I had a huge fight with my husband over my Rocd thoughts and accusations and i don't believe we can go back to what we were. Even if he tries to understand and help in the end he gets extremely furious about my behaviour and i believe it has made him not really enjoying my presence. He must feel more pushed and horrible with my Rocd and i feel like this is the end of our healthy relationship. Now it just looks cloudy and miserable. I feel so lost and alone with my Rocd...
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I’m so scared my OCD is going to last forever. Am I going to feel this way? Are my thoughts going to be like this forever?
Hello everyone! I haven’t been on this app in a long time and I wanted to share some words of encouragement. I’m currently 20 years old and have had OCD since I was a young child. I finally confessed to someone how I was feeling at 17 years old and that is when I started ERP/medication. When I started having intrusive thoughts about harm, I knew I needed to tell someone because my anxiety was truly paralyzing. That year was the hardest year of my life and I was at the lowest of the lows. I never thought I would be thriving as a 20 year old university student with a prestigious scholarship. I thought life would never get better. It’s been exactly 3 years and I have moved out, am succeeding in school, and work full-time! I really want everyone who is in the state that I was in to have hope. Trust me- with the proper treatment, recovery is possible and WILL 100% happen! Once, I received treatment, I experienced true happiness that I had never felt before! Sending my love to all the OCD warriors out there. You will conquer this and become a stronger person from it!!!❤️💪
I haven't had an OCD relapse for over a month. I just wanted so share some positivity for you guys. Not to make you feel bad about your progress, because every journey is soooo individual (so don't compare yourself to me). But for me it was the scariest thing I EVER experienced and I was convinced I'd be like that forever and my life was over. Now I'm here. And I can say I truly didn't have an OCD episode for over 6 weeks, I do have occasional anxiety and weird thoughts. But I recognize them now and I know how to handle them. For some reason it just stopped for me. I did therapy and that was a MASSIVE help for me. I think going back to a normal life with less covid restrictions helped too. But what I'm trying to say is that you can do it too. You can get better at YOUR own pace and ability. There is hope ❤️
I’m scared because if I think “she’s attractive” my brain gose “you think she’s hot? Well your are romantically attracted to her then! You are gay! Or bi! Yes you are! You can’t find the same sex pretty! You don’t like guys anymore ADMIT IT!” Even though that’s not how I feel and I actually am attracted to men like I know I’m not gay, I could never be with a women, but my brain always tells me the opposite. But it’s not the truth. I think also the fact I can’t get a boyfriend makes my brain say “well that’s just the cherry on top, obviously you are gay” when I just can’t find a guy I wanna be with. Help
I hate life, my life at least. I hate all the terrible things I’ve done, I can’t believe I’ve ever done them. People say leave it in the past, but I can’t. I hate myself so much. I want to die. I hate my mind, I hate everything about myself. As soon as I move out, I’m going to isolate from the world. K*lling myself is too good for me, I deserve to live out my life in dread.
It’s so weird so I saw this porn and the girl looked a little too young so I went detective mode to make sure I didn’t see anything illegal and I was able to confirm that she started doing porn when she was 21 so I’m fine but in my mind it’s still like WHAT IF YOU’RE WRONG AND YOU DID SEE SOMETHING BAD? I hate constantly having these thoughts. I try really hard to make sure everything I watch is as ethical as possible but as the nature of the internet is, sometimes there’s uncertainty because I can’t confirm everything. I know we’re suppose to accept uncertainty for recovery but being concerned if someone is truly of age seems like an acceptable level of certainty to try to get, right? But then I’m not even satisfied with that. I’m like what if the info I found out isn’t true! What if they’ve been lying for years? And the fears feel so real. Really rattles my brain trying to figure out how to approach this ERP style without feeling like I did something horrible.
If anyone has taken St. John's Wort for OCD has it helped? I bought it, but am worried it's going to cause my dreams/overall OCD to get worse.
I really wish I wasn’t so focused on the idea of “Cancel Culture.” I’ve done a lot of questionable things in my past that would be “cancellable” today, and that terrifies me. What if I get popular or famous and then someone comes out against me for things I did/said when I was a teenager? I’ve seen how angry people get over the smallest mistakes, I can’t imagine what people would do to me, I could never handle that. It makes me too afraid to do anything. I don’t even post or make art anymore because I’m too afraid of having a fan base to let down, I’m too afraid of becoming popular enough to draw attention. I hate this.
Freaking out So I while ago before I had pocd I saw some lolicon hentai. Idk if I didn’t put the pieces together or what but I didn’t really think about it until I read the tag for it. I was 16 at the time so this was two years ago. It was fetish related so idk if I was just looking at it because I ran out of options or what, but I legit hate myself right now. I don’t think I ever really paid attention to how old they were because they were drawings but that was the first I thought that I might be a pedophile. My pocd has been really bad in recent months and I just feel like I’m a legitimate pedophile for what I did. I had a few thoughts before that but they went away fairly quickly. Idk what is happening, but someone, please help.
Tw: self harm So I self harm and have done for 4 years, I've tried to stop but it doesn't happen and recently I've found that before I do it I'm getting really paranoid about getting infections and I have to clean that I'm going to use, clean my skin and everything around me and I feel like it's normal to worry about getting an infection but is it normal to need to clean everything. I think it's connected to my ocd because there's other things that I worry about getting ill or infections from.
I just wanted to take a moment to tell everyone that you’re doing AMAZING. OCD is a bitch, but y’all are BAD bitches and are 100x better than it. Don’t let OCD get you down- you’re stronger than that. You got this!
Does anyone else have a really hard time focusing or just sitting? Like everyone tells me to watch Brene Browns video about shame but I don’t get it, I’m pretty sure it’s probably because I keep spacing out or not focusing on what she’s saying, but I don’t get what she’s trying to talk about shame, I’m sorry if this seems random, it’s late for me and my brain is feeling weird
Sometimes I don't ERP. I don't get the notion "Your OCD is lying to you." When the fears OCD usually gives us (or at least, me), are really valid fears. Like for example fear of getting contaminated, like who would want that to happen? Who would purposefully put themselves in risk of a disease? Or in my case, my greatest fear is getting accused of something I didn't do, like why the f would I incriminate myself on purpose on something that I DIDN'T DO? Why the f would I want to get falsely accused of something and potentially get arrested over something that I DIDN'T INTEND TO DO? Of course, I don't want my ocd to get worse, but also there's a part of me that thinks it's super ridiculous to just want to put myself in a very unfair situation like that ON PURPOSE
After CBT i thought i was do optimistic and thought i was "cured". It turns out that i can still have the same thoughts and feelings as before, especially when i stop doing the things i worked hard on in therapy. Previous thoughts and ruminations come flooding back. Old habits die hard
If you see something triggering, don’t avoid it. Look at it, go through the process, and move on. Avoidance leads to more anxiety. And hey, maybe the trigger won’t even be that bad. Maybe it won’t even be anything at all. The important part is that you don’t give your brain warning signals. Signals that will only lead to more avoidance and more fear. Afterwards, your ocd may bother you about it. But, you are completely entitled to ignore it. Don’t play into its game.
How am I suppose to work in the medical field with a contamination OCD? This came out of nowhere. Im in my third year of school and in debt and now I cant even give flu shots
I don’t want to seek reassurance but I just have to type it out, because I am so scared right now. When I see a picture of a naked man I don’t really get aroused, I think it looks good but I don’t always feel something. When I look at a women‘s picture I often feel something (groinal response?) and that makes me so scared right now, it feels like real proof right now. Like I finally have to admit that I have been in denial all the time.
Hey everyone, i just wanted to say this to see if anyone else relates , one day i feel so confident about my sexuality and just happy and my ocd isn't that bad and then the next day my ocd gets so bad and it makes me question my sexuality and tell me that im lying to myself and that i'll end up marrying that gender and i feel so confused cuz just a day ago i was so happy and all the attraction i feel now i didn't have before ocd and it makes my head hurt i cant even watch youtube or movies i cant even walk past that sex in school
My ocd is really acting up. I woke up one day just with all the fears crashing in on me and my brain is wanting to believe it all and I feel depressed and emotionless. I want to be okay again . I keep wishing to go back to a week ago when I was feeling better. I just want to feel Ocd is taking over my life
I feel like I will never feel like myself again. I am flooded with feelings of sadness/depression, shame, anger. I can literally see the ocd standing in my brain, enjoying this moment, but I can’t seem to wrap my head around this and pull it out. I am so afraid my thoughts have been true this whole time and I’ve been making up my feelings of anxiety and terror regarding them. Then again, I feel like my thoughts are true - and I don’t know where the thought ends and where I begin? How can I know? I am so desperate to being back myself.
I need to be educated on something. Is it possible to not be able to know how you're feeling. Like in my experience it's like, hey I might have a crush on somebody but I guess I really don't know. Or, I can feel the feelings but sometimes I'm not sure or confident in them. This is something weird I have been feeling for a while. I don't know if it comes from OCD or if its general psychological effect of breakups; I got dumped a few months ago. Mostly over it now.
I'm new here and I'm not really great with words but maybe there's someone who can give me a piece of advice. I'm struggling with a lot of obsessions and compulsions which I somehow manage in my daily life (they've been there for sooo long that I have become very sneaky in compulsions like reassurance or checking and I somehow get by). But I'm having a very difficult time in doing things that I consider might make me panic, and I fear I'm going to have a panic attack, loose control and die bacause I've put myself in that situation( eg. going to the dentist, having any kind of medical procedure etc.). So I'm avoiding all that but when something gets urgent it is a nightmare to go through and do it and I have no idea how to do exposure for this kind of fear. Has anybody been going through something similar?
What medications have helped with intrusive thoughts?
My boyfriend wanted to take a break because our relationship was too one sided right now and his mental health is taking a huge toll. It hurts because selfishly I want to see him but I know he needs time to heal and build himself up again before working on us. I feel selfish because I’ve had such a hard few months and have been so demanding emotionally that I haven’t thought too much about what he needs and how he feels. Any words of encouragement (no reassurance please) is welcome!
My ocd has gotten so bad I think I’ve become really depressed. I had a horrible cleaning episode last night and I missed two lectures and slept until 3 pm. I don’t wanna get out of bed because I’m terrified of the germs in the bathroom. This sucks so much
Woke up feeling the pocd pain today. I just thought of all the ppl Ik who are dating or getting engaged or getting married or pregnant and there’s literally so many ppl and I just am so angry and jealous like their lives seem so amazing and I just want to get married so badly like I’m dying here like I need this to go away. Also like everyone on campus is dating like there so many couples and I really want to have that as well but like I’m so messed up I can’t. Today it just felt off like for no reason and my pocd just swept in there and I began feeling that off feeling I get a lot and I’m just sick of this I just feel a lot of times like I’m just a disgusting human and that this is not ocd it’s just me. It’s really amazing ya know not many ppl can say their living their worst nightmare but I can honestly say that I am
I don’t know if I’ve done something wrong or ocd is just twisting it because I never had any intention of doing anything wrong I guess I just never thought anything of it. It was a long time ago but like changing clothes or going to the restroom with my niece around but not in any weird way. It was a long time ago she’s 11 now but I feel horrible like I’ve done something wrong but I can recall growing up and my family doing the same thing and I never thought anything of it. Maybe I’m overthinking it?
My OCD is flaring up really bad and I mean REALLY bad because I just started a new job. I’m worried the stress is too much but I don’t want to lose this job opportunity what should I do? I just am scared the stress is gonna cause me to have a stroke or something cause I read stress can cause that. But also can’t tell if my thoughts of being stressed is just fear/anxiety or what idk
I had just “minded my own business” to who I presumed was a woman because she had explicit female characteristics and such only to discover that he identifies as a trans man in the comic I’m reading... 😞😞😞 I didn’t even know he was a trans man... I honestly thought he was a woman because of his female body parts... 😭😭😭 I don’t ever wanna be my HOCD or POCD or Real event OCD... 😭😭😭
Does anyone else feel like a fraud or like they are faking their ocd when they don’t share a symptom with someone else? I’ve seen people say they have a hard time falling asleep because of racing thoughts, and I used to aswell, but I don’t anymore. And that makes me scared that I’m faking.
The OCD formula/Anxiety Formula. I discovered that most people's anxiety followed a very similar pattern, the anxieties them selves differed greatly, but they all contained the same variables. When these variables exist the chance for anxiety and or OCD to take over exist. Emotional Attachment+Uncertainty+Precedent= Anxiety Let me explain: 1. Emotional Attachments: It has to be something you care about, and or have deep emotional feelings toward. If you don't care about it, you really don't find yourself worrying too much about it. The reason you worry about intrusive thoughts in the first place is because they are attacking something you care deeply about, or else you would just dismiss them. 2. Uncertainty: Your situation/thought has to have some form of uncertainty. If you know exactly what will happen, you also tend to not worry. 3. Precedent: Now this in my opinion is one that isn't talked about much. Your thought and or situation has to have some real precedent and or real world application. All you anxious thoughts come from somewhere, from either past experiences, things we learn or just think we know. If something has never happened and is deemed impossible to happen ever, then chances are you won't worry about it, and if you do it's easier to dismiss. For example; contamination OCD most people know it's unlikely, but they also know there are things that you can touch that can harm you, such as certain chemicals. This real world precedent helps feed anxiety, because we know it's possible, and it exists. Now this doesn't really help those who are suffering with OCD, but it can be beneficial to recognize some parts of a thought and or situation that can induce a high anxiety attitude. Note: I am not a doctor or medical professional, this formula hasn't been tested outside of friends and family and myself. Just something I discovered in common with everyone's anxiety. Not sure if anyone has seen something similar or posted about this, before me, if so credit goes to them.
everything just feels pointless
I’m struggling with an erp concept. I appreciate any input I receive! I understand that if you do something wrong, you are supposed to remain in uncertainty and try not to do compulsions (ruminating, confessing, etc). However, I don’t know how to handle the actual bad action from a realistic point of view. For example, if I run over a dog and I begin obsessing over doing that, erp would help me with the guilt about the action but in reality I still need to address the fact that I ran over a dog, you know? How am I supposed to address the bad thing I did without engaging in compulsion? This is just hypothetical by the way, I did not actually run over a dog although I do feel like what I did is just as bad😬. It just seems like erp only addresses the thoughts you have about the action but does nothing to address the action itself.
I played an online virtual games with wack names like “sugar daddy” or “singles supreme” just random wacky names . I would talk randomly cuz I was bored . And I’ve told my boyfriend this and I’m scared I flirted. Cuz I make dirty jokes for fun. And I’m really really scared my bf said I didn’t do anything wrong .
How to stop ruminating on past thoughts and feelings and which ones were real?
I’m so glad this day is over. Yesterday I had little sleep getting intense intrusive thoughts all night. But I knew this too shall pass. The day is over tonight I’m so tired I will sleep and tomorrow is a new day. Every bad day or moment is just a temporary moment of time before a good moment or more precisely an improved moment maybe not the best moment but improved comes into the picture.
Does anyone else have a fear of posting/commenting online and that could be mistakenly taken as offensive and in the future and you get canceled? or also a fear of stalkers digging up information from old posts? So in response I tend to delete most of my posts or comments a few minutes after I make them. Even if logically I don’t see anything that could be offensive or too much info. For example: This post, logically I don’t think there’s anything offensive, but I’m hesitant to post this and just want to delete it all from that fear of unintentionally offending and being canceled or it’s TMI and a stalker digs info up. After I post it I’ll just have this huge desire to delete it.
I really need someone’s insight. It now feels like I’ve found my answer again, and I just keep agreeing with it in hopes that it’ll stop. I can tell this is ocd now but earlier it just felt like the honest to god truth. I am also on my period so I’m not sure if that has anything to do with it
I wish I had a group to do exposures with. I know they offer group talk sessions on here but it would be cool to do group erp to gain some real experience and have support from eachother
Hi! I was wondering if anyone has been successful with any OCD and depression medication that doesn’t make them gain weight and is considered weight neutral. I am on Luvox now and it’s not helping much. I have been on Zoloft but that ofc isn’t weight neutral. Please let me know! :)
People can change right?? I did terrible things..even last year. Probably even this year. Which would make me my fears. But I regret them so much,I generally just want to move on and be a better person, but I feel I don't deserve to..this isn't ocd making a little bad thing bad, these things were terrible. And I know it,, everybody would know it. I just want to love myself for who I am today, not my past. I chang everyday but I generally feel so much guilt and disgust. The ocd with intrusive thoughts that I wanna do it all again. Makes me feel I still am my fears...I hate it so much. This wasn't 1 mistake or 2..or even 3. It was so so so many disgusting, horrible,shameful mistakes. I did for years and years. And I mean 11+ years.
Theres this OCD thing I have where I have an obsession with my hair, it HAS to look a certain way and I'm constantly readoing it. And I get into this mindspace every couple months and decide to cut my hair but I'm just going at it like really cutting it like theres no tomorrow I even accidentally cut my finger with the scissors. I even remind myself that every time I cut my hair I cut it too short for my liking or just completely mess up my hair. But I forget that in a moment of dissociation and start cutting my hair. I literally can't stop I've done it 4 times in the past year and one time I couldn't stand the way it looked so much that I bought a hat and wore it for like 4 months straight every day and even sleeping in it.
i am a very superstitious person and am constantly afraid i'll jinx myself and make my intrusive thoughts true. for example this morning i woke up to bad intrusive thoughts as i checked the time on my phone it was 3:33 am. i know three isn't a specific number for bad luck but i got scared and began performing a compulsion as to not jinx myself. one of my greatest fears is i'll wake up and be perfectly fine with my intrusive thoughts. whenever something like this happens i have to remind myself nothing bad is going to happen. it's still early so i'm gonna try and sleep
Idk if I have OCD or not I'm just really anxious about things i did in the past, I feel like a monster actually. I have this one memory of something really disgusting i did and I don't even know if it happened how I remember and I don't know if it happened in the age of 16 or younger. It drives me nuts. I can't stop thinking about that when I'm with my friends who I know that think I'm a great person which i think I am but still I feel bad. Idk sorry I feel selfish for wanting to stop feeling guilty all the time
Does anyone have Pure OCD revolving around doubting a memory?? I have a real life event where I’m “pretty sure” I had an intrusive thought which caused me anxiety. Fast forward a year and it pops back into my head but I doubt it was an intrusive thought. I keep reading about false memories and now am freaking out that the intrusive thought idea is a false memory of me having an intrusive thought and I’m really just remembering pieces of doing something terrible! I was having some drinks and had a Xanax prescription so what if that day I took one and then drank and now don’t remember correctly!? Freaking out 😞
Have any of you ever confessed your thoughts before to someone? Or do you ever get a fear that you’ll confess the thoughts you had, which would get you into trouble?
Got over my contamination OCD fears by doing ERP literally in a day! 😁😁😁🐏
I had a good time tonight as I celebrated one of my friends' birthday -- and OCD has been quite manageable for a few days. But for no reason, while waiting at the crossing on our way back home I suddenly had this image of me pushing another friend of mine (who was here) in front of a bus. It felt so real for a couple of minutes, I thought I actually did it. This is so disturbing, I can't stop thinking that I might be capable of hurting people and I really should avoid them for their own safety. I've always had low self-esteem but it feels even worse at the moment.
I struggle with Real-Event OCD and I found this article that I thought was very helpful. I hope it helps you, too. https://www.turningpointpsychology.ca/blog/real-event-ocd
Does anyone else suffer with cheating ocd? It feels like your gonna cheat on your bf with one of his friends… this makes me feel extremely horrible and guilty. This all started when I first met his friends in the summer and I got along with one of them, he was funny, friendly and kind but my ocd is saying I want to leave/ cheat on my bf with him which is giving me so much anxiety, guilt and shame like who tf thinks like this?! 😫 someone please help
PLEASE ANSWER ASAP I did an exposure at 2 am last night, I shouldn’t have. I regret it. I feel like a murderer in denial. I grabbed a knife and sat downstairs with the knife in my hand. My ocd and anxiety went crazy. At that moment I realized how truly easy it was to go upstairs and kill my parents. I literally felt like I was gonna do it, it felt like I was holding myself back from doing it and I was so anxious. When I was downstairs holding the knife I felt the urge to smile, but I didn’t want to smile. I feel psychotic I’m so anxious, I feel like a murderer is denial. I feel like I’m actually gonna stab them. I can’t do this anymore. When I went downstairs to do that exposure, my intent was to face my fear (which was knives) but that just completely backfired. I feel traumatized. It made me realize how easily I could’ve gave in and actually acted out on it. In that moment I felt like an actual psycho who was willing to stab my parents. I kept getting the intrusive urge to grab the knife and actually go through with it. The intrusive thoughts and images didn’t make it any better. I feel like I can’t be safe anywhere, I constantly feel like I’m dangerous and could act out any minute. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore, why did I do that exposure it just made everything worse. I don’t even have a therapist so I shouldn’t have done that exposure eon the first place. My ocd and anxiety always gets worse at night, maybe because my parents are sleeping so it would be easier to hurt them ? I’m so anxious, I could barely sleep last night because of this
Ocd is a judgmental bully. Think of the most judgmental person you know. Ocd is 5x worse than that. The problem is, it’s in your head, and will judge your every thought. Thoughts that literally everyone has. And it will make you over speculate and tell you to control it. You don’t need to control anything. Thoughts don’t even mean anything. If I thought of the sky falling, that doesn’t mean the sky will fall or I want the sky to fall. Ocd is just making you feel like you need to reach its standards. Don’t try to meet the standards of your bullies. You are so much better than they are.
Tmi - so I am shamed to admit that I did the teenagery thing again. It's just so weird to me how people can do that and move on with their lives like nothing happened, I dont really know what drives me to do it. It's just a mood and then directly after I get regretful and like ive ruined myself. Is this normal to feel this way? Like just as a general psychological thing.
When the thoughts get too much I like saying "Yeah okay, go on - I’m listening" in my head. They usually shut up after that. You just have to give them room.
anyone here really struggle with false memories. i have very bad sexual themes of ocd whenever i walk past someone or talk to someone alone or something my brain makes me believe i did awful things to them because of my intrusive thoughts. it just feels so real even f you truly know it’s not it doesn’t change the fact of how real it feels. i can’t stop myself from dwelling on them.
Is this cheating? Tw: possible SA ? Last year before the pandemic began I started dating my current boyfriend. But even before we dated in my chemistry class there was a guy who would try to put his hands up my shirt. I would tell him to stop and I’d put his hands down but sometimes I didn’t know what else to say or do because the classroom was quiet and it just felt wrong to stand up for myself or like I was supposed to like it I don’t know why so I would just let him. He never asked me if he could and if he had I 100% would’ve said no. I truly can’t remember if I let him while my boyfriend was with me or not but I do remember that after we started dating I got more firm about saying no and staying away from him. Is this cheating???
My OCD manipulates me into analyzing trauma-related images, ideas, thoughts etc. My OCD does this by making me feel as if I condone or support bad things. I've come to realize that OCD targets what and who we care about most, so that reminds me that what my OCD is trying to accuse me of liking or condoning isn't true.
Currently going through a lot of anxiety and compulsions… on a Saturday I drank a lot and went out. Now I’m having fears that I said something offensive. There’s no proof, my friends didn’t mention anything to me, but I just feel like I did something wrong. I keep back tracking the night but my anxiety is getting the best of me. I hate this
Question: Can anyone at NOCD diagnose it?
I need encouragement- I had this intrusive thought on Saturday that if I eat, my 5-month old niece would choke. I have really eaten much since then, and I purged what I did eat. I’m scared. I’m so hungry. Can I have some words of encouragement (not reassurance) so I can eat and keep the food down? Thank you so much!
If realisation is meant to make you feel this low, depressed and basically done with life then it’s the most cruel thing to ever happen to me. I feel like everything has been taken from me and I’ve given up on trying to get what I loved so much back again. I’ve lost my confidence, my drive, my vision for the future. I had a wonderful career, gf, friends and family. Now I don’t want any of it, and I can’t even see myself getting it back anymore. I used to wake up and feel like the luckiest person alive, I’d go to work and feel the same. I’d come home to pure love, now it’s all gone it all seems like a fantasy. A dream that I had the chance of living it and now I’m being forced to wake up and return to a cruel reality. I don’t think I’ll ever get over this, I don’t want to get over it. I feel selfish for staying with my partner when I have all these new thoughts/feelings. I don’t know what is real anymore. It just feels like the OCD has finally played it’s strongest game and it’s won and I’m bored to death of playing this game with it anymore. I’m done!
Anybody willing to talk depersonalization?
Why does my harm ocd get worse at night ? I’ve done exposures like holding a big knife or having it near me with my parents and pets around throughout the day, but I haven’t done any exposures during the night. I don’t have a therapist, so I’ve been trying to do recovery all on my own, I also have been taking Prozac for almost 2 weeks now. I feel like I’m starting to become less anxious about the ocd symptoms, but then I start getting convinced that I like the thoughts or want to act out on them, I even sometimes get emotions that make it seem like I like them. Like I could feel “happiness” or “excitement” but it’s also a mix of anxiety with it. I don’t want to stab my parents or pets but at night it always seems like I do I don’t even know if it actual happiness or excitement from the thought, but it feels like it sometimes :/ I constantly think about stabbing my parents, but it always seems like I’m more likely to “act out” on those thoughts at night because they’re sleeping. It feels like I want to act out but even typing this I get anxious, what’s going on ? Is anyone else experiencing this ?
Has anyone ever been scared to close your eyes because your afraid of what you might think of, or see in your head. And also have you ever had a thought about monster and or something haunting you. Also sorry about the punctuation.
hey everyone. my OCD has been making me scared of getting my septum pierced like i wanted to on my birthday this month, telling me it would make me "more evil". I decided to face that fear and do it anyway, because I deserve to do things i've always wanted to do. Here's to facing your fears ❤️
My real event ocd has been bugging out lately. Having trouble practicing self acceptance on not fearing my failures and mistakes at all times especially since everything seems to be a trigger
Has anyone who has managed to recover from OCD got any advice for those trying to get through it? :)
Anyone else feel like they are totally accepting of the thoughts now and that they are now in the closet and this isn’t ocd anymore? I feel like I can live a normal life and I have this thought in the back of my head at all times that I’m gay. I just want my life back