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Hi friends, Everytime my period comes around my ocd tends to get worse. Just curious if anyone else deals with this and if you have any tools/tips on how to deal?

i’m starting ERP on tuesday. These thoughts are truly scaring me into thinking i’m going to do something and i don’t want too. it makes me feel like im going crazy and i have no control. i can’t stop panicking im scared im not going to get better even tho every time i have my spiral i do, i just feel this way in the moment. is there any tips from people who have SOCD that can help me. I feel like i have had to isolate myself from any object that i feel my thoughts would tell me something to do with it. I’m also started having more depression from this too. What medications have helped with OCD for yall??

TW — contamination ocd thoughts Hello guys, unfortunately I am beginning to notice my contamination OCD has worsened. I’m not sure if anyone has thoughts on how to move forward while I find therapy (like how I can prevent it from worsening on my own while I wait for treatment), but basically it started out as me washing my hands and counting to 20 but always restarting if it didn’t feel right. My brain seems to not trust if I’ve done something and would rather restart. Eventually these compulsions kept growing. I especially am now realizing how dirty the bathroom is / how dirty my clothes get from being outside in public. I keep a mental note of all the ways anything on me could’ve been contaminated and spend a long time washing my hands or changing clothes. I used to not think about this, but now it’s making me super uncomfortable. I don’t know how to not give into the compulsions because I feel like things will be dirty — should I just sit in the discomfort of allowing things to be contaminated? Thank you for any help!

One long-term theme for me is obsessively taking photos of my face and staring at, trying to fix, editing, will away, features that I don’t like. At its worse it will go on for hours like any other self respecting obsession. Does anyone else have this? I also hyperfocus on features and see them through a likely distorted lens, so my nose looks bigger than it is, my face more asymmetrical, etc.

NSFW One of my compulsions is m-sturbation and I struggle with it here and there. Literally most of the time this compulsion is done is to get rid of groinal responses or the intrusive thoughts. but the compulsion itself is bad, and sometimes I think of really bad taboo thoughts and it gets me to finish but afterwards i feel very disgusted and shameful. i think these thoughts because i noticed they get me to finish way faster and im trying to look for a solution. i hate this so much because i know its wrong and i know it gives me temporary relief but thats the only “immediate” solution i guess. i feel like this makes me different. like something is ACTUALLY wrong with me. the taboo ranges from family, animals, trauma. how do i get out of this cycle. i feel disgusting and i feel as though this compulsion means im more likely to act this stuff out.

recently, i have noticed a significant spike in my perfectionism OCD. what are the best ways you know to cope with knowing everything is imperfect? i know this is a fact, but my OCD will not leave me alone until i feel like i’ve “perfected” everything as much as possible (which obv leads to more compulsions) :(

I am in the uk and voting just happened. My friend of 4 years voted for the party that has the opposite values of what my partner voted. Most people who vote the party my partner voted ARE bad people, but I am an open minded person and willing to know why instead of just assuming someone is bad straight away. My friend saw what my bf voted and was mortified and called him all sorts like racist and sexist etc. yet they haven’t ever had a proper conversation with my boyfriend or really known him. I know that my boyfriend didn’t vote for the reason my friend thought. He explained that he didn’t want the party he voted to win and dislikes them like me. The whole reason he voted is because he knew they WOULDNT win, not because he agreed with them and wanted them to win, he just wanted to lend his vote away and not vote for the same 2 main parties like most people, he didn’t want to vote for the 2 main parties as both of them have failed the country and with the uk you vote for your local politician and in his local area the 2 main parties were close and neither were more likely to win than the other, and he didn’t want to vote for either so he voted for a party that was predicted to be 3rd place and they wouldn’t win which they didn’t, and by voting for the party who were predicted to be 3rd it would show the 2 main local politicians that their seat was not safe and wasn’t a guarantee in the next general election so the vote was a tactical vote for the future as every seat matters to political parties so they would put more effort into making a positive change to secure their seat in the next general election.(sorry for long explanation) I got him to message my friend to have a civil discussion and try and get them to understand that they misunderstood my partner, but they just were not having it and didn’t want to listen and called us all sorts of stuff that we are not and I’ve had to drop them as a friend :( I feel like such a shit person I want to make everyone happy but I can’t and I feel like an awful person because I couldn’t talk to 2 people who disagreed on political party choices. They believe my boyfriend voted the party he did because he is racist etc when actually he tactically voted and DOES NOT support the party he voted, just wanted to take away from the main 2. He has stated that he would be UNHAPPY if the party he voted won, he only voted because he knew there was no chance of them winning. I know that my boyfriend actually has similar views to me and my friend. But he just wanted to try something different and ended up seeming like the main bad people who vote that particular party when he isn’t. Am I worrying about this too much and am I right for dropping my friend who wasn’t willing to have a discussion and has a sort of radicalised view and was rude to us and not willing to listen to my partner explain that they misunderstood?

I woke up this morning with thoughts and now I’m so scared that I’m never going to get out of this. I feel like my OCD is trying its best to convince me I need to do harmful things but I’m so disgusted with these thoughts and it’s producing horrible anxiety. I’ve been trying to do my ERP exercises but this morning is really rough. I feel like a horrible mother and person. How do you “accept” thoughts that completely go against who you are? The what ifs are driving me crazy. 😔

I've recently started dating someone. I like him very much, and I know he feels the same about me. I have always been unlucky in relationships, so this is something brand new for me. I haven't told him I have OCD. It feels like a rock in my chest. I feel like I'm keeping something big from him and I feel so guilty. I don't know what to do. I don't want to drag him into my mess, but I don't want to break his heart and mine. I have a chance of happiness for maybe the first time and I feel like I don't deserve it. I feel like I'll ruin everything. What should I do? Please I'm desperate.

Hi, I am over 30 years with my partner. And I am obsessivly doubting my love for him the last 8 months. My psychiatrist says itcis ROCD, but I feel anxiety around him and tense in my stomach. He is a very good man. And I love him. But I don't feel my heart open with him anymore. I don't feel the life-energy anymore. But I am depressed, a lot of anxiety and my thoughts go 80% of the time, about: Do I follow my heart/ selflove when I stay with him? Why don't I feel free? Why can't I give him love? I am doubting al the time, but I don't want to leave him. And I dont know if this is out of fear. Do I stay out of fear with him? Or cant I feel the love because of my thoughts? Anyone recognize this?

Sometimes even tho I know God loves me and will forgive me of all my sins I question whether or not I’ve “messed up too bad this time” every time I ask for forgiveness and it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach… I’m so scared one day He’ll decide that I’ve made too many purposeful mistakes and stop forgiving me

I’m finding it really hard to be motivated to do anything that I need to do I was wondering if anyone had any suggestions to break the cycle of no motivation. I have things that I want to do it’s just I feel stuck on able to do the mentally if that makes sense.

I’m kinda losing hope and feeling defeated

I’ve spiraled to the lowest of rock bottom. I now have all subtypes and I do not deserve to live. I hate my mind so much. This has all happened in 3 months and all because of reassurance.

Has anyone taken Prozac while having this theme and it seemed to help ? I’m scared to take it because of the theme . Also I’m not suicidal never have been but this theme idk makes me depressed and panic and think of it then freaks me out . Is this normal ? Or am I actually having ideations ? Sometimes I feel like the best plan would be to be in a mental house so I know I can’t hurt myself . It’s just weird cause before all this started I had panic attacks about dying in my sleep , then it switched to dying of a heart attack which led me to get all my blood work done and quitting smoking and alcohol and caffeine and since may I’ve been dealing with this theme and it’s making me freaking confused like I have 3 kids I love my life but it’s fucks with me like makes me depressed.

I think I have borderline personality disorder. It hurts so fucking bad I don’t know what to do I can’t grieve anymore. I’m so full of it….I’m so incredibly full of grief and sadness. I wish someone could put my pieces back together.

I know that God is good and loving. He has proven it to me so many times. But recently a video came on my for you page and it was kinda blasphemous. It was basically making fun of some pastor in a church. But I found it really funny. I knew that it was disrespectful to God. I wasn’t laughing at the fact that it disrespectful to God. I was laughing because the pastor was doing something out of the ordinary. but now im scared that He’s gonna punish me with one of my worst fears that OCD has been revolving around. I just think back to some of the punishments that He gave in the Bible, and im scared that im gonna get punished in the worst way.

I was recently diagnosed with OCD last month, and my new psychiatrist started me on two new medications. I have not been put in any therapies yet, (talk therapy has always proved ineffective for me) but I am open to it in the future.) For the past 16 years, I’ve been living my life diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. My new psychiatrist has “undiagnosed” me with those two disorders, and diagnosed me with OCD. She said my “anxiety” has actually been caused by severe untreated OCD. I particularly struggle with suicidal thoughts/ideation and have been hospitalized multiple times for severe depression episodes; including Catatonia and Existential Crises. Being treated for those other disorders my entire life (starting age 12) many of the medications they put me on always made my symptoms worse. This new revelation has caused me to experience feelings of confusion and loss of self-identity. This new diagnosis is scary to me, even if it makes so much sense. I’d appreciate any advice on navigating this time in my life. I appreciate this app finding its way to me in this time. ❤️

Today I realized I’m actually really scared of becoming a bad person. I’ve been dealing with symptoms of OCD for a few years now, or maybe they were always there and i never knew what it was. I’m scared that i’ll eventually become a bad person. I’m scared I’ll hurt someone one day, even though i have no violent urges or tendencies. I’m scared i’ll be a pedophile even though i have no attraction to kids. I’m scared that i’ve done something really bad to someone and i don’t remember. I’m just scared and I wish I could tell people my thoughts but i know it’s hard to understand intrusive thoughts when you don’t have them.

I just think this isn’t ocd anymore, i don’t know how to explain it very well but every since my ocd started i’ve been getting this weird sensation that i described as anxiety but i associated with the fact that i’m actually going crazy and that i’ve been faking mi whole life and i want to hurt the people i love (specifically my mom) i know i love her but i get trigger literally by everything and i’m so scared. My mind is telling me that i don’t have empathy so i’m constantly checking if i feel the way i have to when something sad happens and the thoughts are racing, i’m so tired of this it’s like i don’t know who i am anymore, i feel like i’m about to snap and hurt someone.. pls someone respond to this