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I really really need a theme switch at this point. My reading ocd is isolating me from people as I can’t seem to read their texts to me, much less respond 😪😪 I need this theme to go away

i’m so horrified bc ik that acting on the thoughts isn’t my fear bc i know i will never ever do that but even the fact that i’m having these literally horrific thoughts makes me so distraught i just want it all to go away. i don’t even want to tell the doctor about the severity of my harm ocd/sexual obsessions. i don’t want to even be having these thoughts like i don’t want this to be some sort of inner desire i have that i never act on that’s so sickening

I am dealing with an OCD flare up, caused by a break up recently with my gf and other life stuff. It’s horrible the thoughts I can get. But I have started ERP and it seems to work. I dread doing the exposures though because the OCD tells me “What if you actually remember that you did do something to harm someone, that this isn’t OCD. It is a fact.” I know this is irrational but it’s how my OCD messes with me.

Does anyone ever be in the middle of doin something but stop because of a intrusive thoughts ? I’ll literally be drinking a drink but pause everytime a gay intrusive thought comes into my head

I miss the days when I could say that I was mentally stable😭😭😭😭

What does a groinal responses feel like to you guys. No reassurance I just want to see if yall feel and or experience same symptoms as me with "groinal responses" im a guy so to me groinal repsonse is different to having an erection but definitely feel sensations or associations to the groin which makes it feel terrible and unwanted.

I love all the people on this app❤️

Feeling extremely emotionally numb and feeling of disgust for my partner a day before our date ☹️. I was excited two days ago and now I am numb.

why are the intrusive images so gross & disturbing i am so tired of this :(

Is ocd hereditary/genetic? Because my sister and mom have it (I think they have different types)

How do you get rid of groinal sensations?

Hope you all are doing well my day was completely all over the place but I hope that tomorrow is better.

Hello I live in Canada and was wondering if I can contact a therapist? Please let me know if anyone has any info

Is it actually possible that I went for 21 years without realizing Im gay? I always had a dream of having gf, falling in love and being in a relationship, but I never had any female friends let alone a gf. I barely spoke to girls even when they gave me attention, like I didnt know what to say to them. Ive been sexually attracted to women and still am so how is it possible I dont feel any romantic attraction to them? Im so worried

Hello I just downloaded this app to get help. Has anyone used clomipramine and if so did it help and did you guys have stomach pain and diarrhea and chest pain and dry mouth? Thank you 🦧

Has someone got rid of this HOCD completely and how long did it take and how did it go?? Because I am feeling miserable and just want to go back to those good old normal days.

It's been like 2-3 days I have been thinking if I am gay or not at least once an hour and I think I am in denial and also I am not getting those groinal responses. I don't know what is happening. Is this a phase of HOCD or am I in denial. And whenever I feel I am gay I try to imagine me having sex with a guy and I don't like it, and think again that I am not gay, is this compulsion because I am doing this a lot cause I get those thoughts a lot I am scared and I want to go back to being normal. This HOCD has made me really confused about my sexuality and even manipulated me I am gay and I am living in denial but I don't how I enjoy woman pornography and not gay pornography.

My girlfriend just told me to look on the bright side while I’m having an episode and I feel like I’m being misunderstood

I’m going to have a breakdown. I cannot do this anymore. I can’t.

Does anybody feel like they really don’t know what they look like? Like, your reflection looks different in different mirrors and/or windows. Even the way my shadow looks gives me anxiety. There’s sometimes where I think I’ll get a glimpse at what I really look like and I actually like what I see, but it’s awfully rare. I honestly don’t know what I really look like. Sucks that my mind distorts everything in my life.

I live in British Columbia Canada, can you still help me connect with a therapist?

does anyone do compulsions to avoid intrusive thoughts like all the time and it gets tiring having to do it like so many times just to avoid you thinking anything willingly so the one day you dont really react to them or do compulsions or let the thought go, you feel like you said all that. i feel like these thoughts are just me it hurts i hate it

What's the free call with a therapist here ? Should I give my number how does it work ?

Lol everytime my brain tells me I’m a boy i get sad because I have a brother that looks just like me and he’s ugly so I know if I were a boy I’d be ugly 😂

If anyone is willing to talk, my ROCD is really bad right now. I'm so close to texting my partner for reassurance, I don't know how else to cope. If anyone is available I can give you my number, I'd really appreciate it ♥️

Okay so the content of thoughts/images/ or scenarios can literally be anything in OCD right? Bc I feel like mines are so creepy and weird and creepy and I feel like no one else has them :( but me

Today was just one of those hard days. When I go to bed tonight, I’m going to look at the ceiling and try to think of all the little things in my life I’m grateful for. Like a warm bed, clean water, my health and hey I’m still breathing 🤷🏼‍♀️

I’m moving into a dorm for college in a few days, and I’m a little stressed about what forms my OCD might take when I do. I’ve been doing okay with ERP - some limited success - but I’m concerned it’ll affect how much of a good time I’m able to have. If I can move past it, this year has the potential to be amazing - new relationship, new friends, etc. Anyone here experience it in college, any advice on dealing with it in a constantly social scenario?

Anyone got some good books on OCD? I find myself wanting to do a little research about it, and wondered if anyone’s gone ahead of me and found some useful materials.

Anyone else’s ocd make them think that they’ve been thinking this forever and or there are memories or moments where it makes you think you were thinking it?

I feel like there’s very little ppl who can honestly say that they are living their worst nightmare. I can honestly say that I am.

Is having sex a good idea while in the middle of a really bad flare up? I’ve been in bed for days, haven’t been eating dealing with my anxiety and harm OCD. The opportunity presented itself, I’m just wondering if it’ll make the situation worse or better?

Hope everyone has a great night! Remember you are not your ocd! You’re strong, brave, and all around amazing, no matter what your brain says!

Is it possible for ocd to become real ?

Hello Everyone! I'd like tips for feeling like you are tainted/ you are now a different person after a possible real event/false memory ocd event. Or if this is common! Thanks!

How do I do ERP? Do I just ignore the thoughts and go on like everything is normal, I feel so bad, why?

Can u have a headache from not giving into compulsions because today I tried my but at the end , I ended up giving in, I feel like if I don't give in, my fears will come true, I am scared*^*

Why cant I say some stuff that I want to? I want to say I just want to like girls, I want to say I dont want to like guys. Its like I just cant bring myself to say these anymore no matter how hard I try, Im worried subconsciously Im gay or something which Is why I cant say any of this.

I wish I could go back in time and not seek reassurance 24/7 and constantly do compulsions because I have made myself so much worse

Y’all is it normal to only have one type/theme of ocd :( I used to get incest ocd thoughts and sometimes I’d get racism ocd I think but now it’s literally just pocd

Does anyone else relate? I feel like ERP won’t work because I feel like I’m not triggered by anything anymore. I’ve been triggered a lot so I feel like I’m just desensitized.

Something I’ve noticed recently is how primitive OCD can be. It’s basically a survival technique that our brains came up with after trauma, at least for me. Like for me it works out every single possible threat I could have. It’s helpful for me to think of it like this.

I’m going through one of those days where I feel like my pocd is true and everything is pointless. I don’t now what to do I just feel awful right now

So I have a regular talk therapist and I have a NOCD therapist. My regular talk therapist triggers me a lot. I’ve made a lot of progress with her in the past but I’ve realize that she triggers me and says things that I don’t like. Too philosophical for my OCD. I’m wondering if I should get rid of her or not. My NOCD therapist really understands a lot with me. Any advice from people who understand this?

Does depression trigger ocd symptoms?

Today I got a intrusive thought about satanism. I fear I might go to hell because this thought was about selling my soul. I need help

I tried to explain my intrusive thoughts to my brother for the first time. I’ve never opened up about how dark they get to anyone. He didn’t take it seriously and laughed a little. I don’t know what to do- has anyone had similar experiences?

Feeling better guys, very minimal intrusive thoughts! ERP works!! Sending love and support ❤️

Hi, I've suffered from anxiety and OCD but this week has just been the worst. Ive suffered with ROCD in the past too.I have been with my partner for 5 years and have always felt happy and have managed to push doubts aside to stop my ROCD creeping back up again. However this week my family haven't been nice and have been filling my head with doubts about who I should be with, what type of person I should be with etc and I've felt sick with worry and have cried all week. I just want to be happy with him. I went and confided in a friend of the opposite sex and he's made a pass at me. I feel sick with guilt for even putting myself in that situation even though I said no, he apologised for making me feel uncomfortable but has now twisted the whole story to people we know. It's making me feel so ill and I feel like I have no one to turn too. I feel like how my family have been has put me in a vulnerable state and I confided in the wrong person and feel guilty for that now. He's changed the whole story of what happened and my mind is now questioning everything I did even though I know I did nothing wrong but confide in someone. I know I haven't done anything wrong but my ocd is going over and over the whole situation. I was stupid to put myself in a situation whilst being vulnerable

Any sufferers out there get any relief using ssri's ? I take 10 mg Escitalopram and it definitely helps. I used to take 20 mg in my early days of waring with ocd. It helps the ocd unlatch, tames the anxiety, helps me kind of not give a shit about my intrusive thoughts. Life is way too short, it's totally worth it to me.

Im soo afraid of hurting People :( is the ocd thought is just bad thought ?? Or it could be reel

I've suffered ROCD in the past around my relationship but knew deep down I'm happy and I love my partner so much. However lately my family have been putting doubts in my head and planting seeds about who I should be with, what type of person I should be with. Which has caused a spiral of thoughts and doubts.Is it normal when suffering with OCD to then take these thoughts on board, I felt sick with worry all week and don't know how much longer I can go on feeling this guilty for the thoughts. A few days ago I trusted a friend and opened up to him and he made a pass at me which I said no, I now feel full of guilt and doubting why I put myself in that situation even though it was all innocent from my half. I feel sick with worry and would never hurt my partner. Just want to be happy with him.

I can't get this one thought out of my head because it's so scary! I feel like it won't ever go away :(

Everytime something I find something out I wanna cry like I get sad but then my mind is like "liar stop faking your emotions" like I can not tell when my emotions are true or fake same thing with my personality like I can't tell if I'm faking how I am or if I'm like this or evil!

i’m panicking so much rn that this is some dark desire i’ve always had but i’ve never even thought about this before but i keep saying no i don’t want this but then i get the doubts of what if i do what if you do and i hate it so much i feel like a liar but i’m not i hate this so fucking much

I personally believe in God and spirituality but sometimes believing in them scares me because what if I say something wrong or hurtful in my head and my angels/guidance or God gets mad at me and something bad happens to me!

I'm looking to get back into therapy. I'm in the states.. Did anyone have success using the tools from this app? The therapists? It's expensive in my state. Not on here though I feel like the price is pretty reasonable- Also the groups look great. Did those last summer. What do you guys think?

Im having a great day and then I have the intrusive thought that I'm atracted to a person and sexual thougts and arousal feelings in my body and I don't want that and makes me feel bad, a horrible person and that didn't stop and doubging about myself

I can’t stop counting and feeling out of control and scared of everything and I don’t know what to do. I feel like I can’t cope recently and I’m so embarrassed and I feel so alone because no one seems to understand ocd or know how to help.

I told my sister that one of my friends was trans without really thinking about it just so I wouldn’t have to misgender them around the house and now I’ve had three anxiety attacks because I know I shouldn’t have but I only realised too late and my OCD is telling me I’m transphobic

What time should I do ERP? Do y’all do it first thing in the morning to get it over with or leave it for later . I was thinking morning but then am I ruining my day?

Does anyone have any advice for when your ocd feels real? Should I just try to move on with my day, should I say “maybe, maybe not”?

i hate this so much i keep saying no to this awful disgusting thought and i just thought maybe i want it and i don’t not even in the slightest no no no but why can’t my mind just take that and let it go.

so i watched something today that was pretty triggering.. read at your own risk. so i’ve been struggling with ROCD bad lately. (having a hard time even deciphering if it’s OCD or not 😰) i was watching a show and there was a scene where this girl and her boyfriend were getting ready to do the deed and she was thinking about someone else.. my ROCD gives me thoughts about one specific person that i literally am disgusted by, i would even say hate. yes, there’s a past with this person but there’s no contact whatsoever and talking about the person makes me sick.. ew. but i’m so worried that in my future this will happen and ruin the moment. i just want to forget about the person. and every time i do, my brain just reminds me again. any thoughts?? is this ocd?? i don’t want to think about the person. i just want to forget about them.. please helppppp :( it makes me uncomfortable. but then i question myself and ugh i’m so lost.

Does anyone struggle with scrupulosity

Does anyone else just ever feel off?? Like right now I feel off & I’m scared it’s because I’m a lesbian in denial ... why does OCD do this

Feeling like there is light at the end of a very dark tunnel. Had my first therapy session today and got diagnosed after suffering for 10 years, start ERP therapy next week! Can’t wait to get started and get my life back to as normal as possible!

good news alert! Today was better than yesterday in terms of anxiety :D and I feel like it is thanks to the exposures I’ve been doing this week

I feel like I’m going to be stuck on this one thought forever

Is relationship ocd something I should talk about with my partner, or will that cause problems in the relationship (because he might take it the wrong way)?

Is anyone up? I need to talk to someone

Anybody just can’t tell if that one memory is true or not 😔

Today I went to a parking garage to see if I would want to jump.

I really hope reaching out to a therapist here will help me. I’m tired of my brain feeling on fire every day and feeling like there’s no way out

What is the best thing to do when in a depressive episode?

Does anyone else deal with very vivid false memories? Like when I worry I did something bad I will imagine it in detail and then start to worry it’s real. I always hear people say false memories are different than real memories but mine look very similar. Is anyone else like this?

can’t stop crying so today wasn’t a good day i hope tomorrow is better for all of you 🤍

Wanted to share something that’s been helpful in my journey so far, mindfulness and meditation! I’ve always seen the two as somewhat corny and always thought I wouldn’t be able to do it because OCD just won’t let my brain turn off, but as I’ve started I’ve really come to enjoy it! It’s allowed me to develop a better relationship with my mind and has brought some much needed clarity in tough moments. That being said, don’t use it as a compulsion! There were time where I felt great after meditation and practicing mindfulness but had to remind myself I can’t use it as a form of reassurance or as a compulsion. A good way to avoid that is to incorporate it into your daily routine; whether it’s 5 minutes or 20 minutes, it’s a really great way to better understand the brain and the mind. I recommend the Headspace app!

Anybody got any tips to help stop hating myself?

Considering getting disability accommodations for school but I’m kinda scared

Do you guys know any goood books or rescources on depression?

I am just so sick and tired of this, I am tired of feeling like crap all damn day (mentally). I am so tired of it! I don't even know if it is a good thing if I am just too tired to even get up and do my compulsions... I just don't know anymore

Need to do some exposures today. Don’t want to but I know they help! Good luck to everyone working on your own exposures today!

Why am I not getting intrusive thoughts anymore?

HELP my ocd makes me doubt my love for my girlfriend when I am away. I am no doubt in love with her but its so hard to stay strong and in a relationship when my brain is telling me I don’t and I should leave.

Any Ideas for ERP excersizes for Rocd? I think just doing the thoughts is getting easier for me. I'm reading articles now about realtionships which has been triggering but I'd love to find specific triggering articles that I can practise with, so if anyone has any I'd love to try them/any other exposure you can think of 😊

Story time from a few minutes ago: Me: Has an OCD thought Me to my OCD: Thank you so much for that. No, that was really helpful. LOL

How do I find a therapist that specializes in contamination ocd?

I am not feeling good can I talk to someone.

I have a swollen lymph node and ear pain and I'm resisting researching and seeking reassurance. I did knock on wood a few times but fought the other two compulsions! Small progress is still progress!

is it the right thing to avoid something if you have a subtle intrusive thought about it i know it probably will make it worse or add fuel to it but it makes me forget about it

I don't know if i have ocd. I'm trying to see if i do. I don't think i have compulsions other than constantly talking about my thoughts to my mom or boyfriend or going to Google or just telling myself no but then going well nene it's true. I keep feeling like I'm gonna go crazy. I'm looking for signs and i feel so hyperaware of my thoughts and i try to distract myself and it just doesn't work. I don't really have any count mechanisms so i just feel like I'm lost in my head and I'll eventually end up completely crazy.

Does anyone else’s false memories keep changing and you keep thinking “but wait, what if I did this instead?” Example - (first original false memory) “What if I just swore at that person without realising?” Later turns into - “Wait. What if I didn’t swear at them. Maybe I tripped them up instead? What if?” Does this make sense? This is how my false memories keep changing and every time i start to believe it.

Everyday I grieve the loss of who I used to be

I was on campus on Monday for class and I literally had zero anxiety and almost no intrusive thoughts/images. Now today I’m having a bunch of anxiety and it’s like I’m seeing boobs everywhere and worrying if I’m attracted to them and sometimes getting groinal responses. Please send support 😭☺️ I still have one more class to go to and then a whole program that I’m leading to take everyone to a “party”. Any advice is welcomed too :)

Happy Wednesday! Hope everyone has a good day!

Y'all this may seem like the weirdest thing you'll read today, but I have to share it. My therapist, Clare Kain (who is amazing) sent me this article that highlighted how to make the most out of your ERP or work toward recovery from OCD. This is the most powerful thing I read in this article (below): you have to WANT the anxiety. Even though it's scary. I've literally been saying to myself "I can't wait to be anxious later," and "I hope I'm anxious when ...." and y'all, it works. IT WORKS. Try it, just once. I actually felt my anxiety rise and fall without me doing ANYTHING else but wanting it to be there. https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/25-tips-for-ocd-treatment/ Keep moving forward. 💪🏻💓

Does anyone know of any good novels or literature that accurately reflect the OCD experience and recovery? Any good books on HOCD?

I've been dealing with harm ocd for about 6 years but the last 2 years I had it under control I would have one and shake it off but I had a very bad one 6 days ago now its been in my head non stop from the moment I go to sleep to when I wake up its just in my mind that I'm crazy and can't shake it

I feel so desperate. I know it is a compulsion to post and repeating my feelings but I feel like I can't move on. Mpst of the fays I feel scared and numb being afraid of ocd attack and it feels like hell. If I feel ok for a few hours then ocd hits me again even worse, very hard. I feel like being hit by a weapon and I can't stop being hurt. I suffer and cry for hours. In the end I feel i have no hope and future also guilty for spending my life like this. Why do we have to suffer this way???