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Struggling with my partner not following basuc infection control. One example. I. Like to use 1 cloth for drying hands and one cloth for drying countertoos after antibacing(well I like to let the countertoops dry themselves to allow the surface cleaner to work but my partner insists on drying them). My. Partner will wash.her hands then dry them then use same cloth.for counters. This is driving me mad but when I say to her. About it. She ignores me and acts like It's erp for ocd. Personally this grates me and makes me angry as its not ocd it's just basic hygiene. But she won't have it. I've even suggested using paper towels.for her hands but again she ignored me. She just sees everything as my ocd. I'm quite pissed off today. She won't even d8scuss it as she she's it as ocd and I'm criticising her

Hello does anyone have any tips on overcoming trans ocd?

i... just misgendered one of my friends and i’ve never felt so horrible in my life. since we’re online friends, i’ve only seen their face and since they looked like a girl.. i thought they were a girl.. and.. i accidentally misgendered him. i feel like crying right now.

someone please give me advice. what would you do in my situation. i keep getting transphobic intrusive thoughts... and my boyfriend is trans... my head keeps trying to misgender him and i love him to pieces. i was never like this before.. the thoughts are so ugly and disgusting and i don’t want to give up on him or us. what would you do in my situation. i just want to keep him safe and when i get thoughts like these i feel beyond terrible and confused about myself. please only respond if you’re accepting. no transphobic comments will be tolerated. i’m already frightened as it is and ignorance doesn’t help

I have this problem when I wake up for school I feel like I need to take a 💩 sorry if it grossed u out but then i will get nervous in school sometimes and I still needing to let a fart out and it’s embarrassing farting so I hold it in the anxiety of holding it in just increases and idk what is this problem someone help me I have school tomorrow and it’s destroying me

Has anyone experienced OCD being passed along from a parent who has an undiagnosed issue? I’m realizing I probably have OCD because my mother has untreated anxiety that she continues to pass along to me. I’m in therapy working on contamination/responsibility OCD, and it was going so well until my mother told me I’m getting “too relaxed” with COVID going on. For context, my OCD since the pandemic started has been absolutely crippling. I live alone and I didn’t leave the house for months. Not for walks, not for groceries, not for anything. I was absolutely miserable and at my wit’s end. Now that I’m in therapy, I’ve been doing so much better. I’ve been talking walks and even seeing friends (6 feet apart, outdoors, with masks on). Now my mother is unraveling all my progress. She saw my dad and I sitting outside in the backyard, about 10 feet apart. My dad wasn’t wearing a mask because he was eating. I was wearing my mask and keeping my distance. My mother went berserk and told me I’m “too lax” and that I should have scolded my dad, and that I shouldn’t have been “so close.” This is the kind of thinking that kept me in the house, questioning the point of life. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I was making so much progress and I feel like it’s all totally undone and I never want to leave the house again. And my parents are the only people I see regularly at this point so to avoid my mother would be difficult, not to mention hard on my dad. Just wondering if anyone can relate to anything like this, or if anyone has any advice. Thank you.

I don’t understand why my mind keeps accusing me of this. I acted on a compulsion and saw videos of gay people knowing they were gay. They always knew but for me the only time I’ve ever been attracted has been to women. Even now my mind is saying that I’ve forced myself to like women. I wish I could just end this all already and be happy with my sexuality. I still only feel attracted to women but my can’t let it go. I feel horrible for my girlfriend because I don’t want to lose her. I wish I was single so I could suffer alone. I was told by a bisexual man that I would fuck a man if I was drunk. I’m so scared to even consider drinking at this point. Ever since I was kid I loved women but now my mind is bringing up things and saying a kid I noticed that was a guy means I liked him and wanted him even though I actually only liked his sister. I slightly wanna cry but my girlfriend lives with me so I just walk around with this sadness. I wish I could just stop so badly. It’s convincing I’m denial and I can’t even notice another guy right now with out getting a wave of anxiety. I wish my therapy session wasn’t so far from now. I want to start so badly. I want to learn how to combat these thoughts so badly.

omg i caved and did a compulsion. i googled a comphet subreddit. not feeling great rn. one person said that there’s a type of attraction where you are attracted to someone because they are attracted to you, and i kinda related to that. like when i think about being w a guy, it turns me on when i think of him being turned on by me if yk what i mean? so now i’m wondering if i’m comphet :(. and they kept on mentioning a “masterdoc” so now i’m really tempted to read it to test if i relate to that, but i’m going to try not to because i think that’s a compulsion/seeking reassurance.

Question to those who have taken ssri or any other medication for ocd. Did they help you with the obsessive thoughts becoming less frequent? My therapist who I was seeing said they can lessen the frequency. I started with prozac back in May but it scared me cause it raised my anxiety and the suicidal thoughts so I've been against them ever since. I was seeing a therapist but she wasn't erp trained and I wanted to give erp a fair shot before considering medications. I start erp soon just waiting to hear from the NOCD therapist. Sorry long post.

This morning I was wiping my daughter and I felt like I saw some additional poop so I went to wipe her again but wasn’t sure if I wiped her private area and was almost scared that the poop was in the private area. Now after that I’ve been ruminating that I just did it on purpose to like touch her private area. This sounds like just a fear response or my brain doing what I hate but is this common? Trying to plan an exposure for this and cut the ruminating out.

Someone on here just told me that I might be a gay person with internalized homophobia and I literally had a panic attack to the point where I started crying. I’ve never wanted to be with a woman but I have forced myself to imagine them sexually and romantically so that I can gain certainty (this causes distress and disgust). They said this after I told them that I had an intrusive thought about a woman being hot when they did something (this thought came out of the blue and I felt EXTREMELY uncomfortable). Please note that I’ve never EVER had a thought like this about a woman before. My problems started because I accidentally looked at someone on a TV screen after looking up from my phone. I’ve never once had a thought like this so I wasn’t sure whether my mind was playing tricks on me or not. Either way, someone told me that I must be suffering from internalized homophobia and I became VERY agitated; I couldn’t move, I kept googling for reassurance, I started to panic and I began to cry. Now they’ve convinced me that I no longer have HOCD and I am so frightened. I don’t care what others think because my friends and family aren’t bothered either way. Personally, I just don’t want to be. Has anyone else had a thought saying someone’s hot (someone they don’t actually want to be romantically or sexually involved with)? Is this my mind playing tricks on me? Is this person correct? I need some guidance because it’s not about reassurance anymore. It’s about understanding whether I need therapy or whether I’m lying to myself. I’m honestly so distressed.

I'd like to ask for your advice about how to react to people with SOOCD when they're saying really extreme things? Don't get me wrong, I know that SOOCD and internalized homophibia are very different things, I'm only talking about the few cases where the two seem to coexist together? I'm always open to changing my perspective, I'm just trying to find the right thing to do, because I want to help people and don't want to make them more stressed when they already are, but how can I hold my tongue when they're saying they'd rather be dead than gay? Or talking about it with such disgust as if it's some perversion. I'm bi and lucky to live in a kind environment but other people aren't so lucky, some people actually commit suicide because they aren't accepted, so how am I supposed to react to this kind of thing? I'm keeping an open mind and not trying to attack anyone, just wondering where we draw the line?

Last month I was sexually assaulted by a friend. I have been dating my bf for 4 years. I told my bf immediately when I found out, but when I found out the truth about what happened to me while I was passed out drunk that night, my OCD flared out of control. I was definitely having symptoms of PTSD before my friend had told me what happened. I had a flashback to him on top of me, and that's all I remembered. I had thrown the clothes I wore in the wash already so I can not use them as evidence. I didnt get a rape kit done, but I had a physical last week and I am clean of any STDs or STIs thankfully. And he apparently used a condom. Now I am constantly having intrusive thoughts about that night and how my boyfriend views me now. He said he loves me and wants to do whatever he can to help me heal, but my OCD monster keeps trying to tell me that he is only here because he feels bad for me. My bf was not there the night I was assaulted, and he feels guilty that he should have been there to protect me. I feel unlovable and like I have zero confidence now. My skin picking and hair plucking OCD is worse than ever, I cant calm myself without using some sort of meditation/hypnosis. I am working through therapy every week. I just want this feeling to be over. I keep reliving that night having intense intrusive thoughts about if I "wanted it", how I could have prevented this, how could I let this happen to me, and that I deserved this somehow. As if this is karma for bad things my OCD has driven me to do in the past while I had obsessive episodes.

. . . hi guys help me with some advice. I can't stop moving my lower jaw under the bill for a week. how can I help myself? this summer and autumn, OCD became very acute. the psychiatrist prescribed venlafaxine. It doesn't help. there are also many compulsions and rituals. Obsessions with 8 years ... damn, anyone. Reply.

i had my first therapy session today and for some reason i actually feel a little worse because i’ve come up with even more intrusive thoughts. can anyone in therapy tell me if it’s supposed to get worse at first?

I have a biopsy in a weeks time and have contamination ocd. I have what I consider a valid concern around getting sick right now. I've been having pain in my neck and chest since April. Through a series of delayed tests because of the pandemic, we discovered a large mass growing on my thyroid. Obviously cancer crosses my mind a lot. My biopsy is next week but I have been waiting quite a while for it due to backlogs from the pandemic. My fear is that if I even so much as catch a cold, I wont be let in for my biopsy because those symptoms are likened to covid. And I would have to wait months more for a new biopsy scheduling once again due to the pandemic. My parents came for a visit today and I asked them to please wear masks. This is the first time I have asked them to do that but because I feel the utmost need to stay healthy I requested it. They got really angry with me and told me they had brought coffee they wanted to drink because so they could t wear masks. I compromised and said well, like at a restaurant, dont wear it while you are drinking coffee, but wear it otherwise. When we got in the yard, they sat their with their coffees, not drinking, and not wearing the mask either. Unmasked, my father started to yell at me that my ocd was too much, the mask makes him feel like hes in a cage, and that he just wanted to drink his coffee. I was very very hurt, started crying and demanded they leave. I really cannot handle unmasked shouting since shouting sends droplets further. My mum had already gone before I even asked because she could tell the visit was heading south, but my dad yelled at me unmasked for quite a while until I gave up and went in the house. They then left. I think my ocd about the germs will kick in tonight or tomorrow but the hardest thing right now is the absolute disregard for my biopsy appointment. If things had been the other way, and my dad had been sick for months with an appointment coming up, and we went over there unmasked and yelling they would have been livid. He gets offended that I treat everyone including them as if they might have covid. I dont understand the offense. It's not like a stigma....no onecatches covid by doing something disgusting. It just happens if we are out in public and unlucky enough to be by someone who is contagious. I feel so deeply hurt that his coffee trumped my biopsy that I have been waiting months and months for and if I even get the sniffles, I could face waiting months and months longer for. It truly truly hurts me. I'm not seeking reassurance about.illness, but I didnt think I was being that unreasonable. Just last week we had an unmasked visit. I never ask.them for masks. Just this once since this is such an important appointment for me and in a pandemic, a hospital wont let me in if I have new symptoms of even a cold. Why is a coffee so much more important than that? I'm their only daughter and a mask and coffee really made them fly off the handle. Was I so wrong to ask for that? It really seems reasonable to me given the circumstances.

I don't think my current therapist can help me so much anymore the way I think these OCD therapists would. I asked about ERP, but she said my theme is more "thoughts" than objects where I should be exposed, and plus the lockdown. Meds, on the other hand, can be so risky, and I do not know where to get them if ever. I mean, I don't know how to drive since my brother is the one doing that. Also, spending money from my father makes me guilty. And I don't my brother to know I am spending cash for meds. Well, I do know I can handle without them. I've been this far --- I'm 21 now, and I never took meds.

Anyone who has therapy before on here, I have a question for you. Has your nocd therapist ever told you that OCD is there forever and you must manage it for the rest of your life?Just like the Babadook... if you’ve ever watched that movie. Sounds a bit fishy if you ask me. Anyways back to the point. I never understood why you have to pay yourself to get the help you need when you got into the problem for FREE. I don’t think anyone should have to pay to get help. Some thing just doesn’t add up with this app. The ocd most DEFINITELY can be overcome and it is NOT permanent. I seriously think it is a way they can keep getting more money out of your pockets. The ocd is NOT you remember, even though I know it feels like it. You must conquer this thing and MUST by YOURSELF and cannot rely on anyone else to fix you. Needed to get this off my chest.

TW for people with pocd Okay so since I've been on this app I've been getting ocd about people with pocd? I feel extremely bad about this, because I know how awful it is to have sexual intrusive thoughts (not about kids though), and I want to be supportive, but my mind keeps saying "what if you just encouraged someone who actually will harm children?" Maybe I shouldn't post this, I'll delete if necessary because I don't want to make anyone feel worse just because of my own anxiety... but even irl people around me keep making pedo jokes and it makes me feel so horrible, I guess I'm just really sensitive about the matter, I want to protect any child of any potential harm

hi everyone, i was doing a bit better regarding my pocd and then today i had a horrible spike. My aunt was visiting and i was playing around with my 3 year old cousin and we played this game where i’m on my back and i lift her up by holding her hands with mine and her legs with my feet, sort of like she’s flying. First time went well and she laughed a lot second time when she fell my leg touched her bum accidentally which was a bit triggering but i decided to disregard it and keep playing even tho i knew the risks that it might happen again, the third time when she fell she fell in a way where she was like sitting on my leg and her nappy area was touching my leg and i said out loud “no no get off” and immediately removed my leg and i felt like i was gonna have a panic attack. I feel horrible, i knew the risk that it might happen and i still played the game, does that mean i did this on purpose?? did i molest my cousin?? i shouldn’t have kept playing it i’ve played with my sister before and i knew sometimes she’d fall and my leg would touch her bum but it was always on accident now i feel like i did this on purpose. am i horrible person?? i know reassurance is bad but i really need someone to tell me if i fucked up.