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amymarlo78
amymarlo78
Yesterday
  • "Pure" OCD
I have Trichotillima and I feel so alone and that no one understands.
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justaname2002
justaname2002
Yesterday
I haven’t been on this app in about a year because it turned into a compulsion. But my OCD hasn’t been as bad for like 3 months but I am still looking to be diagnosed (i couldn’t when it was bad due to my age and COVID). However, I feel like if they assess me my answers wouldn’t be as severe because my intrusive thoughts aren’t as frequent right now. Would I Answer the questions as if i was bad? Or do i just not get the diagnosis until i’m bad again? I know that OCD comes and goes in waves but i’m worried my GP will just say it’s my anxiety that caused these thoughts…
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Dre83
Dre83NOCD Therapy Member
Yesterday
  • "Pure" OCD
Can you have ocd about the cheating when you’ve been cheated on? Not like relationship ocd.
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L💖
L💖
Yesterday
  • "Pure" OCD
  • Relationship OCD
Why don't I enjoy kissing my boyfriend of 6 years?
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Nour04
Nour04
Yesterday
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
  • "Pure" OCD
has my ocd gotten worse this week because my period may be near?
Gosu123
Gosu123NOCD Therapy Member
Yesterday
One thing I have learned about living with ocd for the past 6/7 months is it’s a war not a battle, some battles you’ll win and some you’ll win, small steps forward are still forward, the trick is to keep going and not get disheartened which is obviously easier said than done!
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natalie_rose
natalie_roseNOCD Therapy Member
Yesterday
  • Harm OCD
Today i feel super anxious but i got to keep moving forward
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soup
soup
Yesterday
i’m about to work for the first time and my ocd is making me worry
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I’m not my OCD
I’m not my OCD
Yesterday
I feel great!!! If i feel great then you can feel great too! I have been on a damn rollercoaster with my ocd/anxiety!!! I swear i felt the worse ever everrr
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block123
block123NOCD Therapy Member
Yesterday
  • "Pure" OCD
  • Pedophilic Obsessions OCD
Anyone have any good resources or advice on explaining ocd to family? Particularly pocd
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hate_ocd.123
hate_ocd.123
2d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
I’m starting trauma therapy on top of ocd therapy and i’m so scared I thought I had processed my trauma but truly looking at it, i’m terrified to face it Mainly the sexual assault. I already KNOW my ocd is gonna use it against me. It’ll say because i’m not attracted to men / uncomfortable with my attractions to men or whatever i feel, i’m a lesbian. I know it’ll do this cause it already does. And i’m just scared imma realize i’m a lesbian:(
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Jonathan111
Jonathan111
2d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
Does anyone else analyze photos of an attractive person of the gender they don’t want to be attracted to due to Sexual Orientation OCD? I do this and I’ll get so deep into it I start to get nervous, sometimes the attraction will feel so high but I’ll be nervously uncomfortable at the same time while at it when I analyze. Is it just me? Or does anyone else go through this?
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Sizmix
Sizmix
2d ago
Can trauma cause OCD (Physical, mental)
Always_anxious
Always_anxiousNOCD Therapy Member
2d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
#metoo and OCD I’ve had OCD for a long time, but was formally diagnosed last year and got into treatment. A major trigger for me has been #metoo. To be clear, I am a HUGE supporter of the movement and deeply value women feeling safe with myself and other males (spoiler…. This is why OCD attacks it…ego dystonic anyone?). Years ago, before I knew I had OCD, Brett Kavanaugh was being appointed to the Supreme Court. I was so angered that accusations against him weren’t taken more seriously given the evidence presented. My OCD really kicked in and began presenting in two forms “what if you’ve not always been perfect in romantic relationships?” And “you must have done something horrible in a dating relationship”. Had I been in ERP, or even known I had OCD at this point, I could have stopped the compulsion of mental review (rumination) but I didn’t. I began combing through my relationship history. Of course I found things that had never bothered me before ( most had actually been examples of how committed I was to not harming anyone else) but OCD twisted the memories and told me many things including, “this is it … you obviously sexually assaulted someone … you committed rape … you didn’t stop quickly enough … you wanted that person to be drunk … you deserve to be in jail … you don’t deserve happiness … you really messed up”. Needless to say, this was a dark dark dark spiral. I talked with my therapist about the situations. He reassured me that I hadn’t done anything wrong and I really needed to work on preventing rumination (he prefaced reassurance with “I know I shouldn’t do this but I need to tell you you are extremely far away from X”). He is right, rumination is where the OCD takes these narratives and distorts them and makes you question your intentions. That is what OCD does and that is what we must not give into. I am on a path to healing and I am learning to prevent responses to these thoughts. I share this short story to let others know they aren’t alone in these thoughts. I read an article by an OCD therapist who said that #metoo has been really bad for people with OCD. I can fully understand that. It is a strange spot to be in, supporting the movement with all my heart but also having a dark disorder of doubt always knocking at the door and telling me I can’t support it because I’m the worst human alive. I’m sure there are others on this app who struggle with these taboo themes and feel isolated because their OCD tells them they have sexually assaulted people, or raped people, or had the opposite of good intentions. This is what OCD does, it wants us scared, it gives us no grace, no room for error. These are the cognitive distortions produced by the disorder. We can beat this thing and we can trust that we are worthy of love. Getting in ERP and learning to not respond to the thoughts is the way out. If ERP is out of your budget, Michael Greegberg has fantastic tools to begin to manage rumination on his website and he has an OCD stories podcast focused on stopping rumination. I will admit, part of me hopes people will reassure me that they have had these thoughts also. Another part of me is scared people won’t understand. I’m choosing to embrace the uncertainty and put a small bit of my experience out there for others. OCD is a dark and lonely existence but you aren’t alone and you can get your life back.
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anonymous
anonymous
2d ago
a couple weeks ago my ocd was the best it’s been in a year. now it’s all falling apart. how do i break this ocd cycle to make sure i don’t get as bad as how i was before?
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mobina
mobina
2d ago
Did some compulsions willingly, ef me.
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ocdomi
ocdomi
2d ago
ocd is like quick sand. the more you fight against it, the deeper you get and the harder it is to escape
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iamstrong
iamstrongNOCD Therapy Member
2d ago
So I go back to college next week over 300 miles away from my home and I am so scared I’m not gonna be able to do it. My mom is like my comfort person and I feel like she keeps me sane and I’m so worried I’m gonna go to college, not have her and completely lose control. It terrifies me and I feel like I shouldn’t go. Idk what to do. I have to go because my parents put a lot of Money into this, but I’m so terrified of who I’ll turn into.
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FightTheFear
FightTheFearNOCD Therapy Member
2d ago
It’s scary when the thoughts dont bother you as much. Feels like im accepting them. I just want to have a nice sunday for once.
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Kärsiä
Kärsiä
2d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
I usually get intrusive thoughts saying “I like girls/ I like women.” and get nauseous at it. At least that comforts me to know that I don’t want to be with a woman. So when I did had that thought earlier- I didn’t felt any nausea. It felt as if I am, so I got anxious and cried :/
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raj123
raj123
2d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
Guys please I want help , can hocd cause erectile dysfunction or is it due to something else? I'm 15
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kingjames23
kingjames23
2d ago
I get intrusive thoughts instantly as I wake up
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Nour04
Nour04
2d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
i am having all those thoughts about people in my life not accepting me if i were gay and that's why i am scared and am in denial :(
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ilahi
ilahi
2d ago
  • Real Events OCD
I'm having some real event ocd and it's killing me, i just want to forget everything
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Annonimois
Annonimois NOCD Therapy Member
2d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
Does anyone’s mind jump around all day and had multiple thoughts at once like there 10o tv on in my brain
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Nour04
Nour04
2d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
please reply :( i was just doing a compulsion and i told myself "this will turn you straight" as if i were gay? why so i consider myself gay? and then i guess i said "i know there's something wrong with me i admit it please help me turn straight again" this is denial y'all!! i am going to cry. this is literally denial. i don't feel repulsed by the thoughts as much anymore but i don't think i like them. i picked at my thumbs so much but i really feel in denial :( this sounds so much like denial. can someone please tell me if there's the slightest hope this is hocd?? PLEASE
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Lady Bird
Lady Bird
2d ago
  • Existential OCD
Is it still ocd if the thoughts aren’t the same/repetitive but still connected to the main obsession? Like for example, if one is afraid of losing their identity, they’re constantly thinking about various qualities that are opposite to theirs and how it’s the correct quality to have? Not necessarily a single question like “will i lose my identity?”
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AnotherDay
AnotherDay
2d ago
Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with the stress that comes with ocd? Even when I try to let the ruminating pass there's a constant pain in my chest and body from the anxiety and stress like it never goes away.
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raj123
raj123
2d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
Does anyone feel like crying the whole time and after you cry, you feel slightly better?
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Europe2018
Europe2018
2d ago
Did your therapist give you instruction on Basic Mindfulness Meditation? I am not responding well to CBT, considering meditation
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sourpatchkid
sourpatchkid
2d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
it’s hard to know if it’s a gut feeling/intuition or my intrusive thoughts.
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b
b
2d ago
  • Pedophilic Obsessions OCD
  • Harm OCD
what do i do my anxiety and thoughts have gotten 10x worse and idk what to do. i haven't even gotten diagnosed yet so i cant say i have ocd. i try to talk about it with my sister and she'll say "stop self diagnosing yourself you don't even know if you have it" when she doesn't even know half the things that go on in my head and all the things i do daily to prove to myself i'm not gross. but i still feel like i am disgusting and a horrible person.
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Darren111
Darren111
2d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
  • Pedophilic Obsessions OCD
I have teenagers in my life that I'm around. Does anyone else deal with the POCD invasive thoughts as they see a teenager and have to actively avoid your brain trying to notice them as if you'd be checking them out? I obviously don't want to do this when around them but then I also feel like I can't look at them at all. Has anyone dealt with this? What helps?
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getwellsoon
getwellsoon
3d ago
stuck between knowing if i want them or if i don’t want them but i know deep down i do want them. i’m not gonna give up
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MandyM
MandyM
3d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
Does anybody feel like they are lying to themselves about having OCD?
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Omarg7
Omarg7
3d ago
  • Harm OCD
  • "Pure" OCD
Cam harm ocd make you feel enthusiastic about an intrusive thought or obession that deep down inside you know you would never do? Driving me insane
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Moe
Moe
3d ago
Has anyone’s OCD got worse since the lockdown?
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OCD33
OCD33NOCD Therapy Member
3d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
When this theme got bad 1.5 years ago I was terrified of losing my fiancé now I’m not 😭 WHYYYY
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Anonymous
Anonymous
3d ago
Today’s my birthday :( unfortunately it’s my first birthday with ocd .
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RH_92
RH_92NOCD Therapy Member
3d ago
If I'm understanding ERP correctly, it's not doing ANYTHING that would help soothe you, right? In my case I'll have a thought > usually I'll have my husband check things for me, if no-one is around to check things for me, I'll say to myself (in my head or out-loud) "I would never do xyz" "I didn't even get up from where I was, if I did I would've remembered walking to and from" (just examples). These are all compulsions, right? So I can't even mentally soothe myself. If I'm going to do ERP correctly, how do y'all stop the mental compulsions?
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TheresaMarie
TheresaMarieNOCD Therapy Member
3d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
How do I stop fearing the thoughts will come back again as bad as before?
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Lil OCD Vert
Lil OCD VertNOCD Therapy Member
3d ago
I’m reading a lot of posts about people’s OCD coming back, I noticed mine started to bug me as well and I’m struggling at this time, does anyone else feel like recently they sort of relapsed? I honestly had chalked it down the season change.. I was managing super well for the last year until summer rolled around.
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aleem shaw
aleem shaw
3d ago
  • Contamination OCD
HOW DO I CHANGE THE CORE BELIEFS ABOUT SEMEN & URINE HOW TO STOP FEARING EM
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nikkii
nikkii
3d ago
  • Relationship OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
i got my second dose of the vaccine and it feels like every one of my fears are real. has this happened to anybody else or am i just being delusional ?
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Heello
Heello
3d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
Real event ocd is distressing me again. I dont know what to do. I already confessed many times, but I feel like I should give more details, otherwise my confessions are false, as if I am lying. What should I do?
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OCDGirl22
OCDGirl22
3d ago
  • Relationship OCD
Hi, I’m new here but wanted to take the leap and try this out. I have had OCD since about 4 years old. Right now I’m having a hard time and would appreciate hearing from other people who go through what I do to help me feel a bit better because I always feel like no one around me gets what I go through. I have been with my partner for 10 years with lots of crazy ups and downs, probably more than your average relationship. My fiancé used to be a heroin addict at the time we met, but for awhile I had no idea. Later on of course it came out because something like that is hard to conceal for a long period of time. Anyways, during the whole thing was traumatizing, he made horrible decisions but we were so good and compatible with one another when drugs weren’t ruining everything so he finally went to rehab to get better for himself, his son, & I after 2 years of having enough. He healed and did all the work and has been clean and sober for almost 5 or 6 years now. I was left though with a lot of trauma and OCD triggers and when we began our relationship again with him sober I was in a depressed state & scared because I was so afraid he would relapse and I worried and worried myself to death that our lives would go back to how bad it was when he was at his worst. Now I wake up every morning with anxiety because somedays I will have a hard time feeling while I’m with him due to depression or anxiety, I’m hoping, and I start to flip out that I might be falling out of love. I even had a therapist say “maybe you just need to accept it” not understanding ROCD. That caused me to have even more anxiety and be worse ever since. So just curious if anyone else goes through long stages of numbness or not being attracted due to depression, anxiety or OCD with the person your with. It makes me feel SO guilty all day everyday because I don’t think it’s my OCD, my brain keeps thinking it’s me and I fell out of love. :(
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shayla
shayla
3d ago
im terrified that I'll say my intrusive thoughts out loud. they're horrible things that should never be said, which is why it scares me so much. before my ocd got really bad again I didn't have this problem. I could trust myself and I knew I wouldn't say anything that I didn't want to say, but now I have false memories of me saying these things. I can't tell the difference between real memories and false memories. I have bruises on my lips because I'm constantly biting them and holding my hands over my mouth just incase something slips out. I'm so tired of this. I don't know what to do
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NT24
NT24NOCD Therapy Member
3d ago
Why do I have to over analyze everything? Why can’t I just be happy?
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ibeatocd
ibeatocd
4d ago
  • Transgender OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP!!! I have had HOCD for 1.5 years now and TOCD has showed up 15 days back. I can't seek a therapist because my parents have a conservative mindset and I don't earn. I have been doing ERP since a month now but I am anxious and depressed all the time. I sit with anxiety. I am feeling completely lost since a week and it feels like I am in denial or who I actually am. I don't like dressing up anymore. I almost gave up on life yesterday night. How long will I take to recover?
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cmm1
cmm1
4d ago
  • Real Events OCD
Does anyone have any tips about real event OCD. After the incident I feel so guilty and feel as I ruined everything. I feel as I won't be able to live with a free conscience now. Real Event OCD has never been one of my themes untill now so now I feel stuck. Thanks!
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jlxlz
jlxlz
4d ago
  • Relationship OCD
relationships aren’t even fun for me anymore because i get too stressed
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annonymous
annonymous
4d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
PLEASE help i feel like i’m gonna be sick because of how anxious i am. i feel like my hocd is coming back bad. it is always there sometimes but i feel it coming full force again. i feel like i am lying to my whole family and all my friends and everyone in my life and just feel like i’m keeping a whole secret that i’m bi but i don’t want to admit that i am. i feel like it’s so obvious that i am sexually attracted to girls but just don’t want to admit it. i don’t know what to do. like this is so bad i don’t know what to do. i feel like if i came out i would still doubt everything but then a part of me feels relief but that just makes me more anxious. i’m so afraid.
Mayte
Mayte
4d ago
I don't wanna live like this anymore :/ I wanna be happy, enjoy life without worrying, I wanna be stress free, I don't want these intrusive thoughts anymore!! I feel physcially tired if feeling like this but you know what I'm not gonna give up! I hope I can get better! I will try even though I feel scared cause my mind is telling me to die I don't want too! I don't have the urge to either! But I hope when I go back to school I can get myself back together!
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Reassurance Destroyer
Reassurance DestroyerNOCD Therapy Member
4d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
The only way to get better from hocd is by throwing in the towel and giving up on fighting your sexuality. Accept that it could be true. It takes weeks/months.
paintings34
paintings34
4d ago
I’m not sure what’s happening to me anymore. Sometimes I start thinking that it’s not ocd and I’m actually crazy or have other mental illness. I’m scared I’ll never get better or get to enjoy life again. I keep telling to myself and trying to not engage with the thoughts, to accept uncertainty. But every time I end up ruminating and crying. I used to think I was getting better but now I break down and get more anxious than before every time I get an intrusive thought. I did reach out for help today but I’ll probably won’t get an answer from the person until monday. I’m kind of scared of the weekend, that I’ll get more and more worse or that I’m gonna be like this forever.
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getwellsoon
getwellsoon
4d ago
i really hope things get better and better in days to come for all of us
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kradish
kradish
4d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
  • Real Events OCD
Having such a difficult week and my self esteem is at an all time low. I really "hate" myself right now because OCD is telling me that I'm a terrible person that will suffer my entire life and lose everything I love. I'm trying so hard to resist my compulsions. I'm just so mentally and emotionally exhausted.. Anyone else get super paranoid from their OCD? Any tips on how to deal with all this without providing myself too much reassurance?
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MandyM
MandyM
4d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
Does anybody feel like they are just existing? I feel like I'm not doing enough in life and I feel like I be better off dead. I always think about a life that I imagine myself having and that I overcome OCD,depression, BDD (body dysmorpia) but there's any part of me that I'm not gonna make it. I have this weird feeling that im gonna die soon due to my OCD and BDD. I'm just very lonely. I live with my parents and my brothers and yes I know that I have company, but I'm lonely. I look at social media and I'm sad because everybody doing something with their lives and I'm at home doing nothing. I've struggled getting a job and I completely gave up and I'm financially struggling as well. Im in my early twenties and have mental health issues and I feel like I'm not gonna experience what other young people experienced in their twenties such as graduating, getting a well paid job, or finding love (especially finding someone). I feel like no one likes me. I haven't hung out with my friends in a long time because most of them live in a different city or when they come visit, they don't message me. I have one that I talk to but she's busy when I try to call her. I'm just alone and I feel like I'm gonna die alone in my bedroom. My intrusive thoughts hasn't been acting up which is great because I feel like I finally accepted uncertainty. I'm afraid its gonna get worse like how it did earlier this year when I almost committed suicide. I feel really uncomfortable calling myself a suicide survivor because I'm still dealing with trauma of going to the hospital and it was really hard for my family. The scariest thought that comes to my mind is, "Why didn't you kill yourself when you had the chance?" I'm stuck in rut and I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm running out of time.
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Anyonomous
AnyonomousNOCD Therapy Member
4d ago
Does anyone else get intrusive thoights that people don't like you and that it will make you change everything about yourself
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Fruitsbasket
FruitsbasketNOCD Therapy Member
4d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
How can I tell if a groinal response is real arousal or anxiety?
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IsA10
IsA10
4d ago
  • False Memory OCD
  • "Pure" OCD
I have somehow convinced myself I have done this terrible thing in the past, and without confirmation it feels like I can never move on and I’m truly a disgusting person, it’s almost like I know I didn’t do anything bad because it would have been so obvious at the time and I would remember and there would have been consequences for my actions, and plus I was with people at the time and Ik my thoughts aren’t logical, but fear takes over and there’s always that little thought in the back of my head every time I calm down telling me that ‘well what if you did do this thing, you don’t deserve to relax if you did, you don’t even deserve to live’ and this thing has stemmed from one of my biggest fears and I can’t even imagine myself doing something like that irl but my mind keeps tricking me, has anyone had the same experience or got any advise? I feel so alone rn and I’m in a rly dark place ngl.. Is this an ocd thing? And also don’t respond telling me ‘so what if you did something bad how bad can it be?’ because that’s going to make it worse, ty for reading I’m only 17 and this is too hard to deal with..
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Nour04
Nour04
4d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
so there's a bit much to unpack, i'd appreciate the read it feels really real, like i actually want it, and then when i cringe or say no it feels like i am lying and not letting myself be out and honest about my sexuality. is this ocd or just a sexuality crisis and denial??? plus whenever i feel like i am forming a new compulsion my mind goes like "and now you'll remind yourself to do it each time just to prove this is ocd". and then when i actually do compulsions it feels like i am reminding myself. and like if i feel a new theme developing i tell myself not to fake it to prove that this theme is valid. and once i was watching a threesome in a movie that was like ffm and now i am trying to relive that to see whether or not i was more focused on the girls and it feels like i was, i can't remember. and today i saw a reel on Instagram that was like a girl saying "you can like girls and still be straight" and i think when i saw it i felt relieved and then the comments were all like DENIAL and i was trying to figure out why i felt relieved and if i felt that way because i was "able to like girls and still be straight" and like that must mean i am in denial, or if it was a case of "ow wow of that is straight then i must be" and that's why i felt relieved.
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S.verv20
S.verv20
4d ago
  • Relationship OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
what is the way when you feel really guilty and you feel that you are lying so the brain says to let go of the person you love
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eleva
eleva
4d ago
How do people cope with a lack of support at home? One of my ocd themes is contamination and I sometimes have very very dry hands that are really noticeable and people will comment on them. My dad doesn’t really “believe” in mental illness despite all my diagnoses and appointments with specialists, I’ve been diagnosed with ocd for eight years now. He is very against medication and when I was taking it, he’d ask every day if I was still using it, would I ever stop taking it, when will I stop taking it, etc. so I just ceased it myself to keep him quiet and he was so glad when I did. Tonight he said that my hands looked awful, I need to stop washing them, I need to stop using so much soap. He’s brought this up many times these past few weeks but today I just burst into tears. I told him he’s not the one who has to deal with them, I’m the one who’s in physical pain every time I move them, that I don’t enjoy washing my hands so often, and that he never even tried to understand what it’s been like all these years. I’ve pretty much accepted that this will be something I’ll always struggle with. When I’m medicated I feel a little better, I can often challenge the urge to wash my hands but as I said he hates the idea of medication as well. I can’t win. I’m sorry for the lengthy post, I’m tired and sad and I don’t have anyone to talk to. I’ve had the worst week at work and this has tipped me over the edge.
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Mmartinez015
Mmartinez015NOCD Therapy Member
4d ago
How do I deal with a break up after almost four years? It’s not really ocd related but in a way it is because I’m thinking about my future and how I wanted him to be a part of it.
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anonymous111
anonymous111
4d ago
I wish when talking about ocd it wasn't just "thoughts are just thoughts" But instead including everything like urges, feelings, commands, sensations, dreams, and not JUST thoughts because its so much more than that. I used to think I didn't have ocd because I got more than just thoughts
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Melodyocd
MelodyocdNOCD Therapy Member
4d ago
  • Relationship OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
Just did a few compulsions… was the first time in a whileeee and I feel kinda disappointed in myself :( Since going on medication I’ve been handling my ocd and anxiety really well, although having no anxiety to the thoughts does make me scared that they’re real, but I’m trying not to dwell on that and just say “maybe” to it. I’ve also not done any erp in a really long time, I’m worried I’m just preforming an avoidance compulsion
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Anonymous
Anonymous
4d ago
I just hate nights. I sleep at 11:30-12 and wake up at 6 am and then it just keeps going back now it’s 5 am, and it seems to start becoming 4am. I just wish I had a good rest day.
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Europe2018
Europe2018
4d ago
The former social worker told me to not take medication if life can still be functionable for the side affects. He advised me to create a life structure and get busy to deal with my OCD.
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amethyst :)
amethyst :)
4d ago
if i have an urge to do erp is it turning into a compulsion? should i stop?
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EmirSyd02
EmirSyd02
4d ago
  • Pedophilic Obsessions OCD
My psychologist just made me realise that ruminating and questioning whether I’m correctly doing recovery properly is one of my compulsions lol. I hate this disorder haha. Side note: does anyone else ruminate about whether they are ruminating? Like a lot of times I’ll be catch myself ruminating about a trigger (a child) and then I’ll get a thought like “am I currently ruminating because of OCD or am I thinking about this kid right now because I’m actually a p*do”?
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Ihateocd83
Ihateocd83NOCD Therapy Member
4d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
Does anyone else's hocd make them think like they want to be with the same sex?
BigGip09
BigGip09
4d ago
It's hard to think about the good things that happen around you when all your mind does is fill in the blanks with bad thoughts that have nothing to do with anything really. Sick of the same thoughts that have to do with incidents years ago and a false memory, but not much else you can do
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Obsessivelyeverafter
Obsessivelyeverafter
4d ago
When I have my obsessive thought I try to turn my focus on something else. Even If I manage to distract my mind, I still have the obsessive thought in the background, feels like its stuck in my mind. Is someone else dealing with this? How do you manage to "unstuck" ? I try to think sometimes of a comedian doing funny sounds everytime the thought gets in my guts. But I dont know If its good the replace the thought
Anonymous
AnonymousNOCD Therapy Member
4d ago
  • Pedophilic Obsessions OCD
is pocd real?
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Europe2018
Europe2018
4d ago
All guys rejected to date me because I have OCD. Despite that I have so many good qualities Poor me. Anyone in the same situation?
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AjaxSimp
AjaxSimp
4d ago
  • Relationship OCD
  • Harm OCD
I just want to rant about my struggles with OCD. Sometimes my thoughts are about harming me or someone else it's been my main freak out. Since for a week I can't stop seeing terrible images. I can't eat or sleep properly since it's been going on. I can't even draw anymore due to the thoughts. I panic so badly I'm going numb I start to feel emotionless until I obsess over my thoughts I feel my emotions come back. Since I've been fighting with myself to stop it. I feel like it's toxic around my family members since they have to put up with me and my panic attacks. I feel like my sister is giving up on me she's been helping me fight it for four years now. I don't blame here for wanting to take a break away from me. I'm at a state where I believe that I'm my bad thoughts that I'm lying to others that I'm not this disgusting person. That I'm a manipulator it scares me. I'm at a battle that I'm not. I don't believe it since for a few months back I was happy with better thoughts even though it was poking at me I had better control. Now I'm constantly freaking out and crying mostly everyday. I can't stop them making me believe that I want to be like this. I just want everything to be normal again I want to be happy the way I used to be. My imagination is no longer a place for me to be happy to being corrupted by bad thoughts. My interest in things I like or doing is also leaving me. I feel lifeless most of the time until I fixate on the bad. I also been pulling out my hair I just picked up this habit a few days ago. When I had my first panic attack about bad thoughts I never done this. It seems to get worst over the years. I don't want to be stuck like this I kept trying to move forward but I keep getting trapped into this endless cycle of darkness. I had good thoughts I was being motivated by them but in a few minutes I started to worry about the bad again. I can't get help by an actual therapist since I'm poor and can't afford the treatment here, every place that is near me aren't accepting new patients. I can't go out of town to get help since it's also too expensive. I feel trapped, allowing this to lose my goals that I want to achieve in life. Sorry if this is too long or repetitive. I feel a little better typing out my thoughts.
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jadahi
jadahi
4d ago
hi so i’m broken again lol…absolutely no hope in my life at this moment. i don’t really know how to talk about my feelings because no one ever really asks me. i’m always trying to help other people. and always trying to make them laugh no matter how down i am. but uh…let’s just get into it i guess. so for about two years now ever since quarantine started and i got stuck in the house with my crazy grandma who abused me..i got ocd out of it, and multiple other disorders like social anxiety, etc. but ocd being my main problem. i cannot live a normal life ever since. i haven’t ever gotten therapy or pills or anything like that because for one my family doesn’t allow me taking pills and for two i feel it’s weak of me to do therapy or take pills because of my own dumb mind. i’m just making it harder on myself. i’m making myself feel like i have to do this all on my own, no help. but i really can’t. my issue with ocd is intruding thoughts. i always feel like i have to make new social media accounts on all my devices: my tv, xbox, playstation, phone, etc. like every single monday. everytime something goes wrong on one of them i have to start comepletwly over. and it takes like the whole day. i have to restart everything. all my emails. accounts. everything. it’s so tiring. and also expensive. but i can’t stop it. also i can’t even live??! it sounds so crazy i know. and i bet no ones gonna relate to this so i don’t even know why i’m writing this but i’ll try to explain it i guess. it’s like i can’t live my life cause if i do something wrong or say something wrong i’ll have to restart the day or the week until it’s monday..and i can’t continue things on other days. it’s like i’m not supposed to feel things or have emotions. everything i do is monitored by me. it’s so bad and i can’t keep living like this. i just want to relax..just live. please help i only have like 2 weeks before school
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Anonymous
AnonymousNOCD Therapy Member
4d ago
anybody have the fear of becoming an alcoholic? i barely drink but when i do i’m always freaking out that i’m gonna lose control one day. any advice??
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Andrew
AndrewNOCD Therapy Member
4d ago
Please someone who is actually gay how did you find out that you were and confirmed it im freaking the hell out and when you found out how did you accept it I’m in so much stress on my mind I can’t just let the sexual stuff go I think I really am just fighting the fact that I’m gay I don’t need reassurance here but I’m so lost I hung out with my friend today who is a guy and it went not bad we were having fun but then at the end of the day it just got super awkward and I kept thinking gay things and it made me feel like shit is anyone out there I’m so alone in my head and I can’t talk to anyone else about this stuff you guys are like my family in these feelings whatever they are also no matter how many girls I hook up with it never confirms anything so maybe I’m bi?
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Omarg7
Omarg7
4d ago
  • Harm OCD
  • "Pure" OCD
Can harm ocd make you feel like you feel satisfaction or en enthusiasm from intrusive thoughts?
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creature
creature
4d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
ZOCD NSFW +18 My dog wanted up on my bed because he was scared of the thunder outside. He's small,and I've only recently had him and all my past dogs were always big. So he couldn't get up,and I was unexperienced with lifting him. I tried to lift him from the chest and the bottom,and it worked. But I thought I felt a hole or smth and now ocd is telling him I accidentally fingered him in the butt when picking him up and I'm now a dog molester. I hate this. I dont remember what I felt entirely or if I was even near his butt. I try to remember it and his tail was covering it but I'm scared the angle I held him at I still touched it. He was fine when he got on my bed and is fine now sleeping across from me in his dog bed but it's still not enough to convince I didn't somehow unintentionally molest him.
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Mayte
Mayte
6d ago
Omg no! I was going through ny email and came across and notification of a comment I replied to before and someone said "depersonalization isn't a mental illness its a death of ego" I don't know what that means now I'm worried something is wrong with me Im looking at the dp manuel but ugh why!! :/
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The brain is NOT U
The brain is NOT U NOCD Therapy Member
6d ago
Started erp, just wondering how do I do it correctly? I know you have to accept and think of uncertainty but what does that mean exactly? Do I think of the worst case scenario? Like for my hocd” oh your gay and your going to be gay forever” or rocd “you will sell your soul to the devil” or what do I do exactly
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TimmyB510
TimmyB510
6d ago
  • Relationship OCD
Does anyone else have the issue of talking to friends and they say something once that you can't stop obsessing over and think way too deeply into it and it starts making you dislike the person or makes you think they really dislike you even though everything else is good? (I may not have worded this very well)
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Rhys34
Rhys34
11d ago
I feel really guilty about touching my dogs “area” when trimming her. Even when I pick her up I feel bad if I touch that area. I remover one time touching it because I was curious about what it was but now I just feel like a monster.
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b
b
11d ago
  • Pedophilic Obsessions OCD
my brain is telling me to look something up that i don't want to but it keeps telling me to. idk what to do i'm so disgusting. idk why it's feels like i want to but i don't at all i'm just so scared
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ta
ta
11d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
I feel like I genuinely think some androgynous women are cute but I don’t think I could go any further than that but I see a lot of coming out bisexual videos who say that they had a crush on a girl and knew they were bisexual
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coolpop
coolpop
11d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
I know smoking is an addiction... but can it be an obsession? 🤔
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Nour04
Nour04
11d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
  • "Pure" OCD
would an ACTUAL lesbian say they want to like men and don't want to like girls? what if i am just lying to myself when i say i don't want to like girls? because at this point it feels like my mind says something but my body says otherwise :(
Isabella
IsabellaNOCD Therapy Member
11d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
On vacation and I feel terrible. My ocd was barely there the other day when I was working but yesterday morning I left to go on an 8 hour car trip and I spiraled 😞. I think it’s just pms and the change of scenery/ routine messing with me but this sucks.
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positivityyyyy
positivityyyyy
11d ago
WOMEN taking SSRI, especially Sertraline (Zoloft): have you experienced delayed lubrication in sexual intercourse or other things when you feel you're sexually aroused but you're not as lubricated as you maybe should be or are used to be?
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Omarg7
Omarg7
11d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
Can ocd make you confused on what reality is vs imaginary
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hate_ocd.123
hate_ocd.123
11d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
Im obsessing that im homophobic cause i remember as a little girl once being at a carnival with my friend, we were like 10 and these two girls kissed (like full on makeout) right in front of us in line and i was even like to her “did you see that? They kissed” and she was like “yeah” and i was like “that’s weird” And also when i first found out what being gay was at 6/7, i was like “oh that’s weird” but just never really cared and only continued to ever see guys as romantic partners There was no childhood epiphany that i was gay or that i ever liked a girl even though i knew it was a possibility And like my dad once watched a movie and two girls kissed and i said “that’s gay” then walked out without a second thought and didnt think anything of it, far less did i ever imagine that with another girl or think i was gay at that age Im just scared i grew up homophobic but my little brother is gay and so is my best friend and i was raised in an environment where we were very open and accepting regardless but idk im so scared :(
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Coconut lover
Coconut loverNOCD Therapy Member
11d ago
  • Harm OCD
Do you guys have an tips on how to get over driving anxiety?
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2621
2621
11d ago
Anybody else feel like if I just get through this trigger, even doing some compulsions it's ok because this situation will never happen again and I'll be able to resist doing compulsions next time? I'm struggling 😪
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ta
ta
11d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
Nothing is making me feel better I feel like I’m no going through internalized homophobia but when I have the thoughts I feel disgusted and not like myself I need help
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PalmTree
PalmTreeNOCD Therapy Member
11d ago
  • Harm OCD
  • Pedophilic Obsessions OCD
My mom has been doing research on OCD and keeps on asking me what my obsessions are. Especially yesterday when I got triggered at the airport and cried in front of everyone in the terminal (embarrassing, but oh well). She tells me that she’ll understand, but I don’t feel comfortable doing so because she acts as if she never has intrusive thoughts (Hers are actually religious, but she believes the devil has a hand in them, idk), so she probably wouldn’t understand that the taboo thoughts are truly ego-dystonic despite urges and the realness of sensations. Advice?
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Troy
TroyNOCD Therapy Member
11d ago
  • Relationship OCD
Has anyone been through an intensive outpatient program for OCD? I am getting screened for one this Monday, but worried that I may not be severe enough because I have been doing ERP for the past few weeks through NOCD.
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🥰
🥰
11d ago
I am so sad right now, I have no friends here at home and I am so depressed over it. I have some guy friends at the job but they always ask me to invite my girl friends but I don’t have any and it makes me so deeply depressed. I hate that my life is like this, when everyone else have their groups and hang out and go to the beach everyday. I have no one and struggle so bad with HOCD. Why is my life like this! How can I improve my life
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