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My mind won't stop reeling about staying friends with a male coworker while he may/may not have been flirty. Worked with this gentleman for a few months (not anymore), texted outside of work hours very few times (bf was aware) and only grabbed a coffee for a bit after work once (bf was aware). Outside of this, all interaction and conversation was at work. We had good convo as we are both playful and sarcastic people, which I enjoyed. At times, it felt like the stuff he was saying was flirty (but I was also aware he was a huge flirt). I never said anything flirty and anything that came off like that on his end, I ignored or evaded. On a few instances I mentioned I had a bf when dude asked and few instances mentioned him casually (my way of letting him know I am taken). Dude still maintained same energy and convo type, and the flirty things in question were rare statements that honestly were not direct or openly flirty and could be misconstrued. So again, ignored it. I never had nor have feelings for this dude. Apart from few outside work interaction previously mentioned, no other outside of work contact. At work, a majority of time he initiated convo through teams where he was a lot more lax than in-person work environment convos (understandable); however, again, some of the stuff he said could've been interpreted as flirty. He'd been a supportive colleague generally and kind, so I really hoped it was just his personality. My gripe with myself comes here: I never mentioned to my bf that this dude was coming off as flirty. I believe it's because i was having good, free-flowing convo and I enjoyed the playful nature of it (in a platonic way), idrk if I also had an ego boost from possibly being found attractive (which I also feel guilty about bc i honestly do not care for anyone's attention but my bf's); to some extent, ig I became obsessive with these convos but again I can honestly say, I never had attraction towards this dude, no intent to cheat ever, but I feel like what i did was disrespectful. Upon my leave of work, this coworker dude reached out to me and was making statements that he was free whenever and we "could hang now" that we were coworkers. I agreed, shared with my bf this info, bf didn't like it. And I respected that bevause I agreed with his reasoning. Then this dude randomly messages me about being out and about, unless I invite him wherever I was. That just came off as incredibly audacious and suggestive to me, especially when this dude knew I had a bf. Ever since, I have felt very guilty for not communicating that I was willing to be friends with this dude even though he came off as flirty but drew the line at actually flirting. That latest statement of his was like a bucket of water and a "wtf?" moment bc why would you say that?? I feel I've been incredibly disrespectful, and I don't want to admit it and it makes me feel like a cheater. I had no ill intent, I just wish I was more direct and clear with my boundaries as opposed to assuming mentions of my bf were enough. This is my 2nd time posting about this. My mind won't stop telling me i did smth wrong.

I’m not sure if I have OCD or if it’s related to a trauma. I experienced a traumatic experience in 2024. I was touched without my consent during a massage. I rushed out and went home. After getting home police cars parked outside my house and eventually drove away. I was in a state of panic and I told my partner about it. I blamed myself for not jumping off the table as soon as they touched me. I was face down and I didn’t see it coming. My wife forgave me and didn’t see it as bad as I did. I moved on the rest of 2024 and 2025, but it still bothered me and I started CPT therapy Jan 2026 and it was going well, but I had a health scare Feb to April and I was in a fight or flight state and I started ruminating about what happened in 2024. After the health scare was over I was searching for a way to get stop ruminating and I saw that TRT was a thing that helped a lot of men improve their mood and I tried that for 6 weeks and it only made my emotions worse. I went to my doctor and I asked her if Lexapro would help me because my nephew said it helped his overthinking. Without asking about what it was going on in my life and the recent cold turkey stopping or TRT, she gave me Lexapro. After 5 weeks I was completely numb but the rumination was gone. I decided to taper off because I was only on it for a short period and I was doing good on the taper and I went a little too fast and then the guilt and shame and rumination came back. I am going to try EMDR to process what happened and hopefully store it into long term memory instead of being what I wake up thinking about daily.

i feel pretty awful and stressed... (Sorry for my English , English is not my first language) I'm little stressed writing it because I'm worried my vent/post can be taken as offensive towards trans people (because my vent is about my fear " what if I'm trans person in denial" ) so i wanted to to say I'm NOT fearing being trans because I'm transphobic (I'm not, I'm ally and i always will be), my fear is about my OCD making me unsure about my gender identity, doubting my feelings and making new fake memories or changing meaning of my memory I'm cis woman but my OCD makes me doubt if i like being a woman and maybe "I'm just in denial that I'm trans". Like my OCD is looking for proof in past memories that I'm trans. Like yeah in past few times i thought about "am i trans?" not as ocd but just curiously + i was brainwashed that women can only be feminine etc. and now my OCD takes that memory and give it new meaning that makes me doubt everything, making me feel like i don't even know myself anymore 🥹 I think i always liked being a women but i like feminine and masculine clothes eixsxisjs i know it's sound stupid but the things i like which are "masculine" are treated by my OCD as another proof Proof that I'm lying to myself also my OCD is triggered when people say "no cis person question what gender they are" - that makes me feel more anxiety and panic 🥹 My compulsions were (still are but little less) reading a ton of posts written by trans people (especially trans masc) in which they wrote what were the signs that they were trans and I compared their experience to mine cheekcing if i done the same thing and if so, I panic more looking for more stories of this type. I also read a lot about how to recognize the real questioning of one's gender identity and gender OCD and what is diffrence. I obsessively observe what kind of Pronouns others uses to address me. I also felt big need to ask my loved ones for reassurance or to ask my trans friendly how they know they are trans. and I did gooo many tests on the internet where test guessed what gender I'm. My OCD It literally made me feel discomfort in my body for a moment that I had never felt before, and in general it makes me feel uncomfortable saying I'm cis woman (because of course I must be lying and be in denial ) it's scary that intrusive thoughts really can gaslight me that I'm "feeling" bad or uncomfortable. I'm so stressed about it, before that I had sexual orientation OCD (I'm pansexual and my OCD was telling me I'm just hetero or aromantic) - it's feels like my OCD is trying to question all my values and trying to take away my identity that I felt was an important part of me Even if I don't perform compulsions, this uncertainty hurts me terribly that I start crying uhhh i just want to feel okay btw I'm sending hugs for every person who also have Gender OCD, no matter if you turn out to be trans or cis you are important and valuable person. i also try to tell that myself because i know in the end it doesn't matter what gender I'm - it's just feeling anxious because of uncertainty :")

Hi everyone. I’m wondering if anyone here has experienced something similar. I have OCD/anxiety symptoms, and recently I’ve noticed several recurring patterns that seem quite different on the surface, but may have something in common. 1. Noise sensitivity / hyperawareness Certain sounds, such as neighbors talking, sounds from upstairs, or someone watching TV, can trigger a chain of thoughts. It’s not necessarily just the sound itself that bothers me. My mind starts imagining future situations: “What if I move to another apartment and have noisy neighbors?” or “What if something changes in my current environment and I start having noise problems?” Sometimes I become very focused on whether my environment might change and whether I might encounter noise in the future. 2. Feeling guilty or uneasy about using free or cheap resources This is a particularly strange one for me. When I use a free or very cheap service, I sometimes feel that I need to understand how the company makes money before I can feel comfortable using it. For example, if I use a free keyboard/input method and I can’t figure out how it makes enough money to operate, I start feeling uneasy. I may wonder whether the service will disappear someday, whether the company is not putting enough effort into the free version, or whether I am somehow taking advantage of them. Similarly, when using WeChat, I can start thinking about how much server infrastructure all those messages and groups must cost. Then I may worry about whether the company could eventually fail, causing me to lose important chat history. I can spend a lot of time researching the business model, server costs, revenue sources, etc. If I can’t reach a satisfying explanation, I have difficulty feeling at ease while using the service. 3. Perfectionism / needing to have the whole plan figured out When I want to start doing something, I often feel that I need to understand and plan the whole process beforehand. If I start without having the entire structure figured out, I may work for a while and then suddenly feel that everything I did earlier was wrong or poorly designed. Then I want to rethink the whole thing and reorganize it. I’m wondering whether these could be different OCD themes with a similar underlying mechanism, such as intolerance of uncertainty, excessive responsibility, perfectionism, rumination, or mental compulsions. Does anyone else experience OCD in these kinds of less stereotypical ways? Especially the need to understand how a free/cheap service operates before feeling comfortable using it, or the constant need to anticipate possible future problems with noise/environmental changes? I’d really appreciate hearing from anyone who has had something similar.

Idk if some intimate content I watched online included someone that was too young. I didn’t like get off to the video I skimmed through it because I didn’t know if the person just looked young. But I came to the conclusion that even if they were an adult they look too young for me so I skipped the video. Anyways the next day I started worrying about it again so I went and found the video after tracing back my steps and skimmed through it but I still can’t tell. I stopped checking but everytime I think about this my heart drops and I feel like I committed a crime. I feel like I should’ve just stuck to my gut when I kept skipping the video everytime it popped up. I think I went too far this time

Omg,, I don't know what to do anymore. In the least I can explain, basically my dog loves to resource gaurd with things, bark at everything and nonstop, gets mad whenever one tries to walk into another's room and I feel so bad but I regret it all. I wanted one since I was 10, and I get teased for not doing my research right but I just didn't know. My family keeps treating him like a baby, hugging and stuff and he doesn't like it and I try to mention it but they're like "nooo but I want to", and they run around as he chases them, and they bark at him so he can have a reaction and they think he's playing but it feels like it's just re enforcing his behavior? Correct me if I'm wrong. Also in general they just feed him anything even after he's acted like a brat and other things. I tried to train him into not doing those things gradually but overtime I just gave up. It doesn't help that I'm secretly battling a live-ruining disorder at the current moment and I have my headphones on at max since my parents keep yelling at him to shut up, not in a crazy aggressive way and they are NOT smacking him but it's just all the noises combined that makes me so stressed. I love my dog but this just has gotten me too stressed out, and my dad doesn't want to neuter him while everyone else does but it's due to traditional reasons, I don't even know!! Pleaseee help 😭💔 this is stressing me out so badly. And in a few months we're going back to our native country for vacation and is bringing the dog and I don't want to deal with more ughhghg he's barking so loudly right now.

Does anyone else deal with heart palpitations or fluttering and then feel anxious about it? I’m 39 and get them every so often, and today I was at the movies with my wife and all was great the whole day and halfway through the movie, and boom I get a fluttery heart/palpitation and feel that falling feeling in the chest, and boom I’m triggered with anxiety, what if thoughts. What if I have a heart attack? What if I pass out? What if this triggers me to have a bad anxiety/ocd spiral and I confess a bunch of things. I hate it. Getting old sucks but it is also a blessing, 39 isn’t old, but it isn’t young. How do you deal with bodyscanning? Specifically the heart or pulse?

My OCD has returned with a vengeance. I am going through a major transition at work. A new leader is coming in so many people are leaving that I am friends with and rely on. I have been trying to find a new job for almost 2 years and have been training as a doula for a year. I am obsessed with thoughts about what I could have done differently to not be in this situation, regretting not doing my job search differently, and deep depression about losing my routine and friends at work. I can’t stop thinking about what to do next if I should stay in my career that I worked so hard for but am not finding the success I wanted or commit to the transition of being a doula which is a new and exciting but uncertain path. I am crying all day, constantly trying to find answers that are impossible by reassurance seeking, and instead of helping myself wasting endless hours trying to “solve” what went wrong and what to do next. I felt like I was doing okay and then my co worker quit and I am having a massive OCD melt down. A just had a falling out with a close friend and so I’m all around not doing well. How would you cope with this? What are your strategies with overcoming doubt and indecision? Where do you find ways to give yourself stability in unstable situations? I was so proud of all of the progress I made with OCD over the last few years and feel like I lost it all at once. Really appreciate any insights!

Hello everyone, I first want to start off by saying thank you! Thank you for having the courage to talk about your struggles on here, thank you for helping me not feel so alone during this difficult time, and thank you for being you. if it weren't for all of you id feel so alone it wouldn't be funny. I first got diagnosed with OCD about 4 months ago and they suspect I've had it for a lot longer than that. Growing up I was always known as a worry bug and the kid who was afraid to do anything wrong. Id ruminate over things for hours upon hours and never say a word because I just thought that's how everyone was. I have had a lot of traumas in my life along with every ACE except for incarcerated household member. My story primarily starts about 2 years ago when someone who I had hung out with a lot after high school was caught with CP. I was so angry and mad and vowed to protect everyone I ever met from people like him. (He bullied me relentlessly but not to feel alone I hung out with the friend group yet even though everyone just let him do it to me) I started telling everyone I knew about him due to who he was and how he treated me. I also ruminated a lot on how I could have hung out with someone like that without ever knowing that's the kind of person he was behind closed doors. One day I was talking with my new coworkers about him to warn them if they ever see him to stay away from him. (I have a lot of hate for this person due to the things he has done to me in the past) While I was talking though about a person that had come into work one day i had called them a girl, and my coworker looked at me weird. (I think she was just daydreaming or something now but in the moment, it made me feel weird) Later that week I ended up going on vacation with my dad. While we were on vacation, I started talking to him about how I felt really bad about this and how I felt like a bad person for hanging out with that person. My dad ended up saying "Son, you can't think about this stuff to deeply otherwise you'll just drive yourself crazy." Which caused me to think more about am I crazy? Did this drive me crazy? Why do I keep thinking about this and worrying about what makes a person do that? And then bam while we were out getting Ice cream I had my first intrusive thought of this type. I immediately said OMG OMG OMG OMG, Im him OMG IM HIM, IM GOING TO TURN INTO HIM, I CANT DO THIS, I HAVE TO UNALIVE, I CANT BE LIKE HIM, I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE HIM. I then started thinking of every way I could unalive so I wouldn't turn into him. I got back from my trip and decided to tell my partner about how I was afraid I was turning into him. She was so utterly confused because I have been nothing but nice, kind, and joy spreading to all the children I've ever met. I then proceeded to not eat for about 4-5 days trying to go on a hunger strike until I passed away and decided to not go to work for about a week. She kept trying to help and be supportive, but I was so obsessed about this idea that I would somehow turn into him that it didn't matter. All I knew was I had a thought and now I needed to not be here anymore. I was tainted, evil, and horrible. I met with my therapist who was utterly super confused and didn't understand what was happening. He then started asking questions and realized I have OCD. He suggested I see a doctor right away to be put on meds to try and help. So I booked an appointment and saw her right away. She prescribed me Prozac and said we should take it very slow which unfortunately didn't help at all. I continued down my path of self destruction and ended up breaking up with my partner of over 5 years to move in with my Dad due to some persuasion on his part and not fully understanding what was going on. (In the sense of I wasn't going to be here much longer so why hurt her in the way of unaliving when a break up would probably be easier) I then moved in with my dad and ended up telling him the thoughts I was having. He ended up telling me that he knew that's not who I am and that what was happening must be due to severe depression and nothing else. I felt so safe in that moment and i ended up sleeping by him on the futon for about a week straight until he got me into intensive outpatient treatment through my local provider. They put me on sertraline and tried to give that a whirl. Unfortunately, didn't do much. Next was Duloxetine which was the first med that allowed me to control my thoughts. Then Trazadone due to insomnia and lastly Prazosin for Night terrors. I was also put into group for 4 days a week which was helpful, but I didn't know how to talk about any of this so I was mostly quiet and just listened to everyone else. After that i started seeing my main therapist again along with the nurse practitioner at the main therapist building. Since then they have diagnosed me with OCD, Depression, Anxiety, Persistent delusional disorder, Mixed personality disorder, and possible ADHD. TBH it's been a pretty bumpy road since then, Everyday i still suffer from intrusive thoughts and bad compulsions of self-reassurance of that I'm a good person so please no reassuring me that I'm a good person. I'm trying my best to learn how to stop with reassuring but this week my therapist suggested I go on here and start reading posts to realize im not alone and that their are others going through the same problems. Thank you all for pouring your hearts and souls on here to help support one another through these difficult times. And if you got to the end of this, thank you from the bottom of my heart. It truly means the world to me that you took the time to read this. I hope it helps you feel not so alone too in this crazy journey we get to call Life. Thank you again <3

I have POCD and ROCD I have had symptoms of OCD since I was very young but it didn’t get really bad until about 7 years ago when I was 16. I remember my first POCD intrusive thought popped into my head out of nowhere and absolutely terrified me, that turned into off and on spiraling through the years since. One of the biggest things I do while ruminating is “well WHY don’t you want to do it. If your reason for not wanting to pure?” And then I analyze why I don’t like the thoughts and it pops into my head that “you don’t care you only care what it would mean for you. You don’t care about burning other people or kids” and it causes a lot of moral issues for me and makes me feel like I don’t even know who I am. It happens with everything really. The other day I passed by a flower stand and I saw sunflowers, I thought “I should grab one for my sister in law she loves sunflowers” (I was on my way to see them already) and when I was about to get out to go get one I thought “are you doing this cause it would make her happy or are you trying to manipulate her into liking you more?” “What if they take it in a weird way and think you have a crush on her” so I stopped and just didn’t get the flower. It’s super annoying and I don’t know what it is.

Break up urges in OCD are the absolute worst. Last night I had a very difficult time falling asleep. After dealing weeks with my POCD, my ROCD started up again. It basically said that I’m too mentally unwell for a relationship and I need to be single to work on myself when I know that isn’t true. I can be in a healthy and loving relationship and still work on myself. Those two things can co exist. What doesn’t help either is that my OCD started to get worse since I was in a relationship so my brain is like if you break up, you won’t have to deal with this anymore but that just isn’t fair. Why should I have to miss out on normal human things because of OCD? I know when good things happening or big things are happening, it can make OCD worse anyway, and I’m not allowing it to win but it’s just so f*cking hard. OCD desperately wants me to be alone forever and not have good things and try and convince me it’s just keeping me safe. I am not falling for it anymore. My boyfriend knows not to believe me when I say I want to break up. He knows it’s OCD before I do and I’m so thankful for that. I’m not giving in, I deserve happiness and this relationship that means so much to me.

Im coming off sertraline/zoloft as it was giving me depersonalisation and made me feel disconnected from everything but now im panicking thinking what if it doesnt go back to normal and im having thoughts of what if i lose my mind etc and ive not slept in about 3 days no matter how hard i try i cant. Does anyone have any advice?

my thoughts used to give me company. they kept my head busy. i was never alone. now they’re quieter and i almost feel abandoned; it’s almost as if i just have to accept that im truly alone to feel what i feel. and as i recover from ocd, there’s nothing to distract me from this pit i’ve just been carrying around my whole life. it’s lonely, it feels so lonely to have nothing to hear; no static, no noise, and i wish it was peaceful. i thought it would be when i started therapy. i thought that i’d find a satiable peace. recently i can only feel anger and bitterness and frustration and annoyance and under all of that is sadness and exhaustion beyond that is just an empty loneliness. these feelings help me understand why i coped the way i did as a kid. when i realize the relationship between my childhood, my feelings, and my current self, my therapist calls these realizations “throughlines.” and in this moment, via the throughlines, it kind of seems like i can identify the way ocd brought me comfort, why i developed certain compulsions, etc. so now that i can tolerate all of the things that became intolerable, im left with the most intolerable feeling— loneliness. the heart of all my avoidance, grief, fears, everything. my biggest fear is to be alone. my ocd taught me how to not feel alone. now i’m recovering from ocd. now im lonely again. deeply and in the most familiar way. healing feels like i’m accepting the loneliness and acceptance feels depressing and defeating. im losing my sense of hope that recovery is worth it. i feel so bitter because im trying so hard to do everything right to recover from ocd. anyways. i’m going to stop ruminating now 👾 i just… wanted to know mostly if anybody else feels this way? or felt this way while recovering?

Hello im new to da appp!! im a kid with ocd and ive been struggling a lot lately so im js tryna find people who relate to me ! I have ZOCD, POCD, IOCD, Contamination OCD, and Health OCD! My ocd is reallyy bad and nobodys story really phases me as like weird or insane.. so if you want to and have one of the same kinds of ocd i have please share your story!!

I’m new here my sister said she used this app to help as a place to rant which is nice. She says I also have OCD and it kinda sounds like I do. For whatever reason recently I’ve found myself not feeling complete or whole without talking to or being with my GF. I am in college right now and me and my roommates are mostly just hangout when we’re inside and want to. The past few days have been hell for me I just quit nicotine Ive stopped taking some of my Adderall meds because my anxiety is so bad but when I bring it all back to where I think it starts it’s all with my girlfriend. I just am so obsessed and love her with all my being it’s like I can’t breathe or be myself without her. I only find her apartment comfortable my place seems cold and dark. Just lying with her and being in her presence makes me so calm. So even when she’s at home and not doing anything and I’m home watching Tv or whatever I can’t help but feel this got wrenching feeling that makes me feel sick. It’s even worse when she goes out to the bars or anything like that. I don’t even know what my fears are anymore I just feel like puking and crying and I just wanna hold her. I feel disgusting for being so possessive. I just wish I could explain to her how I felt without making her feel like I’m dropping everything if that makes sense. I just wish there was a fix I’ve never felt like this in my life and this has only started in the past few weeks. Help.

Grad school has been a really rough road so far. I’ve been in the care of a therapist for almost the entire time (more than 3 years, with 1.5 left to go) and started NOCD earlier this year. I’ve responded really well and am making progress, but there are still so many unanswered questions about other struggles I am having. After months of waiting for an appointment, today I finally had a consultation with a new psychiatry clinic to see if we could get a better picture of what is going on. Over the years, different providers have suggested so many conditions it is hard to keep track of them all. After today, I still have no new answers. Just OCD, GAD, and specific phobia, which I’ve had diagnoses for since I was a kid. I’m getting referred out for more tests to check for autism (which would honestly probably be neuroaffirming at this point), but those assessments often book a year out. In the meantime, I will probably be starting either Zoloft or Prozac. I’ve never been on an SSRI before. The only psychiatric medication I’ve tried was a low dose of a stimulant when a different psychiatrist suspected ADHD this summer, but it went horribly wrong with side effects and worsening my OCD - so, I’m nervous to try something new again. Any suggestions for persevering through lengthy diagnostic processes? Or for starting an SSRI?

Good morning. I mainly want to rant in this post to other who may understand. I have CPTSD, Autism and have recently gotten my official OCD diagnosis. Gotta love it. Recently OCD has become unbearable, I have been going to my fiance for reasurance in almost everything I do, every life choice, every text I send always has to be "approved". Im exhausted. He is exhausted. Even if I know my thoughts are just OCD, and to sit with the discomfort it feels impossible, every fiber of my being is screaming to get reaasurance. I am embarrassed to admit that I thought to call a hotline..because they couldn't ignore me. Im scared and dont know what to do and I feel crazy. It feels like my OCD is a drug addict almost. And I know the reasurance is a horrible loop, but its so hard to break. * also very proud im posting this without my fiance or roomate proof reading it. *

Hi, I’m struggling really badly with false memory OCD right now and I really need some advice please. I love my boyfriend so much, but lately I keep obsessing about whether I might have cheated on him at a party. I keep going through my memories again and again, trying to find out if something happened that I don’t remember, or if maybe I somehow repressed something from that night. The more I search, the more unsure my memory becomes. I’m scared that maybe there is something I don’t remember and that one day I will find out about it, when me and my boyfriend are even more serious and our relationship has moved further. That is honestly my biggest fear, what if I finally allow myself to be happy, fully trust my relationship and stop worrying, and then suddenly someone tells me something happened and everything falls apart? Sometimes my boyfriend does something really sweet for me and instead of enjoying it, I get this horrible feeling that I don’t deserve him because maybe I cheated on him. How do you deal with this? How do you stop trying to find out what really happened when you feel like you might have forgotten or repressed something? ❤️thank u so much!❤️

Hey guys this is an extremely mortifying thing for me to post and I may delete this later but I've been spiralling for weeks and months about this specific thing and I desperately want some connection or support, or at least would like to know I'm not alone :( TW for taboo and porn talk // 18+ please I had completely unrestricted internet access as a kid, and at ages 10-12, I don't remember exactly, I remember finding a term on Youtube which I knew was taboo but I was curious, so I searched it on Google, and I watched that content. It was porn with women and animals and it was EXTREMELY easy to find. I didn't really understand how bad it was. I would watch porn from pretty much every category through my teen years, this was never the only thing I watched, but I would still watch it sometimes until I realized how disgusting and wrong it was. I stopped it completely at 16/17 years old. Several years later, I randomly remembered it and now this is absolutely tormenting me and I don't know how to move forward. The guilt is relentless and I keep getting flashbacks to this content. It's absolutely sickening. I don't even watch porn today. You can't find other abuse content online easily so I don't understand why this was so easy to access. I think because I could find it so easily, I didn't think it was "that bad". I feel sick that it took me so long to realize it was wrong. I'm getting a ton of ZOCD intrusive thoughts now and I'm spiralling into compulsions from that side of things too. I can't really access therapy right now and I feel so alone.

forget wishing for love and success! im wishing for total sanity. for freedom and a sound mind; perhaps those two are one and the same. i need to focus on gratitude. ocd makes it easy to get swept up in chaos and nonsense. but when it rains, i remember all my pets and family are safe inside, and i have a bed. i get to watch spongebob before falling asleep. someone’s one wish would be for such simplicity.