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I’ve actually tried writing this multiple times and keep getting scared. Scared because - I don’t want to be the exception. I recognize that this is typical OCD, but my OCD has been manifesting itself not in anxiety - mostly it’s just this dull nagging feeling. This feeling says that I know I’m gay - it’s like I can feel that it’s true. Yet it’s not a clarity - it just feels like this truth that I don’t want to accept. Writing this and not erasing it - is in a way an exposure so I’m going to post this. Because as I reread it, I’m scared that if I post it - people will read it and be like- oh yes that is different from everyone else. I think she’s actually gay. I try to accept the thoughts as they are - thoughts, but then things like friends will comment about cute guys and suddenly I’m reminded that maybe I don’t notice guys as much as them therefore : I’m gay. I’m trying to lean into the uncertainty - just this dull nagging starts drilling in deep overtime.

Wait guys, kind of random but does anyone else’s OCD come with images too? Like I imagine a cop or whatever came to my door, gave me summons for court against a Karen, and I just forgot about it/lost track/wasn’t paying attention. I can’t seem to think of this happening at all, and I’m confident nothing happened but it’s driving me crazy knowing this might have happened and I just forgot about it. Like going outside now is weird bc I can’t tell if a cop came or not with summons for a Karen lawsuit and I forgot about it. This just fing sucks bc I was so close to feeling calm, not doing compulsions, recognizing ocd, accepting uncertainty of the fact that we can get sued, but then this thing came up. I don’t know what to do- it makes me want to check online to see if I’ve been sued, ask family members if they can look it up and all. Anyone can suggest me as to what to do?

My religious OCD is freaking out again. Over a lot of things but this time one of the main ones is the awful things that have been done under the guise of Christianity and how some people then see all Christians as toxic and evil by default. I know I can't do anything about those people's beliefs but my brain won't shut up and won't stop going in this spiral either.

I want so bad to tell my fiance what's really going on with me, but i don't know how to...or if I should.

I’ve had many different intrusive thoughts over the years, but I can’t seem to shake this obsession with my heart. I continually think it’s going to just stop or that it can’t handle being elevated. I don’t even have family history of heart disease or heart attack or anything of the sort. I keep myself healthy between exercise and diet. I’ve reassured myself a million ways from Sunday. I saw a cardiologist once, years ago, who reassured me that my heart palpitations were nothing to be afraid of. I try to look at every workout as an exposure, pushing myself to trust my heart and ignore the thoughts. But sometimes I just want to relax and enjoy dinner with my boyfriend or being out with my friends without ruminating over what would happen if I had a heart attack in the restaurant, the bar, where’s the nearest hospital, can I trust the people I’m with to know what to do, etc. It’s exhausting.

A saw a comment saying if I lose my virginity I’ll know who I am, is this true, cause I’m afraid I won’t like it with a girl, and that I would with a guy, if I need to do this to be free, I have a girl that wants to do it so should I, I also don’t want to lose my virginity for a while, but if I need to to be happy, I guess I need to

Does anyone struggling with pocd feel major anxiety when they have to look after their neice or nephew? I'm really trying to work on not ruminating but get triggered anytime I'm asked to look after someone's kid. I don't say no because I know avoidance doesn't help.

Does anybody else feel like they are CONSTANTLY doing mental compulsions to suppress thoughts

Trying to avoid a compulsion right now but I don't know how to get the motivation. I want to wear a cosy sweater but ocd tells me that ot might be contaminated.. not sure if I want to wear it anyways

Hi guys I'm new........the most biggest problem I have with my thoughts is if I touch something with a bad idea I must touch it again to try doing in with good idea then mind is telling its at eaze😤😤😤😤😤😤😤😤😤😤😤

I was doing laundry last night and this guy insisted on holding the door open for me, but I told him no, since due to my contamination fears, I handle my dirty laundry very carefully. I have my own method to get it to the laundry room. I let the door close again, so he would stop. I then unlocked the door again and pulled it open to hold it. Defeated I gave in, the basket touched him an he may have touched the basket with his hand, then touched the doorknob to the front of the building. Now I'm worried about other people touching the knob, then touching the knob to the other doors in the building and my keys getting contaminated in the process. Having the mailman touch the doorknob, then touch my mail and mailbox. Then in turn touching my keys and mail will contaminate my clean stuff an my new apartment. I seriously didn't want to get out of bed this morning. It's only another week or two until I finish moving (I get my new apartment Thursday, but need furniture etc.), but I'm not sure how to deal until then. 😫😫😫😫😫

Having a really tough today, my theme is starting to center around my old bestfriend as the most undeniable proof that I had a crush on a girl. My mind has gone from what if to you DID like her and here’s why. My mind has been finding a way to connect her to everything in my life and it feels like I truly did have a crush on her. This doesn’t feel like ocd anymore, I feel like if I choose to accept the uncertainty in this then I’m actually just further suppressing my denial because deep down I still don’t want to like girls. That could easily be internalized homophobia and it probably is but I’m just so tired of this battle. I’m tired of giving my life away to my thought, this doesn’t feel like me at all and yet it’s all I’ve been for the past 6 months so how could it be anything else but me. I don’t know how to fight anymore

I need exposure/analyzing advice. Typically i have pocd. Then recently an old obsession about the simulation popped in. NOW another one has taken place and its basically this feeling of hopelessness and dread revolving around my spirituality. The idea that everything is pointless and everything i believe in is probably bullshit.. Etc. How do i do an exposure to this particular piece? Is it "yes maybe everything is pointless and my beliefs are wrong"? I have been trying that, so far to no avail... I still feel myself analyzing and im not sure how/why my brain is doing it. Anyways, some advice would be much appreciated. Thanks.

Can ocd make you think it’s just a urge when it really isn’t? I’m not sure if what I had was just an intrusive thought or an urge but I’m so scared that it was an urge because then I would have to tell my mom

Has anyone still struggled with OCD after finishing erp through this app? I hate this. I just want to get better but the OCD voices are so loud and feel so real. Any help please!

Those who work: How has having or getting a job impacted your anxiety for the better or worse?

havent been on here for a while but i have been struggling a little bit lately. could people with Christian OCD share their stories? i think I need people to relate with right now.

Ever since yesterday afternoon I’m having such difficulty swallowing food. Every time I swallow, the food starts to go down but then stops and I have to just heave it up. I have to take super tiny bites of everything and chew it forever before I can even try to swallow it. It’s now given me a massive fear of choking. I don’t know if it’s psychosomatic or not. Has anyone else experienced this?

I don’t want to sleep because the moment I close my eyes thoughts come in and I snap my eyes back open, the thoughts are just too horrible

Tips for getting over OCD: 1. Move away from themes, treat the what ifs as all the same, do not get caught up in the content. 2. Let go of rumination and other compulsions, it is the doing that is keeping you stuck. Recovery is through non-doing, not responding and allowing your brain to see you're no longer afraid of thinking ANY thought. 3. Engage in life again, don't allow the scary fairy tale stories to be anything more than what they are (junk thoughts).