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Has anyone successfully conquered this type of ocd, if anyone does I really need to talk to someone and ask a few questions❤️

Hello! I'm not quite sure if this "symptom" is part of OCD, but I'm curious. Does anyone have an absolute need for a routine? I usually create a bullet point list (sometimes with times) either on my phone or on a sheet of paper. It feels like I'm a bit rigid at times as well. Not a huge fan of events or things happening that would disrupt my routine or list. I'm fairly new to understanding my OCD diagnosis, so I would love to hear other opinions! Thank you.

Hi all, this technically isn’t OCD related although I believe my OCD and hyper fixation on it is making it worse. I just know this community has been supportive in the past. I was able to get past my harm thoughts and urges OCD which made life hell a year and a half ago. I thought that was impossible, but I did it and feel like that is behind me. Although thoughts still come into my mind, I manage so much better. Recently, after a painful ear irrigation to clean ear wax I got stuck because I had a bad habit of sticking my finger in there to clean it out. Ever since then, I’ve had a feeling of fullness in that ear and now tinnitus which has just gotten worse and is in the other ear now. Multiple tones, like 8 or so. I’m also getting noise distortions and can’t mask my tinnitus very well because it seems to get louder with a lot of other noises. My life feels like a living hell, I miss my old hearing and the worst part of this is that I feel like it’s all my fault. Maybe that’s my OCD wanting to go back in time and not completely ruin my life. I don’t know how to go forward, and it doesn’t seem to get better, only worse. Feeling suicidal. By comparison, OCD felt easy. Thoughts I realized are controllable. This can’t be controlled though and I hate it. I don’t see a way out of this at this point unless I start seeing improvements. Any support helps.

I have a mix between harm ocd and religious ocd. It sucks so bad I miss the Christian I was. Sometimes the intrusive thoughts will sound like instruction from god to do harm. I know it’s a load of crap but when it happens it can be distressing. I hate that it latches on to the things we love the most. If any of you have experienced this or have your own complex mixes I feel for you ❤️‍🩹 hang in there.

I’m not 100% sure that I have OCD, but I do have PTSD and some new intrusive thoughts were triggered a couple weeks ago. It feels like they have changed my whole perception of my life since then. Every experience that should be fun or relaxing is tainted with the horrible dread I feel when these thoughts creep in. I was really enjoying my life for a while before these new thoughts started and it feels like I have lost contact with that version of myself and my life. I’m afraid of these thoughts tainting things that I want to stay good and pure. I’m just feeling really lost about how to soothe myself and dig out of this

There’s some days where I literally feel so alone. I can’t handle this anxiety and shame anymore

Does anyone have any mild auditory hallucinations with their OCD? I have OCD and anxiety with psychotic features.

My intrusive harm thoughts and urges are making me experience the most horrific panic attacks and anxiety i've ever had. I could feel my heart beating erratically and I was sweating like I ran a marathon and felt like I was about to do something horrible. This is no living, this feels like hell and I just don't understand why I was chosen to have this disorder. I'm still shaky from the fear. It's so scary that these feelings just get stronger & stronger everyday no matter what I do!!😭 Can anyone relate?

Had a new type of OCD though today which startled me and out of nowhere. “You can’t handle it.” You will eventually lose control no matter what you try and do.” Anyone else have this? And tips on how to fight back so it isn’t as strong next time?

I’m in the process of being evaluated by a psychiatrist for ADHD, but I feel like my distress has gotten worse. I don’t feel like my memory recall has kept up with work and school, friends, and family and in the beginning I thought it was due to being an inattentive adhd person. But more recently It been having thoughts of hurting myself and others as well as suicide. Even though I don’t want to die, I just want this to change. I feel helpless and so so tired. I’m constantly worried about being wrong in some fundamental way and I’m worried my friends and family will reject me even though we have good relationships to each other.

Any thoughts on Meta OCD? Is that real?

Can it take a week to a month?

I’ve been struggling a lot lately with health anxiety and obsessing over every little thing thinking I have something wrong with me. I’ve been googling symptoms and now I’m scared I have cancer, a brain tumor, or brain aneurysm. How do I stop doing this to myself? 😞

Do someone here daydreaming and notice it goes wrong? And you getting so much anxiety and start thinking about it...? Like do you start thinking you did on purpose?

I’ve had OCD for a year now. At the beginning I didn’t have much anxiety, just a lot of intrusive thoughts, time passed, now I still do have intrusive thoughts but I have more depersonalization in a way I never heard of before & I need to know if it’s part of OCD or who else is going through this: I no longer feel real, like if my life is shown of a VR play, it’s not hard to remember past memories but definitely don’t feel like I’ve lived them, my brain feels so full in a weird uncomfortable way; like just how your physical body gets dirty with dirt, I feel that way but ofc on my brain. If I feel a tiny bit angry or feel any emotion by just a little, it extends so much more out of no where, overall I feel SO fake, I forgot what normal feels like, my pills won’t work currently waiting for my therapy, like I want to know who else is going through this please! go ahead & write how you feel also, I just don’t wanna be alone in this .. it’s completely out of my control now.

It wants me to engage in compulsions surrounding school in September to ensure I won't be a failure. I also am in the middle of my spring semester, worried about my math class but still pushing regardless. Anything? Guys please answer, this is scary, I'm afraid what will happen if I don't do the compulsions that I also have to do now and in September

Im worried that I abused him and that’s why he snapped and treated me the way he did. My boyfriend and I met when I was 15 and he was 20. We dated for two years and I told my parents both times about us but he broke up with me both times because he was in love with someone else. They banned me from seeing him because they said he was horrible and a loser but I didn’t believe them so I saw him anwyays. Two years into it he was begging for me to come back even when I had a boyfriend so I broke up w my boyfriend to be with him. He told me that he actually didn’t wanna be in a relationship but eventually we ended up together but I told him that we had to be careful because my parents would break us up if we were together and they found out. He said he wanted to see me so I bought him tickets to seee me but I told him if my parents found out we wouldn’t be able to see eachother. They found out and he broke up with me because he said I made him fall for me all over again just for my parents to not let us be together. He said he would come back if it was meant to be etc… he ended up coming back and I took him back but he would leave and I would beg for him back I would tell him if he got his shit together by not being an alcoholic and gettting a job we could be together but my parents weren’t gonna let us be together untik eh did that and he said it was my fault for leading him on. I ended up taking him back but said we couldn’t be official until he got his drinking under control and he called me abusive I knew I was gonna tell my parents at some point but I wanted to wait until I knew for sure he got his drinking under control or actually got a job or went back to school like he promised he would so I wouldn’t be telling them just for him to break my heart again and then banning him from seeing me forever. My dad had told me before I went to school if I got back together with him before he got his shit together he would make me drop out and force me to come home. I told my bf this and he never really said much about it and at first I said it would be years before we could be together if he didn’t wanan change but I told him that if he got his shit together I would tell my parents and we could be together. He ended up getting his shit together and I said that I would tell my parents. He applied to school and I waited for him to actually start going. He ended up going so I told my parents but first I eventually realized my dad couldn’t actually kick me out of school but I kept it a secret for about three months because I was scared he would break his promise to me again/ cheat on me again . I ended up telling my parents because he said if I wanted to be his girlfriend I would have to go to Florida where he lives and in order to do that I would have to tell my parents cuz his parents disnt want him to date me unless my parents were okay with it. So I told them and they ended up being okay with it. We dated for three months and then broke up with me. Am I the asshole?

When someone does something bad to me and people take their side without even knowing. My mind starts talking to itself. Like one side of my mind tells people that this is not true what you think. The reallity is opposite. And the other side of my side starts giving me answers from their side and put more blame on me and accuse me falsely like as if they would do this to mw. I dont want to think anything. I dont care what people thinks or if accuse me but my mind just wants to clear it up. Does anyone feels like this? How to stop thinking?

So I upped my Prozac dose to 40mg 4 days ago and the anxiety I’m feeling is HORRIFIC. The physical symptoms are horrible it’s like I can’t relax or try and calm down no matter what I do. Is this normal?? I’m going through a really bad ocd episode at the moment and the thoughts seem a little less scary in part thanks to ERP but I have such horrific anxiety right now I don’t even know what I’m anxious about anymore and it’s stressing me out.

i saw someone post something on instagram and it said “if god tells you something listen” or something along those lines. and i have harm thoughts and then had a thought that was like “what if god is telling me to do this” which then progressed to “if god is telling you then you have to” kinda thing and now i’m freaking tf out anyone have any experience like this? and like i dont even really believe super hard in that kind of thing so im like freaked