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I was feeling suicidal the other day because I was feeling doubtful about myself and other people. That was scary. I was actually thinking about dying even though death or ending things are scary to me
I was watching a video on tiktok where someone said palpitations after eating can be cause by pots I get this all the time after eating now I m scared I might have :/
I feel like i want to scream and run with im on the phone with someone. I even got scared of the jake from statefarm commercial, like every thing has made me paranoid and scared. Making me feel like im schizophrenic or something.
i had my therapy today i think it's going well but she's the second person to say to me i'm not showing ocd signs and think it's more the anxiety side i struggle with it makes me feel rubbish when i get told it's not ocd because when i research into ocd it's like everything adds up but because the questions you have to fill in before every session they're more like cleaning and things ha being neat etc and that's not what i deal with i deal with real event so i don't get how they can say i don't have ocd š„
Ever since the day I sat in the car while my grandfather got taken out of his house passed away of a heart attack, and feeling helpless while the ambulance pulled away, I have showed symptoms of OCD. I am 55 years old, and didnāt delve into therapy and medication until my 40th birthday. At 16, I was in a fire and escaped through the front doors, watched the blaze take three friends who did not make it out alive. Iām done. Done with the pain of Harm OCD. I know itās in my mind and I am not my mind. I have come far. But not far enough. Lisa
Idk if this is reassurance seeking, but i really need some comfort right now because I donāt have e anyone to talk to about this š Is it possible for intrusive thoughts to tell me that evil things arenāt evil and that āeverybody is just being told that itās evil but itās really notā ?!? And then I tell myself all the reasons why that thing is wrong and why we shouldnāt do stuff like that but it keeps coming back and it feels so real like what if iām losing my morals and I think that sh*t is okay to do? Wtf is happening, iām scared and I donāt want to become a bad person who doesnāt think hurting others is bad. Iām so mad at my brain I just want this to stop right now and to be sure of my morals again..
Hi guys Iām currently going through a difficult phase. I have been trying to get out of this from almost a year. But recently the thing that makes is anxious is my loved ones. Whenever Iām talking or see my girl friend or even any other girls , I feel very nervous.Can anybody please help,if anybody gone through this please give me a hand. Regards,
any tips on how to stop ruminating would be greatly appreciated !!!
I need some LGBT OCD support Okay so I have a cousin Iāve spent time with over the years and I just remembered a memory about her mentioning something homophobic. I remember me complaining about being gay once in 2017 and she had stated she had heard āa guy in her church claimed to have changedā I think this triggered me because now that Iām learning self-respect I know I donāt need to be around someone who doesnāt support me. Was she telling me to do it? Or was she just stating she heard that in her church? Was it conversion therapy or counseling or praying away the gay? So I asked her recently, I did end up asking for reassurance. Does she support conversion therapy? And she said No. she didnāt even know what it was apparently. And she said she is one of my biggest supporters, she does support me. But I still am obsessing about that small conversation wondering should I keep this relationship to maintain self-respect or what if sheās lying and sheās actually not supportive of me? What if she was telling me to change?
I was okay today w my bf. Still anxious and numb and a little uncomfortable, but was okay. Iām doing erp watching videos of women explaining comphet (signs youāre lesbian but society makes you think youāre straight) and I feel like I relate to them, even though before it never even crossed my mind and I felt so happy with my bf. So now I donāt know if I was just oblivious and lesbian the whole time, or my ocd is extremely good at trying to trick me. Cause now Iām doubting how āhappyā I actually was
My head has been constantly pounded with intrusive thoughts to the point that I'm depressed, and the intrusive thoughts are still happening. I've got PTSD and severe OCD, please tell me there's a way to recover from this. I've tried so many things over many years and I'm still not better, I'm worse. I'm feeling very hopless, I keep throwing everything I've got at it but it's never enough.
My ocd is mainly around my faith so it pushes me away from God a lot how do I even talk to Him about it ?
My OCD has been running a little rampant for months. Most of my intrusive thoughts recently have been easier to decide as an intrusive thought but Iām starting to realize more and more how theyāre deeply rooted in my trauma. I recently became incredibly uncomfortable in the presence of my brother because I was afraid he was attracted to me. TW: SA, intrusive thoughts related to incest/SA/RPE Recently Iāve been sharing a room with my 15yo brother. He is a football player, around 200lbs and 5ā8. Iām 19, 98lbs and 5ā1. Around 2 years ago he took a picture of my cleavage without asking. Needless to say, a lot of trust in him was lost. Iāve had very foul experiences with men in my life. My boyfriend (who suspected also has OCD) pointed out signs and said he felt uneasy around his presence. The other day he asked me if I was wearing pants under the blanket and offered his pants. I said no, Iām wearing pants. And that sent my mind spiraling. Thinking he was a creep or wanted to do something to harm me. Iāve been having bad intrusive thoughts about him harming me and theyāve even manifested in my dreams since I moved into the room beside him. I confronted my parents about it today (theyāre not the most understanding) and they told him I basically called him a creep. We made up, but yeah. Bothers me. Kinda made me feel like I was falsely accusing him but like I really thought for a moment that he might hurt me. I often have intrusive thoughts or paranoia when going out anywhere of getting kidnapped, r/ped or beaten and itās just a constant fear, I feel like I canāt trust any man Iām standing beside without my boyfriend there. Sometimes I have intrusive thoughts that heād even do things to me in my sleep/without consent, even though heās never and been the most supportive person in my life. Another thing, I have constant intrusive thoughts that heās cheating on me or is truly to hurt/manipulate my feelings, plotting things against me, stuff like thatā¦ I can decode them much easier now that our relationship is in a better place, but yeah. I hope that makes sense.. itās been really hard. I feel like I canāt talk to anyone about it because Iām so scared of being called crazy. I really want therapy but canāt keep a job.. itās been debilitating.
Hello all! I have harm ocd, anxiety, and depression. I feel I know exactly how to get through most thoughts because Iāve probably had exactly what you are thinking myself. So, if you have any questions or any problems that needs solved please comment and if I donāt have an answer maybe someone else who is reading this does!
How are people so confident? How do people talk to other people so easily? How do people have the courage to do stuff and just be brave about things? I don't understand any of that. I can't do any of those things. I've been dealing with low self esteem for a long time and I don't know how to fix it. I have no clue. How do people get through hard stuff they've been through and still remain with high self esteem, believe in themselves, and be confident?
My drinking is out of control and Iām not sure what to do about it. Iām going to try to stop. It seems simple but it isnāt. The day after I feel so depressed and anxious. Any advice would be much appreciated
please I need help... I have been with rocd, hocd and a lot of sexual thoughts for several months. I currently have a wonderful boyfriend, who I love madly. However, days ago we talked about how it is natural to feel attracted to other people. Talking about this topic has made me even more upset. I continually analyze my thoughts and body sensations to find out whether or not I find someone attractive. The point is that today I was watching a video on tiktok. And in that video a boy appeared declaring his feelings to a girl who did not reciprocate. And I don't really know what I thought, I think I had a strange bodily sensation in my body, perhaps of affection, of affection. And then a thought/feeling of wanting to kiss him came into my head. This has been bothering me all day. I don't want to kiss anyone who isn't my boyfriend, and not just because I want to be faithful to him, but because I don't want to. But what if I'm just fooling myself? What if I am polyamorous? For me, attraction is simply that someone is your type but you don't want anything with that person nor do you feel the desire to kiss them or so on, for me that is when the attraction is greatest. And I don't experience that kind of attraction with someone other than my boyfriend. So why did I think that? The boy is cute but he's not my type either. If I think about kissing him it makes me uncomfortable. Don't know. I don't know if it's occult or if it's not. I need help, because I need to know what OCD is so I can stay calm, or else I will feel like I have no control over my life again. I don't want to continue suffering.
I just can't stop feeling depressed and down. It's not really about anything in particular but I am just so depressed all the time. The small, rare periods where I feel genuinely happy I want to cling onto because I love how I feel in those times. But in general I am so down, just so not happy at all. I feel like I will never be truly happy no matter what. Then I think about how I am working towards my career goals and I'm like what's the point? Why am I doing this? What's the purpose. I'm just so unhappy.
The past month has been hell for me, I canāt express it enough Every day I live with the fear that I have schizophrenia/am hallucinating 1. Sometimes to hear my name being called from downstairs, even though my mom never called me 2. Sometimes hear random noises (idk if they r real or not, just makes me panic again) 3. Sometimes have little visual disturbances 4. OCD got worse Idk wtf to do, I am 100% sure I am in the prodromal stage of schizophrenia
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