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I'm struggling so bad right now. I really don't know if I have salvation because when I made my prayer I'm scared I didn't fully trust in Christ as Savior and I'm scared that when I made my prayer I messed up because I might've thought doing a salvation prayer and believing in these certain things mean you're saved but I remember I believed Christ died so all of my sins are forgiven but I'm scared that I didn't fully trust in Him, but I remember believing my sins were forgiven but I feel like I put my faith in my salvation prayer and not God. I hate my life so much, why do I fail in everything. I can't even pray right. Any help for this? No reassurance though. <3

I apologize for the way I was acting today. If I could just teach myself to wait for it to get better, I wouldn't do and say so many things that I regretted later. Because it does get better, eventually. But when I'm miserable, I want to drag everyone down with me. That part of my personality does far more harm to everyone than my OCD ever could.

what are some helpful tips to stop picking my skin it's become out of hand that i pick at my arms face chest and legs in front of people now and it can last for over an hour

Anyone else have a hard time showering? Because when I shower I’m just stuck in my head. It’s so horrible.

I am feeling so discouraged. I felt like my ocd was gone and now it is back. I felt like I had my life back. This is so frustrating. I’m doing ERP but it’s hard for me to get back on track. Can someone provide me with some motivation?

It is so frustrating to want reassurance but knowing it isn't good for me when I'm having an episode... I don't know what to do

Ugh I feel so disgusting rn... Not to mention my family was picking on my OCD once again I honestly feel like I am wasting my potential...

does anyone else struggle with schizo ocd? im scared that im going insane

How much does therapy cost on here?

WHY AM I ABOUT TO HAVE A PANIC ATTACK WATCHING A CHILDRENS VERSION OF THE BOOK OF ESTHER!!!

Can someone be fine then out of no where anxiety hits them with fear, worry, sweaty palms, and then ocd intruaive thoughts all randomly?

worried if i have to give up on my person

Going to college and being a resident advisor has been so fun while having this theme 🙂

Has anyone ever gone on medication for OCD- pure o, I never do physical rituals just mental. I have really distressing intrusive thoughts that I mentally try and get rid of. Some days are so much worse than others . They feel so intense and hard to deal with. They go against everything I believe in. Has anyone tried medication to reduce the anxiety / bad feelings surrounding them?

Posting is a compulsion now. I know it is. I'm trying to make things better, but because I'm *me*, I'm just making things worse. Hahahaha! Everything, everyone I touch, I just make it worse! Somebody stop me already!

And yeah, I'm lying when I check ALL the boxes now. What are you going to do, website? Ban me? Maybe that's for the better.

I feel like this site is failing me. I was supposed to feel better. Instead, I'm feeling worse. I'm starting to think this is a waste of money. And worse, it's my parents' money. It's not mine. I'm burdening my family for nothing!

anybody else find that they get overstimulated really easily largely as a result of ocd? i wear headphones a lot and sometimes sunglasses indoors for this reason

All it takes is one person saying the wrong thing and I fly off the handle at them. I hate myself.

I dont think i can get on this plane to go back home , its too many people at the airport and im shaking 🤦🏾‍♂️🤦🏾‍♂️ and alone …. Any advice

@NOCD Team, thanks for the great app. Can you please make it such that when we press a button, the community discussion scrolls back up to the top? It would prevent a lot of extra scrolling. Thank you !

This is so unfair. I can’t stop crying. My girlfriend feels like a complete stranger. I can’t even remember any of our memories. I can’t feel any love. I can’t feel anything. She’s the best thing to ever happen to me. She always puts me first and does nothing but love and care for me. OCD finds everything and anything it can to paint her out to be a bad person. I can’t stop crying I just wish this was all over. OCD is stripping the biggest part of me away from me.

I’m so frustrated, i just want to be happy

Anyone else on here also have adhd? If so, any good planner recommendations? I need help organizing my life lol

When I’m doing my exposures, why do I feel calmer and perform less compulsions when it’s in the middle of therapy? When I’m doing my exposures alone, it’s slightly scarier. I know that I’m not going to be in therapy every minute of my day

Has anyone else accidentally missed a dose of sertraline before? I've had an issue with my prescription and I can't get it until tomorrow. I take 150 mg a day and today I've only got one 50 mg pill left. Thanks!

nothing really feels okay

I am tired of all of this..😔

Any tips for telling parents you're on medication? Or even sharing your diagnosis? My parents are against mental health meds but I'm tired of hiding them all the time.

I just wanna talk about a feeling I have that I can’t exactly name. 1. What does the feeling feel like? Let’s say you’re singing really passionately and then suddenly someone comes in and they hear all of it. Then you feel really embarrassed. That’s what the feeling feels like. 2. What can I call it? I mean it’s embarrassment but it’s not quite the right name. So let’s call it passionfruitmacaroon or PFM for short. So basically, I always get this feeling when I talk about anything, like, feminine. • periods • dresses • necklaces • braids • stuff like that also, when i talk about mental health. i hate it so much and i wanna get rid of this feeling.

Anyone have issues with ROCD combining with PMS?

I read online that people with OCD have a higher risk of developing schizophrenia (x6 more risk). and this really sent me down a spiral since my only obsession is developing schizophrenia, and I was comforted by the fact that only 1% of the general population has it. idk what to do now

I have this fear of "signs" which are really the cause of every trigger for me and lately i've been seeing the number "444" constantly. I've made posts about this before but this time it's just too much, I see them wayyy to often and i'm afraid they're real bcause it's different from the other times.

Anyone else get scared when you find two people of the same sex cute together. Like I used to do that a not think much about it. But now it like this is evidence that you are attracted to the same sex.

Does anyone else who suffers from Harm OCD/Pure O deal with cannibalism as a topic? NOT, that you WANT; to be a cannibal, etc. For example, ever since childhood when I watched the movie “Silence Of The Lambs,” it has been an obsession to date. As in, my Harm OCD latches onto it as a topic and the main character “Hannibal” and feels like it’s trying to make me think as if because I’m having said intrusive thoughts; that I’m turning into, thinking like, etc. Not that I genuinely feel as if I’m turning into said character (thank God), or that I’m thinking like him because of the content of the intrusive thoughts and again; that movie/character as references for me. Can anyone else reading this relate in any way? Feedback of any kind would be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance❣️ Sending love, compassion and support to all those suffering from/battling any form of OCD and especially; both Harm/Pure OCD 💌

I should get off here for the time being. I'm starting to get angry at other people for being more hopeful than me, or even for trying to help. I don't want to impede anyone else's progress. Also, when I click that "I WILL look for support while I practice ERP to get better," I'm pretty much lying.

fantasizing about men feels weird, it feels "right" with women😭

since my ocd is down, when i feel attracted to girls it feels like ME and not OCD, it feels more real and like it's really me. i have no anxiety about it :(

Anyone have any tips/tricks you use to snap out of ruminating once you realize you’re doing it? I know the obvious answer, “just stop ruminating.” And sometimes I use the words “stop” or “no” to tell the thought to F off. Just didn’t know if you guys have any go-to’s that help you quit the ruminating!

I’ve been having a lot of panic/anxiety attacks lately. I don’t know what’s the cause. I just start thinking that i can’t breathe and it panics me. My doctor but me back on ssri. I hope it helps

is it normal in ocd where things randomly just remind you of what your intrusive thoughts are about? like lets say you get a IT about rainbows and see something and that thing reminds you of rainbows even though theres nothing obvious about it that are related to rainbows

remember that you have overcome other intrusive thoughts/themes and you will do it again 🤍🤍

Ever have a day when meditation just makes things worse?

does anyone just get days where they just feel sad and tearful,almost like a depression?

I sometimes get angry that I ended up with OCD instead of an “easier” disorder. I’m aware that this is an unfair and illogical way to feel. Support only please.

hi how is everyone? i'm gonna be on here for a while so if anyone wants to talk i'm here!

I just want to give up, these intrusive thoughts are making me feel miserable and physically sick.

Worried I have BPD and not OCD. Or both… I took a test online which may not have been the best idea and lots of those symptoms I do align with. Kind of confused now?

TW: this might trigger ur POCD So my therapist told me that I wouldn't be able to be a pedophile because pedophiles are technically still a kid in their minds. But like I like to have stuffed animals with me when I sleep or sometimes just to cuddle with stuffed animals cuz it makes me feel safe and comfortable, just like when I was a kid (I'm 16). This scares me. Is it normal to still have stuffed animals with you when u're 16?

Not feeling good today. My husband is threatening to leave me and I’m being told To grow up, get my priorities straight, and there are bigger things in the world to worry about. Like obviously I know that but I can’t help that I have anxiety and ocd. I wish I didn’t, trust me I’m not trying to get attention. I just had an extremely bad day yesterday.

am i the only one who really has a hard time making girl friends because of all the thoughts that come back every time i try to make an effort to get out of my comfort zone by talking do you have any tips for people?

The other day I was overwhelmed by negative thoughts and I just kinda. Had a 5 minute crying breakdown and then got back to what I was doing. Kinda feel like that was a mini shot of ERP

Now my partner is saying he’s scared I’ll lose feelings for him and I’m scared he’s right. I don’t want to, I just want to be with him. I feel like such a liar and a fraud. This is torture

im not too informed about seeking reassurance, can i get an example?

Whenever I say I'm straight it feels like I'm lying to myself and sometimes it feels like i dont want to be but that's just my thoughts but they feel so real, I'm so tired of this :(

I have pure-O and harm OCD but I also obsess about whether other people are harmful to me or others... that doesn't seem to be a traditional OCD thing since they all seem mostly focused on "me" (i.e. what if Im harmful, what if I hurt someone, etc). I spend hours mentally going over what traits make my former partners or people in my life good people and not intentionally harmful to me or other people. I'm hyper vigilant about the people I have around me and people I encounter in the world, and it seems to overlap with OCD. Does anyone know if this something that happens with OCD? I suspect it might just be two separate issues coming together and my OCD kicks in to obsess over it and then I cope with it using compulsive thinking and ruminating. Not looking for reassurance, just info on whether this is a type of OCD or not.

Anyone purposely keep thinking about their intrusive thoughts? It's like my brain wants me to forget it but then I keep purposely remembering it?

Hey guys! My mom is thinking about getting me CBD oil or anything CBD product (no THC) for my obsessive thoughts and panic attacks. If any of you have used this method could you comment and let me know if you had any success?

I keep wanting to recheck and recheck the same thing over and over again even though I know now that it's all good ugh

I’m honestly scared of my OCD spiking as I start up a new stressful work environment. There’s a lot of positives, but I’ve noticed my OCD acting up more than usual and it feels like this is only going to be the beginning. Does anyone have any preventative/self care tips for when change or something stressful is approaching?

I don't know what this is but ever since I was small I felt the need to touch something in a certain spot till it felt right like a in a loptop I would have to touch the corner till it felt right...

I'm going to school next week and I'm afraid I will get these commands and feelings/urges to hurt someone! Or lose control! In my head it feels light like if I will lose control...

Y’all follow peacewithocd on instagram, that account makes me feel so much less alone

Going to my cottage for 3 nights and kinda nervous because we don’t have internet unless my dad gives me hotspot so I won’t be able to go on my phone constantly to calm myself down :( and it’s just gonna suck because usually I have so much fun at my cottage but this time I won’t because my mind is too focused on obsessions and it’ll make me sad

Anyone have any advice for how to deal with rumination? I find I struggle sometimes with my brain trying to convince me that my thoughts are true when they aren’t. As a result, I ruminate a lot and get anxiety. Any suggestions would be appreciated!

My OCD is quiet now … makes me nervous … what’s it planning…? 🧐

New here...son was diagnosed OCD at age 6. Now he is 16 and has POCD and he is absolutely spiraling right now. I feel helpless because I cannot relieve his anxiety. He is convinced he is a sick person no matter how many times i tell him this is the OCD not him. He is physically sick from the worrying. NOCD therapist cannot see him until next month and i have no clue what to do. Any advice on coping mechanisms?

I am the greatest critic of my actions. Sometimes when I make a mistake i think that only i do this because I'm stupid. But sometimes i see other people do the same mistake and i realize I'm not the only one who makes mistake At work when i encounter a problem i keep telling myself your stupid. You are not smart like other people and i keep telling this to myself and this behavior makes me anxious. And make it harder to solve the problem. I always keep telling myself I'm stupid and dumb. I don't know what to do to be free of this voice

does your brain ever give you a break from obsessing

How do you muster up the strength to do things when OCD affects certain themes? I want to go drive somewhere to get something but I’m scared because of my intrusive thoughts

i rather feel anxiety than none at all /:

Okay so I posted a picture on instagram and my bestfriend from childhood commented "my gf<3" which is very very very very normal in girls. There's absolutely nothing wrong in this but my mind went like ...... You can make out what it did. 🙂

Sometimes I get jealous of people who are openly gay and happy with themselves. Apart of me feels of I just accept myself I wouldn't be going through all of this. But at the same time I don't want to be with another woman, I just want it to end.

i was feeling so good like everything was going so well for me and now it’s all crumbling apart oh my god

Are ocd attacks and actual thing? Or is it just an anxiety attack? If not Whats the difference? Sorry if the wuestion is Odd.

literally any other obsession would be better than this i hate this so much

Just wanted to say that it has now been 40 days since my first really bad relapse after my OCD theme started 3 years ago. My relapse was so bad that I couldn’t eat anything and would throw up every morning because I was so sickened by the thoughts (not fun for an emetephobe). But I am doing so much better now - I feel like an actual functioning person again. I hope that this gives some hope to anyone who is experiencing a relapse for the first time - it really can get better!

When my day is going well and I think that I'm recovering : I dont need a therapist, I'm doing well and recovering yaay ! When worst days with anxiety are there : I need a therapist right now., feel like crying

I keep obsessing over my breathing. I told my sister that It feels weird in my left side where I breathe and ahe sai wr only have one tube that connects to the lungs which is the trachea I think I missed spell it but yesterday I started shaking and my heart beat faster cause I was scared! I can't tell if its anxiety or an actual breathing problem! And I have no insurance so just going to the hospital would be $1000+. I can't stand straight cause it's harder to breathe I feel like I have to be facing down like looking at a phone to breathe better! Everytime I try to check google a song pops up!

I feel like I would remember if I did something bad or not. It’s driving me crazy! I just want to remember the truth!

Yesterday I had a horrible night but feeling like I can conquer ocd today

if i call a kids helpline and tell them that i have obsessive compulsive disorder would they be able to help me or will i end up more confused and disoriented like i am now

Can an intrusive thought turn into a false memory?

i’m borderline about to have a panic attack bc i found a joke i made with a mutual of mine in february on the timeline so not in dms at all (this person lost interest in the thing that like we talked about so they went through and blocked ppl) and it was like a joke about y/n and 1D imagines but i was like 16 and the person was 14 and like it was a brief joke and they started it but what if i bothered them and they hate me and i hurt them and i know i’m blocked because they have new interests so they just got rid of all the old mutuals but what if i hurt them oh my god i know that wasn’t my intention but what if i bothered them i feel like crying

HOCD 18+ I hope this is HOCD... I was watching a regular yugioh video with dudes in it and I got a feeling in my groin so I decided to m/o to a beautiful woman. I did but now it’s making me think I want as turned on by dudes... great... all I want is to be with a woman my age range... and as I’m typing this I get an intrusive thought of me wanting a dude when that’s one of the last things I want...

Does anyone else's OCD center around the idea of "cancel culture"? I spend so much time thinking about awful things I did and said as a teenager a decade ago and wondering when I will be "cancelled" for them

i would do anything to get my basic intrusive thoughts back anything is better than this hell thats real event ocd i hate it so much bc idk what’s wrong or right anymore i just want to be a good person

I really enjoy getting on here and sharing experiences with others. My question today is if anyone has other Mental Disorders along with their OCD. I did my 12 week therapy here where my therapist told me I definitely have OCD and unfortunately I don’t have the funds at the moment to see a new therapist but I think I might have something else along with my OCD. It’s hard to tell but either some depressive disorder or BPD. Anyway does anyone else have something tagging along with their OCD and how does it effect your OCD?

I feel like I am making everyone around me miserable because of my OCD. I just want to be normal.

OCD decided to invade my dreams last night and show me this whole scenerio of my little sis dying So that was just swell

i feel like i don’t deserve the care my parents are giving me bc i’m so convinced i’m an awful person and i don’t understand how ppl without ocd that do bad things don’t feel this guilt at the shit they do i don’t understand it bc by anyone’s standards i didn’t rlly do anything wrong but i feel so distraught bc i don’t want to hurt anyone but i’m scared i could’ve

Having a lot of command thoughts :( I feel sick

“I like bad girls.” Me, seductively: I went into the doors in Roblox’s Phobias with the OCD warning ;)

i know i love my boyfriend and i know he’s attractive, but my mind is telling me that both of those things are false. i feel completely numb to everything. it’s a hard day for sure. i don’t want to accept uncertainty for the fear that it could be true, and compulsions aren’t giving me any relief. i’m so lost and confused. if anyone has any advice, i’m all ears!

Just wanted to say that if you're having a good day it doesn't mean you made up OCD you're struggle is still valid and if you're having a bad day it doesn't mean OCD has won, you will and can keep fighting, you are stronger.

You know how they say “It takes a village to raise a child?” I feel it also “takes a village to treat OCD!”

Y’all have any good OCD song recommendations? I’m trying to make a comfort song playlist. So far I have Brain Lock by Bilmuri and Leave Me Alone by NF.

Tw taboo subject adults only I’m so frustrated because my mind is trying to tell me that I thought of something and got off on it during the m word and I’m scared what if it did happen and why would I be so stupid to do something like that? But I don’t believe it. I know I wouldn’t do something like that. Could it have been an intrusive thought and my mind is perceiving it as real? But it feels so real in my mind that it felt like it did happen. I don’t know I’m so confused…

Hi everyone, and good morning! I’m feeling a bit better this morning! Question of the day: If you could bring three things to a deserted island (not including a raft or boat) what would you bring? I have to say that I’d bring an unlimited supply of my medication, one of those water filter straws, and a fire starter.

This OCD thing might have just beat me i know its not what it seems and its all in my mind but lord knows I’m tired of fighting my mind😞... i just want to know what can one do at this stage...