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Helpppš what do I do? I'm going to hell for blasphemy. I can't get it to stop and that's the sin that is unforgivable. How do I beg the holy spirit, I have prayed many times? Please can he have Mercy on me? I didn't do it intentionally. I don't want to do it or or go to hell. I can't even go to sleep rn because I'm scaredd... please am I alonešš please someone say something ššš¼ I'm a believing Christian and can't believe I'm doing this...I have failed...I keep on saying derogatory stuff about HIM, please helpppp
Iāve been single for a very long time. Iāve always attached really heavily to people and highly prioritized being in a relationship. I know I can be happy on my own but sometimes all i can think about is how I wish someone loved me like that, it consumes my entire brain. For that reason Valentineās day feels pretty sad to me. Iām gonna have to stay off social media so i donāt see people posting about how much they love their significant others because i know itāll make me spiral. Also since itās valentineās day i keep having intrusive thoughts of my loved ones having sex and it feels really gross.
6 months ago I had a severe panic attack and itās changed my life. Scared of 99% of foods, canāt take meds out of fear, been hospitalized a few times cause of blood sugar drops and other health scares due to poor eating. Iām constantly scanning my body finding any little thing thatās uncomfortable and then fixate and panic over the smallest things. Whether be a smell Iām unfamiliar with, a weird sensation in my arm literally anything freaks me outā¦.. who has had success with exposure or has dealt with similar issues. I feel like Iām unintentionally slowly killing myself but Iām too scared for meds and therapy doesnāt seem to make much of a dent right now. Please share some success stories I need hope.
I cannot for the life of me stop ruminating or checking how I feel about thoughts or focusing on thoughts or creating more thoughts. I feel like Iām losing my mind. I want to scream. I try not to ruminate about the thoughts, but trying not to just makes me think about them more. I try not to check, but somehow, I still check. I want to let a thought sit in the background, but the more I try not to focus on it, the more I end up focusing on it. I donāt want the thought to expand because that feels like engaging with it, but I canāt just stop it from expanding. It feels impossible. People keep saying Iām in control of my compulsions, and maybe thatās true for the physical ones. But when it comes to the mental compulsions, I swear I have no control. It feels like Iām missing something that everyone else seems to have, like thereās some tool theyāre using that I donāt have. Controlling mental compulsions has never felt possible for me. Iām starting to fear them. And every time someone says Iām in control and can just choose not to do them, I end up beating myself up even more when they happen. Or when I *choose* I guess. I donāt know anymore. If this is my fault, if Iām responsible for this, then what does that make me? I feel like a monster. I am at my witsā end. How am I supposed to control mental compulsions when it feels like they control me? I freak out when they happen. They donāt bring me relief, they just make me panic. I want it to stop so bad.
Iām curious how many other people experience this! Iāve been diagnosed with severe OCD for 20 years now, about 10 years ago my little OCD brain came up with a series of words. It is saying everyone in my families name and then something negative, and then something positive. Since my brain attached to this series of words, it hasnāt stopped repeating in my mind. Like I said, itās been 10 years, and this āphraseā is constantly repeating over and over in my head. When itās finished, it just restarts again. My brain is constantly exhausted since itās always talking. Itās kinda hard to word this so idk if itāll make sense to you but let me know if this is something that you might experience as well!
Can OCD mimic depression? With this theme Iām always wondering if I have OCD or depression. It first started out as harm OCD and now this. Today I told myself if I did have depression then itās treatable and I would work on it. Then I started to feel depressed and emotional and like had an urge to google the difference. When I did this I just broke down because I felt like I related to them, it made me worse. However when I look up OCD symptoms it makes me feel better. So now Iām unsure. Almost like OCD wants me to believe itās depression
Iāve been in an OCD loop for a month now and Im struggling so much alone, no one in my family get what Im going through and are just ignoring me, and I got no friends to tell Im stuck in this cycle and it feels like Im lonely in a dark place, Im writing this right now cuz u guys know the struggle, if itās okay can u please leave a comment so I donāt feel alone in this, can u please share tips and advice so I can go through this, I feel like Im losing it
Since I read that it's symptoms of schizophrenia voices in head who order to do bad things Usually I can deal with it but when I'm highly stressed I start to panic and idk if I believe voices and then I imagine living with it 24/7 it's horrible Im like it's unblerable part to feel pot in my stomach .. Am I in psychosis guys My psy is on vacation help ..I feel hopeless š„ŗ Every time I read an symptoms on internet my mind manifest it but it's been a while my mind imitate voices because it's what scare me the most š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ A side note : I can attest that before reading symptoms it never even happened to me in my whole life
Anyone ever have a conversation and think you said a intrusive thoughts out loud. Then you panic and go over and over the convo , reviewing it and remembering people's reactions,to see if they noticed your thoughts or read your lips? Sometimes it feels like I have to look away when talking as the thoughts could be shouted out if we make eye contact .such a powerful erge to say thoughts out load . . It's like the more you fight off the thoughts the louder they want to be . You can feel your self bubbling up inside . Then you get one and boom ,you think you've said it out load.
My mind just starts racing with thoughts all day. I overthink aswell so I just tend to sit in the thoughts and canāt escape. I mostly have thoughts that tell me I donāt like the things I do like snowboarding or backpacking or if I even if I love my girlfriend. Deep down I know I do but then I start getting worried that the more I think these things the more they come true. Then I have tons and tons of more thoughts throughout the day and it just feels like Iām constantly having anxiety and constantly battling my brain over things that donāt even make sense. Iām only 17 and this is extremely hard and I feel like Iām wasting these teenage years. I donāt know what to do or where to go. Iāve picked up reading my bible and praying more but the thoughts persist please help.
I don't know what to do anymore, the fear of psychosis and schizophrenia is so bad in so hyper aware of everything I hear and everything I see, I've always had eye floaters now I convince myself that it's really me hallucinating, I've always had tinnitus but now I'm convinced it means I'm going to go crazy soon, I can't sit in quiet because all I'm focusing on is what I'm hearing, and searching for any sounds I can't distinguish, when there's background noise I get so anxious if I think I heard something but im not sure I did or I'm just anxious, I'm terrified I'll start having delusions and sometimes my brain confuses some sounds for other sounds for example say I'm hyper focused and I breathe and my nose makes a whistling sound my mind interprets it as a scream and I freak out thinking I'm hallucinating only to focus closer and realize it's my own breathing, earlier I was so anxious that I couldnt tell if I had an intrusive thought or heard something, I don't know how to make it stop, I've been through this theme before I just forgot how hard it was I'm having a panic attack please help
New to this app. Do members find it helps, I'm worried I will start obsessing over things I hadn't thought about before when I read other people's OCD triggers...
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young š« I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
Does anyone else experience ocd around the topic of non monogamy and hookup culture and stuff? Im not hating people who are into these things, intact I thinks it great that people have ways of experiencing relationships how they want to and I will always support and advocate for that, but non monogamy and hookup culture is not for me. However because its not for me and I really don't want to partake in any of these things by brain keeps telling me things like: 1. Monogamy is toxic and fake and polyamory is the only real way to have relationships 2. I secretly want non monogamy and casual relationship 3. I'm experiencing these feelings because im a bigot 4. Everyone's involved in non monogamy in some for these days even if its things like open relationships, threesomes etc so monogamy will become rare and you will never have a relationship Those are just some of the thoughts but I have many more. Like I said I'm supportive of people who engage in those things, but I don't want it and I feel as though I can't justify my reasons why I don't want it and that I'm a fake or a bigot. I'm constantly googling "benefits of monogamy" "why monogamy is better" etc to justify to myself why I want what i want. My googling is so obsessive though and I'm up all night doing it and watching videos and things. I can't sleep because of my worries. Everytime I see anything, anywhere relating to non monogamy wheather that be open relationships, polyamory, threesomes etc I feel so sick In my stomach, my anxiety sky rockets and I just want to cry, it's how I am with seeing gay relationship and things with my sexual orientation ocd. (I feel the same when I things about hookups and stuff too). It's like a voice in my head is going "see it's working for these people, you actually want it, your lying if you don't". I have thousands of screenshots of articles and posts that's reassure me about my wants but my ocd always makes be doubt myself. I need some advice on how to deal with it, because im at breaking point and feel like a horrible person. I also want to know if anyone else is dealing with what I'm going through.
Hi everyone, Iām Cayla. Iām a mom thatās lived with OCD since childhood, but my breaking point came more recently after having my son. I was consumed by terrifying thoughtsāWhat if I hurt him? What if I did something awful without realizing it? I was so afraid of my own mind that I couldnāt be alone with him. The shame and exhaustion were unbearable, and I convinced myself I was broken. In 2024, I finally sought help. ERP therapy at NOCD was one of the hardest things Iāve ever done, but it saved my life. Even now, I have tough days, but I know I donāt have to be ruled by OCD. When my 12 year old daughter began showing signs of OCD, I felt overwhelmed with guilt. I never wanted her to go through what I had, but I knew what to do. I told her that I have OCD too and made sure she knew it wasnāt her faultāand that she wasnāt alone. One of the hardest parts of this journey was trusting someone else with my daughterās OCD. I knew how vulnerable it feels to share intrusive thoughts, and I wanted her to feel safe. Her NOCD therapist was able to establish trust and genuine empathy from the start, and that relationship gave her the confidence to face ERP head-on. Seeing her build that trust made me certain she was in the right hands. ERP has helped both of us reclaim our lives, and it is beautiful to see my daughter managing her condition and making visible progress. Parenting with OCD while raising a child with OCD isnāt talked about enough, but I know so many parents are struggling with these same challenges. If you have questions about managing OCD while parenting, helping your child through ERP, or breaking cycles of guilt, drop them belowāIād love to share what Iāve learned. Iāll be answering all of the questions I receive in real-time today 4-5pm ET.
When you get a stuck thought in your mind, as stupid or untrue as it may be, how do any of you block them out, or try to at least? Itās like my mind has another voice telling me making up the stupidest things?
Hello! I just got diagnosed with OCD a week ago and joined the app today to find a sense of community. Since my understanding of treatment is minimal at this point, I'm confused why everything on here tells us not to seek or give reassurance? If someone could explain the reasoning behind that it would be greatly appreciated, as I want to make sure I'm not only watching out for it in my personal life but also using this app appropriately.
OK, this might sound really dumb, but when you guys get intrusive thoughts, do they just come once and then go away? Iāve heard that repeatedly thinking about an intrusive thought is considered āchecking,ā but it doesnāt feel like I have any control over how many times it comes up in my head. Itās not like Iām trying to check anythingāit just keeps showing up, almost like itās terrorizing me every time. I canāt seem to stop it from looping, stop remembering it, or prevent it from coming up. Every time it does, I feel horrified, and I already know itās going to horrify me. I donāt think Iām actively trying to see if my feelings have changed, so is this still considered checking? How do other people get an intrusive thought and just move on? Doesnāt it pop up a million times for them too? I always thought that was normal, but now Iām hearing this could be a compulsion, and I feel really confused, scared, and lost. Is this why my OCD feels so extreme? Because I really donāt feel like I can control how many times the thought pops up.
i have such a fear of psychosis and schizophrenia, so iām scared that iām going to develop it and lose control over my OCD thoughts. If im very tired and my eyes get heavy i get so scared that im going to go crazy or that i have one or the other. and if i have a panic attack im convinced im going to develop it. does anyone have any tips on how to work though this? i saw a thing online that said people with these dont know the have it and that scared me into thinking i have it and dont know.
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