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I don't know what to do. I'm stuck wishing I didn't do all of the things I did related to my addiction and I just feel awful about myself

Has anyone experienced weight gain while on lexapro? I was on it for many years with no weight changes, but recently gained weight without changing my diet or exercise and I’m wondering if lexapro could be contributing. Thanks!

I pretty much have my ocd under control with random anxiety here and there. My husband and I want to get pregnant and I’m nervous my ocd will worsen. Did anyone’s not? Can I still be a good mom?

I have my first appointment next Monday and I’m basically just trying to bide my time til then. I’ve struggled with OCD for my whole life, but I’m 42 and am in a deep valley at the moment. I’m headstand to share my struggles on places like this because I’m afraid I’ll pass my fears on to others. (Which has happened to me before). Any comments about how quickly ERP will start to show results?

My ocd feels like my brain is convinced I am something that I don’t want to be, or never wanted to be. Even to the point it’s convincing that I like it, or want it, and I’m in denial for not accepting it. Since my first big theme (10 years ago) it feels like I’ve never been myself since. It feels like I’m unable to feel pleasure, excitement, drive for life. Either I’ve lost the ability or my brain says you have to figure this out before you can. It feels like a constant anxiety feeling in my stomach or back of my mind. It goes from mildly noticeable to full blown panic, but never fully leaves. It feels inevitable that it comes in the morning. Anyone else?

Hi, im currently using this as a survey for a school project! I would really appreciate it if you could comment your answer.. anyways heres the question: Is OCD as recognized and respected as anxiety and depression? Why?

Having a panic attack and can’t calm down. Please help.

I'm the middle child of 3 siblings. My older sibling is getting married this year, and my younger sibling is working to get into nursing school. And then there's me. The one with the Problems. I feel like my parents deserve a better middle daughter than me. I feel like such a disappointment that they have to put up with me and my constant crying. I hate feeling like I kill the good mood/transfer my bad feelings to them. No matter how many times they comfort me, no matter how much they support me and accept me, I still feel like an annoyance and a burden on them. I feel like a f^cking baby because of my mental health problems. I'm normally unstoppable, and have my own unique strengths and abilities, but THIS is what stops me. Anyone else feel like you're just a dumb, dependent child because of your OCD?

Not good today! I’ve been struggling with the thoughts again after having a little bit where I was managing. Just saw an advert of a woman putting on lipstick and it really triggered me looking at her lips like I felt a rush in my body and aroused and then a thought like being with a woman it what you really want….that’s why you’ve not been happy with your ex and why you have lost the attraction to men and find dating scary 🙈🙈I hate this! It was like a rush of excitement but made me feel so panicky and sick cause I don’t want that! I want to be with a man and have more kids! I’ve always wanted romance with a man! Sex now scares me cause of all the anxiety like it’s telling me I enjoy sex with a woman more but that’s not what I want! I used to like sex with men but I’ve always been more of a romantic than a sexual person HELP 😫

im just questioning my ocd and myself as per usual. i just wish i could taste life again. i think i forgot who i am and how to live. every time i have a moment of peace, it's destroyed by remembering my ocd. "this is not normal, why am i feeling okay? what if it's bad? what if-?" or some shit like that. i dont like this and i dunno what to do about it anymore. oh well.

Hii! I hesitated before posting this but here I am.. Ocd are a living hell rn to me. I barely eat or sleep anymore because of it, I’m just scared of everything, ruminations are here every night leading to panic attacks, sh, psychosis,.. it’s like « what if I’m/or do something bad, what if I did something wrong and I don’t remember,.. I store my studies because of all of this..I can’t do this anymore I’m so tired of compulsions and everything I have more ocd but rn it’s the most debilitating for me, if someone have experienced the same things or just have tips I take it!

I feel like I’m at a point that I’ve had the thoughts so long that now this just can’t be OCD. It feels like I’m losing touch with reality. And I’ll get one thought and then another one comes and it gets so confusing. I will feel better for a split second but then I will feel like I’m just getting worse in the next second. I don’t even know how to explain it. I am terrified and I want this to go away. The feeling of just being out of it or not all here is killing me. Even writing this feels odd. I’m so scared I’m losing touch with reality. I don’t know what to do.

I was doing okay, but reading someone’s post really triggered me because they were talking about how they wanted to end their life. It scared me and I’ve just been anxious about it. Would this count as an ERP exercise I guess since it is exposing myself to the problem? They were saying how they don’t want to deal with their OCD and then it made me go like is that how I am feeling but i love my life i love my friend’s and family and I am having trouble trying to figure out how to not ruminate and just sitting with the anxiety of it. Any tips please?

I don’t know what to do. So, a little backstory, I’ve been with my boyfriend for about two months now, and only have known him for three months. The other day we went out to celebrate our two months at Olive Garden which, if you don’t know, is more on the fancier side, it’s not like McDonald’s or a fast food restaurant it’s a sit down restaurant. We get to the end of our meal and I come to find out that he does not tip which to me is strange. My family always does especially at sit down restaurant. so I asked him why and he said it’s because he don’t have a lot of money. Keep in mind I was paying half of this bill because he bought lunch for us so I paid for some of this meal. so we has a little argument about it and we got in the car. I didn’t really talk to him so we went and went to the beach and listen to the waves, and had a discussion about it. Last night some of my family and I went out to dinner we were towards the end of our meal and it came part for tipping. My mom ended up paying the bill and we all paid our portion. So I decided to bring up the fact that my boyfriend doesn’t tip and explained what happened. They told me that there was a lot of red flags and that situation but this is the first argument he and I had. My family is very I don’t know how to explain it, but they are very picky on people. Because he doesn’t tip my family doesn’t like him for example, or because he lives so far away. My family doesn’t really like him, but the fact he comes down and sees me is a good part. Obviously every relationship has their ups and downs, but this has been our biggest argument that we’ve had. My family comments were do you not see all these red flags and everything but it’s one argument and I really don’t know how to feel about it and I am very family oriented but I really do love my boyfriend, so any thoughts or opinions?

i’m so caught up in figuring out my obsessions because i don’t want them to come true. i have been obsessing over the devil and whether or not he can possess or control me and it won’t go away. i don’t know what to do. i’m so tired all the time and i don’t feel like myself anymore. i can’t keep up with my schoolwork and can barely take care of myself. i’m also in college so it’s hard being on my own.

So my family believes I’m this awful human being because of past mistakes which is very unhelpful but also I understand most times I too believe I’m an awful person so I’m in this struggle of how do I resolve this do I just not do I just sit here and let others talk negatively about me or what do I do I’m so over it. I get such mixed emotions about my family cause one moment it’s like there with me and want me to get better then the next it’s like they look at me in absolute disgust and hate I just am exhausted I don’t know what to do.

How do you battle your reassurance seeking? I think I’m driving people crazy with all my questions, constant bothering, and phone calls. I just can’t stop asking “how do you know?”, “are you sure?”, and “what if”. It’s like it just comes out without thinking about it because I HAVE to ask the question. It’s constantly burning on the tip of my tongue waiting to be asked.

Can anyone share any success stories from doing ERP therapy and anything else that may have helped you? I understand now that I've probably had OCD most of my life, but getting started and seeing the light at the end of the tunnel are two completely different things. I really want to recover from this. Mine stems mostly from real events, but I have other themes as well.

Is anyone going through something like me ? I have false memory intrusive thoughts , thinking of the possibility of having committed a crime and no remember about it And also have religious ocd thinking that God is angry at me for some reason , and that's why I'm not able to pray, like i used to... I'm so sad because he is so important to me and I would feel such big connection to the Lord when I would pray, and right now I'm afraid ...

Does anyone have any tips for controlling perfection impulses while folding laundry? Whether it be my husband and I's laundry or my kids' laundry It literally take me 45 minutes just to fold one hamper of clothes because I will stand there and adjust or refold. Everything has to be folded a specific way the same way or I lose my mind if I don't refold it. Everything has to be sorted into category. I just can't stop myself because I know if I don't do it I'll obsess over it until I do something about it. I saw a tip that said to just hold my hand out so I can't see it or something but that doesn't work for me.