Hi everyone, does anyone struggle with relationship OCD? I have substantial trouble with ROCD, It has been present in my life for as long as I've been in relationships, and the pain that comes with this OCD is unreal sometimes. I have left every past relationship I had been in just to relieve the unbearable anxiety and suffering I was in 24/7, up until meeting my current partner 1 1/2 years ago, I have just learned within the week about OCD, and more specifically ROCD. For the last 6~ years, I thought I was just broken-like something was just wrong with me, like I was just wired this way, and that I was just unfixable. No diagnosis/disorder I have been diagnosed with has ever made sense/explained any symptom I had with me; like OCD. This disorder just clicks in my head and checks every box I have ever been searching for, for the last 6 years. I made peace with myself that I was just made this way. Going out in public with my S/O, going to friends houses with her, staying at her house and having people come in her room with us; all made my anxiety so unbearable, I was so uncomfortable, I felt like I was in survival mode, like I was in grave danger. I feel this crazy jealousy with anyone she spends time with besides me, anything that I couldn't predict/control, drove me insane, I would lose sleep over those thoughts, that I would lose her, that she could be laughing with someone else, they'd never ever leave my head, the sense of danger never left me, unless I left that partner, then and only then, would my anxiety go away. I would start to feel safe, but so lonely. The uncertainty that is a relationship would quite literally drive me to the brink of insanity, but would break my heart in the process, because I have simply felt unlovable for as long as I have been searching for it.