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Who else is afraid of government arresting you for something you typed in google when you were just a teenager????? HELP!!!!!!

I thought I could handle going onto instagram but turns out I cant. I saw a few posts that triggered my ROCD (but felt like real concerns) - you’re incompatible if you don’t share the same future vision, if they’re not ready for what you’re ready for, and they don’t communicate like you or have the same values. All hot spots for my ROCD. I made the mistake of not doing ERP, and then spiraling with my boyfriend who is traveling for work the next 3 weeks and doesn’t have time to talk on the phone since he works 14 hours then crashes and wakes up again to do it again. I’m spiraling. I hate myself and now I’m spiraling that he’s going to break up with me.

I think the reason I have been triggered is because of stress I am SO STRESSED I work 50+ hour work weeks have so many bills and it just feels like things keep happening to make life work like today my tire popped! I can’t afford it so I am stressing out about that I just signed up to start college asap (this month) and I don’t know where I am gonna have time for myself I barely have time to eat and sleep let alone shower but somehow my thoughts make time in my head to be the way they are and I am gonna be honest it pisses me off! What about y’all? Are y’all pissed off? Tell me about it in the comments:)

What helps you guys the most with dpdr?

There is a lot of confusion with some aspects of recovery for a lot of people. I was there too and it's a struggle to know what's good and bad for ocd and why. It's an additional struggle putting it into practice as your brain doesn't trust the new info or perceptions at first. Can you please list or bullet point stuff that you see or hear about ocd that helps but don't know why or don't think you understand? I'm going to try make a detailed post on each one I can help with and maybe post resources such as YouTube videos. I want the misconceptions to be addressed. Ocd thrives on doubt. We shouldn't be doubting the information that will ultimately get us better. I'll post gradually over the week.

Would either of count as warning signs of abuse (to clarify -my partner has never called me a bad name, raised his voice at me, controlled what i do, or hurt me in anyway) There are three instances that come to mind that I can't stop playing over and over in my head. I almost think I'm distorted the memories the more i replay it but I'm terrified of unknown abusive relationship Once we were at a restaurant and I was in someone's way and he told me to get out the way but I didn't hear him so he grabbed my forearm to move me - I said don't do that and he apologized One time I was jumping all over him in the elevator of my building and trying to spice up the mood so I pressed up against him. The elevator doors were about to open and he said babe stop and then as they opened he pushed me off of him. He told me he was scared there was going to be people there which was understandable and he did tell me to stop. We were just playing around but what If i'm making excuses for him. He told me he doesn't like the new capri pants I bought. He never has said I can't wear them he says they just arent his style and has never controlled what I wear. I will even say would you care if I wear this to test him and he always responds "you can do what you want" I love my partner so desperately and want to stay with him but what if these are early warning signs of abuse. I can't stop replaying these three memories in my head to make sure i'm not in an abusive relationship and feel crazy. I can barley be around my partner or work because I'm being haunted that I'm somehow in an abusive relationship I need to leave. I know if i said this stuff to him he would be shocked and saddened.

does anyone have this theme of ocd that makes you resent or even hate the thing you deeply love and enjoy? i don’t have an official diagnosis but i believe to be autistic and there are this book series that are my favorite thing in the world and i take a lot of pleasure in re-reading them and other works by the author. i’ve enjoyed her works for couple of years now. but since last week i have this very torturous anxiety that makes me actually believe that i actually hate her works and her writing style which seems so absurdly false. i try to reason with this feeling because it’s foolish and isn’t a matter of life and death but feels like one. if someone had some like things i’d really appreciate advices because this whole situation is upsetting me so much i’m losing any hope of ever going back to how things were before

Anyone out there who fears legal punishment due to real event false memory that actually sought help? How do you look for help if you feel you don’t deserve it? I think I’m going to make an appointment but this is what’s stopping me.

I just ate a piece of cake and I am worried that my sugar intake is out of control, and I can’t stop eating sugar. I worry that I will become over weight and ppl won’t want to be with me. All I am thinking about is the cake and I’m drinking hot water because I believe it will melt the sugar away.

Hey ladies! I just had a consult with my OB about trying birth control again. I was just diagnosed with OCD and a tic disorder, finally after my whole life lol. I tried an antidepressant for a few months after starting to really be debilitated by my panic attacks and anxiety, but the ssri made me feel worse.. borderline suicidal. Going off increased it as well and then I was diagnosed. I decided I would feel more comfortable with trying birth control again tovhelp with the hormonal aspect, since I can just stop taking the pill without worrying about that happening. I also have PCOS, and possibly PMDD based on my symptoms. I know PMDD can increase OCD. All that to ask, are any of you on Yaz or another bcp? How has your experience been?

I hate when my brain makes me think some how I’ve cheated on my boyfriend I keep thinking about this one time I was with an old friend and she met this guy online and wanted to play a game with him and me he was the type to like “flirt” in a joking way but I still said multiple times I had a bf so eventually my friend leaves and it’s just me and him I felt bad for leaving too and I wanted to try and make a friend so I stayed around he kept being weird in that joking flirting way and I was constantly either ignore it or laugh it off but my brain is making think I cheated by staying in the call with him because of how he was i never spoke to him since cause he said something really really weird towards the end and I told my friend and we cut him off and I feel like if I told my bf he would leave because I think that he’d think that I cheated on him I just wanted to try and get to know the guy I didn’t want anything more than that it wasn’t just towards me he was doing it with her too I fear I’m about to give into a compulsion and tell my bf due to the anxiety

Explain to me what reassurance is to you. Explain why it's bad for ocd compared to other mental health issues and brain disorders. I keep seeing that reassurance is bad everywhere but feel like the majority don't understand what it is or why it's bad. Don't be scared to put down a wrong answer, give it a go. This to help the nocd community learn as a whole.

Hey everyone, quick question: I’ve noticed a trend that my intrusive thoughts, when I’m not stressed or anxious, don’t really bother me and I barely focus on them. But, when I’m anxious and stressed, the thoughts become sticky and I dwell on them and potentially go down the “OCD hole”. Does anyone else have this process with their OCD? If so, how do you get out of the trap? ERP doesn’t do much as it’s not the OCD that’s causing the anxiety and stress.

I bought my roomate some Easter candy and I gave it to her. Anyways this morning I ate two pieces of sour patch kids and I told her which I just should have asked before but I was like I guess because I already did it I might as well not lie to her as well so I told her and now she is very pissed at me and now I’m spiraling because this isn’t the first time I’ve done something like this and it’s so stupid because she has asked me not to do it so why do I do it like bruh 😔 I do this and then feel fucking guilty and then I do it again 😭 I try to make up for it by giving people things but that honestly does not help

Has anyone got any tips on how to fight the feeling of wanting to avoid and escape? That’s my main compulsion, wanting to sleep to avoid my thoughts and feelings but I can’t spend my life in bed. I have a young son! I’ve fought this before but it’s so difficult. Anyone know a way to make it any easier? The feeling is so intense

I understood that in the 2 big flare ups with OCD (now and 8 years ago) I had problems with my period! Does anyone else have it??? Can it be related????

recently got a rlly rlly good experience w my bfs friends the 4 of us spent all day together just talking and connecting and it was particularly happy cause me my bf and his friend who i used to have problems with and stuff but i lwk always wanted his validation / approval. we were on adderall (legally & prescribed to all 3 of us because we have adhd) which i think added to the element of happiness in the air i was too positive abt everything. anyway i bonded w them super well felt so happy about the experience it lasted hours it was just me explaining sm things that happened to me and them defending me it was great. then that night me and the friend stayed up all night talking because we were both up from the adderall since we took it too late, and i know that sounds weird but it was very much okay with my bf he wants me and this friend specifically to patch things up and we built the foundation that it would be ok for me to do that w this friend i wouldnt w others but this friend is all platonic. and this friend and i actually have a traumatic past being involved w the same girl and it traumatized us so badly so yesterday we talked for hours and hours abt how i try to be genuine & we debriefed that trauma and a million other deep life things ofc. but part of me feels so weird because what if im trauma bonded to him and catch feelimgs which i don't want at all and when i was w my bf today i felt so weird maybe bcs of these thoughts and the lack of sleep and the come down but i automatically assumed it means im not interested / in love since i cant physically feel it but i want to be in love w my bf forever no one else. but what if i do like this other guy and today i had a super split 1 second of jealousy w him and then it went away and i wanted him to hang out w us today but when i thought he wasnt or when i tried getting him earlier w my bf and he wasnt there i cant tell if i was too sad or if i just didnt wanna be there without my bfs friend which i do NOTTT want whatsoever which is why im stressed. me and my bf been spending last 3-4 days all day long but im scared im not enjoying it how i would if i loved him even tho i want to desperately and am kind of sure i do but this new bond is insanely heavy and i can usually adapt to a new guy friendship easily but this one stressed me out bcs the conversation was intense but i need advice is this ocd like is this a normal response will it wear off so i go back to good w my bf?

Does anyone else feel completely consumed and controlled by their OCD? I have constant fear, panic, and anxiety now 24/7 around contamination OCD. I have tried ERP, but it feels like it doesn’t help with the daily issues I am having. It feels like I can barely get through the day.

My mind is racing all the time and I can’t concentrate on almost anything. Music constantly in my head that I don’t want. Can’t stop it.

Lately I've been having this feeling where I don't feel real. Like I know I am and it's probably just anxiety but I feel like I'm just hearing myself talk and do things but feel like it's not me/ feel out of it. I don't know if that makes any sense but it's just freaking me out and making me feel crazy