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I’m struggling from so many things at the moment and it’s really fucking scary and isolating. I’m currently dealing with forms of Contamination ocd, Hocd, Just Right ocd Health concern ocd Sexual intrusive thoughts Depersonalisation/derealisation and of course anxiety and depression because of it all. It has I can’t lie made me feel suicidal and I’ve noticed myself not being scared or disturbed by suicide because I’ve thought about it so much. It’s almost become an option in the back of my mind. I currently want to live my life as I know (I’m 19) I have so much more to experience but I feel I can only do that if all this ocd goes away.

Can anyone help me. I am having trouble with my parents understanding how my OCD and other mental health issues effect my school life. They don't understand how harmful my OCD is for me. I feel like I have no one. I am so sad and exhausted. I feel like I can't live this aspect of my life anymore. It is killing me.

Struggling really bad today, worried about my headaches and concerns it’s a brain tumor. My grandmother who is 83 recently found out she has a brain tumor and is getting it removed, now ever since I have been getting a headache behind my eye and feels like dull pressure I been worried it’s a tumor my dr said it’s just a tension headache or migraine or muscleskeletor headache she doesn’t seem to worry after speaking to her over the phone but I’m still so worried!!!

One thing I’ve noticed is when I’m with friends, or talking, or am busy with a task, my ocd (for the most part) settles down. It’s when I’m alone and bored and have really nothing to do is when it gets bad. Anyone else?

dropped out of school because of ocd, quit my job because of ocd. anyone almost 18 or 18+ who just dont know wtf to do with their lives bc of their ocd being so disabling?

Does anyone else that suffers with schizophrenia ocd ever fear that they see things? I was on the computer and thought I saw an image of the devil pop up on the side of my laptop and started freaking out that I saw an image. I know that the image wasn’t real but I’m still freaking out because it’s making me think the schizophrenia is real

Anyone on here who has dealt with/ or currently dealing with sexual intrusive thoughts about family members have any advice on reminding yourself that these thoughts aren’t real? They just seem really vivid to me and I’m worried that I’ll act on them somehow

I hate that my ocd makes me think I’m going to burn in hell one day

Hello, I’ve struggled with POCD in the past and I’ve been going to therapy for it, and I feel that I have fought it off for now. Although, just about 30 minutes ago I was watching a movie that had a scene of a guy killing his father. I have been angry with my mother the past few days and after seeing that movie I started to have terrible intrusive thoughts of myself strangling my mom. My anxiety has passed but at this moment I’m feeling very hopeless. I feel like a psycho.

Does anyone struggle with their ocd when it comes to weight and exercise? I feel like I’m getting too obsessed with it and getting in the mindset of having a negative body image

are any of you in a relationship and if so how does your OCD effect it? My partner has been my sole support since the beginning of my struggles but recently she’s losing hope in the process of getting better. I don’t want to lose my soul mate because of my OCD

It’s been about two months now and I’m really struggling with HOCD. It’s making me feel like I don’t love my boyfriend and my attraction to men has been a lie. But I KNOW I love my boyfriend and that I’m attracted to him. HOCD is so powerful that I feel like it’s making me not feel anything anymore for him, is that possible? It makes me so upset because before this I was so happy and so in love with him. It’s like I know deep inside I love him but everything feels extremely numb. But when we’re together the thoughts are low and I’m happy but once I’m alone I’m a mess and all the thoughts are back.

“Sitting with it” does not help. Our space at home in flux because of my boyfriend moving in last April. I constantly hear that the treatment for OCD is to not engage in the compulsions, but it doesn’t work AT ALL for me. I have “sat with” the disorganization in our space for months and it continually makes me feel very stressed and, in turn, depressed. There are times when I finally can make an improvement in our space to make it more comfortable and there’s a noticeable uptick in my mood and my stress goes down considerably. Isn’t there anything else I can do? This “sit with the anxiety” it bullshit for me.

I can not stop obsessing that I’m going schizo... I keep thinking that I’m going to lose my mind any day now. I also keep obsessing over suicide.. I know I don’t want to do it, but with my Harm OCD I’m worried it’s the only way I can prevent myself from hurting others. This disease is so fucked up

Is anyone else a nurse? How do you deal with the worry that you will make a mistake. I do check things repeatedly and am trying to cut down. I just worry that because of this I have so much anxiety about my job and that i shouldn’t be a nurse anymore.

Anyone know how to know the difference between real and false memory because I don’t know if it’s false but feels real it’s fits in with what happened in the best and it’s just the worst to deal with

Anybody ever take Wellbutrin? I started lexapro a month ago and the side effects were terrible. My doctor put me in Wellbutrin. I’ve been on 150mg for 4 days now... yesterday all day it felt like it was maybe working. Or maybe it was just a good day. I’m not sure. But anyways, last night I had a full anxiety attack. And I spiraled so so so so hard. Maybe I’ve been bottling it up and it just all came out? Or could it be a sign that the new meds and making me manic or not working right?

Is Ali Greymond a scam?

Trigger warning: POCD; I want to make a post about how much better I’ve gotten to inspire hope in others. About 6-7 months I had a horrible intrusive thought about pedophilia. It was just one thought that came into my brain while others were talking about it. It caused panic attacks and all I could do was cry and beg God to make it stop. I started getting other types of intrusive thoughts but they weren’t as bad as this theme. I was suicidal because I didn’t think I deserved to live if I was having thoughts like this. It was extremely debilitating and my anxiety was at a constant high. Im better now though. I’m definitely not “cured” or completely over it. But I’m always surprised when I get a thought and I’m able to label it as OCD/intrusive and move on. I still have work to do but I’m so much better. I wanted to tell you all this because i know how it feels when the thoughts are constant and anxiety is high. It’s like a lens that changes your perspective about everything making you scared to even leave the house sometimes. You’re not alone and you’re all wonderful. What helped me was ACT and radical acceptance. Every single time I had a thought I wouldn’t react. If I even suspected a little bit that it was OCD, I would not react to it. It took time and it is still hard but it’s been working so well for me. I’d practice ERP by not avoiding kids or situations where I might see one. I know who I am and I know I’m not what OCD tries to protect me from. I stopped looking at OCD as a monster and started understanding that it was just trying to protect me and those around me. But I just reminded it gently that I didn’t need it to protect me, I’d tell it “I got this”. Sometimes I’d even make little jokes about it, like “oooh OCD you’re so scary”. That actually is really helpful. Give it time because CBT does work. I wish you all the best and stay strong. The strength is inside you, you just have to find your courage.

Tips for stopping ruminating?? I’m my head all day every day. Also has ocd convinced you, you are this person?? I can’t look at triggers for fear of being this person, pocd ??