said in my last post i can’t do this

Any ideas for ERP for a fear of having a foot fetish? And having (hopefully unwanted) groinal responses while glancing at women’s feet? I feel trapped.

I have harm/Suicidal OCD subtype (included with my pure O) and I haven't acted on the harm thoughts, but they have become MUCH WORSE because of stupid ERP and I don't know what to do because obviously it's really upsetting and unsettling that I would even imagine self harming.

my ocd is so bad in the morning :(

I feel like no one knows the real me, I dont even know the real me anymore. OCD has been my identity for so long I always wonder who the f would I be without it. My thoughts and opinions change so rapidly I dont know if their my own anymore. My moods and emotions are so up and down I'm wondering what's the real way that I feel. Have I just been lying all my life.

Ok y’all i need help with something. Its related to racism and clothing. I saw this incredibly cute online store but i didn’t see much representation on it so i googled to see if it was racist but instead found that there was a controversy with this one designer who had a launch on their site. Online people were signing a petition that said white boutique (which is also why i feared it was racist) no to Sarah’s day. Sarahs day is the person being racist and homophobic and sending hate. I feel dumb for asking but should i not even shop at this store because of this person? Or is that extreme and should i just not purchase anything from that designers line? There are other stores out there but i don’t want to do something that my potentially strengthen my Ocd. Please help.