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My boyfriend says it's flirting to talk to someone if they are attractive. I'm paranoid I've talked to my new co worker because he is attractive. I am so anxious right now. I keep asking myself "did I talk to him because he was attractive" and I think I did. I've done this before and it's caused issues in my relationship, and I'm scared if I tell my bf he's gonna break up with me. I didn't say anything flirting it was just like "hey welcome to our job" and "you're going to really enjoy working with Cindy". I'm worried I said things to him because he was attractive. I would have said it to any other new Co worker but I'm paranoid I said something because he is attractive

Happy Wednesday y'all ❤ I see a lot of y'all struggling today so I'd like to offer a different perspective. When you are focusing on gratitude, it makes it quite difficult to be preoccupied with your worries. Just like how practicing compassion for a person who might be annoying you in the moment makes it harder for you to ya know...be annoyed with them. You are offering them understanding and patience, so extend that offer over to yourself. Because you totally deserve it!:) Make a list of 10 things you are grateful for and really focus on the feelings of gratitude. I promise it'll lift your mood 💛💛💛

ERT Hi all, my ocd is around bad things happening in the world and I have just started ert. At the moment it is just reading news articles but it has been really difficult and led to high anxiety and stress levels. I don't know what to do! I feel like it's not going to help as surely reading about bad things is going to make me think that everything is bad as the news is extremely skewed towards negative things. So I don't see how it's going to help! I feel to lead a more happy life you would avoid the news and focus on the good, no?

To everyone who went through/is going through ERP, what has changed? I need motivation to do ERP

Hello everyone Im 25 years old And i think I'm having my worst ocd episode ever And I'm really doubting if it is ocd or starting to be psychotic Long story short : everything started after my dad pass away 3 years ago I started to have overwhelming anxiety that wouldn't stop and panic attacks Then the fear of going crazy steped in especially to have schizophrenia I took two courses of medicine which made me better But last two months after I cut my medicine things started to be really distressing My ocd started to littearly affect everything in my life especially existenal ocd After that the same fear came again fear of schizophrenia which littearly made me super aware about everything .... Some symptoms started to come again as : Illusions Hypnogogic hallucinations (before sleep hallucinations) Misidentification people (when i see some one totally strange for the first sight i feel he is someone i know or he looks familiar) Existenal panic (when ever i think about existince and what it would be looks like if there is no existince i get like a little panic attack and strange feeling) At last feeling deattached for a while when being alone And strange feeling and anxiety while being alone and looking at a mirror .......... I've always been concerned whether I'm at high risk developing schizophrenia So i read that there are some scales from people who are schizophrenic describing their strange experiences So i read every scale (caarms ' anomalous self experience ' sips) And i just could relate Which lead me to continues fear and panic which I couldn't stop that im at prodromal phase of schizophrenia ..... And yes that turn the sh** out of me I started new obsession which schizophrenic patients would have Like delusional non existing ( like truman show syndrome) I've had an idea about whether what I'm living is the same as anybody else or it's just me in this life but that was 15 years ago maybe when i was ten ...... And now i really can't stop thinking that I'm delusional and i will stop comunicating with people and this world is just a big lie thing Im really okay with any scenario about existince i even accept that stimulation theory but the things is like if im delusional then im schizophrenic .... And at last this obsession feels so real to me I don't even know if i believe that im being delusional and think that everything doesn't exist as if the people are robots and im the only one Or because i read about that i strated to believe and obsses ... Please help me Im so helpless

Due to common misconceptions, people don’t always realize that intrusive thoughts from OCD can cause serious distress and discomfort. In reality, some types of OCD that affect many people involve thoughts that are violent, sexual, or taboo in nature. In our newest video, comedian Maria Bamford is joined by renowned OCD advocate Ethan Smith to bring awareness to taboo OCD thoughts. They discuss what OCD can really look like, and how it feels when intrusive thoughts strike at the most unexpected times. Watch now as Maria and Ethan share real, everyday experiences with OCD.

Please help. I’m spiraling again. I’m also sitting at work crying my eyes out. What is the difference between this and denial? I just want to be happy.

I think I need to leave my boyfriend and just come out and accept it. I’m heartbroken. I’m so depressed. I’m week 3 into medication and it’s just not making me feel better, maybe it’s made me realise even more so that I am just in denial.

Hello all: I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety and as of now depression. I was on lexapro 10 mg for 3 years until January 2021 then I went down to 5 mg until my ocd episode began in early July 2021. I went back up on the lexapro but it didn’t help. I continued to get worse. Now I am off the lexapro and on Zoloft 100 mg and have been on it for 4.5 weeks and I don’t feel any different. I am very depressed. Does anyone recommend any medications that work for them? Any combinations of meds ? I am getting married in the spring and really want to be a happy bride..

Hi all, random question, but how many of you are bad at directions? I'm good at a lot of things, but horrible at directions, like I'll get turmed around in my own town, can't picture maps, would probably have died at some point of I didn't have GPS, etc. I read somewhere once that that could be linked to my OCD, but I haven't found that article again and just wondered if it's a common experience!

My dad has a mental illness and he has for years though I only learned about it in the last year or so. I’m wondering based on what he’s experiencing if this might be OCD or if it’s likely something else or a combination of things. (I have OCD.) He quit his job several years ago because he was worried people were talking about him or something. He’s had lots of paranoia over the years that the police are going to break into our house or some other vague horrible thing is going to happen to us or our house (again, I didn’t know this). He’s felt like in order to prevent those negative things from happening he’s had to do different things (Mom said he went through a phase of making bread, cleaning the walls outside, etc.) He also doesn’t shave even though my mom hates beards and I think it’s related. In the past year he’s gotten a lot worse, to the point that I noticed something was wrong (though I never had before). He’s been mostly doing lots of cleaning, but mostly pointless, repetitive cleaning. Scrubbing the floor, wiping the blinds, wiping down the couches, rearranging the pantry and fridge. Most recently he’s been wiping everything in the basement with a dry rag. Again, he feels like if he doesn’t do these things sufficiently something bad will happen. He’s said some morbid things like he’s warning us, like “I think it might be this week,” or “those flowers aren’t going to grow because they’ll be gone by then.” In the past few months he’s also felt like he has to wake up extremely early and clean (or hardly sleep at all) and only eat at certain times of the day. He also feels like he can’t watch TV or talk about sports. He won’t help us with lots of things we actually need done because he thinks he can’t do them and has to do other “work.” He also has felt like he can’t leave the house a few times, like for family parties, vacations, or even to take me shopping sometimes. He’s been taking latuda and apparently he was taking a higher dosage before and that seemed to help some, but since they lowered his dose he’s been worse. (He currently doesn’t have a psychiatrist because she retired.) Basically every waking moment is about his mental illness for him. We are religious and a type of Christian that believes that the Holy Spirit influences us to do good and can give us guidance and comfort in our lives. My Dad believes that it is the Spirit that’s telling him to do these things and that it’s what God is asking of him. Again, I’m wondering whether this sounds like OCD to people, or if just OCD likely can’t account for it. If you read this or have any feedback, thank you.

I don’t know if anyone else experiences this with HOCD but whenever they see a good looking/attractive person of the same sex, they get heart palpitations and nervousness. Now to me, that just screams that you’re overly attracted to the person, you see them as a heartthrob and is a big trigger of mine.

Does anyone else suffer with cheating ocd? It feels like your gonna cheat on your bf with one of his friends… this makes me feel extremely horrible and guilty. This all started when I first met his friends in the summer and I got along with one of them, he was funny, friendly and kind but my ocd is saying I want to leave/ cheat on my bf with him which is giving me so much anxiety, guilt and shame like who tf thinks like this?! 😫 someone please help

No one has the thoughts I have I am so close to coming out. I can't believe I'm saying this. I just said to myself wtf. I feel like I've lost my way completely I don't know what's right or wrong for me 😔

How do I deal with real event OCD that also have to do with HOCD and POCD regarding h*ntai?

Those will a long term partner or spouse, how do they handle your ocd?

My mind won’t shut up. So many things are bothering me right now and it’s all OCD related I think 😭 POCD, HOCD and Harm OCD all at once and it’s terrifying

I’m still worried about something that happened a couple weeks ago. I had an intrusive image about my niece that was really bad because I got triggered by reading a romance story that was pretty spicy if you know what I mean and it literally felt like my whole body reacted. I was already feeling something ya know from the story down there and then when the thought came up it was like my whole body reacted. When I mentioned it here before people said it sounded like anxiety but it felt different than that. It felt as though just for a second it felt like I was aroused or it felt like I liked it but I know deep down I don’t because I’m freaking out by it. I try to tell myself the intrusive thoughts and intrusive feelings are just lies and that it’s not my fault or out of my control. I’m having a really hard time trying to recover from this theme. I’ve had it for 2 years now and I just can’t take it. I hate it with a passion and I don’t want to go back to my past because of trauma but I do want to move forward and never have ocd ever but unfortunately I’m going to have it for the rest of my life. I’m having a hard time accepting the thoughts and I’m definitely having a hard time accepting the weird feelings too. Im having a hard time forgiving myself for the intrusive thoughts and I self loathe myself. I absolutely hate myself. I feel like a burden. I feel like I’m always going to be stuck in this theme and I’m never going to feel ok again. I feel like I don’t even deserve to do anything anymore. I’m tired of hiding in my room or avoiding people. I get other intrusive thoughts too. I struggle with HOCD and also harm ocd too. The harm one freaks me out because my friend told me that someone said they wished for her son to die or something like that and I’ve had intrusive thoughts similar to that and it made me feel so bad because what if I’m a bad person even thought I would NEVER wish harm on anyone especially a child. I would never even harm a child. And then with the HOCD my friend my work is bi but she has a boyfriend and a son and I’m straight and also a Christian. Because she’s blonde and my niece is blonde and I get horrible intrusive thoughts about my niece I had an intrusive thought saying they looked alike and then my ocd tries to convince me I have a crush on my friend and then the whole pocd thing shows up saying I have a crush on my friend because she looks like my niece and that’s creepy. And then I had a intrusive thought saying that if I came out bi or whatever, it would be from my intrusive thoughts about my niece and that it all started from that and that freaks me out. I hate ALL of this. I’m scared to death no joke. I don’t want to be a monster, I don’t want to be bi or a lesbian. Not saying there’s anything wrong with it but it’s just not me. I need help. I feel like my whole world is falling apart and it’s driving me insane 💔

First how can I best help my adult son who has OCD? And secondly ..How can I encourage him to get help / support ? I know that I can’t make anyone do anything they don’t want to do or aren’t ready to do … let alone go to therapy. Is there a support group for families dealing w/ family members with OCD ?

If realisation is meant to make you feel this low, depressed and basically done with life then it’s the most cruel thing to ever happen to me. I feel like everything has been taken from me and I’ve given up on trying to get what I loved so much back again. I’ve lost my confidence, my drive, my vision for the future. I had a wonderful career, gf, friends and family. Now I don’t want any of it, and I can’t even see myself getting it back anymore. I used to wake up and feel like the luckiest person alive, I’d go to work and feel the same. I’d come home to pure love, now it’s all gone it all seems like a fantasy. A dream that I had the chance of living it and now I’m being forced to wake up and return to a cruel reality. I don’t think I’ll ever get over this, I don’t want to get over it. I feel selfish for staying with my partner when I have all these new thoughts/feelings. I don’t know what is real anymore. It just feels like the OCD has finally played it’s strongest game and it’s won and I’m bored to death of playing this game with it anymore. I’m done!