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im always worried about something when im bored and for a long time i have been scared of being a psyhopath how do i tell myself im not someone help and tell my how do i tell myself im not is this ocd?

ive been trying to eat more fruit recently since a few months ago i realized i was eating way too much candy so im trying to calm down a bit with that. im actually really happy so far since i do actually like fruits and vegetables, my parents just dont get them often so now that ive been asking for fruit myself ive actually been getting it which im really happy about since fruits are still sweet and stuff and still taste good but they're a lot healthier than candy

I learned alot and now i know it only feels real because we are afraid and we are thinking in a fearful headspace, but i didnt heard that it actually gives you the feelings, and i have a problem with this. I struggle now with religious ocd, and because its been hard for me now, i started feel like im angry at God, which is okay for some, but i do realized its good for me cause it only makes me stop working on the relationship with God and then i feel like he is far away... but anytime i have anger towards God or when im tired and someone says God is so good cause He heals, i just get this thoughts that maybe it doesnt, idk, He doesnt helps me now. And i suddenly feel bad cause i know this is not real. And i start to deal with this as a real problem that maybe i need to work on this and it gets worse. Or i try to ignore it but maybe i still give importance to that cause im afraid the anger is genuine and it comes back after time. So just today i thought about this, maybe ocd its not just makes you believe that you feel like it, what if it really sends you the actual feeling, like for me i actually feel angry at God, but bc its not who i am and i know its bad i quickly judge myself and feel bad. So in this way the solution wouldnt be stop judging myself and accept that im angry at God and deal with that, but to actually ignore it cause its ocd. So in this way ocd actually can make me feel in hard times that im angry at God, or its really me who is angry at God? Idk maybe i overthink it but if i try to see it through, i just spin and make it worse, i even feel bad about saying its just ocd cause maybe being angry at God is normal and i just want to avoid feel bad about myself, but i know staying in that path, accepting that im actually start to question God and its okay, it just makes me feel worse so idk. Maybe ocd really can make you feel things that arent your true self

The last couple of days, I have had intense OCD. It also just so happens to be a day I am on my cycle and a day off from work. I am also reducing one of my medications (Seroquel XR), but am still on two other medications (Lamotrigine and Cymbalta) as well as hydroxyzine occasionally for anxiety. Does anyone else have more OCD while on their period or on days off of work? Or has had increased symptoms while decreasing their dose of a medication? Also, what are some tips or coping strategies you use with intrusive thoughts?

I’ve lived with OCD for over 40 years. Needless to say, I’ve developed a lot of coping mechanisms and small hidden that aren’t necessarily healthy. Yesterday was my first session where I did a very simple exposure (staring at the smoke alarm for 1 minute) that i thought would be no biggie, but turns out really knocked me into a lot of fears and anxiety. Is this common?!?! I think so, but I’ve never actually experienced this. Thank you 💛

Hi all- I have been relapsing in terms of my fear of driving. Plus I want to become a highway driver and learn to parallel park. Any tips from others with driving OCD?

i could use some support right now. I had a harm thought and then another one like “i think im gonna do it” and it didn’t cause me anxiety and i don’t understand why. and it felt really real and now i just feel scared and confused i keep telling myself i dont want to hurt anyone and then im like what if im just saying that

I know skin picking is part of OCD. I’m 35 and been doing this my whole life. I recently started breaking out on my shoulders, chest and back due to hormonal changes and cannot stop picking! I’m causing myself scars it’s so bad. Does anyone know how to stop this??? It’s embarrassing!

I have no official diagnosis for OCD but I have recently expected I have it. My whole life I’ve had people tell me I have OCD but I thought they were joking or making fun of me and I’m not a person to self diagnose but then I realized how obsessive I am over my thoughts and started researching. I do constantly ask myself pretty much everyday why I am the way I am, I constantly think I’m hurting someone emotionally then I have to check for reassurance, I beat myself down consistently. I’m always worried I’m going to hurt myself therefore hurting the people who love me. I obsess over the way my body looks and managed to get to the point I only eat once a day. I have never admitted this but I have violent sexual thoughts but they’re directed towards me not other people, these thoughts are completely against what I believe are my morals. I do have a need for organization and functionality within that organization, if someone touches the way I’ve organized those things it gives me high anxiety and I either have to fix it right then or I end up avoiding it altogether until I can find time to fix it cause I know I’ll take hours. If I write notes and I make one mistake, I have to rewrite the whole thing.. this caused a lot of overdue homework in high school and would take up hours of my time. Ive been married for a year but started dating 7 years ago but for some reason I still have thoughts if we’re the right match or not, etc. I relive conversations in my head daily, about 4 months ago I was in a car accident cause I ran a stop sign and t-boned somebody, I was dazed out because I was reliving an argument with my mother in my head and once I realized I crashed I instantly thought I killed the other person, my husband had to reassure me multiple times that the other driver was okay. I’ve read up on rumination and that seems to be a big check mark for me… I could go on but based off the examples I provided do you guys believe I possibly have OCD and should seek treatment for it? I don’t want to offend anyone because I understand this is a very hard disorder to live with and there’s obviously different severity levels but I’ve wondered since I was child “what’s wrong with me” and I want to know if I’m finally figuring it out?

Struggling with scrupulosity around real events. It makes me want to kill myself. Some days I just feel the need to either be locked up or killed. I don’t want anyone to have to deal with me. I know there are people who love me and want me alive, but I can’t help but think it would make things better if I were dead. I thought about harming myself again after a few years of being clean. I don’t want to but I feel like I have to for the greater good. Like I’m being just by punishing myself for feeling like a bad person. I can’t stand myself. I want my life to feel like one worth living. People tell me to stop wasting my time and just be happy. They don’t know how hard that is. I wish people could see into my mind and see how much I’m struggling.

As a non-religious person who is coming out of a struggle with religious OCD, I’ve come to a conclusion that MANY are going to hate me for. I’m sorry, but I am saying the truth. All religions, but mainly focusing on Christianity, are just FILLED with mentally ill people. They will brainwash, gaslight, and guilt you into believing things that are immoral, cruel, strange, and terrifying. Being around Christians makes me feel uneasy because of how they think everything is a sign from god, how everything is demonic, and how they encourage scrupulosity when it is a MENTAL ILLNESS. I am sick and tired of pretending that most religious people are not mentally unstable. Before you say I am dumping on your religion, I would also like to recognize that Christians have also done a TON of good. This being volunteering, humanitarian work, etc. But if you are a Christian reading this you have got to see how there is so much mental illness in the faith. And the Bible is just FUEL for OCD. it’s all a huge compulsion. Try to get these people to step away from prayer or from going to Church and they will lose it. And if you are a Christian going to reply underneath this saying how great your faith is and how I just need to open my eyes, please save your breath. Your truth is not my truth, you don’t know any better about the truth than I do, stop pretending like you do. K, thanks.

Hi! I’m new here. I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD and Generalized + Social anxiety disorder. I’ve had sensory issues for my whole life, but I can generally control and overcome them. The one that is the most bothersome is being aware of my toenails. I’ve dealt with this since I was a child. It doesn’t have anything to do with the length or condition of my toenails at the time, but it’s just my brain becoming aware of the feeling of my toe nails. I also become aware of the feeling of my toes touching. When this happens I can usually move my brain past it. Until this week. 3 weeks ago I fell and broke my leg. I’ve been doing a lot of lying around and wiggling my toes. Well this past week, I’ve become aware of my toes touching (because of my cast- no worries- I stuffed tissue between them and moved on.) last night, my big toe nail stared rubbing my next toe, which triggered the awareness of my toenails. I trimmed my toes nails with no relief. This caused me to not sleep last night. This has become distressing to the point where I’m sobbing because of this. I’ve been googling this and how to get “over it” which just lead my toes sensory overload resources and solutions weren’t very applicable to what I was feeling. I finally came across Somatic OCD. AND BOY WAS I VALIDATED. I also realized it’s probably what’s causing me to be struggling with the feeling of my bladder. It constant feels full, I try to pee, and very little comes out. I’m pretty sure this is linked with my broken leg because of my in ability to get to the bathroom quickly without assistive devices. And, of course, since my fall I’ve been obsessively googling broken legs, recovery time, complications, personal experiences etc. I’ve always been anxious, so I just thought this was anxiety and overthinking. Anyway, this is long and rambling thank you for reading. I feel validated by finding this app and the article that helped me understand somatic OCD.

I’m worried bc feels like i’m not disgusted or scared enough by my thoughts, does this mean i want to do them? I feel like im becoming a psycho or something, and my brain keeps saying “that’s not bad so why are you worried about it” like wtf yes it is bad and i’m so tired of explaining why to it but like what if im losing my morals like im dizzy idk 😭

I need a place to write this out. 18+ only I’m having a pregnancy scare even though there was no P in V action. I’m worried semen might’ve accidentally gotten on my boyfriend’s hand. I know he did not touch himself. I was 1 day outside of my fertile window according to my cycle tracking when the non P in V sexual encounter occurred. I started having very minor left ovary pain 6 days before my period, along with some GI issues. There was flecks (like seriously 2 tiny SPECKS) of blood when I wiped 4 days before my period I’ve never noticed this before my period before. I had my period on time and regular. But I read that girls can mistake implantation bleeding for their period so I started to worry. I took a pregnancy test 3 days after my period ended and it was negative. My left ovary pain is still present the same as it was before my period, but now it’s coupled with minor lower back pain and GI issues. I keep worrying about being pregnant and that I took my pregnancy test wrong. I keep googling symptoms and quizzes trying to see how I compare. I don’t want to take another pregnancy test because I know how this loop works but I can’t stop overthinking.

I will start with some context. I have Pure-O and an almost constantly changing primary theme dependent on what I value most at the time. In addition to this I also have severe-level GAD currently. These two conditions compliment each other around holidays and significant events due to my perception of them being “once-a year” or “once-in-a-lifetime” events. Therefore, now three days ago, when coming back with friends from a New Year’s celebration I had a combination of magical thinking OCD, intelligence OCD, and real-event OCD occur at once. The event was myself, at the start of the new year, getting a ride home from someone else (I usually always drive myself), and I reached in my pocket to grab my phone. I will also give some context before; I usually have mental compulsions of repeating a list which describes characteristics about me (or things I would like to be). One of these characteristics is my IQ, which I usually positively reinforce by thinking “183 IQ”(This can be narcissistic, but I find it legitimately boosts my cognitive functions quite tangibly, something I also probably need to work on). However, when I reached in my pocket to grab my phone, I had an intrusive thought: “My IQ going down to 83 IQ instead of 183 IQ. Losing 100 IQ points.” This, with it being New Year’s Day and the end of the car ride, left me in absolute internal chaos and severe anxiety. This also left me with an event not worth or really able to be reconstructed (the compulsion was semi-tied to the event). Now, what I understand scientifically is that when such a level of cortisol is released from my limbic system at once (from the acute, intense anxiety being processed by my limbic system) my brain will proportionally lower executive functioning and memory recollection (both which are extremely distressing because I am blessed to have an amazing memory and I am a very fast learner). Therefore, scientifically I should be fine if I just remove the power from the thoughts to break the negative reinforcement of the anxiety cycle which allows for me to diffuse the emotions. Yet, I have had this problem before and sitting with the emotions and doing ERP exercises doesn’t seem to get the job done as they theoretically should for me. Therefore, my question is: Does anyone have any experience with these sorts of obsessions (Intelligence OCD, magical thinking OCD, and real-event OCD), and, if so, how did you resolve and become unaffected by future occurrences of such themes?

My daughter said she has been raped right before the Thanksgiving holiday which she told me on Christmas Day However she won’t go to the police so I went but unless she comes they’re not doing anything So I will go to the tavern where he the rapist works tomorrow for lunch because I will leave this town on Saturday I’m going to ask him if he is willing to go to the police and confess what he did I must do whatever it takes to settle this case unless my daughter nor the police don’t do anything

I’ve been Atheist ever since I was young and I think today I’ve finally found God. I journaled a prayer saying sorry that I didn’t believe for so long and thanking him for still being with me. I said in the prayer that I am sorry for not trusting him and following him. I also thanked him for forgiving me, since he is all forgiving. I said I was finally allowing myself to place my faith and trust in him. I just let it happen. I don’t know. This is new for me. Is there a right way to do this? I think I just need to forgive myself now…

Obviously I’m engaged in ERP here while also taking SSRI (Luvox 250mg and Buspar 7.5mg), but I was wondering if anyone had good luck with a natural remedy (cbg, ashwagandha, etc) or alternative therapy (acupuncture, hypnosis, ketamine)? I would like to supplement what I’m currently doing and I’m seriously thinking about ketamine. Much love y’all!

On December 31st, 2023, my brain decided to create the most disturbing image possible of a person and I from my school supposedly doing the deed/me getting violated. It bothered me so much, until I started to imagine it as a poster shredded up in a machine. It rarely comes to my mind now. However, since then, it seems like any guy remotely close to my age I pass by, my brain will remember their face and begin creating disturbing inappropriate thoughts and images. It has happened twice now since that day. There were no events leading up to the first thought and since my brain gets foggy fast, it won't allow me to remember much (I guess this could be one of those instances where your brain blocks out traumatic memories). Having a partner makes it worse. I'm deeply upset at myself knowing he'll be scared I'll see another man who I have no attraction or affinity towards and have these intrusive thoughts. He has however been as supportive as he can. I've cried about it a few times now, but compared to my normal crying, this feels way less intense and only lasts a few minutes which I don't understand why and feel bad about not being able to "react enough." It could be my brain telling me "this isn't a big deal" when I've cried over many other things that are unlikely to happen and or things that won't happen anytime soon. I've been told its normal, I'm a hypochondriac, but if the definition of normal hasn't been changed to "feeling like an insane asylum patient" then I won't be calling it normal, but more like "common." Moreover, my intrusive thoughts have felt even slightly conscious. As in my brain is trying to make me believe I like them when I don't. My brain might still be developing, but I am terrified for how long these thoughts might persist. I could probably call the thoughts episodes since they stick around for 10 minutes and then come back later. Now everytime I see another man or these thoughts come back, my stomach gets a mix of stomach knot and stomach drop feeling. If I'm not currently in an episode, I can easily distract myself, but the thoughts still linger and now make everyday life more bothersome. I don't know why or how these thoughts started, but they've been terrible and made me feel both disgusting and disgusted. I'm however glad I don't get groinal responses to these thoughts. To summarize all of this, I'm just asking for reassurance from others with similar experiences and possible solutions to these dehabilitating thoughts.

Can someone tell me how SOOCD is my brain trying to keep me safe? 8+ years constantly wanting the feeling that I’m gay to go away. Ever since this thought popped in, I can’t stop FEELING like it’s true and I am actually gay. Why would my brain do that? How is that my brain keeping me safe? If anyone could logically go through how this theme works, that would be great.