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I'm going to my fifth session tomorrow just curious how long u guys have been it n if want to tell ur journey with erp

i feel oddly calm with the thoughts, though they still stress me out a bit but a lot less. i almost feel too comfortable. i also feel doomed, like even if i recover i will be someone i don’t wanna be.. like it’s becoming more than ocd

Hey all, just looking for some words of encouragement. I’ve been doing well with my OCD but I’ve had a trigger last weekend and have been sinking ever since. I had an awful night with almost no sleep and that’s just making me more anxious. I have a huge work thing next that I have no idea how I cope with without improving which as I’m sure you can imagine is adding to the pressure too. Thanks for reading, I’m sorry others are struggling with this it’s awful but it does help to know I’m not the only one.

Hey guys, I think/hope that this is just ocd and not me but I can’t differentiate. I m dealing with uncertainty „am I a lesbian ?“ since 3 years and it comes with so many anxiety. I have to say that I like lesb cOrN and exactly this stresses me out !!! I ve been dating men for my whole life and one day the thought comes up that I could be lesbian. It comes and goes month to month. When I m in this „episode“ where I m questioning my sexuality i m googling the whole day if this thought could be true. Also I m checking my feelings by visualising myself with a women and it causes so much anxiety. I just don’t know what to do I try to meditate or to calm down but I can’t go on without having this answer :/ Also I m so anxious to „heal“ myself because then the truth will came out ( my brain says it to me). When I m with men I get aroused and everything works but then my brain says to me that it is just because of the fact of having sex yk? Like it tries to convince me that I m a lesbian… Last month I believed in this and outed myself as Bi in front of my friends although I m not really sure that I m into women. I ve never dated a women or felt any kind of attraction that I felt to men, but what if I m just trying to suppress the attraction to them ? Is anyone dealing with the same shit ? Tik tok triggers me everytime that’s why I deleted this app because everyday I get these videos about people coming out as gay after their relationship.

I am feeling really triggered right now. My mind is going crazy with thoughts and urges to figure things out. Wondering if anyone has any ideas that will help me get out of my head.

My sweet sweet dog passed away today and I’ve noticed my OCD has been through the roof. Actually my husband noticed- he said what I’m doing is OCD related. I have felt the need to remember every moment with her in her last days with extreme clarity. (Which is something my OCD has fixated on) I am fixated on all the ways I messed up in the 10 years I had with her. I guess what I’m asking is- is this normal with fried and having OCD? I feel so lost.

I haven’t posted here in a while. I’ve been in ERP therapy and it’s been slow but I feel better, even though it’s only been a few months. The problem is, we’re starting slow because my trigger is sharp objects, and I think I made a mistake. The guy i’m seeing is at work and asked me to prep dinner by cutting the chicken and I thought even though i haven’t used a sharp object to cut meat in MONTHS, I thought I maybe could do it. Well, I cut the chicken and it was extremely thick, and made me have the worst intrusive thoughts. Did I mess up? I’m kind of freaking out. Did I get satisfaction from cutting into a thick meat? I’m scared

I need some advice because this is bothering me. So I've done some gender exploration lately and basically realized I'm a male-leaning nonbinary (born a girl). OCD is making it hard for me because it makes me anxious that my family is gonna abandon me for being trans. I honestly don't even like calling myself trans or referring to myself as a boy because it makes me anxious and it's made it hard to accept those parts of myself and im not even 100% sure im a full boy or just boy-adjacent nonbinary. Honestly my OCD makes me too anxious to think about it. I'm also struggling with feeling like I need to compulsively come out even though I'm not ready/dont want to and that their love for me isn't real because they don't know about my gender. I mean they know I use they/them but nobody in my family uses it for me anyway and I didn't tell them I'm nonbinary. Ironically I'm like feminine regardless so my presentation isn't really gonna change much outside of binding but lmao 😭 I don't even think it would bother me that much to stay closeted, but my OCD still fills me with anxiety. I dont know what to do and im kind of freaking out and my OCD is telling me to come out or accept that my family doesnt really love me because they dont know 'the real me'.

Someone that can chat? I feel bad.

Im getting scared about this situation... For context. I was on an NSFW discord server. There was optional age verification but i would only message women who were verified. I messaged this girl whose DM's were open... we talked before she asked me my age first. I said I was 20 (which was true) to which she immediately responded that she was 18. We talked about why we were on the NSFW discord server and had playful banter. I then asked her when she was born because I wanted to make sure she was consistent with her age. She misunderstood the question at first and said she was born in Colombia. I then asked her for the date she was born on. At 5 AM when I was asleep, she said "13😭", before reaffirming her age as 18 approximately 8 minutes after... does this indicate if she was lying about her age...?

I’m 23M and looking back at some past choices that concern me. I was a huge porn addict and just now started to realize how harmful it is to the brain. I don’t know if I have POCD or in denial. I’ve lost sleep, been late to work, been lacking in my health and responsibilities for almost 2 months. Feel like I don’t deserve to be around my best friends. Feel like I have to admit to someone. It’s the first thing I think about waking up and the last thing I think about going to sleep. My therapist tells me that I’m okay but I kinda don’t believe him. I feel like I’m not giving him all the information or that he doesn’t understand. He didn’t even knew what POCD was. After 4 sessions I didn’t really feel like it was working out so now I’m switching to someone hear. There’s a lot of details that I’m not including but only because I’m just scared. I feel like I have had something inside myself that I didn’t even know I was capable of and now it bothers me.

Hello! While I'm not a doctor, I've lived with OCD for 15 years and have explored many techniques to manage it. Through trial and error, I've discovered strategies that truly work. I'm eager to share this advice, hoping it can ease your struggle, especially in the early stages of treatment. Incorporating these tips can lead to immediate improvements in managing OCD. Remember, you're not alone in this journey. There's a supportive community ready to help, and with the right approach, fear and panic become manageable. OCD is treatable, and it's possible to reclaim your happiness and freedom. My OCD Management Recommendations Based on 15 Years of Experience 1. Seek Professional Help - It is a game-changer, trust me. Professional guidance can provide tailored strategies and support that are crucial for managing OCD effectively. 2. Sleep Well - Quality sleep is foundational for mental health. It helps in managing stress and improving overall well-being. 3. Eat Clean - A balanced diet can significantly affect your mental and physical health. Nutritious foods support brain function and emotional balance. 4. Exercise - Regular physical activity is beneficial for both body and mind. It helps in reducing anxiety and improving mood. 5. Engage Your Brain - Activities like reading books, playing chess, watching quality TV shows and movies, solving crosswords, and puzzles keep your mind engaged and can offer relief from obsessive thoughts. 6. Relax - Incorporate relaxation techniques into your routine. Visit wellness spas, get massages, and meditate. 7. Quit Caffeine - Completely eliminate caffeine from your diet. It can exacerbate anxiety and OCD symptoms, so avoiding it can lead to significant improvements in your mental health. 8. Let Go and Go with Life's Flow - These are just thoughts and emotions. They always come and go. Don't resist them. Don't do anything to push them away. Don't play the OCD game. Don't engage in OCD games in any way. Just simply let them be and let them pass. These are just thoughts and emotions. They always go away. They always pass. 9. Notice that OCD thoughts are synthetic thoughts. They are not your natural, real, or pure thoughts. These thoughts are synthetic, so don't engage with them, don't play this game, don't do anything for them. Just simply acknowledge them, don't do anything, just let them be and let them pass. No matter how you feel, just do your stuff and don't do anything about synthetic thoughts. This is how you will train your body and mind that you're not afraid of it, you can function with it, and OCD will simply lose its power.

I have noticed users posting multiple times everyday, daily, for weeks now. Every time someone does NOT provide reassurance in their comment sections, they try posting again until, eventually, someone comments reassurance. This is not a healthy method to solve your OCD and is rather a constant feedback loop that will never combat OCD at its source! This app can be a temptation and CAN worsen our OCD. I know this, I’ve experienced it. Just like any other tool, it can do both good and bad. Hopefully this doesn’t sound incriminating because it’s more so me expressing genuine concern for some of you all.. ****TRIGGER WARNING AHEAD*** I’ve seen some of these situations escalate in terrifying ways. One user used s*lf-h*rm as leverage to guilt trip another user into giving them reassurance. Another user got upset when others didn’t give the right responses and called them horrible names. Guys, this is NOT how this app should be used. Please, if you find yourself desperate for reassurance multiple times a day, PLEASE leave this app! The app is NOT helping. For the ones who escalated, this app is making you desperate in ways that are harmful to both yourself and others!!!! We want the best for you, but if you find yourself unable to listen to our advice, PLEASE reconsider how this app may be helping (or not helping) you heal. Best wishes, everyone. Sending love to everyone here!!!

Does anybody else’s intrusive thoughts come in the form of “delusional thoughts”? I’ve been in a terrible episode of hypochondria or ocd for the past 6 months where I have FULLY convinced myself I am developing schizophrenia, it started with becoming really easily overstimulated and not being able to concentrate and now it has spiraled out of control to where I am constantly getting intrusive thoughts center around demonic stuff, which i have never ever believed before, I have always been a skeptic. But now i get these thoughts all the time like “what if this song has hidden demonic meanings?” “What if your wife is a demon” “what if nobody is real and your just in hell” “what if this political figure is being controlled by the devil”, the typical kind of delusional thoughts you would expect from a schizophrenic. Keep in mind I am a literal atheist and all about facts, science and evidence, I am a skeptic. Not only does the fact that I’m even having these thoughts in the first place scare the life out of me, but I have to constantly battle with these thoughts in my head if I believe them or not. I feel like I have to constantly hold myself back from fully going off the deep end, I feel like I have to constantly disprove these thoughts and stop myself from believing them, but they feel so real and it’s scaring me so much. One part of me is like “why can’t we just stop worrying about this, this is delusional” and another part of me is like “what if I actually do need to worry about if these things are true or not, they FEEL true” and I’m just like “wtffff I shouldn’t have to worry about if things like this are true at all in the first Place!” I feel like I have fully lost my mind, and in no time I’m going to lose this little bit of insight I have. I hate these thoughts so much, I don’t want to think about them, but now that they are here, I feel like I can’t forget them. My dpdr is already making everything feel so off and weird and unreal and I feel like it’s only giving these thoughts more credibility and realness. I feel like this could also be partly a terrible form of existential ocd that’s being thrown into the mix with all these “what if thoughts”. Ugh I just want to be normal again ): but I don’t even know what normal feels like anymore because I’m constantly on the lookout for symptoms that I can’t even be normal anymore. Btw: yes I am seeing 2 therapists and a psychiatrist and all of them do not believe I am developing schizophrenia.

Does anyone also get intrusive Thoughts that are targeted to one person. I’m having intrusive thoughts of harming my mom. I definitely don’t want to but the thought kind of just sits in my head all day. Any tips?

My pocd and false memory ocd have been going wild, and now two people have triggered me today... i already want this day to be over...

I live in Massachusetts so I have Mass Health NOCD does not take my insurance. So my question is should I take a loan to pay for treatment?

Does anybody else’s intrusive thoughts come in the form of “delusional thoughts”? I’ve been in a terrible episode of hypochondria or ocd for the past 6 months where I have FULLY convinced myself I am developing schizophrenia, it started with becoming really easily overstimulated and not being able to concentrate and now it has spiraled out of control to where I am constantly getting intrusive thoughts center around demonic stuff, which i have never ever believed before, I have always been a skeptic. But now i get these thoughts all the time like “what if this song has hidden demonic meanings?” “What if your wife is a demon” “what if nobody is real and your just in hell” “what if this political figure is being controlled by the devil”, the typical kind of delusional thoughts you would expect from a schizophrenic. Keep in mind I am a literal atheist and all about facts, science and evidence, I am a skeptic. Not only does the fact that I’m even having these thoughts in the first place scare the life out of me, but I have to constantly battle with these thoughts in my head if I believe them or not. I feel like I have to constantly hold myself back from fully going off the deep end, I feel like I have to constantly disprove these thoughts and stop myself from believing them, but they feel so real and it’s scaring me so much. One part of me is like “why can’t we just stop worrying about this, this is delusional” and another part of me is like “what if I actually do need to worry about if these things are true or not, they FEEL true” and I’m just like “wtffff I shouldn’t have to worry about if things like this are true at all in the first Place!” I feel like I have fully lost my mind, and in no time I’m going to lose this little bit of insight I have. I hate these thoughts so much, I don’t want to think about them, but now that they are here, I feel like I can’t forget them. My dpdr is already making everything feel so off and weird and unreal and I feel like it’s only giving these thoughts more credibility and realness. I feel like this could also be partly a terrible form of existential ocd that’s being thrown into the mix with all these “what if thoughts”. Ugh I just want to be normal again ): but I don’t even know what normal feels like anymore because I’m constantly on the lookout for symptoms that I can’t even be normal anymore. Btw: yes I am seeing 2 therapists and a psychiatrist and all of them do not believe I am developing schizophrenia.

Has anyone recently gotten married and was able to cope with their OCD through their engagement and actual wedding weekend? I’ve been doing great and just want to make sure I can handle the stress over the next few months and not ruin the weekend I’ve looked forward to for over a year. I feel some recent intrusive thoughts coming through that are “I am” statements which are new for me. Any tips or tricks would be appreciated.

Hi everyone. I have been experiencing harm intrusive thoughts for 2 months now. I believe it started for me when I had a bad experience with a delta 9 gummy. I am looking this up everyday trying to find reassurance and an answer to all of this. I hate that my thoughts make me question what kind of person I am and if I’m actually capable of this. I’m so scared I will lose it for even a second and do these things. I align with being a gentle, kind, caring person but this makes me feel like I’m capable of anything. I desperately want my old life back. I want to be able to sit on the couch with my partner, eat junk food, watch our fave shows together, and not worry about harm. I hope this will disappear soon.