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Hello everyone, I have OCD and anxiety. Last medicines side effects was horrible for me and unfortunately I am not on meds now. 3 days ago I notoce vein was pulsing in my right hand palm. I measured my BP and it was 140/80. I am 32 years old women. Yesterday morning was the same, today is the same numbers too. What can I do? I am very afraid of hert attack š Is this blood pressure coused by my anxiety?
soo im 17 , and im on 100 mg of Zoloft. And Iām just kind of thinking am I gonna be on this medicine forever, is this medicine going to mess up my brain, or like the development of my brain itās really messing with me.
So this has been on my mind for a while and I really donāt know what to do. To explain a little bit Iām pretty certain I have OCD, but I obviously donāt want to self diagnose. So i would like to go a professional and get tested. But the thing is I am extremely nervous about asking for help. There is a reason for this, about two years ago I was having extremely bad panic/anxiety attacks over very irrational fears. I would go to my mom a lot about these things because I had no where else to go. And one night we kind of got into an argument because she didnāt know what to do because of how dumb my fears were. I explained to her that I know my fears are irrational but I donāt know what to do. So she told me if I know itās irrational to just keep it to myself. This may seem small but it really just put me in a place to not feel comfortable asking for help. Our relationship has gotten better over the last years, and I think I could say something. I really just donāt know how or when to approach this conversation. But itās getting to the point where iām miserable and need help. Any advice on where to start? (To clarify iām a sophomore in high school so parents are the only way of getting help)
I donāt know what to do, I feel so lost and feel like Iām losing my mindā¦ I donāt know what to do, I am still getting the terrible thoughts of āGod is telling you to kill someoneā and Iām literally mid panic attack, I keep trying to reason with logic because it even says in the 10 commandments āthou shall not murder.ā So I donāt even know why Iām getting these thoughtsā¦ ughā¦ people say that intrusive thoughts trigger things you care about the most, which mine would be Jesus & the people around me, which is why I get the harm OCD about people I care about the most.. someone recently said that I could be schizophrenic and now Iām terribly worried that I could have that.. I am so terribly afraid of becoming ācrazyā and doing horrible thingsā¦ can someone please give me tips to help this, and or message me?
Earlier today for about a few hours i spent the whole entire time in my room researching a certain topic and feeling 100% convinced it was true and that it was the real me and i never had ocd. There was convincing evidence too. I was freaking out, crying, etc. i hardly remember what i was thinking, its almost like i blacked out. I keep trying to remember because from what i do remember some of the thoughts kinda bother me. I ended up calming down and snapping back into what i think is reality, and felt completely opposite of what i was thinking just 5 minutes prior. Im so confused, i dont know who i am, i feel like im actually going crazy.
For the first time in my life, I feel calm. I have never known what it felt like to be relaxed and not anxious. Exposure and response therapy combined with the right anxiety medication for me has changed my whole life. I am doing things I never thought Iād be able to do. I am able to relax finally and when the anxiety comes, I work through it. I never knew life could be like this, but I am so grateful. The obsessions still come, and they likely always will, but being able to work through them in the moment instead of falling into a seemingly endless cycle of compulsions feels like such an achievement.
Okay, So I was talking to this girl for a week or two. Things were going great. We talked so much and hit it off. They one day she just wonāt respond to me or even tell me what I did wrong. Itās been bothering me bad for a couple days now. I donāt wanna sound like a stalker, but I made a new couple of accounts to see if she blocked me and she did. And now she wonāt respond even on those new accounts. I just wanna answer why or what I did wrong you know? I donāt get it!
One of the hardest parts of my day is seeing all the people around me doing all the things I canāt with ease. I hope they know how lucky they are.
Iāve been feeling really really depressed the past few days due to health concerns. Iāve been really feeling down like not wanting to be here anymore and itās scaring me. I was in the doctorās office this morning and I got a scary thought that said maybe I should just k*ll someone in here instead of k*lling myself. Then the thoughts continuedā¦ this man walked past and I thought āhurt himā I obviously wouldnāt want to hurt anyone let alone a bug on the sidewalk, but the thoughts began to overtake me and I had a panic attack. Itās still bothering me and Iām still scared itās real and that Iām going crazy. This happens to me a lot after I watch a documentary about someone who hurt someone else. I begin to think I am somehow going to go crazy like the person in the documentary and hurt someone. Although I donāt want to .. I would never ever want to hurt anyone.
Iāve been struggling a lot recently with intrusive thoughts that have really taken over my life. Lately, Iāve got so much thoughts that tells me people I care about, like my mom, wonāt have a life after death because of me or my thoughts. It feels like my mind convinces me that these thoughts are true, and the fact that I canāt feel my usual anxiety makes it even scarier. Iām terrified that not feeling anxious means I actually want these things to happen, which I know deep down isnāt true. Iāve had constant anxiety for pretty long and now the last few days I havenāt been able to feel anything. Iām unable to feel any of the love or connection I normally do for my family and friends, and even my anxiety feels dulled. This is so unsettling because in the past, my anxiety acted as a reassurance that I didnāt want the horrible thoughts my OCD was throwing at me. Now, without that, I feel completely lost and afraid that Iāve lost myself. Has anyone else experienced this emotional numbness or a disconnect from your feelings? How do you cope when your OCD thoughts feel so real, but you canāt feel the anxiety that usually comes with them? I would really appreciate any advice or experiences you could share.
Its been like 3 weeks of school and its just been really difficult and stressful š ive had two tests and i havent gotten them back yet but i have a feeling i didnt do as well as i wanted to on either of them and that scares me because i usually score perfectly and well. And my classmates are so good at everything š and ik this is kinda bad but i hate seeing people do better in things im supposed to be good atā¦ like math is one of my strongest subjects but i messed up on a few questions so bad and i feel so stupid and now im scared that im gonna be like this for the rest of the semester š it scares me. Plus all my classmates talk to me sometimes and all and i be as nice as possible but i still feel invisible- even with friends i just feel like im bothering them and i feel like im just alone and have no one to talk to bc either no one cares or i feel like burden and annoying and unlovable š
I feel like shit absolute shit for months and idk how to tell anyone because my intrusive thoughts are about stuff like flr example today I was in class and I was like I wish and then my brain said I wish I could rape a dead baby but like obviously I donāt want that and itās really made me sad cause like what if Iām a rapist
I feel like I'm fucking crazy. It literally feels like my ocd has a plan to hurt people like overtime my mind has made a plan and I was already questioning myself because I'm doing erp. I don't want to hurt people but my mind literally feels like its fully ready to do something. I can't do this.
Hi everyone, This last week Iāve had so much anxiety that Iām going into psychosis. I have weird intrusive thoughts about contamination and other weird things like if I use my left hand or do anything left something bad will happen or certain numbers mean bad things when counting. My psychiatrist says itās just anxiety but ever since my anxiety attacks last week I feel so weird and scared that Iām going to go into psychosis or crazy. My family doctor said itās possible which scared me and now Iām feeling really scared. I started medication again but canāt seem to snap out of it. There have been some amazing people here that have giving my great help and tips. But I just need to be reassured that I wonāt follow into psychosis. I know itās a small percent of people but Iām just so scared. Any help would be great. Even my psychiatrist said I wonāt but canāt calm down. Any help would be amazing, thank you!
Hello I'm just posting to see if anyone needs to talk about your day or what's bothering you! Feel free to comment
Someone had told me that my religious ocd/harm ocd intrusive thoughts, could be caused by paranoia or schizophrenia, and now I canāt stop thinking that Iām losing my mind and that Iām crazyā¦ my religious ocd sometimes says āGod wants you to harm someone.ā Or āGod is the almighty and can control you and make you do these terrible thingsā even though I know deep down thatās completely absurd.. it even says it in the 10 commandments.. Iām so lost.. I hope Iām not actually crazy.. I donāt want to hurt anyone..
In addition to my pocd / false memory OCD situation, I feel like Im going to pass away with no friends, no girlfriend, and no family. I have no one who loves me. And Im going to pass away alone. I slowly have to accept that. Theres nothing I can do except live out my life, not knowing if my worst fears have come true or not, and slowly wither away while everyone moves on with their lives and forgets my name. Im unloved, alone, and miserable. Thats who I am. The end.
I would first like to disclose to you all, that I am not actually diagnosed with OCD. I am pretty certain I have it, but idrk at this point. Anyways, I havenāt posted on here before, but I kinda just really want to talk to people about things that have been bothering me. So first of all, every single day for literally the last year, I have been constantly mentally checking to see if things Iām doing are OCD-related or not. The thoughts, the actions, the emotions; they all feel surreal to an extent. I know it sounds stupid, but it gets to the point where I have screaming arguments in my head that never go away and it feels so loud :(. That started when I first learned about OCD and I connected the dots to harm-OCD, which in turn led to a bunch of repetitive research. Next, I would like to ask, do you guys ever have lapses where it gets really bad and then just disappears for a couple months? These last two months have been pretty relaxed mentally, and then school started and my head is trying to kill itself again. But I feel so doubtful now because I no longer have so many symptoms that match up and idk if Iām just faking everything. Like, the harm-ideation has mainly gone away (except to my self because my mind is like āhey it works for other people, you should do itā but I can handle telling myself no), and Iām not washing my hands over and over again to get the sticky feelings away. But idk. Another thing on my mind is surrounded around npd/aspd. Idk about you guys, but my brain is really mean, and I often end up accidentally saying things I really shouldnāt. And as you can tell by my writing, I write a lot about ME. It is super annoying and I have to rewrite texts and stuff over and over because it just seems self centered and I donāt want people to think that I think Iām better than them, because I really donāt. I feel like Iām kinda a jerk and it really bugs me. Do any of you worry about this? I know Iām not a narcissist, but I canāt get it out of my head. And I struggle with empathy, but we think itās autism so idk. But if it isnāt autism, then what would it be, you know? Also, this is kinda personal but none of you know me so Iāll say it anyways: So my gf was the one who asked me to go to the homecoming with me (I really shouldāve askedā¦) (which Iāve never gone before), and I was kind of being reclusive the whole time we were there. I know it was a dance, but I couldnāt get myself to do much other than holding her hand for like 10 seconds, which on my part is REALLY HARD because idk why but physical touch feels really wrong and inappropriate, even though itās meant to show affection. But I didnāt do much and she keeps saying that it was all okay and that Iām okay but Iām afraid that she doesnāt like me, and I donāt want her to feel uncomfortable being around me. Weāve been friends for quite a while, and I think itās okay but idk and Iām so tired of worrying. I want to ask her if she still likes me but I donāt want her to say no ;-;. She is so supportive and kind, and I think sheād speak up if she wanted something to change, but idk. Plus, I watched a video today where a guyās wife told him that she didnāt love him anymore but she stuck around anyways, and that is NOT helping. Long story short, Iām feeling really overwhelmed right now, and I have procrastinated homework until nowā¦ I had a cross country meet yesterday, and today I have wasted the vast majority of my day in bed (after sleeping for 15 hours, may I addā¦). Iām sorry that this is so long, you guys donāt have to say anything, but it would be really nice to talk to someone. And donāt worry, my parents are trying to find out a psychologist person/therapy (allegedly), but they said insurance wonāt pay for it so it might be a while :āc. I donāt think itās in their list of priorities rn Have a good rest of your evening/day everyone!
hi all hope everyone is doing well. i had been doing a lot better since my last ocd relapse last year in oct but iām currently really struggling with health anxiety/ocd. it feels like the toughest theme yet. while i was able to get better without medication before, iām now considering it because ive realized that ive had too many relapses in the past five years than I would have liked to have. iāve always been hesitant to get on an ssri because iām terrified of the adjustment period. and now my health anxiety is playing into the fear a little with the side effects and what not. anyway iād really appreciate any insight/advice. thank you!!
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