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I really hope someone can give me some words of advice on this topic as I’m really struggling. After having a conversation about suicide, it triggered me thinking ‘what if I kill myself’ ‘what if I get depressed and kill myself’. The next day and still today I have symptoms of depression. I feel emotionless and numb and everything that used to make me happy now doesn’t. I never was depressed I’ve always had ocd but I’ve still managed to be happy and this only started two days ago after the suicide conversation which I think triggered ocd on this theme. I keep thinking no this is real I’m really depressed and I’ll never be happy again and I’m going to kill myself. Can anyone please relate and offer some advice I don’t know if this is normal and how to get over it :(

For the first time, in a very long time I feel really motivated to do something with my life. I want to start going to the gym, do slimming world, I want to look into doing meditation, go food shopping tomorrow, try different little things to enhance my mood and distract my OCD. But I’m worried that it’s late at night and I’m feeling this now and by the morning my usual lazy, feel sorry for myself, unmotivated self will be back and I won’t get any of it done. I’m also worried that I haven’t taken my tablets properly for the last week and a bit as I changed the place that I usually keep them and I keep forgetting about them and I only have two left and I keep forgetting to order new ones. I don’t usually feel as though my tablets do much for me but this morning I felt intense sadness over the smallest of things and was going straight to suicidal thoughts and now I’m on top of the world, motivated for change. I’ve not noticed it before as I’ve never been on tablets long enough to feel a change before so I don’t know whether it means they work because I haven’t felt these intense high and lows in a while, my moods been pretty stable, almost numb like. Like I don’t really feel anything, nothing fazes me much, only my moments of anxiety when I’m in the obsession-ritual cycle. Or that I’m aware I haven’t taken them properly and I’m creating this feeling or I’m feeling these intense feelings because of situations that have caused them. Anyone else able to relate or shed some light on this?

when i was in middle/high i got mocked and teased for having OCD. now i’m afraid to talk about it anywhere besides here. i know that you all understand what it’s like and i appreciate all of your help and guidance, but i wish the people in my life would take it more seriously and not make me feel like an attention seeking lunatic

Having intrusive thoughts all day ever since I woke up, I was fine earlier this morning but now it just feels real and at times I don’t feel like myself, as if something else has taken over. It wants me to turn into things that I don’t want, it wants me to hurt, and I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s like after my exposures I feel like myself again but then my thoughts come right back saying it was a lie. I honestly feel numb, the numbest I ever felt. I’m so tired.

i kinda just let the thoughts sit in my head but right now it just seems i don’t have an attraction to guys. it’s really scaring me and i’m not sure what to do about it. i’m scared to date guys because i’m scared to get hurt or have past trauma happen to me again and i feel liek that’s the reason i have these thoughts like “what if you just don’t like guys and you’re denying it” or “what if you just don’t like guys at all” and i know that’s not true because i’ve NEVER been attracted to any girls in that way. only guys and i’ve always been attracted to guys even really young. i’m just kinda scared right now and not sure what to do can someone help?

So I heard one my best friends saying she has OCD. All she did was considered perfectionism and she was organizing peoples stuff on school. I do organize my suff but as a compultion and it is not like it bothers me , I HAVE to, I don’t think she understands. I would be torturing myself instead of organizing ppl stuff, is not like she didn’t want ppl to watch it.I think she wanted attention or smth, but I felt offended about it .

Is it normal to feel fear before starting your first relationship? There's this guy that I've become friends with, but the conversations that we have hint to something more. I can't help but think about what if he isn't the right one for me, or that it is nonesense to have a relationship right now because it will eventualy end and what's the point etc.

New thread guys!

Another imagined scenario at work tonight when washing my hands at the break room sink - every time I finished rinsing my hands, my brain convinced me I had taken them and rubbed them all over the sink. Like cleaning the sink with them in place of a wipe or something. Just over and over. So naturally my response is, oh darn let's wash them again. I was in there forever. This has happened to me when people are in there too and it's so mortifying because I can't stop, and I know people can see me. People waiting to use the sink (or bathroom if I'm in there) makes my compulsions SO much worse. It's just exhausting.

Help please. :( As I go back to work tomorrow I find myself laying in bed fighting the tears. My fear that people are always talking about me is so bad to the point I want to call of work. This struggle is so hard to deal with. I am trying to remember that this is in my head and not real. :(

Ocd is really exhausting me in my relationship it’s like I’m paranoid abt this one girl for no reason and i keep having mental pictures of her and my man in my head get this tingly feeling so i feel like it’s gonna come true

Has anyone ever struggled with POCD with one specific child?? I’m kind of struggling with this right now

Okay does anyone else’s OCD make them thing they “love” other people, I’ve gone through this thought stage with like each of my friends, and then i go through a stage where anytime I see or think about that person I’m launched into anxiety? I’ve never really been good about keeping and maintaining friends either because of my trust issues. I only have like two best friends, and I’m almost 18. I have a boyfriend and my guilt is killing me! I’ve personally haven’t thought this much about wanting to hurt myself before.

what are some of you’re compulsions? tell a few in the comments :)

Guys I did a compulsion and stalked my boyfriends ex girlfriends Facebook page. And my anxiety got the better of me today .... and I’m heart broken cause they shared something special. I just wanted to say that... I just am in a low state right now.

I have compulsions where I feel that I must run through lists of the things I need to do over and over before I can start certain tasks. My mind feels so fuzzy unless I organize my thoughts in this way. I try to just start a task without doing this but then I feel distracted the whole time. Anyone else have this problem?

Does anyone else have constant OCD about their body and the way it looks. This is one of my OCD themes, body image

Anybody get ocd about their health ? Like I'm scared I'm going to have a brain aneurysm or something. I'm terrified and have convinced myself something is wrong .

What are everyone’s thoughts on the ketamine approach?

Does anyone check Same sex pornography for arousal? I feel alone and scared I can’t do this anymore