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Hello everybody, I’m writing because I’m at work but I just keep having panic attacks and I’m not able to work. It has been like this for a long time and I can’t be productive I’m thinking about quitting. Do you have any similar experiences? What do you think I should do? Thank you

Hey guys so I've been doing kind of okay for the past few months (SOOCD was still there in the bcak of my mind but it didnt stop me from living me life) however I got triggered (or I think I did) these past few days for 2 reasons : 1) a person I know just got married to her partner of the same sex and I saw pictures of the ceremony all weekend and it felt like "I wanted this and this feels more genuine than what I have" + they wrote a caption saying how they won't hide anymore and they're poud of who they are etc etc... which felt like I could relate and that I'm actually in denial 2) I was scrolling on Tiktok and saw a video of girl talking to another girl on her podcast and saying that she always thought she was a lesbian and then met the love of her life which happens to be a guy. And then she goes on and says, "growing up I always feared of being anything else than a lesbian" and the other girl says " you know, that's weird, that means that deep down you know it wasnt the right label for you because whe I came out there was no fear of ever being straight or bi, like that was it for me." and then the first girl goes on and says " That's what I've been telling my girl friends. When you're straight and you know that you're straight you dont fear a label or being of another sexuality it shouldnt really matter to you but if you are scared this means that you're actually maybe hiding something". Anyways that triggered me a lotttt!! I dont know what your thoughts are on that so I would love to hear them! for info : I'm a women and have been with my bf for 6 years now.

So I’ve had ocd since childhood. I go through different stages. Right now contamination ocd is really kicking me hard. I’m so afraid of germs. I wash my feet so much, my hands, I take multiple showers a day. Just some examples if my hair comes an inch close to touching a plunger, (it didn’t actually touch it but almost did) then I wanna wash my hair, even tho it didn’t even touch. If my hand touches the sink while I’m washing them, I have to rewash them. And so much more, it’s absolutely exhausting. Does anyone have any tips on how to stop being so afraid?

I’m always mad at my parents for no reason. I’m 17 and a teenager so I get it’s hormones and stuff but I’m always mad at them for the stupidest things like for example my Mom asked me if I like her flowers and I’m like “yeah sure I guess so” or my Dad will be in the best mood when he gets home and I’m just dry with him for no reason. I feel guilty but I can’t stop being moody for no reason. Any advice for me?

how do you all deal with intrusive thoughts and the false memories that come along with them?

I feel like I’m drowning and nobody is here to help me out of this mess help me please 😭

Suicidal OCD people can you please share your experiences with these theme? I’ve had it before and now it’s back and feels worse than before. It’s making me feel like it’s not OCD and that something could actually happen. I would appreciate any shared experiences with this so I don’t feel so alone. Thank you all in advance

I had an ocd episode late this morning and I can't keep living myself like this. I wrote on my journal I feel like s****** is the best option for me. What made everything worse is I requested time off on june 1st because I was going on a day trip to see my sister. My manager denied because other ppl request time offs that day and my request was already too late. It's so frustrating because it's a part time job and I'm only scheduled to work only 4 hours (I had times where I worked a 3 hour shift) twice or even once a week. Whenever a shift is available, I always take it because I need I need the money. The one day I take a day off, I get denied. I can't switch shifts with anybody because no one won't be available.I can't afford to quit because in today's climate, it's so hard to find another job. It's just everything has been so difficult lately. With ocd, my life does not matter anymore.

can rocd come in like a what-if-he’s-cheating-so-i-have-to-make-sure-he’s-not way? lol. most of the times my bf hangs out with friends (mostly male), i get the thought that maybe he’s hiding from me that there will be a girl (THE girl) over there too. i know in my heart that it’s irrational but i can’t tell and i always eat the urge to ask him who’s coming :( i feel bad for this

I need help or resources. I am having a terrible OCD episode since yesterday night! Anxiety was bad last night when going to bed. I just don’t know what to do!

Can someone please help me. The other day out of no where my brain is trying to convince me that I no longer love my boyfriend which is scaring me and terrifying because I’ve been with him for almost 4 years and we live together and planned our future together but now my brain is now nit picking everything thing he does, trying to convince me he has so many flaws to break up with him or noticing all the perfect things he does to love him all over again. I’m scared and so upset am I falling out of love or is just ROCD? It just won’t leave me alone I don’t want to be with anyone else but I’m scared my thoughts will fully convince me I don’t love him anymore or don’t want to be with him anymore 😞

Worrying so much is so comforting somehow. I feel as though it’s the norm. I’m a little hesitant to part with it. I’m scared to feel nothing when I’m supposed to be worrying. I hope this doesn’t sound ridiculous.

I'm starting to think that certain of my trauma struggles are turning into OCD. I have such a fear of people saying good/kind things to me. I associate it with what happened to me as a kid, where I was told good things and later told that those good things weren't really true, that people were telling me what I wanted to hear. So now I feel like I have to be harsh with myself in order to be "safe" from hearing later that the nice things were a lie. Basically avoiding something normal or good out of fear that something bad will happen like it did in the past. I know this involves trauma, but is there an OCD component to it that could be helped by treating it as OCD?

Hi guys just wondering what are some good medications for OCD. Thank you

Has anybody cured ocd to completely 100%. If yes, please help.

U guys for some reason when I think my baby looks cute or is being nice I feel something in my private and I worry. This also has been happening with my dog. I’m scared

What medications are you all on or have been on? Experiences? Side effects? What has worked and what hasn’t?

I’m feeling so hopeless. Every aspect of my life has been affected by ocd. Every single part of it. Every action that I take, ocd. Every thought I have, ocd. I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. I’m really not seeing a way out of it. Every relationship is affected. The person I love the most in this world, ocd affected. I don’t have anything anymore. I hate myself so much. I hate that I let my ocd ruin my life.

From what I'm understanding with ERP, we aren't supposed to do any of our compulsions or anything to comfort ourselves when we have these thoughts. I just don't see how I'm ever going to feel better if I can't do anything to comfort myself so that I can feel better. I hope that makes sense. Anyone able to explain how this works?