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Anyone have any tips for intrusive thought and ruminating. Hope everyone is doing good tonight. Keep fighting.

Brothers and sisters, God's Grace is abundant in our lives everyday, but often times we choose to ignore it because of fear and anxiety, how many lies do we have to "obey" to please ocd? To erase the anxiety? Compulsions have not worked they only have led us to more anxiety and fear. God's Grace allows us to ignore the lies and resist compulsions as a way of trusting Jesus Who Is the Truth. God gives us His Grace when we ask for it but just as with anything God gives, its up to us to accept it or ignore it. Lets ignore fear, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, silly ocd rules and lets trust God's Grace and Word. Lets ask God for help to accept His Grace, lets take a leap and trust our Father Who loves us and never lies! God knows our struggle and wants us to be healed, but brothers and sisters our healing will only come from trusting Him. It is not easy, it is not pleasant at times but its our Loving Father who holds our hands.

Not sure if this is OCD or anxiety… in a new relationship it’s going well…. Sometimes this person jokes about having “hoes”. Obvi a joke but… I don’t know anything about their dating past yet so I go to the worst case scenario of them being a complete cheater user etc…. How do I not do this? I’m anxious to ask them their past too that they may get mad at me… as I said this is all stemming from anxiety

I am struggling a little on pinpointing my OCD. In the past I struggled with relationship OCD, getting awful intrusive thoughts about my ex boyfriend, feeling like I had to tell my current boyfriend who I love dearly every sexual encounter I’ve ever had, or really any memory I could think of with my ex boyfriend. One thing that bothers me is that my ex gave my brothers some clothes for them to wear (years ago) because he didn’t wear them anymore. Overtime I have found multiple shirts that were my exes, at first I didn’t even think to throw them away, but as I got more anxiety over this, as I found them, I threw them away. I usually would tell my boyfriend when I found these shirts bc I felt bad and it upset him. I understand why he would be upset, because if I put myself in his shoes I wouldn’t want him to have any clothes of his ex girlfriend at his house. I found a shirt lately but I didn’t tell him this time because I have been good mentally and thought, “this shirt doesn’t affect our relationship or how I feel about him. It’s just a shirt. It has no meaning.” But tonight I am having a bad night, and feel like I need to tell him because if I don’t I’m not being honest. I know it will upset him if I tell him, and that’s why I feel like I have to tell. Please help me. I love him and just want everything to be okay

I have ROCD and I doing ERP with my NOCD therapist, her approach is to do imaginary ERP (writing stuff down and read it etc.) But I won't get triggered by stuff like that. PLEASE, does anyone else have any other examples or Ideas of kinds of exposures I could do? Here are some details: So my core fears are: "What if it's not OCD but really no love" What if you hurt her What if you never get rid of the stuff What if you just try convincing yourself you love her. So it always works like this: Trigger builds up "naturally" (due to stress, or life changes or if I spend a lot of time with my girlfriend) OCD comes crashing down on me with a massive doubt like "what if you really don't love her and it's no OCD" I try to stand the affliction and stick with my point of view and don't question it (That I love her and it's just OCD) I give in (I am not really doing much, it's more like a light switch in my head that OCD switches from standing my point to be unsure and in question about if I love her) So the thing is, I tried to analyze the shit out of this stuff and recreate situations but I have a really hard time triggering myself, it just won't work. Furthermore I think I might have ADHD cause I am literally ALWAYS distracted, so it's really hard for me to focus. On the other hand, when I WAIT for OCD to come fucking naturaly, it's so overwhelming and I fail. PLEASE HELP ME. My therapist seems to doesn't have a real solution for it.

My compulsion is reassurance seeking and I seek it from my girlfriend. My intrusive thoughts are usually sexual and I can admit my ocd has latched on to her and came up with some pretty terrible things. It’s gotten to the point where she’s started to call me names when I’ve tried to seek reassurance. She gets angry that I’m even asking about certain things and calls me a “nasty person”. I don’t think she understands ocd but how could she if she’s never had to deal with it and my ocd is of the taboo nature? I just don’t know what to do. It’s ruining our relationship.

I’m deathly afraid of my SOOCD it has be frozen. I feel like I’m a fraud. Reading more about it it so scary but I identify if a lot of others who experience it. I’ve been in a spiral. The last few days have been so hard. I literally don’t know what to do. I’m so afraid to move forward with my life. It feels wrong when I’m so unsure / going through a terrible bout of OCD. I definitely have confession compulsions. I need to tell my husband every thought I have. I am afraid to talk to him about my SOOCD. I guess I’m afraid of rejection. He knows I struggle with OCD. But I don’t discuss content very much. I’m so afraid of him not loving me. I don’t want to lose us. I love us. I’m so afraid I’m in denial. I’ve been dealing with this for a few years. I don’t want to change my life 😭 I’m frozen. I know everything would turn out ok with whatever outcome but I’m so stuck in terror. I deeply don’t want this to be true. Please help. Ps I’m 27 and married to an amazing man. He’s my best friend. And I LOVE snuggling/kissing/cuddling with him. I’m so distraught.

i was wondering how long everyone has been experiencing ocd? lately i’ve been making myself believe that these thoughts and feelings should have gone away by now and because they’re not, there’s actually something wrong with me. like i feel like i can’t justify these thoughts as ocd anymore and really i’m just turning into a bad person.

I struggled after my first baby with an intense fear of possibly being able to leave my family or get post partum depression. Went to have another but so traumatized and plagued by this thought and don’t want to have these fears with number two. Hard to hear horror stories . I am looking for someone who has a similar story and wants to share how ERP successfully helped them with it for a future pregnancy.

Sometimes I feel like I see things out of the corner of my eye that's not actually there. Like when I'm driving I'll think a mailbox is actually a person or similar things like that. Now I'm thinking I'm schizophrenic because this happens a lot. I'm only 21 and I'm freaking my self out.

How did others do after first getting diagnosed? Did the diagnosis cause you to spiral initially? It feels like all the symptoms have become so much worse since, maybe because I am noticing them and focusing on them. I have been stuck on looking back through my whole life but now through an OCD lens and it’s been incredibly overwhelming realizing how much OCD has impacted me my whole life. I had previously assumed all the symptoms were part of my having ADHD and Autism, but I am now realizing a lot of my struggling was actually OCD. I’m 45 and I was diagnosed with severe OCD a week ago. Tomorrow I start ERP and I’m quite anxious about it. I feel pretty unfixable at this point, but I’m trying to be hopeful. I have my doubts that I will be strong enough to do this.

This is a very disturbing thing so if you are sensitive please dont read it. I remember i had this type of ocd and even now remembering it scares me alot cause i still question some things So im a christian and i remember last year i was in therapy, and the sad thing was that my therapist dealt with my ocd like its partly true. I had suicidal ocd and she told me in some part it is true. So this made me suffer more. I couldnt decide if im really suicidal or not, i remember there was a time when i even accepted that i am and i need help to stop the pain(the pain caused by rummination of am i suicidal or not). And that time the thoughts were horrible. I remember one morning i was half awake half asleep, and i had vivid thoughts and those thoughts said that God accepts suicide, He will keep me safe there, it was like God calls me to end my life. When i was fully awake, i was terrified. And now remembering this gave me those feelings back and im still terrified about the thing that it might happen with some that they misinterpret intrusive thoughts as God voice. There are some cases where people do bad things cause they think God told them to do it. And with clear head we can say "you know its not God" yeah i know, but in that moment, i just remember it now, you dont know it cause then it wouldnt make you eb afraid. I remember the feeling of its true made me feel terrified that im actually suicidal cause i think God calls me to do it. And not just this fear, but the thought itself that i experience a thought like this, and it feels true, it scares me. Maybe im afraid that i can change my belief so easily, maybe beliefs doesnt change so easily, but i was afraid being manipulated by these thoughts and actually doing it, cause at some point it wasnt about "am i really suicidal" it was about "is this true? God really allows suicide and its okay?" So even this that i was thinking about if its true or not still makes me feel bad. I learned now what is God voice and to not interpret any thought as his voice but now that i exposed myself to that past feeling i realized how hard is this cause the feelings make you feel like youre actually planning doing something, not just self harm but even harming others, having thoughts like "God wants me to hurt that person". Its terrifying, and im still afraid cause i think it couldve been possible for me to follow that thought and believe it but i didnt.

How can you tell if a thought is ocd ??? What’s the difference

Hi guys, So my wife got mad at me today. She said all we ever talk about is my anxiety, and do not usually get to have regular conversations. Does anyone else have this problem with their wife/husband/partner? Right now my heart rate does feel comfortable, and readings to what I can view aren’t to my liking. My OCD had me doing a step just the right way type of thing, I was expecting a call from one of my bosses, and other than this have no idea what caused the anxiety. I seriously just give up anymore. I don’t feel strong enough anymore to go through my anxiety, OCD PTSD, and depression.

Do you guys have the feeling that you are desensitized? I'm afraid of losing my values ​​and acting like my thoughts. I still know what's right and wrong, but I'm no longer shocked or anxious about some things I see (like bad news or cases where there are a lot of differing opinions)...

I’m so tired of constantly being in my own head. It’s so hard to explain to the people I love/ love me. I have pocd it started 2 years ago randomly when I was a live-in nanny. I literally got up and left one day. The person I worked for thought I was selfish for leaving but I couldn’t tell her I thought I was protecting her children. From then on I’ve had this parasite (aka ocd). I have hope that things will get better one day but it affects my everyday life and my relationships. I’m scared it’s going to be why me and my boyfriend break up. Which is terrifying because I love him. He knows about the pocd and still supports me. It’s hard to have intrusive sexual thoughts about kids. It gives me immense anxiety and depression. And now after 2 years of torture it’s starting to affect my relationship with my significant other. After 6 months of being with my boyfriend the thought “what if he reminds me of a young person and that’s why I like him?” popped up two days ago. Now I’ve been stressing ever since. I want to be free of this worry in my mind. I just want to feel free in general. I feel so awful everyday. Can anyone relate?

How can you do that with mental compulsions like arguing with yourself in your mind, trying to make it go away etc?

I've been doing with real event ocd for some time now. I get "I don't deserve" thoughts about literally everything and I've had enough. They're still freaking there after so much time, and I've been practicing mindfulness, acceptance and exposure therapy. I'm tired of going through my life every 10 seconds "you don't deserve this" or "you don't deserve that", what's actually going to stop these thoughts. I know whatever you resist persists but common give me a break, there's got to be a better way.

hello! i just wanted to introduce myself. my name is amanda, i'm married, and have 4 cats. i'm unable to work, so my husband takes care of the bills while i take care of our house. it actually works very well for us as i have agoraphobia as well as severe generalized anxiety, social anxiety, panic disorder, and excoriation disorder(skin-picking). i haven't met anyone with my particular disorder (TOCD) so i was hoping to meet someone who could share their experience! some of my tics are making my body 'even' (if someone touches one of my shoulders, i have to touch the other one. blinking to make my face feel even. etc). some other tic-like behaviors i have are always stepping over cracks with my left foot first, as well as stepping onto a new surface with my left foot first. these are only a few of the many tics i deal with along with OCD symptoms. hope everyone is doing well today! take care!

I don't understand agoraphobia and I avoided working with it bc I think it's stupid. Why should I not want to go and live my life? But I'm in the house for days, I can't seem to go to the store or go visit others. It's really a struggle, and its gotten progressively worse. I feel rather desperate. If anyone's done exposures for agoraphobia, what did that look like to you?