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Does anyone else obsess about sexual frequency and google “average sexual frequency of couples” and then obsess that being lower than average is an indication of “living a lie” or being “gay”?

Another day searching for a private therapist with no luck. I have never felt so unheard, misunderstood and alone. Although I know I'm not alone, posting on this app to people who understand the suffering. I am close to breaking point and honestly don't know how much longer I can cope. Each time I contact a therapist they come back to me saying they can't deal with my particular problem they don't have enough experience. Still on a very long waiting list with the NHS despite pushing and making them aware of how severe my situation is their only solution is for me to go to A&E. Honestly can't cope any more

Hi everyone I'm new here so I need to get used to things round here is there anyone experiencing blasphemous and sexual thoughts about God and the holy ghost or even has experienced it because I am and I would like to overcome these thoughts is there any advice you can give me is there any websites that will be able to help me overcome this any help will be appreciated please help me I just want these thoughts to go away thank you in advance

Hey nocd community! Nocd is featuring my advocacy work in their newsletter today, thank you nocd!❤️ So today I’m available to answer any questions you may have about Pure O or being a Peer Support Specialist. I can’t answer any clinical or diagnostic questions, but I’m happy to answer any questions about lived experience!

So honestly the worst part of (what I think is) my OCD is the "groinal syndrome"... My intrusive thoughts were fading, but now all the doubt is creeping back in because of it. I know that I'm not what my thoughts try and persuade me I am. My whole identity is much more solid now than it was when I was at my worst. But at the same time, the anxiety is still there and the groinal response thing has started to come back recently... I try not to do anything compulsive but a lot of my compulsions are mental ones so I find myself doing them before I can even stop myself. Am I just going to be stuck with the anxiety & the physical manifestations forever?? Because even now, after I have learned about OCD, and after things started to get better, I am still experiencing it. I'm terrified to get a diagnosis too, in case they tell me it's not OCD or in case there's nothing they can do to help me :/ Ach I hate this all so much ?

Having a lot of OCD right now. It’s actually sending me into an anxiety attack. I’m so afraid I have lost my mind or about to lose my mind. My thoughts are so intense as well. I could use some positive words or some comforting words. I have harm OCD, fear of schizophrenia, as well as Religious OCD. I feel like they are all happening at once and I can’t calm my mind. I think it has to do with my period but I’m not sure.

kind of random but has anyone dealt with severe paranoia with their ocd and notice themselves doing compulsions to help with it?? i’m struggling a lot with it right now. it’s keeping me from sleeping. anything helps

I cannot drive anywhere without feeling like I've hit someone. When I see pedestrians I just want to cry because I know I will think I've hit them. People walk through the middle of busy 4 lane roads and it makes me want to scream. I hate myself and I hate ocd I just can't do the ERP it's too much to even imagine. Please anyone who has been through this theme please help

(UPDATE) SO, guys I’m fucking amazed by how well I’ve been doing, I haven’t had an OCD thought or worry in about 2 months. This is crazy because I thought it would be never ending but it turns out I’m doing just fine, and I feel normal again! I just want to let you guys know if you feel hopeless, and you feel like OCD is not recoverable, don’t listen to that bullshit, because it IS, and if you do recovery work for it, it is 100% manageable to the point where it’s like you don’t have it at all! I’m here as an example to show you guys that I was once a Harm OCD sufferer, a Health Concern OCD sufferer, and I thought I would be like this forever, but look at me now, feeling amazing, and feeling great! If I do happen to “relapse” I know I will be ok because I have OCD by the balls and I know how it works and I will NOT let it take over me. EVER again! I LOVE all of my fellow OCD troops, and I hope that you guys find that peace that you need to feel normal and yourself again because trust me I know how hard it can be, but once you find the light, it’s the BEST feeling in the entire world. ???

It's the worst feeling knowing what you need to do to help yourself but not feeling able too, not being able to find the help you so desperately need. I can't do it alone I've tried and failed. I need professional help and can't wait for the stupid NHS for another year. The state of the mental health service in the UK is something I feel so strongly about, it needs sorting but no chance with bloody Boris Johnson and this tory government. the guy is an idiot.

When I look up pictures of naked guys I feel this weird feeling of heat and heart racing. Does anyone else experience this? It makes me very uncomfortable.

Ffs can't believe how hard it is to find an ocd specialist in the UK. Or at least someone with experience working with ocd. Shall I just move to another country to be able to get the help I need. So fed up now.

How long does an intrusive thought usually last for you guys?

I’m feeling really down at the moment and I feel like it’s difficult to reach out to people. My parents assume it’s too much time on social media and with my boyfriend. My boyfriend listens to a bit then isn’t fully there. My friends say going out will do me good, rather than listening to the fact that I just want to stay in and talk about my problems with someone. Just feel a bit deflated

"Does anyone else does X or Y?" "Has anyone else ...?" "Can OCD make you ..."? ---- All those may be covert forms of reassurance seeking.

Hey everyone.. i’m a 19 year old girl and this is really hard for me to type out and i’m also really scared I did something genuinely wrong, but I can’t remember if I actually did it, but I think I did do at least some of what I remember, so like around a couple years ago, I was on this internet chatsite cause I was bored, and I talked to people, but I know I had said some “inappropriate “ things to some adults, and “cammed” if you know what i’m talking about lmaoo (ihatemyself)-anyway, on this site there were occasionally children, and sometimes I would just talk to them shortly too, but then when I think back, I can’t remember if I also did something bad or said anything bad to a freaking child... like if I think hard enough about it i’m like,, what if I said inappropriate things to a child??? what if I said I wanted to come get this child or something, but I really don’t remember doing THAT, but I still worry i’m just not remembering it, and I have been miserable about this for so long, I even went to the ER because I was suicidal because of this doubt, and I told a nurse about it, but I was really scared and crying cause I thought now she’ll tell the authorities or something, and then she just said, no, we couldn’t do that just because some girl “thinks” she might have done that, but I still feel paranoid, like maybe I manipulated her to think that, by seeming distressed about it, like basically Idk what to do because I feel like if I just forget about it, what If i actually did it, and it also makes me scared to make new friends or even try dating, cause I feel like if they knew the “real” me, everyone would leave me because they would rightfully be disgusted with me, and sometimes I just don’t know what to do.. sometimes i kinda learn to live with the doubt, I even told my sister and my friend, and they said that they still love me EVEN if I did it, but i’m afraid there’s always more I didn’t recall and if people knew the truth they would all hate me and leave me. And I feel like I can’t get help because I almost don’t even think it’s ocd, I think I really did do something terrible.. Im sorry if this post is a mess, I just don’t know what to do anymore..

I have not been diagnosed but every time I get an intrusive thought such as my parents finding out about a certain thing that I don’t want them to find out about, or my loved ones health I have to count down from 6 and if clock changes time then it will happen and if it doesn’t it won’t happen. Then there’s if I predict the time right the bad thing will happen (50:50 I predict it right half the time and not) and if it lands on the bad thing will happen I keep stressing over it. Sometimes when I say these bad things will happen it does, and I don’t know how to stop it. Has anyone had experience with this kind of behavior?

So I know a lot of people search for the cause of OCD so to speak. And while no known direct cause is really scientifically stated and it just seems to be a huge puzzle right now (like the human brain in general honestly), I'd like to talk about where I think my OCD roots from. I'm unsure why I'm posting this, writing my thoughts off probably. I digress, I think for me it started actually after getting bullied/isolated at school. I don't hear people on this app talking about this a lot but I bet a lot of us have been bullied/ignored/isolated before. I've read in a study before that the odds of developing OCD after bullying is from what I can recall 10 times more likely (I think it was even more). It was a higher odds than with depression, which shocked me at first because everyone knows that bullying can onset and that it increases the chance for that depression. But then I gave it a thought. The bullying made me become more perfectionistic, making me feel like I couldn't do anything right, lose self confidence, doubt myself a lot, etc. Perfect recipe for OCD, it sounds like. If anyone's interested I'll post below what my experiences at school were, but honestly I am more interested if many of you guys also went through something similiar.

how to deal with uncertainty about events you can’t particularly remember

After searching for a private therapist and having a hard time finding one that specialises in ocd I think I've managed to find someone, she has experience working with ocd patients one with harm ocd trained in cbt but doesn't seem to know much about erp. Also she's more of an online therapist uses Skype I worry it won't be affective what do you guys think? Has anyone had any experience with online therapy? She does do face to face but she's quite far away and I'm not ready to travel on a bus yet