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Have you had nights where you didnt sleep completely because of the hocd ? I didnt sleep the whole night yesterday 💔

My husband and I have a sensitive relationship for the last two years and I’m in therapy for my ROCD. Tonight he was out with friends and was going to stay the night. and not texting me back soon enough and I got triggered thinking he was with someone else and wants to leave me. I was crying and screaming to myself. He eventually called and reassured me that he wasn’t with someone else. I’ve never had an episode this intense. Could therapy be making it worse ? And what are some ways to cope so we don’t have to involve our loved ones during episodes

Hello I am a 27 year old male who has battling with very aggressive intrusive thoughts, it is not letting me sleep or not letting me live my everyday life because I feel as if I could hurt myself or someone else, can someone please help me out, ever since I got the flu I haven’t been the same, I was rushed to the emergency room thinking I was going to have a heart attack, they just pumped me with Ativan and gave me a prescription, but I’m also a very heavy drinker at night, and when I drink heavy and wake up the next day, I have uncontrollable thoughts and anxiety all day! Someone please help me!

i had a harm thought at like 10 pm that was like “i have to…” and it really freaked me out and now i can’t stop thinking about it and i cant sleep idk what to do now my brain just keeps repeating it and it’s really scaring me what do i do

I struggle most with harm OCD+real event+false memories. The mental rumination gets exhausting. I constantly beat myself up over past mistakes and will fill in the pieces I don’t remember with the worst case scenario. I self soothe by reminding myself I am not a bad person and my worries are disproportionate to the actual situation due to the fact I struggle with OCD. But I quickly get interrupted with an intrusive thought telling me “it is that bad and you’re pinning it as OCD to down play it and avoid accountability”. Anyone else struggle with this?

I guess this post is just a rummage of thoughts. I have been wondering lately as to why some people respond well to medication and others do not. Im also very curious as to the real reason SSRI's work. Could there possibly be a hormone it works on that hasn't been found yet. Im not buying the seratonin theory. First, Psychiatrist are not doing bloodwork to see peoples seratonin levels before prescribing drugs. 2.) If it just low seratonin why does SSRI's not cure OCD? A lot of people who take SSRI'S only see a mild decrease in symptoms. Even at high dosages.Im interested in the data coming out on GABA. If they can see that the brain behaves abnormal during screenings what is causing so much misfiring. Why do some people develop it as children, while others have an onset later in life? Besides Pandas. More importantly for children who contract it during strep, why does it normalize. Its weird that one bout of strep could permanently damage your brain, especially one that is still forming. I would have thought it would autocorrect. Why are more women diagnosed than men? Like I said just thinking.

By now I ignore any worry I’m able to because I want to be happy. The cost of ignoring the worries is I make bad decisions without thinking and it stresses out me and others around me more. The icing on top of the cake is the worries I actually ignore are important. Has anyone been here?

I hate to admit this but I used to watch a lot of porn. I always had crushes on boys and wanted a boyfriend all my life. And I indentified as heterosexual. I’ve had this theme twice and gotten over when another theme took over. Unfortunately I watched a lot of female porn, and woman to woman porn and now my mind is telling me I’m bisexual. I’m so sick of this cus I don’t wanna be bisexual. I get false attractions all around. Am I suppressing sexuality? I feel so ashamed. Completely stopped watched porn.

So I really need to do some cleaning in my room and the mess is so overwhelming that I'm not sure where to start. Like there's trash and clothes all over the floor, there dishes all over my room. Plus my bed is covered in clothes that I can't tell if there clean or dirty. I've tried cleaning by category ( ex trash, laundry, dishes) and it only helps for a few minutes then I get distracted by another task. So does anyone have any advice on where to get started? At this point I'm open to anything.

Does anyone else struggle with always searching for something to be wrong, especially in good times? When things are good or I get good news I am looking for the next terrible possibility.

I experience OCD in what feels like cycles. I have a couple of good days or weeks and then something out of the blue will trigger a flare up. I’m just wondering if anyone else goes through the same thing or if it’s kind of a constant state for you.

I'm paranoid that I have several things neurologically wrong with me, and my psychiatric NP made me feel so insulted and infantilized this week at our appointment that it triggered an extreme OCD episode that I've been stuck in all week. I'm dumping him, obviously, and I'm trying to get in with a psychiatrist ASAP. My father and I are being more serious than ever about getting me help. It's been an extremely tough week. I feel absolutely insane and psychotic for believing everything my OCD is telling me, but I can't turn it off, and I feel like everything I do to try and help myself is just a mental compulsion. I don't know what to think anymore, and I don't know when this episode will end. I miss feeling like myself. I feel like a completely different person and it's both horrifying and embarrassing.

i keep getting thoughts of molesting/ doing sexual things to people (that i’m close to) and children, every-time this happens I extremely disturbed and have panic attacks bc i’m a horrible person. i’m honestly just contemplating just k*lling myself because i feel like a disgusting p3do who doesn’t deserve anything in life. i’m already diagnosed with anxiety and depression but i’m not sure if this is OCD or not. i hate my self so much- this thoughts won’t stop happening and i never want to do anything like that ever. :/. i’m not sure what to do, i’ve talked to my therapist but none of her methods worked on how to stop these thoughts.

I was in the back seat of the car and my granda was directly in front of me and my little sister was standing up directly in front of me and so she bend over for something and her bottom touched my knee i am absolutely freaking out i feel like my life is over 😣

I had these horrible nightmares that covered the most disturbing of my ocd subtypes and intrusive thoughts. They were so vivid and all disturbing and I just woke up. Thoughts of what if it’s something you want or other what ifs. And I’m so uncomfortable which is an understatement. I don’t even want up get up because I’m so uncomfortable. This is awful

This is a question for more experienced people, and maybe sounds like a no-brainer, but I find that my compulsions happen so fast that I have no time to even think about not doing them. Especially since my intrusive thoughts appear quickly and more so as ideas than actual words, I find myself already in a compulsion (like reassurance, distraction, memory compulsion) before I can do anything else. I’m not sure how to stop them because they seem like such a habit. Any tips for how I can manage this?

SORRY FOR BAD ENGLISH Hello, i’m new to this community, i’m from Brazil, but i speak english, i’m really struggling with what i believe to be POCD, but i’m so scared an feel like i have nobody to share my feelings, it’s really affecting me and people around me, i don’t want to live like this anymore, but at the same time i feel hopeless. I’m on medication (Fluexovamine) for 15 days, it has helped me, but i still have many stuggles. If anyone is willing to talk to me or feel like i do, please contact me. i really really want help and try to live a normal life.

This is the one thing I haven't told my family about and I don't know how to break it to them. I've been addicted to sex and pornography since I was a pre teen. It was when high school started that it interfered with my life. To this day it's all a problem. Intrusive thoughts about videos I've watched, intrusive thoughts about sexual acts that are regrettable and disgusting, and constantly worrying that I'm going to slip into my old habits, which one way or another is just me delaying the inevitable. In adulthood, it's been affecting me in different ways that haven't happened in my teen years. If I relapse to it late at night, I won't be able to sleep right for at most 2 days. Insomnia has been a reoccurring problem no thanks to this, stress, and OCD. I think it's also affected my fertility greatly. I'm still working on seeing a doctor about all of my health concerns. Truthfully I just want this to stop. I don't want to deal with this anymore. I don't want to keep watching out for triggers, have intrusive thoughts about anything sexual, or remember very unfortunate things I've seen in the past. There's a woman that I really do like genuinely for who she is. She's been on my mind for a long time now and I really do wish to get to know her more, but this awful addiction that I've been dealing with for almost a year now holds me back. This was never something I liked having in my life. Even as a teenager, I knew something was wrong. I had a hunch that this wasn't something that I should be okay. Through all the hijacked dopamine and changes in my mind, that was always on the other end of the spectrum for me.

ERP has been crazy helpful recently, and I'm making a lot of progress. But now that I've mostly dealt with my main theme, I feel like my OCD is trying to pick at every little thing day to day. Does anyone have any advice for dealing with this?

Hey everyone so after having intrusive thoughts for about a year now my theme is changing to images. Does anyone else have super vivid intrusive images that are almost like experiencing a movie just in your head? Like I’ll be sitting in my bosses office and start thinking about snakes and then my mind is creating this whole movie. It’s not happening in reality it’s all in my head but it’s still scary af. Any tips on how to deal with the intrusive images?