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does anyone else have really bad emetephobia? any advice?

Anyone got any info about this, what they take, side effects they had, amount, etc

Ugh…I’m on the struggle bus rn. I cooked 20$ worth of pork chops (followed the recipe to a T and used a cooking thermometer); I took one bite and couldn’t swallow. Spit it out and proceeded to mouth wash, rinse, and spit, spitting over and over until it felt like all the remnants of the food were gone. Then I threw it all away. I googled multiple pages to ensure I cooked them right. Even before cooking them, I smelled them and inspected them thoroughly, ensuring they were good. I’m exhausted, and I feel sick.

My brain feels so overwhelmed with intrusive thoughts, I'm finding it hard to think. It's becoming difficult to get things done because I can't establish direction. It's never been this bad before and it just keeps getting worse. How do I reset?

Can someone recommend a book to help parents with a teen with OCD? My daughter currently suffers from religious OCD. She thinks the devil is going to harm her or someone. She asked me for help but I honestly don’t know how to help her. She is currently in therapy and taking Fluvoxamine, but I have not seen any progress and I think her anxiety is actually getting worse. Her therapist does not specialize in OCD so we are looking into other options. I am looking for any advice, I feel very helpless and don’t know how to comfort her. I feel like I am saying all the wrong things. Thanks

I’m new to the app. I’ve bene struggling with intrusive thoughts that my boyfriend will leave me. It leads me to contact him while he’s working and frantically calling him to get reassurance. I’m trying to manage my emotions but the thoughts are constantly there and he doesn’t give me the responses I’m looking for such as don’t worry I’m not. So I am in constant fear

My financial advisor is advising me not to travel. I wanted to sell my house, invest and then live off the interest in a cheap country in Asia. He wants me to live in a house I can’t afford the upkeep of which will slowly depreciate. I’m sure he is basing his opinion on the fact that I told him my official diagnosis was schizophrenia and that I also told him I identified as vulnerable. He suggested having a third pair of eyes look it over and I’ve asked my neighbour who is sensible. I’ve also asked a member of my team to explain my situation in case he doesn’t know much about it. I eat healthily, I get exercise and as far as drugs go I stick to just meds and coffee and have for some time. My doctor is saying he thinks I’ve been misdiagnosed and only have OCD or autism. I had to stare my diagnosis etc because I can’t lie about it for anything official. I had this problem with a mortgage broker too recently. If I get frustrated then they will just take the attitude that I am “having one of my turns” so I don’t know what to do. My house is beautiful and I love it but I can’t afford new furniture even when the time comes let alone any serious repairs. I’ve just had to struggle to get my boiler serviced and couldn’t get it serviced at all last year. What would you do?

I’m 28 years old and I’ve been battling with OCD since I was around 8 years old. However, I didn’t realize it was OCD until a few years ago. I’ve dealt with multiple themes of OCD that are on constant rotation. Currently, I’m struggling with real event OCD, and moral scrupulously OCD. It has made this past week extremely distressing. My husband is aware of all of my thoughts and feelings, however, that’s due to my need to “confess” virtually everything in my life. He is never stressed about the content of what I’m worrying about, but unfortunately, that serves as temporary reassurance for me, and the cycle continues. This week has been one of my HARDEST. I have been stuck in a loop over the same obsession, with barely any relief. I’m self employed, and usually the winter months are slow, so I currently have no distractions to get out of my head. I can barely eat, and I go through multiple waves of panic attacks a day. I’m starting to lose hope that I can figure this out alone. I’ve never seen professional help for my OCD, and to be honest, it terrifies me to have to explain my thoughts and feelings to a stranger. What if I never get better? I guess I’m just looking for guidance, advice, etc. I’m feeling so lost and scared.

I am not trying to discourage anyone from using this chat room/discussion forum, but I would like to state some of my thoughts on it. 1. I’ve been receiving therapy from a therapist at NOCD and it has been extremely helpful! 2. I understand that not everyone has access to therapy, and I know how hard OCD can be to manage on our own sometimes. 3. However- There is not a lot of support in the NOCD chat rooms- it’s a pretty negative, doom and gloom place to hang out, with a lot of people only coming in with their hardships and receiving little to no help, advice, or encouragement, so I would encourage you to limit your time here. 4. There are a lot of great resources with a lot of free content on various social media platforms, even classes to be taken for pretty low cost. I would check those out over spending a-lot of time in here, it will be more informative and educational. 5. Recovery is possible, but you have to put in the work and stop fighting yourself. 6. You got this!

so a lot of the time i worry i don’t love him. but recently, i’ve been obsessing (losing sleep too) over if he doesn’t love me. i’m constantly worrying he’s not doing enough and he’s not right for me and it makes me so anxious i can barely breathe. is this normal???

i haven’t been happy in months it feels like. and i feel like i never will. this sucks especially seeing that people will go through this for years. it hardly seems fair. hopefully they come up with some instant cure soon lol bc this ain’t it especially if it’s for the rest of my life. when i was a kid i felt like i had ocd but it was never this debilitating. i felt like this hit me all at once and now it’s the new normal. trying to date is a night mare because it feels like i’m trying to force the attraction but if i liked the same kind of people all my life why change now. i guess because i’ve had terrible dating experiences so far as in like the people i’ve chose have just been not good but i still had genuine feelings for these people. and i hunger for that old life back. did anyone ever get their attraction back after this if so how long did it take?

I am mad because I have had OCD for over 27 years, actually probably 40 years if I count all of the undiagnosed years. But when I was in my 20’s I went to a doctor with classic OCD symptoms over and over again. I was afraid of getting HIV from a syringe that was re-used on multiple people in a kit that they used for allergy testing in the 90’s. I actually freaked out so badly that I passed out in their office. I made them give me HIV tests. Rather than figuring out that I had OCD he thought I was a hypochondriac! So I was misdiagnosed and therefore avoided going to him and got worse and worse over the years. When I think of how I could have been treated and made better sooner, it makes me so mad! Doctors are supposed to know the signs of this disorder.

Living with OCD can be very hard, especially from day to day. I have suffered with this condition for over 30 years. After proper treatment, I'm able to love, live and laugh...yes, in that order. I can focus on what matters most to me and truly cherish each moment. I wonder: What do you think you could do if you didn't have OCD making the rules any longer?

I am 30 something and at time I get into the moods of feeling down and nervous about aging. I know that I am not old (yet) and that there is nothing that can be done about aging, but I cannot help feeling like this at times. I would also worry at time about aging when I was in my 20s. I also understand that there are positives of getting older. Idk, I guess I am just ranting about how I am feeling.

Hi everyone. I just started a fulltime position at work, and I'm terrified of my OCD causing problems. I've had days where I cannot stop myself from just straight up going home from work because my thoughts are taking over every ounce of my focus and I'm terrified. I don't want this to interfere with my new job, as it's more of a supervisory thing and I can't exactly just up and leave. I was wondering if anyone had any solid advice for how to manage attacks in the middle of a work shift? Or managing this with a fulltime job in general? I can give more specifics if need be. Thanks y'all. First post here, newly diagnosed, really struggling. Glad this platform exists.

I feel like in the past when i started to lose my faith cause christianity sometimes feels stupid. But its not like i dont believe i just start to not like it and say it its stupid and hate God. So my frustration started when christian people told me whatever i feel about God, tell him in a pray and he will help. I did it and lots of time i didnt got an answer and a solution, so everytime i prayed to get a solution i felt like im talking to myself and than the whole faith started to feel fake. When i pray i feel like im faking it, i dont really believe. So this frustration startes to build, until today my brother said something. He is really into religion and he said in a relationship even a kiss is a sin... i had problems with accepting premarriage sex as a sin. I accept that "one night stands" arent good, even having sex in relationship that started not that long ago cause you dont know the other person well. But waiting until marriage, i dont say it stupid,some people can do it, but... we dont live like people in that time. In the past they "dated" like 3-4 months and then decided to get married and the next day they did. But in this world i wouldnt get married after 3 months of dating..you need atleast a year together to know eachother. And getting married isnt like in the past. You get engaded and decide to get married but you have to wait months, sometimes a year till you can have a wedding. I think when yall engaded yall can do anything. In the past people werent romatic, they were like animals,i believe that some people who got married werent even in love they just got married. I dont want to live a life like that. Some people even say that hugging and holding hands is sin too...like cmon at this point this is stupid. I got really angry over this. I feel like you cant even have fun, the only "fun" you can have is that what is about God. Like everything has to be about God. I dont want to believe God is this "egoistic" if he is then i really dont want to believe in a God like that. The problem is that im so sensitive that even if i dont like these, if i would do them like kiss a girl or hug a girl, i would feel like im a sinner, a bad person then get angry over it that its stupid then losing interest in relatioships and hating religion... (Sorry it was really long)

I want to give credit where it's due and share my experience so that it might resonate and help others. It's been a year since my "crash" and no one is still sure exactly what caused it but I feel Pristiq (generic Desvenlafaxine) should get the credit for pulling me out of an 4month insomnia/OCD/Depression rabbithole that darn near killed me. Everyone shouts from the rooftop when something doesn't work..so I feel it's only fair to do the same when it does. Crash got so bad psychiatrist insisted I go in-patient (I did not want to go on it this was how I was gonna feel for the rest of my life..dig?) and even though this was the WORST experience of my life for half a month it was here that I was given Pristiq for the first time (altho NO credit to them IMO). They threw handfuls of pills down my throat without really bothering to check for interactions. The psychiatrist only spent 1-5 minutes with me everyday and when I asked for more time he ignored me. Therapy was a joke (kindergarten level coloring sessions w/ Dr. Phil pop psychology) and it repeated after 7 day!. Thrown in with some truly disturbed and violent people (several there under police court direction) with no safeguards..and staff DID NOT CARE! Never got any decent sleep cuz feared getting attacked in night by other in-patients. Wife finally got me discharged (this whole time I was "voluntary"..but they wouldn't let me go for 16 days) by threatening legal action (altho the real trick was that SHE was a nurse and knew what patient rights were and were not). I got home and I was a zombie for a month (in-patient passed out benzos like candy..be careful of this) while a dozen meds leeched from my body..BUT I kept taking Pristiq the whole and after 6 weeks I finally began to feel normal again. I NEVER thought I would ever feel normal again..but I did. It's been almost a year later and I'm still taking the lowest dose and it's working for me. In truth, I'm tired A LOT, I'm over-sleeping and I've gained a lot of weight. But this is where discipline and will power need to kick in and intelligently managing my day..BUT..I'm alive. If I had it to do over I would find a way to unplug from job and duties for 4-6 weeks and just STAY HOME and experiment with meds. I started off with Zoloft but it only made my (already present) insomnia even worse..and I am self employed so staying home meant no money coming in. UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES WILL I EVER ALLOW MYSELF TO GO INPATIENT AGAIN! The truly sad thing is I was told by several other "inmates" (who had been in and out of these many times) that this was one of the nicer facilities. Sadly, I believe them. With a small handful as an exception, I truly wish Karmic retribution on each and everyone of the doctors, nurse & techs involved with my inpatient stay. I was simply a piece of meat that had good insurance to them and they did not care if I lived or died, got better or hung myself. AVOID INPATIENT LIKE THE PLAGUE!

I got bloodwork done today. The medical assistant swabbed my arm with alcohol, inserted the needle and drew the blood. When she was done, she realized she forgot to get gauze out so while the needle was in my arm, she opened the gauze package with her teeth and then applied the gauze to my arm after she took out the needle. Now of course I’m worried I got HIV from this and of course it was during an HIV test. 😭

First time posting. When I had my oldest 11 years ago I ended up with PPD ocd (intrusive thoughts) I was put on Buspirone. Worked very well for about 5 years. Then it was around my cycle that I had them again. Increased 5mgs of Buspirone. Good again until recently because my anxiety got bad. Dr put me on zoloft. Going on made my thoughts extremely bad. To point I tried to baker act myself twice. Dr upped Zoloft saying it would help. Still struggling now. Can anyone relate? Should I switch meds? Do they all do this? Guess I'm looking for guidance and someone who in general can relate. I do start ERP this weekend.

Hi All, I’m struggling with understanding something. Im scared that if I accept my thoughts and don’t react to them, then that means I’m okay with them. What if I start accepting my intrusive thoughts and then think it’s okay to act on them? Any advice?