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It’s becoming too much and interfering with my daily life. I’ve been involved in talk-therapy for years, but it’s not working. I finally signed up to speak with a therapist on this app. I am praying for relief.

I made a post earlier today about what’s been going through my head in my relationship rn and how confused I’ve been. And I had multiple people comment and tell me that maybe I don’t love my partner the way I thought I did or maybe my intuition was telling me to leave and find someone else. And I’m so freaking stressed now because idk what to do. I can’t take it anymore. I’m at the end of my rope

I have thought about this a lot and feel it is a great DISSERVICE to us on this app that therapists aren’t available to us without them knowing who we are. The whole point of the app is so people can explain horrible things they’re thinking without shame. If you have to say who you are a lot of us wouldn’t be on here; including myself. I really need someone to talk to about things that doesn’t know who I am. I have a therapist and she’s wonder but I can not talk to her about this stuff. Its unbearably uncomfortable and painful to talk about. Ugh thats all i wanted to say 😔

Hello I am worried I've been taking fluoxetine for almost 3 weeks now I'm taking 2 pills of 20 mg every 24 hrs But my suicidal thoughts have increased and that's saying too much since death has always scared me Also I've been feeling a bit angry like impulsive I made the mistake of reading some people that has committed murder while taking Prozac and idk Maybe it's my ocd but I'm scared and sad I feel bad and alone I'm not sure if I should keep taking the medicine They say things get better with time but I'm not sure

'Just right' OCD is an OCD theme that tends to revolve around feelings of 'completeness' and things feeling 'just right'. With just right OCD, you might not experience intrusive, unwanted thoughts. Instead you may just feel like you can't concentrate or move on without making things feel 'right' or 'complete'. Others may still experience these thoughts and have feared consequences to not engaging with the compulsion. The compulsions often present as redoing tasks over and over again, or doing things very slowly due to wanting things to be perfect, symmetrical, or feel right. Have you ever experienced this?

When you get an overwhelming feeling of panic and anxiety, do you get a feeling like you want to run or call your safe person and let them know you’re struggling? I have a tough time sitting with the feeling of intense anxiety and I know I should not be contacting family for reassurances . Any tips on how to ride through those feelings when I feel like I’m going to pop! Thanks 😊

If anyone wants to share how they are feeling I am here :)

I was ok and then did some erp with puff daddy story and it triggered me so much. It’s been on my mind all week

This going to be a longer post. I had some pretty bad weeks recently. There were some pretty rough conversations between myself and the guy I’m seeing, and didn’t end poorly but my mind was still so focused on everything that was said in the conversation and I was analyzing everything and I genuinely felt like I didn’t like I was losing feelings and needed to leave, even tho part of me desperately doesn’t want to. And now over the past couple days I’ve been experiencing the same critical intrusive thoughts, but they haven’t been making me anxious or obsessive anymore. What does this mean tho! Because the thoughts are still there, I still think critical things about him and I keep picking apart everything he does, but it doesn’t worry me. Does this mean my true feelings are now coming out?? There are times when I really like him and he’s acting normal and I feel comfortable, but then he’s do something weird or cringy or starts acting in a way that makes me start questioning all my feelings. I keep thinking things like “is he emotionally immature?” And “Is there something mentally off about him?”. And recently I’ve been obsessing over the fact that he’s a more sensitive and emotional guy, and there are moments that I obsess over the way he reacts when he’s sad or upset because he sounds almost like he’s whining or he sounds fake. Idk how to explain it, but I just keep thinking those negative thoughts. And now I don’t feel much of anything when I think them. I’m very confused. It kinda feels like my emotions are very bipolar, one second I like him and the next I don’t and I want to leave. It’s so exhausting. And now every time I’m with him and my friends I feel myself avoiding him over my friends and feeling scared to be around him or even depressed when I’m with him. I’m so lost

When I was 15 I met someone who was 20 and we talked for awhile and did some sexual stuff together. He asked me what my body count was and lied even though I was a virgin. We ended up having sex and I cried because I lied to him and confessed. He told me he would have never had sex with me if he knew I was a virgin. We were together for a couple more months but he ended up breaking up with me for lying to him and said that I was too much. I also have this friend who I have been friends with for almost two years now. We would hang out all the time but then she became distant and we would always smoke together I always would smoke her up because I just like to do nice things for people all I ask in return is being kind and communicative. She started to ask less and less and say she was coming over and then she wouldn’t or she would say she was on her way and not show up at all. I let it slide the first couple of times but then I got upset and I said it wasn’t fair because I always smoke her up and the last she could do is be communicative because I was waiting for her for hours and she never showed up. Now I’m worried I’m a narcissist because I held that against her.

Worry about groinal responses while laying down and worry when i hear relatives voices. I adjust as a compulsion and worry if im arousing and if i dont move i worry am i dwelling.

I just had a long talk with myself about various points of OCD including false memories and pitfalls. It felt good, maybe I should have recorded it to remind myself at other times, despite the risk of it becoming a compulsion. But the fact is that I talked to myself about how I want to deal with things, how I want to lead my life despite this disorder. If I'm going to go on living, I don't want it to imprison me, I want to believe in myself and the evidence around me, I don't want to go over the same thing a thousand times. Like a door, if I have doubts about whether it's open or not, I only want to check once and live my life afterwards. I want to stick to what makes sense and not scenarios and a thousand bad possibilities that pop into my mind without me wanting them to. I know it's not easy just talking like this and it will probably come back to haunt me, but I want to feel sure of what I know and what everyone tells me: that I'm a good person. Every day I experience situations and many of them I have no way of making sure of, whether it's because of the rush of the day or for any other reason, and I realized that I end up dealing with these situations, I end up accepting the uncertainty without realizing it, I had never noticed that. I always regret not having made sure enough at the time of these false memories, when I still didn't understand OCD very well, but the reality is that it still happens today, it's not often that I check everything a thousand times and at the end of the day I don't even remember it anymore. I swear, I want to fight it, I'm sunk in sadness but I want to breathe, to feel relief, I want to break free. If I'm going to live this life, let it be with a bit of quality. I know that there will always be difficulties, but I want to solve them rationally and I want to remember that every day I deal with mental disorders and not with an "evil" that is inside me, as OCD tells me. I swear I'm trying.

How would you define the two differently?

I got into a relationship (fairly quickly but were both happy and if it doesnt work we can obviously just stop) but its been giving me MAJOR anxiety My friends keep telling me i should have gone to therapy and fixed this fear of relationships beforehand but I feel like if I do that with everything ill be forever in therapy coz of how much OCD changes. Its something new and scary so ocd has stepped in exept my ‘intrusive thought’ is the anxiety itself, im scared of the horrible feeling of feeling scared and sick I was sick last night from anxiety, which hasnt happened in a LONG time, and now im scared ive slipped back again, but this time instead of having a thought to disregard, how do i disregard the literal worst feeling ever? Its so horrid and makes me feel so sick, how do i just get on with that? I know i have to or it will keep happening hence the ocd cycle Is staying put in my relationship good? Because im scared of it, or should i leave?? I don’t want to but I don’t want this ocd either but i do love him a lot im just such a confused mess

Hey all, after being ok for a while, my ocd seems to have slipped back? However the thing is im not getting intrusive thoughts as such? So heres my question Is it possible for the ‘intrusive thought’ to be anxiety? Like you just feel anxious for no reason and want to get rid of it? Then get scared because it feels horrible and it keeps coming back? I know the ‘what if this doesnt go away’ part is ocd but man, ive never had this before and I feel scared and alone, and I dont know where to start Any advice is truly appreciated as I want to put in the effort to get through this as soon as possible Thanks all

Recently I’ve been having these spiraling thoughts that my intrusive thoughts aren’t bad enough anymore, so I am therefore faking OCD. Does anyone ever get this?

I was doing fine for over a month.. I was managing my ocd really well till yesterday. I was at my friends house for her birthday and she invited me, 3 other girls and 2 other guys and her bf but one of the guys look attractive he looked good but I wish that’s where it would end. But instead my heads like cheat or it felt like I wanted to cheat when I know I would never and I hate the fact that I even got that thought like why can’t I just find another guy attractive without my brain telling me to cheat. It felt like I wanted to cheat and I got so scared because why would I do that or get that :/ I don’t want to cheat on my boyfriend I love my boyfriend. I’m scared that I actually wanted to cheat and I wanna confess to my bf so bad :/ but no like I know I didn’t want to but it feels like I did :/

Hello all! I'm in the process of learning more about my OCD and I've been growing my relationship with God. Recently, I've experienced a huge roadblock to what I would like to do in future-- and that has led to significant doubt in myself and God. To be honest, I believe this stems from my perfectionism and wanting to be in control. I'm a bit conflicted because I want to believe and trust in God, but I have doubts and I'm scared of making mistakes. Has anyone else experienced this? If so, what did you do to continue grow your trust and faith in God?

How to deal with anxiety and obsessive thoughts about my loved ones travelling to a dangerous place for 3 months? They haven’t travelled yet but I’m so scared of losing them already

How can you tell the difference between relationship ocd doubts and actual doubts in a relationship? How can I tell if it’s my ocd telling me I’m not in the right relationship, or my actual feelings telling me that? Any tips? It’s so frustrating to tune out my ocd and hear my gut feeling.