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So I’m trying ERP and as a result I’m not able to function eat sleep properly should I back down to my ocd and just do as it wishes Or keep up with this ERP which has been failing for the last 3 months

It’s going to be two weeks since this OCD flare or episode or however you call it started. I miss who I was before this, the one who did ERP and took medicine and got to see a glimpse of what a “normal” life looks like. I am a gift giver and would be so excited about Christmas and wrap gifts for my nieces and nephews, I forgot to buy gifts this year. I’m trying my best to stay present. I stopped going to church, this episode has been so bad it brought me to church again. Seeking comfort. I did so much mental checking that I had no anxiety and started crying that I didn’t have anxiety. Of course mental checking will backfire. I hate that I’m putting my family through this. I’m so thankful for their support, but I feel so incompetent. I just graduated college after struggling 7 years and feel like interacting with society is too much. I’ve done it before but I’m just scared what if this time it’s different? I miss who I was before this OCD episode.

Merry Christmas Eve! If anyone has anything they want to talk about, or if you want to vent or anything, I will listen :) If you need anything specific out of a conversation, let me know!

Having moral scrupulousity makes it difficult to tell when I've made an actual mistake or not and I feel like it clouds my thinking. Yesterday while playing a game (on the adult server) I was messing around with some friends and this person came up as the character who's in-story the wife of the character I was playing. anyway so I was making some in-character jokes abt them being my wife or whatever. and then I remembered that person was a minor. (They were a different character last time so I didn't immediately remember, i suspected though). Anyway I'm not sure if that was a creepy thing to do or not, and I felt awkward because I didn't want to just do a 180 and be an asshole and say stuff like "get away from me" or whatever. I dont know how old they are, i just know theyre a minor because they asked for my private account and i asked if they were an adult and they said no. So I just went along with it and then distanced myself later. But I'm afraid when stuff like this happens I'm doing something bad/I know I shouldn't be doing. I've had similar situations like this before and I dont want to stop playing the game since I have a lot of friends on here but I worry I'm doing bad things anytime there's a minor in the vicinity and people are gonna find out I'm being 'innapropriate' with them. I also feel like I need to confess to my friends but I'm resisting that compulsion. I just feel like a liar and like I did something really bad and it's been bothering me since it happened. Anyways, OCD doesn't rest for the holidays, but happy holidays to anyone celebrating and to anyone not, just happy weekend.

Am I the only one?

I just want to feel how I did before this horrible illness. I’ve only ever been attracted to women and turned on by women. I’ve never once been turned on by a man, so why do I have these repetitive thoughts trying to convince me I don’t like women when I do?

I've had repated religious intrusive thoughts especially the last 3 days,they get worse when I get out of confession(I'm catholic)..I have constant fear that these intrusive thoughts will turn into mortal sin and I'm scared if I should take communion at church or not..I've spent a long time without taking communion..but taking it relieves my thoughts a lot, but I'm still scared..I feel like my intrusive thoughts will make me go crazy or smth

It's like my symptoms of ocd I had vanished like the unwanted thoughts do come sometimes but I get like a little shake in my body and a bit anxious then literally seconds later ok, before I had anxiety 24/7 loads of thoughts and gronials now, little to nothing but I keep having the feeling of I'm a p and I don't feel scared, whenever I see a kid/tween whatever I'm not scared like I was idk if I'm attracted not attracted I really don't know I can't tell if I'm attracted to adults like its confusing, I try to let I go and maybe, maybe not but it just seems like it's not working. The only reason I'm still believing it's probs ocd is because start of the year I had my first ocd theme with soocd and thoughts I was gay for nearly 5/ 6 months then It changed to pocd for 1 month then because of work cause I worked with kids at amusement Park it kinda went I forgot it for like 4 months and then again it came back and for the last month I'd say I can't tell if its ocd not ocd its like I'm obsessing over it but I am and idk what to do and don't want a bot answer me aswel please a real human

My Psychiatrist prescribe me Zoloft. Does that help with OCD and ADHD? I always worry before taking new meds. Can anyone who’s been or is on it lmk how it went is going? Thank you

I think it is because it involves something that is not considered as wrong like other themes as Harm, POCD, etc. And it's something that has increased in society, it's probably because, sorry if this triggers someone (I have SO OCD) And I think it's because people has more possibilities to be gay than being a m^rder..(??

I was reading that Spirulina is a cyanobacteria and that it can repair the Myelin Sheath a bit. The Myelin Sheath is made partially from Cholesterol and B12, so eating steak and eggs is actually good to help repair the brain believe it or not. B12 and Folate are important in maintaining/building DNA and they work in synergy with one another. My OCD has went down 90-95% working on building the Myelin Sheath and repairing the microbiome/Gut....but I also take high amounts of Clomipramine/Anafranil and I now basically feel 90-95% normal. No more impulses that I don't really have control of, I have 95% control of my obsessions and compulsions too. It's like God almost healed me as a Christmas Present!! Take supplements of B-12 in all forms, take Methyl B-12, Hydroxo B-12 , Adeno-B-12 (these can all be ordered at www.seekinghealth.com) and believe it or not Cyanocobalmin is a good/great form of B-12, in one article it says it's the bodies most usable form....but those that have Methylation issues/MTHFR gene mutation may want to limit cyanocobalmin until they get there Methylation under control. If you don't know about Methylation please check out www.mthfr.com /Dr.Ben Lynch who also runs Seeking Health website and sells excellent supplements. If you have Mthfr, limit the synthetic form of Folate/Folic Acid and use Methyl B-12 and Hydroxo B-12. I am not sure about Cyanocobalmin I read mixed results on Cyanocobalmin one article saying effects Methylation but another article says it's best/most absorbable form of B-12 so I have to do more research. We need to build the Myelin Sheath up and repair the Gut through Probiotic Supplements and Yogurt/SourCream/Cottage Cheese/Buttermilk and Fermented Foods like Kim Chi, Sauerkraut (Sauerkraut is great! for the gut and Kombucha/ and I think Wasabi is fermented. If you have Severe OCD you will probably need SSRI's and Clomipramine. I know I am not a doctor and can't really give medical advice but I have lived through this OCD Hell since July 2007 and know what it feels like. I had/I guess still have to a degree POCD, Pet OCD, HOCD, Scrupulocity and Pure "O"....my Myelin Sheath and maybe Gut must be really messes up because I need 2 forms of SSRI's Sertraline at the max 200 mg and 40 mg of Fluoxetine and High Amounts of Clomipramine 150 mg. I even take 8 mg of Perphenazine as I have a little Psychosis, it must be the lowered Myelin Sheath-B-12 issues but again I am taking atleast 3 grams of Spirulina everyday and sometimes up to 10 grams and almost all forms of B-12...so if you are vegetarian you may especially need it. You might even need b12 shots from a naturopath or however you can get them. You need vitamin b-6 and Folate (Methyl Folate) to also help with Nerves and DNA repair. Again I know I am not a doctor but I have had OCD for close to 17 years and have done some goofy things in my OCD, OCD is so hard to control om a daily basis when it is severe and for some reason my brain has attached to some of the more taboo OCD themes. I am just trying to help people get out of this OCD Hell and trying to get back to a normal life, My OCD is so strong ERP Therapy doesn't really work for me. I have done a decent amount of counseling and even some on here and did one thing so weird I could only tell an OCD counselor. I believe in God and pray to him daily to help me and forgive me of some of the weird things that I have a few times and many things I have almost done.....OCD can be very hard to control when it is severe. I just want to say stay in the fight and Clomipramine and Fluvixamine can be a life saver for some. PM me if you have any questions, I am a nutrition and supplement need. I think eating steak (I really like Chipotle's Carne Asada) is really good for the nerves and eating eggs on a daily basis is good because it has Choline, B12 and a bit of Cholesterol which can be good if not taken to extreme and many other Vitamins and minerals are in eggs. Stay strong and God Bless!!

i’m having such bad anxiety right now to the point i could break down. there’s so much going on in my head i cannot think straight. long story short: my boyfriend a few months back was sending pics and videos of other girls to his friends and he sent a pic of one of them that made a move on him during a night out and said he “shagged her”. he said he didn’t, said i could ask absolutely anyone and he regretted saying it as a joke so much. anyway, since then my self esteem has been so low bc of it and i THOUGHt he understood that bc i bring it up a lot…a few weeks back i see him sending the same type of videos and pics to his friends 😔💔 made me feel so sad and i broke down. i practically kicked him out of my house bc he refused to show me the rest of the messages and deleted them. anyway, we’re okay ish now but here’s the issue. i have such bad cheating ocd when it comes to me. i don’t like being around the opposite sex as i get bad ocd thoughts / urges and i actively avoid walking near them. i even refuse to go on social media past a certain time incase i message someone and forget. even tho i never want to. i hold so much guilt. i had a family party yday (i feel so awful saying this) but my rocd was still playing up but i didn’t feel as hyper aware and the urges and “attraction” and “gr” felt so real. there was a few guys that walked past me and i don’t think i moved away like i usually would have. i remember feeling the strong feelings and im sure the gr was there but im so so scared that i stepped towards them when they walked past me? i must have done otherwise why did i feel so much guilt when it happened? it makes me feel like i’ve cheated bc of all the feelings that felt so real and strong. i feel like an awful girlfriend. i felt so much guilt after. like i know i didn’t step away from them but im so scared i stepped towards them. if i did that means i cheated right? im literally panicking so much rn feeling so much guilt ive barely ate. i don’t know why i always punish myself. i’m not even trying to justify my behaviour bc of how my bf’s treated me. i just feel like such an awful person and the last few weeks have been such a bad impact on my mind. i’ve cried so much because of everything and now this had to happen. i know reassurance isn’t good but it feels like im such a bad person & girlfriend 😔😔

Does anyone get into a state of dissociation from having so much mental compulsions? I’ve been in a dissociative state for 2 months now and I do not know how to get out of it😭😭

Hi! Sorry to bother you guys, but I’m really scared right now. So basically, my throat and glands started hurting yet seer ray before I went to work and I just work up in the middle of the night with a stuffy nose and my throat hurts a little more. I looked at my throat in my phone camera and it looks kinda swollen now and I’m really scared that it’s gonna close. But if it was going to close wouldn’t it have happened already? Please someone respond, I’m really scared of getting sick.

I really don't know if this is going to help anyone but I was wondering if anyone has noticed a trigger so small that it's so pathetic it's actually funny. I thought we can all laugh at them together 🤣 One of mine would be is not showing enough gratitude for something or realising I've shown too much and feel like I look like an idiot. Seems small but I remember that being a regular trigger as I didn't want to be rude but also didn't want to be weird

I have been working with Kristine Guerra and we have made some big steps on my journey to recovery! In just a few weeks I have been seen almost 50% decreases in my symptoms. I have been enjoying my time with my daughter while having intrusive thoughts and still some doubt in myself but I have been able to go to work and be efficient, go to the gym, eat regularly, be social, and enjoy my time with my family. I really have been practicing my communication with OCD and basically just letting it know that it can stop lying to me. Yes I still have mental compulsions and physical behaviors but I am feeling like I am getting better at controlling it. The busier I am the less I think and when a thought pops into mind I just let OCD know "it is more than welcome to be here and it isn't going to stop me anymore." I really never thought that I would be feeling like I am today and I am so grateful and want to encourage anyone who deals with any type of theme to get help from someone and be open to sharing your experience with a professional. Is it awkward? Yes it can be but you also have to recognize that you are just trying to care of yourself. If we cannot be the best version of ourselves then we cannot live our life to the extent that we want to. I was so tired of moping around and being sad and feeling like I couldn't enjoy the moment. In reality we do not know when our last day will be. It could be after I write this or it can be somewhere in the future. Like they say in recovery or life in general "you can't be 100% certain about anything in life" and that is why accepting uncertainty makes you look at life in a whole different perspective and should be eye opening to you and make you want to just have fun. Finding what makes you happy takes time and especially when you are in a low state of mind it can be difficult to get out of that funk and get back to who you really are. Trying those new things in life, taking risk, facing your fears and developing into a stronger individual all comes from the struggle of having OCD in my opinion. I believe that OCD is a test to how much you can handle and is an obstacle to make you a better individual emotionally, physically and mentally. I have hope in my recovery and want to be better. Just know that you have to be patient and will have setbacks but that doesn't mean that OCD will be the end of you even when it feels like that. Be strong everyone!!! Have faith!!!

Does anyone know some calming techniques that can help make the thoughts quieter? I’ve been thinking of trying meditation? Has anyone tried this has it helped at all.

I feel very anxious that I would want to be pregnant from one of my family members I know this sounds absolutely insane and I know I hate the thought and I’m scared that I would want that when I don’t even though my OCD is so convincing that I would want that even though I don’t

I’ve never been in a relationship, not even held a hand let alone kiss anyone or be in a relationship with them. I’m a female in my 20’s and OCD sees relationships as ⛔️⚠️danger. the older I get the more scared I become and I don’t know if to take the leap of faith and learn along the way or work on the OCD around it first. Any advice or if you can relate please share thank you 💜🧠🙏 Context: ( I like a guy he likes me but he didn’t know do he was ready for a relationship, I didn’t want casual then we spoke again a while later and he said he could see a relationship in the future and I shut it down and explained it was because of my OCD but I still like the guy and I’m worried I’m going to lose this opportunity with him but at the same time I don’t want to rush into it and hurt him because he will be with me + OCD )

I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop ruminating. I can’t get over the false attraction. It is all so painful. I just want to feel like myself again. Are there any other lesbians on here who have ocd???