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((Tw for health anxiety)) I’ve had a sore throat for close to a month and all I can think of right now is the possibility of it being throat cancer. I vape regularly (even though I know I shouldn’t) and I’ve never had any issues, but a month ago it became painful to swallow and it feels like I have a rock in my throat and I’m so scared over it tbh.
TOCD Hi! This is my first post. I had my intake yesterday and it went really well! I actually felt really great afterwards. I've been having TOCD for about 2 months now. I've been all over the place with it, but recently have felt much much better after doing some personal work with ERP. However, I had a huge anxiety spike yesterday because I experienced what I can only call autogynephilia (arousal at the thought of having a vagina). I've experienced this before and it scares me a lot because the TOCD kind of pushes it to an extreme saying that I need to get gender affirmation surgery. Early on with the TOCD, I'd check if I actually did want a vagina, and like my checking would either be inconclusive, convince me that I did want one, or that I didn't, but no matter what it wouldn't last very long? Like I'd freak out about it and then like later forget that I was even worried about it. I'm a gay man, and I know it's not unheard of for gay men to experience autogynephilia and even to enjoy it and still be men, it's just very much all over the place with the TOCD. Like my guess is just that my OCD blows it out of proportion but I'm wondering if OCD can convince you that you like something to the point where you do like it? Like is this a backdoor spike? For reference, I believe I have experienced autogynephilia outside of an OCD mental state when I was younger, but as best as I remember it was a singular moment of experimentation that while enjoyable felt more like a fantasy than an embodiment of who I am if that makes sense. I'm feeling pretty calm about all of this right now, but I guess I'm just curious to see if anyone has had anything similar.
New to the group. Does anyone suffer from ROCD and jealousy? I don’t have RJ but rather severe jealousy over young woman. I’m in my 50s and with a partner for 2 years. I have body image issues and I have terrible thoughts of my partner cheating or becoming sexually aroused by these young girls. He’s not that type but I can’t stop the obsession. Do you have any good tools I can use ?
Without anxiety and ocd how would you like be?
Help! TOCD!!! Has anyone got TOCD on here? I have a few times obsessed about this theme but HOCD usually takes over. But today was the first day for a huge obsession of TOCD, I am so worried I FEEL manly, like I really feel manly, I don’t feel feminine a lot of the time and this really scares me. I am so confused and I read some Reddits for people becoming transgender and I really feel that’s how I feel but I really don’t want to be a man, I just want to feel womanly. This is so scary 😭. I’m not sure how much longer I can take of this OCD, today was the first time that I thought I’m not sure I can live a life like this. I don’t know who I am anymore. Sorry to be so negative! Hope everyone is doing okay out there ❤️
today is a bad day and i am quite convinced i'm bi in denial and feel sick
For those struggling with with ROCD do you let your partner in on what’s going through your mind? My boyfriend is my go to person to talk to about anything going on my life and really the only one who understands ocd but I feel it can be hurtful for him if I share intrusive thoughts about our relationship.
Anyone here struggle with suicidal OCD? If so and you have experience please help me understand what I'm doing wrong. So am I supposed to sit with the thought of harming myself. Zip... That's all, or do I tell myself and BELIEVE I'm going to do it? I'm so confused. I feel my brain already tells me I will, why would I try to give it more power. Please respond
I had a random memory (not sure if it’s real or false) that when I was young I googled ‘child porn’ to see what it was like. Obviously nothing came up and I didn’t see anything but I’m feeling ashamed for even searching for it. Now I know I’m not attracted to children whatsoever, but the fear and guilt is coming from even searching that out of curiosity when I was young. I don’t even know if this is a real memory or not but it feels real and I feel as if I can faintly remember but idk. I’m really struggling rn, especially since I was doing so well with my ROCD, it’s now taking the form of POCD which is utterly destroying. Please someone help.
How do you know the difference between resisting ruminating compulsions and avoiding?
Hello if anyone has any questions about how to expose/cope with certain OCD thoughts, feel free to type it in the comments. I've learned many things throughout the years that worked for me that can also be helpful to you. I'm happy to help and share what I know so ask away lol
Does anybody have trouble falling asleep due to intrusive thoughts? I fell asleep at around 2 in the morning because I was my thoughts just wouldn't stop. I usually like to distract myself so I would watch a show until I fall asleep but in this case it was really difficult. Last night I was tired but I was scared to fall asleep due to my intrusive thoughts.
Is there any kind of cbd or vitamins that help with anxiety and ocd ?
Please, please help; just reply something. What do you do/tell yourself to make you ACCEPT UNCERTAINTY, especially when you feel your worst fear is 90% true but you don’t know and must not check? What are some acceptance hacks for uncertainty as well as for mistakes/guilt/imperfection? Thank you
Hi guys my mum just had a go at me and saied you just need to do yoga she get so cross with me for being like this I have the same thoughts every morning that I can’t shift and it so scary and my mind jumps from one thing to another and goes from past events to another quickly I’m just in bed crying my eyes out I just want my brain to calm down I’m so scared I’m going mad I’m already on phycosis meds but fill like I’m getting worse I don’t no what to do
Anyone else experienced loss of attraction with this theme? I can’t even tell what attraction feels like anymore, as whenever I see a guy now who is relatively good looking I overanalyse it and worry I’m just experiencing comphet. Does anyone have any good tips about how to do exposures with this?
I’ve actually tried writing this multiple times and keep getting scared. Scared because - I don’t want to be the exception. I recognize that this is typical OCD, but my OCD has been manifesting itself not in anxiety - mostly it’s just this dull nagging feeling. This feeling says that I know I’m gay - it’s like I can feel that it’s true. Yet it’s not a clarity - it just feels like this truth that I don’t want to accept. Writing this and not erasing it - is in a way an exposure so I’m going to post this. Because as I reread it, I’m scared that if I post it - people will read it and be like- oh yes that is different from everyone else. I think she’s actually gay. I try to accept the thoughts as they are - thoughts, but then things like friends will comment about cute guys and suddenly I’m reminded that maybe I don’t notice guys as much as them therefore : I’m gay. I’m trying to lean into the uncertainty - just this dull nagging starts drilling in deep overtime.
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