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I feel like i want to scream and run with im on the phone with someone. I even got scared of the jake from statefarm commercial, like every thing has made me paranoid and scared. Making me feel like im schizophrenic or something.

i had my therapy today i think it's going well but she's the second person to say to me i'm not showing ocd signs and think it's more the anxiety side i struggle with it makes me feel rubbish when i get told it's not ocd because when i research into ocd it's like everything adds up but because the questions you have to fill in before every session they're more like cleaning and things ha being neat etc and that's not what i deal with i deal with real event so i don't get how they can say i don't have ocd 😥

Ever since the day I sat in the car while my grandfather got taken out of his house passed away of a heart attack, and feeling helpless while the ambulance pulled away, I have showed symptoms of OCD. I am 55 years old, and didn’t delve into therapy and medication until my 40th birthday. At 16, I was in a fire and escaped through the front doors, watched the blaze take three friends who did not make it out alive. I’m done. Done with the pain of Harm OCD. I know it’s in my mind and I am not my mind. I have come far. But not far enough. Lisa

Idk if this is reassurance seeking, but i really need some comfort right now because I don’t have e anyone to talk to about this 😭 Is it possible for intrusive thoughts to tell me that evil things aren’t evil and that “everybody is just being told that it’s evil but it’s really not” ?!? And then I tell myself all the reasons why that thing is wrong and why we shouldn’t do stuff like that but it keeps coming back and it feels so real like what if i’m losing my morals and I think that sh*t is okay to do? Wtf is happening, i’m scared and I don’t want to become a bad person who doesn’t think hurting others is bad. I’m so mad at my brain I just want this to stop right now and to be sure of my morals again..

Hi guys I’m currently going through a difficult phase. I have been trying to get out of this from almost a year. But recently the thing that makes is anxious is my loved ones. Whenever I’m talking or see my girl friend or even any other girls , I feel very nervous.Can anybody please help,if anybody gone through this please give me a hand. Regards,

any tips on how to stop ruminating would be greatly appreciated !!!

I just woke up from a dream where I was helping with someone’s baby, and I was excited to help them change their diaper. I don’t think I had evil intentions in the dream because I didn’t think anything creepy, but it makes me feel weird that I was excited. I think I was just excited to help with the baby but I also in the dream was nervous because I didn’t want to look at their privates. My mom was with me and I was asking her questions about what to do, so it makes me feel better she was with me like I really didn’t have evil intentions. But it still makes me feel uncomfortable and I woke up before actually going near their diaper. I feel anxious and my heart is racing because I feel like I wasn’t in a deep sleep and like I was fantasizing. I in real like have zero desire to go near a baby and I know I would be too afraid to help change a diaper. But also now I keep having images of them without the diaper in my head and it feels like I’m fantasizing. I don’t care about a child’s privates, it’s none of my business. I think the only reason I had this dream is because I worry with intrusive thoughts about harming children a lot in the day. But I’ve been up a lot of the night and again makes me worried that I wasn’t all the way asleep and was enjoying it. People have told me not to pay attention to dreams but it’s just hard not to.

I need some LGBT OCD support Okay so I have a cousin I’ve spent time with over the years and I just remembered a memory about her mentioning something homophobic. I remember me complaining about being gay once in 2017 and she had stated she had heard “a guy in her church claimed to have changed” I think this triggered me because now that I’m learning self-respect I know I don’t need to be around someone who doesn’t support me. Was she telling me to do it? Or was she just stating she heard that in her church? Was it conversion therapy or counseling or praying away the gay? So I asked her recently, I did end up asking for reassurance. Does she support conversion therapy? And she said No. she didn’t even know what it was apparently. And she said she is one of my biggest supporters, she does support me. But I still am obsessing about that small conversation wondering should I keep this relationship to maintain self-respect or what if she’s lying and she’s actually not supportive of me? What if she was telling me to change?

I was okay today w my bf. Still anxious and numb and a little uncomfortable, but was okay. I’m doing erp watching videos of women explaining comphet (signs you’re lesbian but society makes you think you’re straight) and I feel like I relate to them, even though before it never even crossed my mind and I felt so happy with my bf. So now I don’t know if I was just oblivious and lesbian the whole time, or my ocd is extremely good at trying to trick me. Cause now I’m doubting how “happy” I actually was

My head has been constantly pounded with intrusive thoughts to the point that I'm depressed, and the intrusive thoughts are still happening. I've got PTSD and severe OCD, please tell me there's a way to recover from this. I've tried so many things over many years and I'm still not better, I'm worse. I'm feeling very hopless, I keep throwing everything I've got at it but it's never enough.

My ocd is mainly around my faith so it pushes me away from God a lot how do I even talk to Him about it ?

My OCD has been running a little rampant for months. Most of my intrusive thoughts recently have been easier to decide as an intrusive thought but I’m starting to realize more and more how they’re deeply rooted in my trauma. I recently became incredibly uncomfortable in the presence of my brother because I was afraid he was attracted to me. TW: SA, intrusive thoughts related to incest/SA/RPE Recently I’ve been sharing a room with my 15yo brother. He is a football player, around 200lbs and 5’8. I’m 19, 98lbs and 5’1. Around 2 years ago he took a picture of my cleavage without asking. Needless to say, a lot of trust in him was lost. I’ve had very foul experiences with men in my life. My boyfriend (who suspected also has OCD) pointed out signs and said he felt uneasy around his presence. The other day he asked me if I was wearing pants under the blanket and offered his pants. I said no, I’m wearing pants. And that sent my mind spiraling. Thinking he was a creep or wanted to do something to harm me. I’ve been having bad intrusive thoughts about him harming me and they’ve even manifested in my dreams since I moved into the room beside him. I confronted my parents about it today (they’re not the most understanding) and they told him I basically called him a creep. We made up, but yeah. Bothers me. Kinda made me feel like I was falsely accusing him but like I really thought for a moment that he might hurt me. I often have intrusive thoughts or paranoia when going out anywhere of getting kidnapped, r/ped or beaten and it’s just a constant fear, I feel like I can’t trust any man I’m standing beside without my boyfriend there. Sometimes I have intrusive thoughts that he’d even do things to me in my sleep/without consent, even though he’s never and been the most supportive person in my life. Another thing, I have constant intrusive thoughts that he’s cheating on me or is truly to hurt/manipulate my feelings, plotting things against me, stuff like that… I can decode them much easier now that our relationship is in a better place, but yeah. I hope that makes sense.. it’s been really hard. I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about it because I’m so scared of being called crazy. I really want therapy but can’t keep a job.. it’s been debilitating.

Hello all! I have harm ocd, anxiety, and depression. I feel I know exactly how to get through most thoughts because I’ve probably had exactly what you are thinking myself. So, if you have any questions or any problems that needs solved please comment and if I don’t have an answer maybe someone else who is reading this does!

How are people so confident? How do people talk to other people so easily? How do people have the courage to do stuff and just be brave about things? I don't understand any of that. I can't do any of those things. I've been dealing with low self esteem for a long time and I don't know how to fix it. I have no clue. How do people get through hard stuff they've been through and still remain with high self esteem, believe in themselves, and be confident?

My drinking is out of control and I’m not sure what to do about it. I’m going to try to stop. It seems simple but it isn’t. The day after I feel so depressed and anxious. Any advice would be much appreciated

please I need help... I have been with rocd, hocd and a lot of sexual thoughts for several months. I currently have a wonderful boyfriend, who I love madly. However, days ago we talked about how it is natural to feel attracted to other people. Talking about this topic has made me even more upset. I continually analyze my thoughts and body sensations to find out whether or not I find someone attractive. The point is that today I was watching a video on tiktok. And in that video a boy appeared declaring his feelings to a girl who did not reciprocate. And I don't really know what I thought, I think I had a strange bodily sensation in my body, perhaps of affection, of affection. And then a thought/feeling of wanting to kiss him came into my head. This has been bothering me all day. I don't want to kiss anyone who isn't my boyfriend, and not just because I want to be faithful to him, but because I don't want to. But what if I'm just fooling myself? What if I am polyamorous? For me, attraction is simply that someone is your type but you don't want anything with that person nor do you feel the desire to kiss them or so on, for me that is when the attraction is greatest. And I don't experience that kind of attraction with someone other than my boyfriend. So why did I think that? The boy is cute but he's not my type either. If I think about kissing him it makes me uncomfortable. Don't know. I don't know if it's occult or if it's not. I need help, because I need to know what OCD is so I can stay calm, or else I will feel like I have no control over my life again. I don't want to continue suffering.

I just can't stop feeling depressed and down. It's not really about anything in particular but I am just so depressed all the time. The small, rare periods where I feel genuinely happy I want to cling onto because I love how I feel in those times. But in general I am so down, just so not happy at all. I feel like I will never be truly happy no matter what. Then I think about how I am working towards my career goals and I'm like what's the point? Why am I doing this? What's the purpose. I'm just so unhappy.

The past month has been hell for me, I can’t express it enough Every day I live with the fear that I have schizophrenia/am hallucinating 1. Sometimes to hear my name being called from downstairs, even though my mom never called me 2. Sometimes hear random noises (idk if they r real or not, just makes me panic again) 3. Sometimes have little visual disturbances 4. OCD got worse Idk wtf to do, I am 100% sure I am in the prodromal stage of schizophrenia

I have the urge to hurt myself and I don’t know if it’s me or my ocd honestly I feel crazy and not in control of how I feel.my thoughts keep racing.i want to cry but I’m not a cryer so I’m just keeping it in

Just curious if anyone here has any success recovering from OCD without medication? I'm about 3 months post meds and having a tough day and it's making me second guess my decision. I will say I'm 7 wk pregnant and think feeling so sick and anxious about having my first is playing a part.