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Is it possible I need to be on medication forever? Like does my brain have less serotonin than it's meant to

I believe in God. Recently I was in the church with my boyfriend. At the end I was praying and I heard from God something like: ‘you two won’t be together’. I don’t know guys what to think about it. Maybe he is trying to tell me this. I pray less and less because I don’t want to hear that. Help me please ?

So I’ve had some anxiety crop up related to POCD this week. Intrusive thoughts, etc. it’s happened once before but I wasn’t educated on OCD then or seeing my therapist so I’ve never talked about it. I’m terrified to tell my therapist because I’m terrified of being reported. I’ve never done anything harmful or even WANTED to do anything harmful. I am NOT a danger and I know it! I just want help dealing with the thoughts but am scared to share in therapy. Anyone else experience this?

Hello everyone. I feel like everyone talks about similar obsessions and compulsions. Let’s shed some light on the different ones and talk more about them. I always feel like nobody has the same ocd as me and that frustrates me so much. Let’s Leave below some your crazy, weird, unique, and different intrusive thought, obsessions, compulsions, and feelings. Let’s see if you find your ocd twin.

I have had hocd for a while now almost a year... and I am in a happy realatship with my boyfriend but I still get the feel of doubt like what if I don’t love him... and then the next day I will be completely fine and now I was just laying in bed and then all of a sudden I thought what if I become transgender and my heart just dropped I had like serval mental break down I have been doing so many compulsions because I know I am heterosexual and I love my boyfriend like why am I thinking of all it ? I am so scared please help

LONG POST: Can someone help me by answering this? I’ve had intrusive thoughts before but I used to just push them away. In September, I had intrusive thought about life after death and it sent me into a spiral of fear and anxiety. I had trouble falling asleep and focusing during the day. I went to see a therapist a month later. It was a walk-in session and they told me to do CBT. Accept uncertainty and move on. This gave me even more anxiety. Eventually, with meditation, i was able to keep the thoughts at bay. Then in December, I began to have intrusive thoughts about my sister. They were sexually disturbing and I even wished that I could have intrusive thoughts about death again. I then it switched to sexual thoughts about my brother and he’s only a kid so I feel even more disgusted by myself. It’s been like this for three months now. I’ve tried meditating but it’s not doing much. I’m ashamed to tell my parents and I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid I’ll act on the thoughts all the time. Then I wonder if I actually want to have them. It’s so draining. I hate waking up each day to these thoughts. I wonder if I actually want to have them since I have had them for so long. I’m so frustrated with myself.

I feel triggered by the sight and shape of breasts. My anxiety goes away when the other person puts on a coat. But when she takes it off, I feel like I am trying to have a normal conversation while strobe lights are going on from her breasts. I am female. I feel distressed at this fixation and sad because it interferes with my ability to connect with the other person, and I really value my image of myself as sociable and warm. But I just can’t shake this sense that breasts are an aberration, that they shouldn’t be there, and I’m puzzled at how people can go on with life as usual when they have these weird things on their body. Breasts, to me, feel “other.” When this anxiety arises, I wonder: Is this OCD, or should I just accept myself as queer, or is this sense of breasts as “other” actually a psychological outcome of having very petite breasts and a mother with literally no breasts? Or maybe all three explanations are in part true? Whatever it is, the scariest thing is that it may always keep happening to me. It’s been going on now for almost 30 years! I did OCD treatment but am not entirely sure that OCD is the best explanation of what’s going on here.

Anybody elses experiences being afraid og getting depressed? And are afraid of getting negative thoughts like "Nothing makes sense or makes me happy" even though you know Its not true? - Its like getting instrutive thoughts about depression?

Today it happened. I got out the prison of my mind for the past 4 years. 1 year of therapy and today IT FUCKING HAPPENED. I came out of MY IMPOSSIBLE I am even scared to say it knowing that I will doubt it or remember how I got trapped in the first place. BUT IM FUCKING OUT GUYS. I MADE IT OUT TO THE OTHER SIDE AND I FEEL LIKE ME AGAIN. WOW. I sill never thought this was possible.

Rocd help I have rocd the other way around Im terribly afraid that my boyfriend might stop loving me or might not love me. I’m always checking how he feels towards me, checking how often he says I love you, checking if he is attracted to me... He tells me that I don’t need to worry about that but I’m unable to trust or believe him. Always questioning: What if he doesn’t love me and is afraid of telling me? What if he lies to me? What if he thinks he loves me but doesn’t? What if he pretends to protect me from pain? Im always trying to be the nicest to him and to please him I do a lot of researches on the internet And because I fight against jealousy because of my intense fear of loss, I’m afraid of him going out by himself. He might find someone else or start thinking that I’m boring... my fear is so intense that it actually feels like a physical pain in my heart. I told him about all of that and my fear He said that I wouldn’t need to worry and that he won’t leave me, that he loves me and that he only wants me and no other. He already said that very often because I’m questioning so much... Well today I looked at the horoscope and I regret it Because it says that I will get news tonight ( when he goes out with his friends after a long time) I then went on another page and there it said that my love life will struggle... im now TERRIFIED ARE THOSE THINGS TRUE? I don’t want to lose him! I ve had rocd before but I feared not loving him... I have the same patterns like before Which is why I’m also asking myself if I have rocd from another perspective now... I don’t know what to do

I'd love to hear other people's issue or experience with HOCD and any successful, healthy relationships? A thing that sometimes gets to me is that I loved men for the longest time and used to have all these crushes. Recently it feels like I don't have any feeling and no excitement. My boyfriend and I just broke up and it was because I was doubting it too much. HOCD never came up until the end.

anyone else scared theyre a bad person? and get worried and try to find parallels to prove they’re not evil when watching movies and stuff?

I didn’t know incest OCD existed, but it makes me feel better knowing so because I struggle with it too. I was molested by my older half brother but now that he’s out of my life it makes things better that I’m not thinking about him, but the thoughts are towards my own father and whenever I think about them, they don’t affect me as much as I want them to; they don’t bring on intense anxiety and it scares me because I think I’m enjoying them? Can someone also have more than one subtype of OCD? I have thoughts of harming others, incest, and pedophelia and my mind continues to find something else to obsess over nearly every month to every 6 months. I’m lost, could someone please share their answers or insight, it’d be greatly appreciated!

I had an awful intrusive thought/half-dream (I was in the weird place between awake and sleeping lol.) and it actually started off fine but then my brain said “this is a child” and I literally panicked. I was kind of aroused when it started and I feel so guilty about it. I know the body responds to what is “sexually relevant” but it’s such a scary, awful, disgusting feeling, I feel like a terrible person for having this come into my head. Like I secretly want it

I can’t tell if I’m purposefully thinking about my unwanted thoughts, or if they’re truly intrusive. Could someone help explain the difference? I’m very confused. Also I keep telling myself if I don’t enjoy the thoughts then I’m okay and normal, but the anxiety behind the thoughts don’t stop. I need some clarification stat!!

Are their any doctors with ocd on here? I want to go to medical school soon but everyone in my life tells me I shouldn’t because I have ocd and it’ll be too hard for me.

For a brief moment I had relief from my health anxiety but now I am freaking out about breast cancer because it’s more common than I thought

I’m interested in hearing people’s stories who have went through cbt and are on meds. I have a appointment on Wednesday to possibly start an SSRI for the first time, I have recovered and reduced my symptoms by about 70% since starting cbt therapy and I’m thinking meds will help level out my brain chemistry to get to that full 100% reduction of symptoms. My therapist says it is a good idea and says that he recommends meds + therapy for the best possible results. Any stories/thoughts?

Looked up articles about “how to if you’re gay” online as reassurance and now I’m convinced that I am. My poor S.O...I wish I just knew and didn’t have doubts

Hey guys, ik I’ve posted quite a bit but I need to ask something. Suddenly today, I’ve started having uncontrollable movements and jerks and idk what it is. It could be Tourette’s but idk if it’s my mind playing tricks on me and I haven’t really had anything like this before so I’m not sure what to do. It’s only been today but I’m getting rlly scared. If anyone knows anything plz help