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Rocd help I have rocd the other way around Im terribly afraid that my boyfriend might stop loving me or might not love me. I’m always checking how he feels towards me, checking how often he says I love you, checking if he is attracted to me... He tells me that I don’t need to worry about that but I’m unable to trust or believe him. Always questioning: What if he doesn’t love me and is afraid of telling me? What if he lies to me? What if he thinks he loves me but doesn’t? What if he pretends to protect me from pain? Im always trying to be the nicest to him and to please him I do a lot of researches on the internet And because I fight against jealousy because of my intense fear of loss, I’m afraid of him going out by himself. He might find someone else or start thinking that I’m boring... my fear is so intense that it actually feels like a physical pain in my heart. I told him about all of that and my fear He said that I wouldn’t need to worry and that he won’t leave me, that he loves me and that he only wants me and no other. He already said that very often because I’m questioning so much... Well today I looked at the horoscope and I regret it Because it says that I will get news tonight ( when he goes out with his friends after a long time) I then went on another page and there it said that my love life will struggle... im now TERRIFIED ARE THOSE THINGS TRUE? I don’t want to lose him! I ve had rocd before but I feared not loving him... I have the same patterns like before Which is why I’m also asking myself if I have rocd from another perspective now... I don’t know what to do

I'd love to hear other people's issue or experience with HOCD and any successful, healthy relationships? A thing that sometimes gets to me is that I loved men for the longest time and used to have all these crushes. Recently it feels like I don't have any feeling and no excitement. My boyfriend and I just broke up and it was because I was doubting it too much. HOCD never came up until the end.

anyone else scared theyre a bad person? and get worried and try to find parallels to prove they’re not evil when watching movies and stuff?

I didn’t know incest OCD existed, but it makes me feel better knowing so because I struggle with it too. I was molested by my older half brother but now that he’s out of my life it makes things better that I’m not thinking about him, but the thoughts are towards my own father and whenever I think about them, they don’t affect me as much as I want them to; they don’t bring on intense anxiety and it scares me because I think I’m enjoying them? Can someone also have more than one subtype of OCD? I have thoughts of harming others, incest, and pedophelia and my mind continues to find something else to obsess over nearly every month to every 6 months. I’m lost, could someone please share their answers or insight, it’d be greatly appreciated!

I had an awful intrusive thought/half-dream (I was in the weird place between awake and sleeping lol.) and it actually started off fine but then my brain said “this is a child” and I literally panicked. I was kind of aroused when it started and I feel so guilty about it. I know the body responds to what is “sexually relevant” but it’s such a scary, awful, disgusting feeling, I feel like a terrible person for having this come into my head. Like I secretly want it

I can’t tell if I’m purposefully thinking about my unwanted thoughts, or if they’re truly intrusive. Could someone help explain the difference? I’m very confused. Also I keep telling myself if I don’t enjoy the thoughts then I’m okay and normal, but the anxiety behind the thoughts don’t stop. I need some clarification stat!!

Are their any doctors with ocd on here? I want to go to medical school soon but everyone in my life tells me I shouldn’t because I have ocd and it’ll be too hard for me.

For a brief moment I had relief from my health anxiety but now I am freaking out about breast cancer because it’s more common than I thought

I’m interested in hearing people’s stories who have went through cbt and are on meds. I have a appointment on Wednesday to possibly start an SSRI for the first time, I have recovered and reduced my symptoms by about 70% since starting cbt therapy and I’m thinking meds will help level out my brain chemistry to get to that full 100% reduction of symptoms. My therapist says it is a good idea and says that he recommends meds + therapy for the best possible results. Any stories/thoughts?

Looked up articles about “how to if you’re gay” online as reassurance and now I’m convinced that I am. My poor S.O...I wish I just knew and didn’t have doubts

Hey guys, ik I’ve posted quite a bit but I need to ask something. Suddenly today, I’ve started having uncontrollable movements and jerks and idk what it is. It could be Tourette’s but idk if it’s my mind playing tricks on me and I haven’t really had anything like this before so I’m not sure what to do. It’s only been today but I’m getting rlly scared. If anyone knows anything plz help

Today I turned 20 and had a great day and night with my friends and family. My mom was very kind, yet when I get home from hanging with my boyfriend, she’s drunk. Intrusions come about blaming myself, I know it’s not fault, but I feel the urge to fix very broke people. I did it with many friends and my mom, but those are just compulsions. Besides that though, my birthday was one of the best and I’m so grateful to live in an amazing state

Does anyone else experience really BAD food aversion with OCD? I don’t know why but I just can’t eat certain foods, with no reason

TW POCD Does anyone else have intrusive thoughts about watching CP? There was a Black Mirror episode about it, and ever since I watched a year ago it’s been non stop. I’m currently doing ERP with a specialist and I’m hoping it will help in the long run. Tonight, I got the feeling that my mind was telling me “go, do it!!” It felt so real. Anyone else hear a tiny voice like that? Provides for some serious doubts about who I am. Anyway, hope everyone is doing well, this stuff is a struggle to say the least

For anyone who would be willing to share I am wondering how imaginal exposure has helped in recovery of harm OCD. This has recently been introduced in my therapy and I find it challenging to do...

(quick disclaimer that this is very hard for me to talk about and I’m thankful for any input you ladies could offer.) I’m a first time mom and loving it. However, I noticed my OCD spiking near the end of my pregnancy and it has only intensified since then. It manifests itself in sooo many different ways, at this point it’s getting impossible to manage. I bounced between therapist as a teenager but once I was living alone with my fiancé, I immediately developed a habit of “blacking/blanking out” at the time of my therapy sessions. I tried to reschedule but the same thing would always happen somehow. No pretty way to say it, we’re poor. Lower middle class.. if even. And as I was getting the courage to inquire about a state healthcare-covered therapist, I got a letter saying I was no longer eligible for insurance. I don’t know what to do. My OCD is truly putting my relationship to the test. My fiancé really has no clue how my mind works anymore, he can’t understand my logic (or lack of) and gets frustrated quickly. I’m scared it’ll eventually affect my daughter. Going to my family for help would be a mistake (been there, deeply regret that) and I’m against prescription drugs for many reasons. Does anybody else have OCD? How do you keep it from controlling your life?

Hey guys. My therapist really wants me to take a term off from college and go to an axiety clinic for my ocd. I would have to move back with my parents which isn’t perfect but could also be nice. I’m very skeptical of this because I’m on meds for ocd and my thoughts are slowly getting easy to manage and the good thing about being in college is that it can distract me but other times it’s too stressful. I know I should listen to my therapist but I’m just scared that moving home away from my friends will make my mental health worse. Anybody else been in a situation like this? Or has done a treatment program?

Does anyone have the same thought/image for hours on end?

I just started taking new medication and I have intrusive thoughts about overdosing on the medication. How do you guys handle these thoughts if you get them as well?

TW POCD Babysitting those kids that aren’t mine again. This time for an entire week. Mine is here too but I’m used to him. at home he has his own room and that helps me at night when the thoughts come because he’s in his room and I’m in mine and I can forget about it. He’s eight. In this house, the little one is six and the older one is fourteen. The little one knows how to dress himself but he can’t take a bath on his own because he doesn’t know how to wash his hair. I was almost tempted to have him wear some swim shorts in the tub but that would’ve been ridiculous. I closed my eyes and focused on washing his hair. He doesn’t like to sleep alone. This is a problem because I don’t want to sleep in the bed with him. I don’t even like to sleep in the same bed as my own kid. I know I won’t sleep because I’ll be busy with compulsions. The first night I slept with my back to the kid and my hands on a fist, while my kid slept in pull out bed. The second night I made them sleep in the bed together while I took the pull out bed. We are on night number three and the little ones fell asleep on different beds. I opted for the pull out bed my own kid fell asleep on. I have three more nights to go after this. The older one will not stop making “that’s what she said” jokes and I’m the only she in the house. This is mentally exhausting.