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I am very scared . My mind is sick. Someone told me that a bad thing happened to them and I keep thinking about it. I think: what if I wanted that to happen? Is this ocd? I am so scared and disgusted. How can I think like this??

I've had my OCD for so long that the intrusive thoughts have begun to feel like they are who I am and anytime I try getting over them, it's so painful, and it makes me feel like I don't know who I am anymore

Starting group therapy again and taking some time away/break from my “normal life” to get my mental health back in order. It’s so difficult to stop doing the norm and take care of yourself especially when it doesn’t work out or go how you thought it would. I’m nervous and scared and just trying to keep it all together with in my self and not go everyday upset crying or angry with myself for taking a break for myself and well being, just feels like I climbed Mount Everest made it to the top and now have to climb it all over again… This break is needed and I know this, and I hope I find myself again and get better and back to where I can feel and be me again and enjoy my life. Sending positive vibes and love to others in my same shoes or struggling themselves with your own personal issues . ❤️

So I’m doing my ERP with this girl who I think I have a crush on? I thought it was SO OCD, but now I’m thinking the crush might be real. I have these tight feelings in my chest and I’m perceiving them as romantic. Is it OCD or are these feelings actually real? I don’t know, but it scared me so much to think them real. The problem is is that I’ve always identified as straight and this crush is scaring me. I don’t want to have this crush. I’m also in a very happy and committed relationship with a man who I do love. Good news is that I won’t be seeing them anymore after the end of the month. It’s so hard not to go into my compulsions. I feel like a bad girlfriend and person. I’m also struggling with my identity…. Anyone have any advice?

Been dealing with a new type of ocd thought it’s to do with stabbing and it now feels like I like the feeling of doing that or almost as if I want to do it or that I know how it feels to physically do that and that I ‘like’ the feeling but it feels really real that I like it and almost like my emotions like it? Like as if there’s an emotion that I like it and I’m scared that it’s real that I like it but at the same time feel nothing because I’m so use to having bad thoguhts because I’ve been dealing with ocd for two years now but I literally feel nothing no anxiety noThing towards the thoguhts it just feels real that I like the feeling of doing that and I’m worried but at the same time feel like I’m not worried because it almost feels like I like it and feel a positive emotion towards that thoguht and actually want it/like it but I’m not sure if that’s a fake feeling ocd has manifested but i feel scared and alone and don’t know how to deal with this I’m just hoping I’m not a sick person I wish I could feel normal again this is so hard to deal with, also I feel like I’ve morphed some things into my thinking like I don’t know how to explain it but you know when you see in movies the evil character like evil smiling when no one is looking it feels like I’m feeling that about myself like when i get that weird emotion that feels like I like those thoughts and want them and it feels so real it feels like I’m secretly evil and I don’t want it to be true but you don’t know how real it feels I don’t know what to do I’m scared and at the same time feel nothing. I tried to tell someone I know about how I’m feeling but they jsut replied ‘oh really’ and I said what’s wrong and they said ‘you only talk to me when you have a problem with ocd’ and then I jsut felt so sad after that I don’t know how to deal with this problem I don’t even know what I’m feeling anymore I don’t even know if I’m scared or if I’m lying i don’t know

Today I’ve been having that a lot lately! Recently been having Satan/demon heart thoughts and it’s scaring me! I love God & Jesus and I tell them all the time they have my heart but recently those thoughts have come and it’s giving me anxiety! I’m trying to tell myself you don’t just accidentally let S____ in your heart but I feel like it’s a fear of evil or it “happening”! I don’t want Him near or ever in my heart! But I feel like my OCD is making me doubt myself thinking I want these thoughts or maybe I want that or what IF I’ve already done it! Like some new theme coming on. These nasty thoughts keep coming back!! Also my mind keeps thinking and questioning it straight up accusing me if I did it! I’ve apologized and beg God & Jesus to please forgive me. How can I let these thoughts go! I don’t want them! Am I okay? I only want God, Jesus & the Holy Spirit in my heart NOT the enemy. Has anyone else had these thoughts?

I’m currently obsessed with digital footprint, data leaks and breaches, as well as social media anxiety. It causes me to continually google search my name and handles, delete or deactivate my social media accounts, and even risk my safety by contacting third party breach websites to wipe my data. Has anybody else experienced something like this? I get extreme anxiety when I try to log into an old account I planned on deleting but I ended up forgetting the password. It’s harder for me to navigate my OCD when it’s something more specific and there’s less of a shared community surrounding it.

Over tun last almost year I have realised I most likely have ocd, I have done so much research, which u can probably tell because I’m on here, during late night episodes and have remembered so many signs from my childhood and started noticing things in my everyday life. I have always had a feeling that something wasn’t quite right in me and I could never put a finger on it and I thought all the thoughts I got were truth and I was a serious danger, I had no idea it was ocd! Probably because of how social media portrays it. Today I have been really striving to get my mum to get me a doctors appointment to get this checked out, which I’ve found very hard to do because I’m 16 so I still mainly relay on my parents for things like getting me to the doctors. I just want to know, did the diagnosis help? And do I even have a right to say I have ocd if I don’t have a diagnosis just yet? I mean from what I know from my extensive research I most definitely do. Some examples of my symptoms are: 1. When I was little and now as well in recent months I had a serious obsession with making everything equal on my hands and it got to the point where to stop me doing this I would say “stop Alice stop” over and over to stop myself 2. I constantly have to pick up and put down things untill it feel right, this have been happening a lot recently because it’s exam season so I keep having to pick up every thing on my desk multiple times during the exam. This also first started around the age of 9 3. I’ve been getting very vivid and convincing harm thoughts since the age of about 11 and they used it scare me so much to the point when I would make my animals leave my room or I would never stop thinking about it. I was seriously convinced I was insane. I still get these thoughts but nower dayd I get alot more ROCD thoughts but I do still get harm thought during bad flare ups The list goes on and on and on I’m just wondering does it sound like I ahve ocd? Or am i just insane and trying to convince myself other wise? Please people reply I need you guys help!!!

I’ve noticed that having ocd there is less compassion and support. With anxiety and depression (which I also suffer from) there seems to be more compassion. Like people wanting to understand and wanting to reach out and help. With OCD it seems like you are isolated or you’re constantly “doing wrong”. Like I still want compassion and support but I understand that I have to do different type therapy compared to something like depression and anxiety.

I’ve felt like I’m in danger all day long and that something bad is about to happen to me 🙃🙃I realize this is probably just a compulsion to think about it. I ruminated and obsessed basically all day. However In therapy today I played with a food that I’m terrified that I’m allergic to! So that’s a win 😊

I really am having the last 24 hours of straight up hell. My blood sugar will not come down from 250 no matter what i do. And with my blood sugar being 450 for 8 straight hours last night, my mind is spiraling. Another fun fact that doctors never seem to touch on : when you have OCD you have more sugar in your brain, they don’t know why, so now imagine you have blood sugar control issues such as myself and your sugar is in the 400’s plus multiple times a week. A neurologist I saw in the past said there isn’t a medical term for it but from what i described (thats a whole other conversation) and the brain scans I have “sugar toxicity in the brain” which contributes to my severe obsessive compulsive disorder. I feel like I can’t catch a break guys. I am hurting so bad. Just 5 minutes ago, after my night of hell and getting piss on myself and having to clean my sheets and my bed and shower, i just went pee and it splashed up on me AGAIN. I want to SCREAM. Idk if anyone else has this (you don’t have to answer) but if I have this happen i am now “dirty”. I can now not only not touch anything i deem as “clean” in my house…but also elsewhere. So I can’t go shopping…& i needed to get some things and its my only day off. The only way id be able to go is if i took another shower and got re-ready for the day. Its already 4:30. So my entire day is ruined.

i find myself constantly thinking about breaking up with my girlfriend. even if nothing is ‘wrong’ and i do think i love her, but this constant thought is just so confusing i can’t tell what’s real or not. how do i know if this is an ocd thing or if i should really be paying attention to this little voice in my head?

Hello i was not diagnosed with ocd but I've been told I'm getting intrusive thoughts . I'm at an IOP and they want to put me on seroquil. Im so upset and scared something is terribly wrong with me already . I'm scared now they think I have bipolar . Can intrusve thoughts be phrases in your own dialouge like your a loser stuff like that ?

This is a huge step for me!!! I am very fearful of medication and am finally taking the step for myself to try it. I am starting a low dose of Prozac today. This is huge!! If anyone has encouraging words, that would be greatly appreciated. I am not allowed to look up side affects or stories, but just looking for encouragement❤️

I struggle with Harm/Suicidal OCD. This causes me great distress and worry. Not only doubt, fear, and stress! I am trying to not take medication because my husband and I are finally expecting our first baby. I want to be the best for myself & my family that I can be. What has help everyone else? The thoughts and feelings make it feel so real that I want to commit suicide when in reality I do not & they make me think so many horrific thoughts. I want to be the person I was before that didn’t have any of these thoughts. Any recommendations for help is greatly appreciated!

How do you guys manage compulsive self-talk?

I’ve been going through a weird phase where I’m not feeling much anxiety, the thoughts are still there but it feels weird not feeling anxious about them, I have harm ocd and it feels too real when the thoughts come without the anxiety, after feeling anxious almost every morning.

I have been getting better and better but I've been experiencing this one theme, i'll refrain from mentioning it so I don't trigger anyone accidentally. It is something I know is against my values, beliefs, what I know to be true, and it is something i'd never do but the moment the OCD happens the urge i'd of course never act upon that is there is so profound it is honestly so distressing and then I do not know what to do other than wanting to lock myself in my bedroom and hope for this to pass. What do you guys do when a comand-like/urge intrusive thought pops into your mind? I know it is not my thought, and I would never act upon it of course. But how can I calm myself and be rational in such a moment?

I've battled OCD since I was a little kid. Until a couple of years ago, I sort of learnt to live with it. The last 2 years, intrusive thoughts have ruined my life. Let's just say, everything I dont want to think about, pops into my mind. This leads to immense guilt, shame and fear I will feel like this forever. Ive done ERP, seen roughly 8 psychologists, did a 3 weeks stay as an impatient OCD program and am taking Fluoxetine daily. I know all there is to know about OCD therapy, minimising compulsions, ACT, mindfulness etc. Why cant I seem to get on top of this? I know it takes time and practice and eventually I will change the way my brain is wired. It's days like today I feel that I will never be able to forgive myself for the content of the thoughts that have resided in my mind. Sometimes I wish I could use the memory wiping device used in Men in Black, so I can forget everything Ive ever thought. I will keep fighting and hopefully one day I can use what I have learnt to help others OCD sufferers. You are all so frickin brave for getting out of bed every day knowing what awaits you. I wish nothing but happiness, peace and a clear mind to you all xxx

I am honestly feeling terrified and here’s why… My partner is currently in New York with his family and while that is more than okay, I feel anxious. It has nothing to do with him being there but instead it has everything to do with me. I play this game online and came across someone. I started playing with them, we played for about six hours. I am not sure if it’s because this person is a guy but I have this fear that I will cheat or leave my partner even when that is the last thing I want. I thought about never playing with this person again but I enjoy playing with them. I just can’t stand the intrusive thoughts my mind creates about this person. I have no clue how this person even looks, I don’t know why my mind is playing these tricks on me and causing me these intense feelings of anxiety. Help?