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Help š I keep arguing with my mind. I keep having sexual intrusive thoughts and every time I tell my mind I donāt like the thoughts my mind is like āyes you doā and Iām like no, no I donāt. What should I do? Like honestly it feels so real. I do NOT want to ever be a monster or like the thoughts but itās so convincing. Please help Iām on the end of my rope here
Every time there is more on this Larry Nassar case my real event ocd is triggered once again and I am sent spiraling for days
iāve been wanting an emotional support dog to help me through specifically my depression and anxiety. does anyone else have one? are they helpful? iāve been trying to convince my mom for over a year yet i just read on quora digest (i know not the most reliable place) that wanting one is dumb and no one should need one unless itās a service dog.
Hi I been stressing after having a dream about kissing a girl and I have thought much of it but I started overthinking and thinking until I wasnāt able to feel emotions for either gender and I wake up everyday feeling sick and then get annoyed or sad I donāt feel anything sometimes I convince myself Iām bi so I feel bit of normality but my thoughts feel so real and I donāt know how to handle my hocd cause I have no physical attraction or feelings for girls but my mind is like convincing me I do when I donāt . Does anyone have any advice Iām not really handling this well
I am about 99.99% sure I am bi-sexual but carry immense shame as a bi-male. I cherish traditional relationships or relationships with only women. I donāt know if itās the anxiety talking or if itās me but I want out of this depression so I can feel happy regardless of what it is, I donāt want to be depressed or sad anymore I feel a stronger attraction to women. I donāt know what else to say.
The more you try to figure it out and the more you do compulsions will it feel more real. I feel like Iām in the position where Iām genuinely confused if Iām a p or not when before I thought I knew deep down that I wasnāt. But I feel like Iām just so deep into confusion that I donāt know anymore and it feels too real now. Im doomed
This is just so awful. My best friend knows what Iām going through. She knows that I just learned that I probably have OCD. She knows that Iām struggling with doubt. Yet she has given up on me. She has stopped asking how Iām doing. She has stopped loving me. After our psychology class, she said something that was so awful for me to hear. She told āourā friends about how people want a diagnosis so badly. So they look something up and before they even get diagnosed, they start convincing themselves that they have those symptoms. So they essentially make it up. They conform to fit the diagnostic criteria. She said this knowing how scared I am. Knowing how much momentary relief I found when I learned about the different dimensions of ocd. She literally told me that she thought I had ocd (but didnāt tell me when she thought it) before when I told her I think I do. I just donāt understand why she would say that around me. I feel our friendship dissolving, and I donāt have the energy to try and save it.
So I realized I had OCD last month and started treatment right away. I have some of my close friends. All have a proven track record of being trustworthy. I've told some people more than others. However, I haven't told any of my family members. Last night, my mom stopped by and we chatted for like 2 hours. I ended up telling her about my OCD and a little about my journey with ERP. I know her intentions are good. I know she loves me and wants the best for me. But she just doesn't get when it comes to mental health. I told her how this whole thing started after I listened to a podcast about OCD while I was working. Instead of saying something like "Wow. That's amazing that you heard that." She was like "You really shouldn't listening to something like that when you are working. I'm still working from home and most of the time, my job doesn't require any direct customer interaction. I sometimes make a few calls. Also, when I listened to that podcast, I had no idea it would hot me as hard as it did. OCD wasn't even on my radar. She also made the comment "I think everyone is a little OCD." My first thought was "No, they aren't." So the whole thing left me a bit frustrated. So I think I might give her a book to read. Part of me is glad I told her, and part of me really regrets it. I also told her some of my timer intrusive thoughts. Anyone else relate?
Does anyone have any tips for me who keeps losing his appetite due to fear of getting food poisoning or food contamination.
I had a really intimate and romantic moment with someone š. I kept getting intrusive thoughts during it but I did self ERP and I pushed on š only problem is that I didnāt get a very strong groinal (but a groinal nonetheless) and itās making me feel like I didnāt like her in that way... but I loved being with her š
I regret some of the illegal things that I saw online when I first got my phone when I was 13. I have a vague memory of seeing something horrific in a Kik group chat, it was cp. even just typing it out absolutely disgusts me. Although I was just a child myself I feel so awful about seeing it, at the time I didnāt even understand what I was watching. Many years later my mind is now twisting what happened telling me things like Iām a pedo and that I liked it..that Iām sick and should have known what I was watching and closed the app. I donāt remember how old the girl even looked but I think she was probably my age or abouts, thatās what confused me. I regret seeing it I want to rip my eyes out of my head. This is really difficult to open up about so please be considerate I donāt know how to begin to forgive myself and move on, or even if I should forgive my younger self makes me feel like I deserve to die
i just canāt stand living in uncertainty about what iām going to be in the future i donāt want to be lesbian because itās not who i am or want to be but iām scared that iāll end up with a girl in the future
I been thinking about my POCD and I will never have kids. I feel like breaking up with my boyfriend so he can have a girlfriend who isnāt sure she isnāt a p word or not. I just look at kids and I have guilt that I have these disgusting thoughts. I want him to be happy and be with someone who isnt mentally ill and doesnāt have thoughts about assault or children. Iām scared to tell him because itās almost his birthday and I donāt want to ruin that for him. I feel like being alone forever. It sucks bc before this I knew I wanted to be with him forever and have kids but now I canāt even have that. And Iām unsure if I want to be with him at all. Itās just so hard
Does anyone have spiritual ocd dealing with blasphemous thoughts as a Christian
On my call with my therapist today we did some exposures to my soocd and during the exposure I was fine. Now hours later I feel like Iāve been ruminating all day just thinking about the exposure and trying to figure out my sexuality
Supplements? Any supplements that people take and find help a bit? Tell me about them š
Anyone else have emetophobia? Iām trying to not google too much, Iāve dealt with having this fear for many many years but something I just read said itās hard to treat. And this is my first shot of trying to treat it (it goes along with OCD) and Iām just worried I wonāt get over this and I so badly want this to be a thing of the past for me. I moreso just want to know if anyone else can relate.
Has anyone ever switched from Zoloft to Lexapro? My doctor wants me to switch and Iām scared to death about the transition period because Iām scared to get worse. Iām on 100mg of Zoloft right now and they want me to break them in half for the next week while i take the Lexapro, and then stop the Zoloft after a week of breaking them in half. Does anyone have experience with this? Did Lexapro help your OCD and intrusive thoughts? Was the transition difficult? Iāll be ok for a year and then half a 2 week long episode of constant panic attacks and intrusive thoughts and depression. Im praying the Lexapro will prevent future episodes
Whatās it cheating ocd? Is it thought of that you want too cheat?
my thoughts feel so real and genuine, like i really want them, yet it barely stirs up any reaction: i don't feel anxious about me feeling like i like them. is that normal? does it happen in ocd? why don't i feel anxious? i am not looking for reassurance, just actual information. like can i feel like i like the thoughts and feel no anxiety? it used to make me super nauseous but now i ignore them and ignore the feelings and it makes me feel more in denial. sometimes i get these "visions" in the future of me falling in love with kids (and girls) and it feels like that would happen and it doesn't make me anxious or stressed
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