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I am struggling a lot with my Perfectionism OCD and my Somatic OCD recently. I constantly find myself having to do things over and over again. Earlier this week, there was a dangerous spider that I had to kill but it felt like I didn’t kill it “correctly” and it’s been stopping me from being able to sleep for quite some time but I feel like an idiot whenever I tell someone who doesn’t have Perfectionism OCD “I killed a spider incorrectly.” As far as Somatic OCD goes, it’s not as bad, but I’ve been taking like 7 naps every day because I can’t stop thinking about when I’m going to next blink. I’m a relatively new person to OCD and I just feel like it won’t get better?

I have this memory of playing with my childhood friend like lifting him up in the air putting him back down just playing. And my brain is taking that memory and saying I had sex with him or I humped him or something like that. It makes me sick to my stomach to think I had sex or raped a little boy. I’m scared. Please give me some advice

NSFW hard to have “alone time”… thought always pop up towards the end or just at any time throughout. whenever sometimes doesn’t get me to climax as fast my intrusive thoughts just come in “oh it’s because u like kids, and whatever ur watching isn’t enough” or whenever im watching sometimes my brain tells me oh what if that’s a kid? it’s so annoying sorry if this is weird and tmi.

whenever i have harm ocd thoughts abt hurting my cat, normally i get really scared and i used to avoid being close to him or near him when those thoughts were there, but recently as ive been trying to work through them i find that im not scared. not only that though, whenever i have my hands near any places where my mind is telling me i could take advantage of, seeing that my cat is still happy and not afraid, reassures me that i havent ever acted in any way similar to what i think.. i find it comforting but i feel like its disgusting and fucked up of me to continue interacting with my cat and to be in any position where i could hurt him if those thoughts are there it feels like i enjoy the thoughts.. but i definitely dont! i just enjoy being able to still love him 😞 is this weird? i feel even worse for being concerned abt it

As the title suggests, my OCD acts up whenever bodily fluids are involved, including my own. 😅 It has caused me difficulties in my relationship. My partner is perfectly content with the pace we are at regarding intimacy and is incredibly patient with me; however, I can react at even the slightest idea of getting “contaminated” with, say, my partner’s fluids. ☹️ Early in our relationship, even when we were hugging fully clothed, I worried about contamination (and also magically “getting pregnant”☠️) because our bodies were touching at the crotch area. I’m doing better now, but I’ve been unable to engage in certain acts because of it. My partner is not asking for anything—in fact, he is perfectly content waiting until marriage! I’m more so asking for my sake. I just know that when the time DOES arrive that we both want to get more intimate—even if that means just removing more clothing,—I know I will be terrified of getting contaminated. Today, for example, while kissing, I accidentally bit his lip and tasted blood. INSTANTLY the mood was destroyed and I couldn’t function properly. I felt so much guilt for being this disturbed because it’s my PARTNER, of all people, but I began worrying about STDs. Does anyone have any tips? My OCD mainly fixates on pregnancy and STDs here.

Does anyone ever get or even force yourself to think an intrusive thought to test your response and then think that didn’t make me anxious enough therefore…. I like the thought or I could end up doing the thought

Do you ever process through ocd snd then months later the same issue comes back to haunt you and its like rumination all over again? Please advise. Do i just reuse the tools from the last time or do i try additional new tools

Please advise for the TMI. I had a pornography addiction I overcame. It was tough especially having ocd every person or video I saw my ocd would compare that individual to someone I knew and would say im arousing over them. There was a particular video where there was an older woman and mid twenties woman snd the title was mother and daughter. At the time i was imagining a friend of mine who is older and has a daughter. So my ocd said that means i was thinking of her daughter too because of the title which gives me anxiety because i dont want to. But the title is what my ocd is obssessing over and says i was thinking of her younger daughter. So now i avoid my friend and her family. And i doubt what i was thinking of the daughter but i know my intent was to think of my friend. This was last year but the ocd stll comes bck to haunt me. I begin to doubt my intentions.

I just got diagnosed today and am feeling unsure about it, like I fed my therapist information to incline her to diagnose me. Everything I said was true, but somehow I feel like I’m misrepresenting myself. Life is not debilitating and I don’t ever have panic attacks or major breakdowns, so what if I’m just a little neurotic and do not have OCD? I felt like I was self-reporting and in my mind it would only be legit if I accidentally divulged my symptoms instead of reading off the list I made. I felt like I was trying to manipulate her into believing me.

First off, I haven't started therapy yet but last my ocd was around the beginning of 2022 and so what did I was I used internet free resources to equip myself and did little bit of erp on my own and usually sitting with my thoughts and abundance of acceptance without any therapist but now I'm worried that it might come back as I feel that it's long overdue given I didn't do proper treatment with a professional. Either way the aim is to start therapy in 2-3 months

So I have some false memories or at least exaggerated and distorted memories. If they are true or correct it’s horrifying for what this means about me. My mind can get so dark. I really need some encouragement to not seek answers and to stop ruminating. I know I can’t recall the past, but I’m genuinely surprised by how bad my memory is. Can someone please give me some words of encouragement to stay focused and sit with the unknown?

Recently I posted on here about talking with a guy and exchanging information. After we briefly talked, I didn’t feel comfortable to keep talking to him so I blocked him. I just didn’t feel safe, not really knowing who this person was. Or at least I thought so. After the fact, I looked up his number and was able to track down his LinkedIn and Facebook page. He seemed legit. Well, I didn’t know that LinkedIn actually tracked your profile views and he must’ve realized I looked at his page. Late last night, he added me on snap. I didn’t add him back, and he hasn’t contacted me on any other social media. But now I’m worried and obsessing over this situation. Should I just let it go or address it?

it feels like i actually want to harm my family when i really don’t. i haven’t been getting that much anxiety anymore and now it feels like it’s my real thoughts. i don’t want to hurt them in anyway i love them so much, i’m so scared.

Does anyone else make themselves feel physically sick when they’re anxious? It’s like I’m making myself sick with reoccurring thoughts of worry. If you do, how do you make yourself feel better in those moments..?

It was suggested to me to try prozac to help with my GAD so I can better fight the ocd. Anyone have experience with that medicine? I used to be on Paxil (made me very tired) and Buspar (made me dizzy)

I have been in a serious relationship with my girlfriend for a little over a year now, and for the first six months I loved the way she looked and never questioned my attraction for her. She is currently over seas studying abroad and the distance has really flared up my ROCD. I catch myself noticing EVERY FLAW about her appearance and comparing them to others strengths. I still find myself attracted to her especially when I see a pretty picture of her, but the not so flattering photos of her seriously make me contemplate breaking up with her to find someone more “attractive”. It seriously tears me apart as I can’t help but know her flaws will always be there and will only become more prominent with age. She always tells me how handsome I am and I can’t say she’s beautiful anymore without hesitation and the ROCD talking in the back of my head. I love her so much and can’t imagine being with someone else, which is why it is so upsetting. I just want to love ALL OF HER including her flaws as she does for me. Can anyone relate? If so, have you been able to get over it?

Last week, I had a really bad OCD spiral, where I was convinced that I was in fact paranoid and going "crazy". I ended up going to the ER, and they confirmed that it was in fact my OCD and prescribed me meds. I met with a few psychiatrists and they also confirmed that I have OCD. I started therapy with NOCD on Tuesday, and had a great session, and felt great! And yesterday, I was doing pretty good, where I was able to go into the office, and have a normal work day. I still had those intrusive thoughts regarding paranoia but didn't cause me distress and kind of just pushed them away with ease. This morning, I started having some bad intrusive thoughts where I see myself trying to fight the negative thoughts in my head. These intrusive thoughts sometimes feels like its another person in my head. I've had these experiences before, and I tell myself that these are just my thoughts, and not anybody else's, and I am afraid that I am believing that there is some kinda entity in me trying to convince me that these intrusive thoughts are true. Coming from a very religious background, it makes it even harder for me to push these thoughts away because people in church will tell you that it is an evil spirit causing this distress. I know that this doesn't make sense from a rational perspective, but it makes me always question that it might be true. I find myself trying to tell this "entity" or spirit that it doesn't belong in my brain, which makes me feel like I might have a more severe mental illness.

i have a partner but almost every time i see a guy i have tingles or other body reactions or i think would i be with them? i also have thoughts about people from my past that i’ve been sexual with and some of the thoughts are sexual and flashbacks. this is causing a lot of problems for me and my partner i don’t know what to do. my partner gets insecure. i think about things like is this person better than my partner? did they satisfy me better? i compare and compare and i also have this thing where i confess and i’ve asked my partner if i should stop confessing even though i would probably feel guilty if i didn’t but they don’t want me to stop confessing or speaking how i think. i feel like i struggle with guilt aswell because i feel guilty for almost everything i do, sometimes things the normal person wouldn’t even think much about.

Does anyone have any book recommendations for ocd? Is there any helpful specific ocd books out there or just any that help with ocd or helped you? Please share 💕 Someone on here has told me a book that helped so it gave me the idea to post this to get people to share more recommendations I love reading different types of books as it is like fiction as it helps me escape my thoughts sometimes and I’ve read self help books that have helped in the past so any ideas I would be grateful for 💕

I definitely have an infection on my hand due to washing my hands so much they dried out and opened.. and now two of them on my hand are pretty painful, no pus they look like the want to heal but can’t, they’re reddish/purple though.. I just went to the hospital the day before yesterday for something different but now I feel like I have to worry about this too.. I’m trying really hard to fight my compulsion but when I do touch something dirty I have to wash my hands.. idk.. will Neosporin fight infection in my hand? It’s not necessarily growing but I don’t know if it can kill the infection either.. pls would like some advice.