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I just smoked pot for the first time (sativa) and I've felt pretty okay for 2 hours. Might've been the distraction of hanging out with a friend too but I feel like if I touched coins or my house key right now it might not be too horrible

Hi :-) has anyone ended up convincing themselves they did something they didn't do? I've been wrestling with wondering if past thoughts were actually memories. For the past month I've reviewed and checked and asked people...nothing point to anything happening and yet as I told myself today, it must have happened, I felt calmer like "okay, well now you know." Part of it is also now wondering what else I may have blacked out. But so far I am more at peace than I have been when I was going through the "what if it did happen?" (Things from 10 years ago).

Any other recovering alcoholics/addicts struggling with Pure OCD and Intrusive Thoughts?

Can someone please help . My OCD is more about obsessive thoughts. I dont know how to catch myself on the obsessive thoughts. How to fix it. I mean that I have so many thoughts and my thoughts are spinning and spinning then I dont know how to find an actual topic of my thoughts.... and what caused an obsessive thought . I hope it makes sense . It feels lately like I dont think and I just have obsessive thoughts . I'm second day in a row drinking alcohol to feel tipsy and to stop having the thoughts but I dont wanna become an alcoholic . But it's an awesome feeling to stop thinking and being focused on painting ( cause I'm painting and drinking right now )

Can thoughts be loud ? Like a inner voice almost

Struggling today. I have Real Event OCD about an event that happened 5 months ago. I constantly think I’m going to arrested, even though I didn’t do anything illegal. Everyone I have told about this says I didn’t do anything wrong, and is normal, and I’m overreacting. However, I have this constant feeling that I’m going to be in trouble and ruin my life. I spend nearly every waking second of my day fixated on this, and can’t seem to get past it.

Does HOCD involve obsessively questioning gender identity as well? I've only heard about it since I joined this app and I'm wondering if I struggle with that but I'm not entirely sure about all the details.

My OCD is literally affecting everything I do. Eating, drinking, cleaning, cooking, showering, laundry, I mean everything. My cat is elderly and going downhill and that's exacerbating my OCD. I feel like a basket case. I've never had a single day of relief from this awful disease. I often wonder what it would be like to not be controlled by this mythical something that my OCD believes is in charge of my life.

Anyone else remember something they did in the past (usually years ago) and it makes it feel like the situation happened just yesterday? Which starts a whole new distress pattern Any advice in grounding oneself in those moments?

I want some Christian friends ? just someone to talk about God with or go to church with or just hang out with. Sometimes I feel like I’m more mature than the people in my class. Talking with older grades is so much easier ??. Let’s hope God guides me through this. Lol take care

So I cant remember if I've ever asked this here, but has anyone ever done something awful that their ocd convinced them to do and now can't let go of the guilt? And I dont mean like terrible terrible things but like lying to someone, cheating, or something else that can cause heavy guilt. If so, how did you get past this? I feel like I'm not sure how to forgive myself when my moral code is so high.

I need some advice, I believe I experience existential OCD regarding a story a read years ago called "The Egg" and the thoughts and feelings I get from it can be unbearable at times. I just had my first ERP therapy session today, and the first exposure wasn't too difficult for me and I didn't find that to be the really difficult thing about today's session. The difficult part was when I was trying to tell my therapist about my thoughts and I became super emotional to the point of nearly crying. That, and the way she was trying to get me to think about the story just made me feel more anxious and stressed. I came home after my appointment today and cried, and I've had no motivation to do anything at all today. I feel like my emotions and thoughts are unbearable right now, and I'm wondering how normal this is when first starting therapy? I know therapy is not easy, but I'm having unwanted thoughts over reality, existence, and other people being individuals, and the other people I love in my life are the most important things to me so this is very difficult. People and my beliefs have always been what's able to ground me in times of stress, but now I don't know what to do. I'm having trouble just feeling like I can carry on with my day, let alone another week until I can talk to my therapist again. These thoughts don't just make me feel anxious, they make me feel depressed.

Oof don't you just love it when your cat leaves a poop nugget outside the liter box ? Did t notice it at first so now I have to deal with being terrified I've got cat poop on me until I next shower. Greeeeeaaaaaaaaat ??

I'm struggling with ocd and hocd what helps you on bad days to feel better and to ease the symptoms because it's really bad

Does anyone suffer from Real Event OCD?

Can any Christians out there please help me? Do any of you feel that God isn’t forgiving you? I feel very defeated against my OCD and that I feel like praying isn’t doing anything because God doesn’t want to listen to me. There are some parts of the bible that scare me, where God says that if we don’t confess our sins he won’t forgive us, which makes me obsess over if I’m confessing correctly. I feel very conflicted about my past and I’m worried that it’s a weight too heavy for God to carry and forgive me for. Even saying that makes me feel like I’m sinning because I’m not acknowledging God’s power. But I can’t help it because it’s just how my brain works. I wish there was more in the bible to do with mental illness. Any of you have any advice on how to deal with this?

It feels like I genuinely like it there is no way ocd can be this convincing :(

I have been dealing with harm/suicidal intrusive thoughts OCD since August of last year. I know I don’t want to act on it and I love my life/family/etc., plus these thoughts and feelings have been extremely distressing for me, but why are there many moments where my mind says that’s actually what I do want or it tries to make me feel ashamed for being with my family or planning for the future. It scares me because I’m afraid of actually truly feeling that way or afraid of becoming depressed and wanting to actually do that when I know I’m not depressed.

My name is Chrisa. I've suffered with OCD for over 30 years. It's gotten worse lately, especially since my elderly kitty has gotten very sick, plus other stressors. It's never been this bad. My rituals involve numbers, counting, among other things, in response to stress and the thoughts of preventing my cats death and other "bad" things from happening. I know there is no logic in this, it's ridiculous, it makes no sense, yet my brain feels what I call " hijacked". There are few people that know I have OCD. My own husband doesn't know. I've learned how to hide it well over the years after being ridiculed by family members when I was a child with OCD symptoms. I'm in a tremendous amount of distress. No drugs have worked for me, nor has RBT or CBT.

I am obsessing for pm a friend of mine. My family thinks she Just uses me and she is not a good person for me to be with. In the other side I dont have any friends, and I would love that feeling again, and not feeling lonely... I Just dont know what to do...