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My partner and I have not been having much s*x lately, and when it seems like something is about to happen I start to feel uncomfortable and nervous instead of excited. Is this normal?

I started with 25mg at first, then bumped it up to 50mg the second month. I've noticed some positive shifts in my mood. It seems like my brain is finally getting used to it, and I can feel a positive difference. Honestly I’m up and down with this medication and depending on what intrusive thought OCD wants to throw my way is uncertain , and two days again I wanted to switch to a different med completely but now I don’t know. We’ll cross that bridge when we get there. Anyway , my OCD has been throwing me the most disturbing thought. It involves a knife and someone’s eye (you paint the picture) I’ve noticed the more you don’t engage with OCD the more the thoughts decrease but then it’ll rev up and send you and even more violent thought just to trip you up and make you feel all those horrible feelings again. I still pushed through , and I also wanna say exposure has helped. I was so afraid to start my new job at Starbucks because I had to be around people and the fear of possibly hurting them , and I had so much anxiety leading up to the job that I almost didn’t go in and was gonna quit before I even started , and I’m so dead set on a sleep schedule that going into work with sporadic hours freaks me out because what if I get tired and the thoughts get worse. I had to push all of that to the side for this job and it was so scary , but it’s my second week and I’m doing it. I’m finally working , laughing and talking to people. Yeah the thoughts come , but an hour will go by and I’ll think to myself “wow , I don’t even remember a violent thought popping up” and also keeping a knife on my nightstand has helped too. Trust me I’m still scared , but I got hit with so many exposures that my OCD sort of calmed down , because after a while I realized I have nothing to worry about. Exposure therapy really does work , especially when the exposure isn’t planned , because let’s face it I have to work. I have to make a living. What I felt was a nightmare turned out to set me free in a way. Ain’t that crazy

I wish I was a normal teenager with normal feelings and normal emotions why do I have to feel every emotional so ugly why is my brain broken I just want to be normal and laugh about stupid crap go travel do good in college whatever I’m gonna be at my last year of being a teenager soon and. Feel like I wasted what could’ve been good years of my life What stories of me being a teenager am I going to tell my kids in the future when it’s all filled with horrible sad things sorry just needed to vent

Anyone ever journaled or wrote down their intrusive thoughts? How did they do it so it doesn’t seem like writing the thoughts down on a piece of paper make it seem like they are more real or true

I have a fear of losing control, and a fear of schizophrenia. so when I feel tired or fatigue or just any emotion really I think it’s a sign I’m going to lose control and then it makes me so anxious to the point I have a panic attack over the feeling of feeling tired. Anytime I feel a change in my body I take that as a sign I’m going to go insane? which makes me feel more anxious and makes it feel more real! Does anyone else feel like this or have any advice:( currently feeling weird and so anxious all cause I feel sleepy/ tired. It’s exhausting

feels extra real today, like i’m actually going to do it. i want to cry

Has caffeine made your OCD worse?

I'm 17,and My mind is obsessed with the idea that I could get a neurological disease and everytime I think it I have to touch a picture of God in my room(I'm Hindu) and it makes me feel safe. I used to pray for 3 hours a night but lately I've been shortening it by saying 'promise to God to pray at exactly 12 and be done by 12:05' for example and this has relieved so much anxiety. Well today, I was really anxious and I decided to put some make up on and quickly take it off before bed but I took it off 1 minute too late and now I'm scared God will punish me because why am I even wanting to practice make up when it's a materialstic thing and this is 'Maya' translated to desires ignorance in my religion. I've gone through so many phases where aive tried to give up Maya and sacrifice things like chocolate, music even studying because it's a desire and I think that by sacrificing this I can make things happen like going to my dream uni. I feel awful right now because I went to pray too late and it was all because of Maya.

I saw a TikTok of this really cute black baby and I had a really racist intrusive thought and now I’m worried I’m a really racist awful person. I’m convinced I commented something racist and I keep looking back at the comments to make sure I didn’t. I’m in college and I have to go down and get food at the dining hall soon because it’s going to close in not too long and the majority of people who work there are black and i‘m really worried if I do go get food I’m going to say something really awful and racist to them. I need to get food but I’m sooooo scared I’m going to call them the n word or something

im still worried that a two year age gap 16 and 18 is bad and that is a warning sign im a “p” or im grooming the person

hello, does anyone have any advice i’m a compulsive hand washer who obsesses about germs and as a result my hands have become very sore and cracked and even bleed sometimes and it hurts to bend my hands has anyone got any things that helped to reduce this compulsion as it’s causing pain now.

I’m going through what is hopefully just a really bad hypochondria episode where I’ve convinced myself I have schizophrenia. It’s been about 8 months and I’ve been through a range of crazy symptoms but the most prevalent symptom is getting crazy delusional thoughts like “what if my wife is a demon and trying to get to me” “what if nobody is real and these are all monsters/demons out to get me” etc etc. the thoughts are absolutely terrifying and they make me look at people differently, and i have to question myself whether I truly believe the thoughts or not, they feel so real, when they come on I almost catch myself genuinely feeling paranoid that they are 100% real and having a panic attack, but then the tiny bit of me that’s still rational brings me back to reality. And from then on I have to question myself all day “do I really believe this?” “Well you technically can’t disprove those things” “if it’s not real, then why does it FEEL real?” “This really is schizophrenia” “ what if it’s not schizophrenia but ACTUALLY real?” “who do I go to for help?” “What if I can’t trust anyone” etc, it’s literally hell. I can never give a satisfying “No, I don’t believe this” to these thoughts. I can go days and weeks and be able to confidently shrug them off and tell how ridiculous they are only for them to come back with a vengeance the next day. I could really use some reassurance even though I know it’s bad. I have never been like this before until I started obsessing over schizophrenia. I’ve been like this for 8 months now.

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Have any of you noticed that when you engage in confessing compulsions you often feel like you have to re-confess because you feel like or realized you left something out. Or that this just starts a landslide of confessing?

Hey! I am really struggling with pocd and I have EXTREME guilty because I feel like I should told my partner about this. Especially because I had really awful thought about his little brother. I have really high anxiety because of this and he can see that I am not feeling well because I am crying all the time. I am just so scared he is gonna leave me if I tell him about this even he says that he is not going to. I am going to broke down so badly if he does that and to be honest I don’t think that I will made it if this really does happen. Still I feel this extremely guilty feeling if I don’t tell him..

Last night I was driving and saw a pedestrian at night while trying to make a right turn, i noticed I still had time to go before they crossed the street so I made my turn. For some reason, I thought to myself what if I hit that pedestrian with my car and didn’t notice? Once I got home I couldn’t sleep so I went back to check the intersection to see if maybe there was an ambulance/police but there wasn’t. I’m so scared

Someone who was sick made food for me but I didn't eat it because they were sick but I don't want to waste the food because that would be disrespectful as they took their time to make it. I just don't want to take the risk of eating it and then getting sick. I hate getting sick. I don't know what to do about this.

Im just wondering but does anyone else deal with repetitive thoughts and or urges. Recently I’ve been wanting to listen to music but I can’t stop listening to this certain song that’s kinda depressing and I sometimes will have it on loop for hours while I’m worrying about things but I can’t bring myself to listen to another song. Idk what to do, like its a good song but it makes my mental health worse if I obsess over it. Any suggestions on how to handle this? I hope everyone’s having a good day and best of luck to all of you ❤️

Does anyone have any tips on how to get a full nights rest? I had a pretty good afternoon/evening yesterday, yet still found myself waking up every 2-3 hours with anxious thoughts. Also I have this horrible chest pain in the morning, that usually takes me a while to shake. Not sure if that’s contributing to my lack of sleep.

Does anyone find tiktoks about being ‘realising’ they are gay or coming out later in life really triggering? I have SO-OCD and seeing those things makes me question everything so deeply. How do you cope with this please.