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feeling so numb. I dont feel anything. My mind is telling me i have to break up with my bf, i dont want to.

Dk what to do... its like i wanna have sex with my bf but everytime we do it i feel wierd and anxious and the hocd kicks in and i feel like i dont enjoy it. Can anyone relate? ?

Having some very very bad thoughts about STIs. I’ve only ever had one sexual partner and that was my ex, and we had a serious relationship. However, he had four other partners before me and even though he said he’d been tested I still panic. Now, due to some spotting that happens after I do stuff on my own, I’m starting to really panic that I have an STI. He sweet talked/guilt tripped me into having sex without a condom a couple of times, which I really REALLY didn’t like but because of my OCD I can be made to feel guilty so easily and so I caved. Now all I’m doing is panicking thinking I have an STI even though I’ve only had sex whilst in a monogamous relationship. Just, help. I need something to put my mind at ease because I’m terrified.

What a benefit of having homosexuality ocd? Since we been complaining about it

how would I ask for help with this , like to anyone ..? How do I get rid of these intrusive thoughts ??cos I hate myself so much when I think about young kids and their so innocent that I want to cry , ,but like I think about some weird stuff ,about how attractive some kids are . Just their eyes and cute features. Like I don’t understand why I like watching and looking at kids I see randomly seriously it’s really not in a sexual way it’s like I’m attracted to them in a weird fking way and oh my god I’m so fcked up literallt when a kid comes near me idk what to do like I get all flustered coz I never know how to deal with kids and their parents are gonna think im fucking weird cos I don’t know what to say to them ?? but like I do want to be near them and see them ..why????? im wondering if I’m showing signs of starting to become a P ??? I’m 19 btw in case that changes anything coz I’m not under 18 anymore and I feel like I’m such a creep ??

why are there so many videos on tiktok about girls leaving their boyfriends for girls what the fuccck

Anyone have OCD where you have intrusive thoughts about your spouse and confessing them is the only way to get relief?

Comment what takes your mind off things and/or blocks any obsessions/intrusive thoughts

Is ERP for hocd to look at lesbian couples on Instagram? And do it until you don’t feel anxious? I feel like I’m so worried about groinal responses (idk what those even are) when I look at it almost like it forces something down there to happen cuz I’m focused on if something happens or not

i wrote a post about a calorie obsession about a month ago. now i am currently struggling with an ed does anyone else have ocd and an ed?

Which is the best way to make Ocd go away?

I started to smoke marijuana,every night 1 joint,3 nights now. Guys i can tell i sleep better and my thoughts are almost gone i have them but they dont scare me anymore. Maybe its a cure for my OCD. I read about marijuana and ocd and anxiety, it can trigger more anxiety and panic attacks but it can help u with anxiety it depends on people it's not the same for everyone!!

So I said I'd post my story and here she blows lol. Ohhh God, this again. It started a while ago, after I learned to overcome my hocd. It was an arduous experience but well worth it. However I still experienced spikes and much weirder they were all over the place. It felt like my ocd had nothing to latch on to so now it was going after everything. I hated these but got over it. I also started to experience dissociative symptoms. Feeling "less like myself", disconnected from my identity. I often referred to it as feeling like you'd pulled a plug out of a wall, and I was the plug. I often felt hungover, but never consumed drugs or alcohol. More than weird. I would experience this then my intrusive thoughts would increase. Compulsions idk about, but a large amount of intrusive thoughts. It sucked each time and I often felt like I would never get better or go insane. A lot of the thoughts focused on things I cared about. My gender identity, sexuality, and my future relationship with my boyfriend. It was a lot. It only got worse after a friend of mine who had ocd to and understood ocd, rationalized his ocd and believe it. He would say that he was brainwashing himself and that he was not trans. This hit me too since when he told me I was experiencing these dissociation/ocd symptoms. I kinda was able to move forward but ever since Then it's been a recurring issue that my ocd would make me constantly doubt myself even though I knew who I was. It give me anxiety over this I've never had anxiety for before and welcomed. Things that I loved. I'll get further into detail Later but I'm trying to get better

Someone please tell me they feel like they aren’t gonna ever get through HOCD and be able to marry and guy and have children... because I feel so alone and I just keep on asking myself why won’t God help me... I keep on thinking “what if it’s real” I just don’t know what to do and why this had to happen to me... I used to like guys and even loved a guy once and I just feel like it’s not even real anymore.... idk if I can do this anymore and every time I think I’m getting better I relapse after like a week.

I see girls getting married at 22 and that always was my dream, i always wanted to marry young but i feel so unpure and soo not ready while before hocd i felt so ready to be in love and give my all to someone. So its so hard for me to see my dreams and personality and just spitit fall apart. I hope my dream can still come back and maybe it can even come true

I was originally diagnosed with OCD in 2000, But I never really got treatment or read into it, I always just focused on that I had depression or anxiety, until this year. I have been with an amazing man for five years. He is understanding, patient, and caring and has always done his best to try and be there for me even when I am in the middle of meltdowns etc. Even when I was pushing him away or being verbally terrible :( but since our 5 year anniversary that passed this last August my ROCD and cheating ocd have completely taken over my brain. It is ruining my relationship and it took him and I almost breaking up to finally realize and see it. He had started lying alot to me during the last few months mainly because when he would try to talk to me or tell me the truth I would react poorly and make him feel bad for simple things like one of his guy friends coming to dinner or wanting to go to a car race etc with friends. So he started omitting the truth to things I'd accept and not make him feel horrible for. Which led to him lying for two weeks straight and going skydiving with a female friend (who is married her husband and mother were there when they went filming it) and it like verified my ocd thoughts to me completely. Which lead me to scouring every possible comment, like, reaction on social media accounts. Wanting to know exactly when he's active online, what hes doing, with who, how long, if he didnt respond to texts or calls fast enough it would tell me hes probably lying or with her. The way my ocd basically is where I feel hes going to cheat or leave me constantly, I am very insecure of female friends even when my brain logically knows he has been loyal and faithful and I shouldn't even have a thing to worry about. Bit because of my actions and words he has stopped wearing our promise ring, and it has made him question us because he feels he can't keep me happy anymore. I want it to stop. I want my brain to stop doing this to me. I want it to stop misfiring telling me the horrible things it does. I want to stop feeling like i have to check and re check everything go back through messages photos pictures comments any possible thing. I went as far as to finding tons of things to fill in puzzle pieces to verify that he must be having at least an emotional affair if not physical and it's ruining everything. I did not tell him i think that or looked for things to validate that. In the past I openly told him every negative thought or feeling I had or asked things specifically if I had the bad thoughts or asking if he wanted to be with me etc. We live a few hoirs apart and now he doesn't want to come for Thanksgiving and doesn't know if he wants to spend time with me the weekend following either. :( My mental illness is ruining the best relationship I've ever had, my happily ever after.

I wonder if there is someone that has ROCD. I am constantly having doubts about if I love my husband or not and today I was seriously considering about committing suicide because I am exhausted of fighting against this shit and it hurts me so much having millions of questions regarding if I love the most wonderful person that I have ever meet or not. At this point I can't recognize what is real or not... I just told him today that I probably was not loving him and he told me he feels I love him and he just tried to calm me down. But I don't know how long I will resist, I can't understand reality anymore :(

Im not asking this to be insensitive, I am just curious. Why do you have such a phobia of being gay?

Please Please Someone help me!!!.... I had a friendship with a girl for 3 years back and we aren't talking for 1 years now because we it was a long-distance relationship and we weren't able to see each other. We fell in love. But now I've realised that it wasn't love but OCD that made me feel that I'm in love with her... We loved each other so deeply that it's hard to explain... It was a true and a pure relationship.... But now I couldn't continue to accept the fact that it was love because it wasn't. It was all just a FANTASY... Now my reality and this fantasy are striking each other. I can't tolerate this paint. I'm stuck between reality and fantasy. I'm in so much pressure and I can't get breath. I'm getting stabbed. Someone help me out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello, anyone here suffers from a skin-picking disorder? If yes, Let's talk about it!