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my bf is on vacation with his friend. its 23:22 and he didnt Text me for hours and it makes me so exteemly nervous. my mind instantly goes to hes cheating, hes getting drunk and doing whatever stuff to other women im legit panicing. i dont want reassurance but Tips in how to not crash out generally ajdkskkoyösnem

Last night I laid in bed and sobbed in the fetal position while my husband held me. I go throughout the day trying to be positive, but it feels so forced and I fall flat. I have been putting so much pressure on myself to do the exposures correctly that I feel like it’s being sabotaged. I go about my day, go to work, run errands, socialize, but it doesn’t feel the same way it used to. I feel like I am spectator in a world passing by me. Like an imposter like I don’t deserve to move on. I grieve that I have OCD as I am sure a lot of people with OCD do. I want all of this to go away and I can’t fully accept that this is my life, but I try to hold onto glimmers of hope that maybe it gets better because it has to get better. This flare has been so painful. My family is who I am pushing forward for everyday. I hate waking up in the morning knowing that I have to face this daily. Additionally, I feel like everything is a compulsion and my mind is so noisy all the time. I have always had random song lyrics on loop and I am a thinker by nature. I would not wish this on literally anyone. I am really working on giving myself compassion, but that even feels fake. No one can save me but me. There is no easy fix, but through.

One thing I have struggled with ( and too very badly) that too from starting that according to me I don’t think i have a strong mind. For example if anyone says anything to someone they don’t get anxious hyper aroused or sad like me. Now in my situation if I give an opinion and very easily people give their opinions and I am not able to counter that I stop there because i feel both very bad and then my questioning nature starts to work that I don’t have the answer to this right now but I am not even convinced with her answer as well so I go deep as per my ability to find what’s the reason and that helped to actually go deep and things are deep nuanced not black and white. But my problem is if I can’t say something in response to what other person has said I can’t sit with that . Because people believes who wins is actually the one speaking right. Anybody gives opinion and I don’t feel right I dug deep. That has given me wisdom but has made me exhausted that now i have stopped self care. I don’t feel like going outside i don’t feel like meeting people. But this is not something new this was my situation since childhood. So now puzzle pieces are there— anxiety ,mental compulsions ,wisdom want to go deep so curiosity is there but chronic anxiety ruined everything that now i want to run away somewhere where there is quietness. I hate loud noise but in our home everyone is on phone and they listens at a bit high volume so how many times I’ll tell them to reduce the volume after some time they also say I am not going to do it do whatever you want. Maturity is in realising that they haven’t gone through what I am going through so definitely they will find my statements irritating or senseless. I am really done I am not seeing any hope and therapy I cannot afford. How much I can pay I have done but even if I get a therapist the will to change only is not there. How to develop that will??

So I’m in a relationship currently, my longest one yet coming up to two years. I’m so in love but unfortunately he said he struggles to deal with me as a person. This is because of my relationship ocd and how it affects me he’s agreed to give me another chance to show I can change, but I struggle massively please can anyone give me advice ? I don’t want to loose him as I don’t know where that would take me mentally. My current issues are as followed: * “Are you annoyed with me?” * “Are we okay?” * “Do you still love me?” * “Why did you reply like that?” * “Are you talking to someone else?” * “Are you sure you don’t want to leave?” I can’t stop sometimes even though I know there isn’t anything wrong and it’s happened twice now where he wants to leave and this time I know it’s on egg shells , please help me anyone

I’m curious about good ERP strategies. I have been dealing with harm OCD for several months. Just tried going on Zoloft and experienced such strong anxiety and surge in intrusive thoughts that I went back off. I feel better these days and am trying to do ERP as best I can. (I know, I know, an OCD trained therapist would help me but no insurance…) anyway- I’m looking for good exposures that will help. I’ve been doing some imaginal scripts- mentally creating a scenario in which my fears come true. I have been reading scripts in the book Overcome Harm OCD by Jon Hershfield. I felt sort of used to those so figured it was time to move to the next level so I tried writing one the other day and interestingly, it didn’t give me anxiety or fear like reading the ones in the book did. I felt some type of distress, though, because it made me cry. And it definitely was unpleasant because I wanted to be done with that exposure and couldn’t wait to tear it up and get rid of it. (This was suggested in the book and as my harm ocd is mostly about my children it made sense to not leave that lying around.) So not sure if that was maybe too much and I need to wait before trying again? Another one I’m not sure about is reading news articles about the Clancy case. I have found that very triggering of course. Sometimes I want to read all about it, to make sure I won’t be like that, I think. If I come across headlines I read them but don’t actually click on the article because I know the ruminating and analyzing it will bring on. And it seems a lot like researching my fears, which obviously is a compulsion. But then, if I fear being like her, shouldn’t I face that fear? I’ve read that a good exposure for harm OCD is to read news articles about people doing harm. So I don’t know, I really want some effective exposures and obviously am overthinking about this potential one so any tips would be welcome!

Hi everyone, I have been in ocd therapy now for about 6 months. I was diagnosed recently at 29. I had an amazing therapist but she had to leave. So I’ve been hoofing it alone for the last few weeks. And of course during this time my serious boyfriend broke up with me. I am surrounded by a lot of support right now so I’m able to keep a lot of the self deprecating thoughts at bay. But I am so sad it came out of the blue. I am also very excited to start my new life in a new place but I am morning the loss of the partnership we had. We were together for a year. My longest relationship! I thought he was the one. He is a quiet one. Few words he has to say but when he did say um he meant um. Within this year My father of 62 was diagnosed with a rare variant of Alzheimer’s it has shattered my family and we have re built from the ground up. My boyfriend was there for it all. And when I got diagnosed with ocd he was there too. He has been my support system this year. I live in a very small town in the middle of the woods I spent this year pretty isolated (on purpose) moving there was my sanctuary and he was my knight in shining armor. He wasn’t around much because he is a wildland firefighter. So I had a-lot of time alone to heal my wounds of the past 3 years and my father’s quick decline. My mom was there for the breakup and helped me pack my things it was avoidant at first and then healthy and good. He’s a good man. Luckily I am not alone now. I’m back home in Texas helping my mom set up my physically healthy 62 year old dad’s new room at the assisted living facility. I’ve decided to move at the end of the month to where my sister lives. So there is just so much change in my life and uncertainty. The drive home was 12 hours. Well it should have been 8 but we had massive trailers. The whole time my pelvic floor has been so tight to the point of tears and grumpy attitude. I rarely experience physical ocd symptoms besides the occasional ant. But this symptom is excruciating. It’s been an on going one for about 10 years to the point I recently started taking prescribed muscle relaxer so I can empty my bladder fully, I plan to see a pelvic floor specialist asap. But for now I am having todo a lot of EPR to help me unclench. When my dad’s around it gets so bad that from my belly button to my knees it feels tingly and numb. Kind of like how your leg feels after it falls asleep. My sweet aunts are here to help us as we do this big life transition and when they get close to me my pelvic floor tightens right up. I know It’s caused from my massive fear of uncertainty, but the sensations are to much, on a daily bases it doesn’t happen i can empty my blatter and be ok. But when there is such massive uncertainty everything clinches and it’s so hard to let go. I’m in so much mental physical and emotional pain right now. Anyways I hope someone can relate I appreciate you reading.

This morning I woke up feeling really weird and extremely tired. After getting ready, I saw something at school that triggered an unexpected mental image. The image became surprisingly vivid, almost like I was daydreaming rather than intentionally thinking about it. It had a strange “static” or charged feeling to it, and that immediately caught my attention. When I got to school, the image was still stuck in my head. I was able to have a normal/good time with my boyfriend, but I was extremely sleepy. I kept getting an urgent feeling that I needed to figure out why the image felt so vivid and why my mind was producing that kind of imagery. Later, when I went back to class, I was so tired that I was struggling to stay awake. The thoughts came back, and I started daydreaming about my boyfriend. Then I noticed that the imagery had that same strange vivid/static quality and immediately wondered, “Why does it feel like that? Is it because I’m falling asleep?” This is confusing because I naturally daydream a lot, especially when I’m tired, but my OCD makes me analyze the vividness and physical/emotional sensations afterward. I start wondering whether the fact that something felt so real or immersive means that I genuinely wanted the thought or that it says something about my attraction or desires. I want to understand whether extreme sleepiness and the transition toward sleep can make mental imagery feel unusually vivid or immersive, and how that can interact with OCD checking. Instead of feeling like I’m simply thinking about something, it can feel almost like I’m inside the scenario or actually experiencing it. Along with the vivid imagery, I can sometimes notice physical sensations or an emotionally charged feeling in my body. The problem is that once I notice the sensation, my OCD immediately wants me to figure out what it means. I start asking myself whether the fact that the image felt so real means I genuinely wanted it, whether the physical sensation means I was attracted to the person in the scenario, or whether my desires have changed. I may then intentionally replay the scenario, make the image more vivid, focus on the sensation, or switch between different scenarios to compare my reactions.The more I deliberately focus on it, the stronger and more immersive it can become. Then my brain treats the increased intensity as evidence: “See, you really felt that.” This makes the experience even more confusing because I can’t tell where the original thought ends and where the deliberate imagining, attention, and checking begin.Sometimes the sensation disappears when I stop paying attention to it, and then my OCD analyzes that too: “Why did it disappear?” or “Why was it so strong before?” I end up checking the feeling itself instead of simply letting the daydream happen naturally. This also gets mixed into my ROCD because I compare these vivid experiences with how I feel toward my boyfriend, Erick. If an imagined scenario feels intense but I feel emotionally flat or less “lovey-dovey” with him, my brain starts comparing the two and asking what that says about my attraction, desire, or relationship.What I’m trying to understand is the psychological mechanism behind this: why normal daydreaming can become so vivid and physically convincing when I repeatedly focus on it, and why my OCD then treats the vividness or physical sensation as proof of what I truly want. I don’t want reassurance or a definitive answer about my attraction. I want help understanding the checking/replay cycle and how to stop using these sensations and daydreams as tests.

hi everyone, i really need help. i think i’ve developed contamination ocd with my new apartment and cat. what started off as little rituals to feel fresh in my new place has seemed to devolve into compulsions and intrusive thoughts. i also got a new cat after my roommate’s childhood dog passed (we had her for a few months before she passed) and i really love her but i think i’m getting so frustrated that i don’t feel like she’s clean enough. it came to a head yesterday, when i saw a really big bug and had an absolute meltdown about it. i have a horrible phobia around insects and i could not think straight with how terrified and unsafe and unclean it felt. today i saw something crawling on my cat’s fur and while i tried to catch it i couldn’t. it didn’t look like a flea, we don’t have another animals, already gave her a bath after she she was adopted from her shelter, and has flea medication, so idk what it was but now i’m locked in my bathroom trying not to tear my hair out with my things in the washer at 1:30am debating on leaving my apartment and going home. i hate feeling like this and i feel so guilty for even thinking that maybe her best option is going back to the shelter because i adore her so much already but i’m also standing in my bathroom trying not to deep clean my entire apartment at 1:30am because of how it feels like she’s not clean even thought i deep clean once a week and clean regularly daily. please help i feel so lost right now

I see a lot of young people and people new to their OCD journey on here I also see a lot of people that have careers, partners, and children I’m wondering about people who are so far into their journey, who’ve tried so many things, but have ultimately regressed, and still can’t support themselves, or imagine another 10, 20, or 30 years like this? I do have more diagnoses than OCD. Every year that passes I accumulate more problems as a result of trying to survive this life while navigating my conditions. I don’t have a quality of life. I spend as much time as I can sleeping. I hate this existence. I had dreams, but one by one I’ve had to give up on them. I didn’t give up without a fight. And now I’m just depleted.

One aspect that OCD has changed in my life is showering. Ive become accessively worried when I think about showering because it's the one time I'm left completely alone with my thoughts, which is a perfect opening for my OCD to make me start ruminating and panicking. Its unfortunate, because it causes me to put off showering out of nervousness which lessens my hygenie. (Obviously this doesn't mean I don't shower at all lol, I force my fear down and shower regardless when I feel I've gone too long without it.) This has unfortunately caused it to become a miserable and scary experience for me, as dramatic as that sounds. It really sucks when something thats supposed to make you feel nice and clean only ends up making you fear your own mind. Is this just me? Does anyone else feel this way? Id love to hear some ways you guys deal with it.

Not seeking reassurance, but just want to know if anyone out there struggles with similar overlapping themes as me. It would help me feel a lot less alone. My OCD revolves around my children. I’ve had several different themes throughout my life, but nothing compares to this. I have a 3 year old and 4 month old. I’m constantly obsessing over if I am present enough, doing the right thing, feeling the right way about them or our time together. I love them with all of me and I know that’s why my OCD targets our relationship. I’m worried about missing out on precious time with them (existential), doing the wrong things like not playing with them enough or giving them enough attention, or feeling the right way. For example, if I’m having a nice time with my daughter where my OCD is quiet for a moment, my brain starts saying “but are you really enjoying the moment like you should? What if you aren’t really present or what if you aren’t as happy as you should be. You’ll never get this moment back.” And then it turns something nice into something so stressful. I just want to know it can get better. Does anyone else obsess over worrying about feeling the right way? I know this could be similar to relationship OCD where you question your feelings.

“You’re too young to let the world break you.” - Kim Taehyung of BTS I know that it was not the usual people who read these but I still want to apologize to whoever it was. Earlier I made a post trying to be respectful and trying to commemorate the lives lost 25 years ago today. I was trying to get across the point that I am eternally grateful for the people serving my country and am mourning the thousands of lives lost 25 years ago. I was saying how grateful I am for my religious freedom and I do admit i may have sounded like I was being snobby about my religion but I was not trying to be rude or make anyone mad. I did clearly anger someone though. After I came home from school the first thing I saw once I came and sat down was “You should be ashamed of yourself” I deleted the post after reading insult after insult to me and the words that I meant to be kind. The person that I will leave anonymous was saying that I was using the pain of others to my own advantage. I had not read over the text before I posted it so maybe it did come off that way but I was just trying to be kind. To whomever this was, if you see this, I am sorry, I did not realize the message that my words were conveying. I am sorry that I wasn’t more aware of what I was putting out and how it might make others feel. If you do read this, please forgive me. And if you are not this person and you are the person who stood up for me, thank you. And if you are neither of those people, hello, sorry for the dump. And please give me your thoughts on my daily quotes. Love you guys 😭💜😣

I’m struggling this week to stop picking my fingers. They are getting really red and inflamed. I’ve put band aids on them to hopefully stop me need to pick but I just tear the band aids off so I can continue picking… 🙄 I have a lot of general anxiety and personal trauma that I’m moving through right now. But I’m not sure why this compulsion is so strong. I can’t identify and specific fear behind the picking. It’s just a habitual never ending action… any tips on body focused behaviors?

Sorry, this is long, but I really need to talk to someone. I am feeling pretty low. I have had OCD since I was a little kid. I have a few themes but the one that has caused me the most significant problems the last few years is Just Right OCD. It was more “manageable” before I took a new role for work at my company (I work remotely). I’ve been at my company for 7+ years total, in my current role for 2.5 years. It is a hard job with lots of critical thinking & decision making. It became obvious within about 6 months that I had began amping up my compulsions & I was working 14 hour days (secretly) just to accomplish my necessary tasks, or at least to feel like I had done enough. I even got written up a year & a half ago because my boss saw I had been working late & not putting it on my time card. I had never gotten written up at a job ever. I had always been considered an exemplary employee. That is my first and only black mark on my record. I am respected & well liked by my peers & management. I was struggling in every aspect of my life and last September it became unsustainable as our workloads increased. I began applying for some other jobs within my company (I LOVE my company), but wasn’t getting any interviews. I shadowed a couple departments I’d like to work in, in multiple roles. I met several managers & employees that I clicked with who said they would put me at the top of their list if anything opened in their departments. I waited for months & no jobs opened. I kind of broke in June & took medical leave from work. My doc increased my meds, I started ERP in mid July and went back to work early August. I have been practicing my ERP & making progress in my therapy. It’s been hard, but I know I need to do this to help myself. Last week positions opened in BOTH departments. 3 openings in one of them! I found out they before they were even posted because a couple of their employees I had shadowed with reached out TO ME to encourage me to apply. I can’t tell you what a relief it was. I applied for both departments immediately after they were posted. I asked for the low end of their offered wages, like $7/hr less than what I make now (my current position pays more because it’s a lot of decision making etc.). I also reached out to the managers that I had previously shadowed with to let them know I was applying. They all said they were happy to hear I was applying & said they would look for my application. They sounded like they actually wanted me, it didn’t sound like lip service at all. I hadn’t heard anything from either, so I went to the jobs portal, because you can see statuses of applications. The one I wanted most, the one that had 3 positions, the one I had 4 people recommending me for, said “No longer under consideration”. Not even an interview. I don’t understand how I could have that many people say they wanted me & then not even get an interview. I was absolutely gutted last night. I feel so hopeless. My husband said maybe it’s just a mistake on the job portal, which I don’t think it is. But I can say in the past they have always contacted me by email or phone to let me know right away. I haven’t been contacted by anyone yet. Even though I personally feel like I’m a failure at my current role, I regularly get accolades from management & customers. I’ve been recognized at our all associate meetings. I even got a promotion & raise (that I didn’t ask for) in May. I don’t understand why no one will give me a chance. I can’t keep doing my current job because not only is it triggering my anxiety & OCD, but it is just not a fit for my natural emotional capabilities. It’s too much for me in every way. It has taken such a toll on me. The other position still says “Under consideration”. But I only have 1 person recommending me for that role. Also I had applied for that role back in November of last year & didn’t get an interview then. I really thought with the one I wanted I would be a shoe in based on the number of recommendations, shadowing, 2 managers telling me they were going to put me at the top of their lists & the fact that they had 3 jobs to fill- Today I logged into my current job & we had a record number of tasks. We usually have about 8-10 new per day but today we each were assigned more than 20! Since it’s impossible to accomplish that many in a day they will just stack up & I’ll fall behind and my stats will show I’m not getting them done in time and customers will start calling me & yelling at me. I don’t know what to do because it’s just too much & I’m more than overwhelmed. I have cried at least once a day for a year & the panic attacks are pretty frequent. I don’t know how to keep pushing.

My first period class this morning decided to talk about suicidal thoughts/ the act of suicide, trying to figure out whether or not it is a sin or if they will go to hell. Manu people in my class were very passionate about the idea of if a person struggles with suicidal ideation then they need to repent or else they’ll go to hell. It was so traumatic hearing that. I’ve had people tell me in the past that I’m cursed for having anxiety and ocd and that conversation just sounded so similar to that. To say it’s wrong for a person to struggle with that is so evil and it was so traumatic hearing that people truly believe that. I was so triggered by this topic because, with my ocd, I’ve dealt with suicidal thoughts and it’s gone to the point of me playing out how people would react to me killing myself and if that would trigger other suicides and then it would be my fault. I also have some friends who almost went through with suicide. Hearing that these struggles are sinful is so mind boggling to me. Yeah, obviously it isn’t a good thing, but to call it a sin and that someone needs to repent for genuinely struggling with something that deep and personal is so inane. I am so angry and triggered and traumatized and hurt that I had to heat a whole class debating about this. I left the room and had 2 or 3 panic attacks today because of it

Hello, this is my first post here. I have been very disappointed about therapy and would like to ask for your opinions. I started going for the first time this month and I've had four 45 minute sessions, however I feel like there's not any progress at all. Before I started going, I had the most distressful OCD episode of my life, only four days before starting therapy I was able to manage it by some advice that I heard: 1. Stop debating the thoughts and 2. Don't believe your brain. My therapist in every session makes me talk about potential causes and my childhood etc. and I feel like we're not getting anywhere from there. Maybe it's too soon to judge but every time I leave I feel worse because she poses a question and I feel like I'm hanging by a thread from it and it makes me overthink even more. I haven't gotten any helpful advice from it how to deal with it etc. The only thing that's holding me is the past advice that I heard outside of therapy and the talks I've had with my sister who has suffered with OCD. What do you guys think? Is it supposed to be like that?

im new to this app so hi, but i'm wondering if anyone relates to this post? to be clear im not diagnosed with anything!! but for the past year i've been wondering if i have ocd or not, one of the biggest red flags is my emetophobia it first developed when i was in second grade, i worked myself up the night before about a little math quiz- i was convinced that i would fail and it would ruin my life all night i was struggling to sleep, when i did fall asleep i would wake up stressed the fuck out. i woke up a total of 3 times the next day my stomach was hurting and 2 thoughts circled my mind- i'm scared i will fail and im scared i will throw up. i kept going to the bathroom and hoping that i jsut had to poop, but nope. i took the quiz and felt a little relieved but now i was completely focused on my stomach aches and that there was no redemption for the quiz. i got home and immediately threw up around 3 pm- and i couldn't stop throwing up since that day i made up regulations in my mind like: -don't wake up more than 3 times at night or you will throw up -everyone throws up around the time they were born (i was born around 3pm) so i couldn't eat till a little after 3 -wait exactly 30 minutes after every meal before physical activity, an hour or 2 to be extra safe -burping more than 16 times means you will throw up etc etc, i can't remember the rest but there were other things like i couldn't go or talk to certain people if i associated them with throw up. even my friends, when they threw up i would stay away from them for a solid week bc otherwise i would get sick i haven't thrown up since then, i actually rarely get sick some regulations went and new ones came i started uni 2 yrs ago and i've been slowly letting them go, but i kept up my rules for a solid decade- NEARLY MY WHOLE CHILDHOOD i always thought it was just a weird phobia, but when i talked to people with emetophobia they didn't have such strict restrictions as i did i slowly learned about ocd and i sort of related the phobia to it and as time passed other things- like my avoidance tendencies, degrading thoughts, and obsession with little events around me have consumed my time and behaviors. so now im curious what others feel, think, act, etc. am i more similar to people with ocd or to people without ocd? what is it like not have the thoughts i have? and obviously i have doubts- like im just being overdramatic and the people around me think im just a little funny but 2 people have mentioned ocd when i explained my emetophobia- one is a therapist and the other is a student in psychology. again doubtful... but curious as to what the people on here think and if anyone relates?

I had an intake session with a licensed therapist a few weeks ago and she confirmed to me that what I’m experiencing is indeed OCD. Took tests and questionnaires that helped with that diagnosis. Mine is mostly ROCD, False Memory OCD, and intrusive thoughts and visuals that I can’t shake away and must seek reassurance for. I do have some contamination OCD and physical compulsions, but they’re not as severe. I said I was interested in medication along with therapy so they referred me to a psychiatry office. I was set up for an appointment with a psychiatric nurse practitioner. She talked more than I did and didn’t really lead the conversation, so I was just mentioning whatever I could muster and come up with in this vulnerable and stressful scenario. She kept interrupting me and sharing her own experiences. I couldn’t share everything I wanted to share. At the end of the appointment, she said: “you know, you can’t have OCD if you don’t perform counting compulsions or are overly neat/clean, you don’t have many physical symptoms, so I’m just going to put Generalized Anxiety Disorder as your diagnosis.” I felt very dismissed and upset by that. Like I’m sorry I don’t have a visible obvious type of OCD. I did get prescribed medication at least, so I guess that’s a win?

Sometimes I feel like I’m the only OCD sufferer with this subtype. It started about two years ago and has never truly gone away, although it has gotten better. While I’m mainly an artist, I also really LOVE philosophy, philosophizing, and a bit of theology too, as somebody who believes in God. But what’s cruel about this is that philosophical fears are also what drive my existential OCD, and it’s really hard to balance my interest in philosophy with my philosophical compulsions. I know some people will tell me to stop reading or looking into philosophy, but I don’t know what to do about that. On one hand, I genuinely enjoy reading this stuff since it intrigues me and intellectually stimulates me, but on the other hand I find myself compulsively researching it and reminding myself of philosophical ideas in order to ease my anxiety. There’s also the fact that philosophy doesn’t have any easy answers that really frustrates me sometimes. Additionally, while ERP does help ease my anxiety over this, it can also bring some mild depression too, and it just exhausts me sometimes. Just wanted to know if anybody else struggles with this subtype and how they manage it. Just tired of feeling like I’m the only one.

I just saw a TikTok that basically said “having OCD when the news is talking about AI destroying humanity, food recalls, surveillance, gun violence, etc.” and it hit on something I’ve been thinking about a lot. I feel like one of the hardest parts of OCD for me is that the world genuinely does have risks. Food does get recalled. Bad things do happen. Technology does raise privacy concerns. There are things in life that we can’t guarantee will be okay. And my OCD LOVES that tiny opening. Because then it becomes, “See? This isn’t irrational. You SHOULD be worried.” And suddenly I’m trying to figure out where normal awareness ends and OCD begins. I’m realizing more and more that recovery can’t be about proving that every fear I have is unrealistic, because sometimes the thing I’m afraid of genuinely could happen. It’s learning that I still don’t get to have 100% certainty about it. I can be aware that risks exist without spending my life trying to eliminate every single one of them. Which is much easier to type than it is to actually practice lol. Curious if anyone else struggles more with OCD when there’s a little bit of real-world truth for it to latch onto?