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Does anyone think we are Selfish for worrying so much about our problems. Or is this jus my ocd?

Any tips on how to stop SH?

My symptoms have been getting worse the last few days and it flat out feels now like I’ve become this person and want to cause harm to my loved ones. Like I’m just resisting it. My brain is giving me sensations like I like that and makes me sad at the same time. I can’t tell if it’s anxiety or what or if this is what I want. When this started I knew I never wanted to hurt anyone and these thoughts were intrusive. Now they feel like they’ve become me. Please help.

Does anyone also suffer from emetophobia? Am I alone in this? It feels like I am and like no one truly understands me.

How do you know the difference between OCD thoughts and Intellectual conflicts that anybody could go through? especially if you're someone who loves philosophy and morality delimmas? and also as a young adult who experience a quarter life crisis and/or identity crisis and struggle with changing and growing up, How do you know if what hitting you OCD or something of those?

i can’t stop obsessing over how i look and thinking about how ugly i look i feel like i’m going insane i keep looking at pictures of myself and i just feel so disgusting my lips are so small and without makeup i literally look like a man and i just compare myself to my friends and people i see online all day i literally cant take it anymore like i just feel so worthless all the time bc of my appearance i would literally do anything to feel beautiful

before you read please don’t if you’re not in a good headspace or struggle with ocd doubt!! does anyone else get like this with repetitive things in your head. like i have a confession compulsion and randomly literally all the fucking time i remember random stuff that i feel like guilty for then get the urge to confess then have to stop and wait for it to pass bc it will but then i feel so guilty and like a liar and a bad person for not confessing then i literally go bat shit crazy like hello. idk what’s real or what to feel bad for idk who i am or what im doing or like if im a bad person who’s acting like im not or if im not and im obsessing over random things, and even if they aren’t random and maybe something i wouldn’t do again should i confess to every thing ever, btw when i say this i dont mean things like i entertained someone else or anything.

When my intrusive thoughts get bad and I try my hardest to push them out it feels like I’m physically straining my head, like it legitimately hurts really bad and I feel like I get dizzy and can’t think and I can’t stop focusing and then my ocd causes me to think that there’s something wrong with my brain and that I need surgery or to be lobotomized or something crazy like that, does this happen to anyone else?

i had intrusive thoughts about suicide and wonder why i am like this when i truly dont want it i have fear of death etc suicide health anything i see about suicide or someone harming themselves. it triggers and i reflect it on my self at first it was images and urges now it commands and now it making me second guess if its really ocd i did recently get diagnosed with ocd and im in the process of starting CBT ERP and im scared that its gunna make it worse and i see my ocd it’s affecting my rlsp with my partner i took a break from work i dont go outside much now or do the things i enjoy bc im scared of having a panic attack and i look at everyone enjoying life and laughing and im stuck in my head about things i dont wanna think about ive been on this app for a while and it does help but i find myself excessively looking at people stories and comparing if its what im going through i would spend hours an hours on google comparing suicidal ideation and ocd and if i read something my mind starts getting stuck on that making me feel like thats what i have several times i felt i needed to go to hospital but ik im not suicidal and i dont want them to treat me crazy and now it sounds like i want reassurance lol but i guess i want some advice to get myself out of the thought loop so ican be more present ive tried meditation ive tried grounding techniques maybe im not being paitent with myself i have had obessions in the past and i was good for about 10 yrs and noticed these thoughts back in 2022 but was able to brush em off and at the time i was stressed about looking for a job then my dad passed away in nov andi got real bad urges especially if i had dreams about him but inwoukd be about to get myself together an was confused on what this was and then i watched a tv show and someone hurt them selves and i opened up to my partner about what ive been feeling and then i saw someone brother on facebook commit suicide and its been a crazy spiral from there. i guess my episodes have always been something about ive seen or heard or fears.

So yesterday at night I was okay I just had a mini headache and I was stressing all morning and worrying due to other reasons plus I’m on my menstrual cycle I don’t know if that helps any better. I was watching some videos and I started thinking about what’s my purpose here in life like why do we live if we are gonna die and what is my purpose and I don’t wanna die so I turned around to my safe space my husband he was sleeping already and I hugged him to feel better and all of the sudden it felt like I provoked it or like I made myself think it to harm him and I started freaking out because I was like what no I don’t wanna do that do I actually that’s the love of my life he’s my safe space I love him what would be my life without him and I started getting really bad BUT BAD urges to do it and like my mind was running like to 1,000x I started crying I was having a mini silent panic attack I wanted to stand up and run or do something to get out of my head I wanted to wake him up to reassure me I just felt like I was really gonna snap and like I was gonna stand up and do something like I felt it in my heart and I pressed the SOS button and after I was still kind of freaking because I was like well if I do it everyone is gonna hate me im gonna go to jail and I started freaking out because I felt like I couldn’t control myself cause the urges felt so real and writing it right now I feel it again and I’m really scared I go to a physc because I can’t control myself which yesterday I managed to do on my own but I feels so horrible to think that and I feel like a truly horrible person because they’re thoughts but the actions could be so real and I can’t I was doing a lot better :( I really was I don’t know what happened I want this all to go away and like I try to tell myself it isn’t real why would I act on them and I don’t know if my ocd gets mad and like tries to tell me they are and that I could do them and I really don’t want to I don’t want to do them that’s the truth.

For some reason. The thoughts don’t give me anxiety anymore, wondering if I’m attracted to something doesn’t worry me anymore, I don’t even feel attracted to anything anymore, I always feel a sense of doom whenever I see a picture of a kid, don’t ever try to purposely find any of it attractive, but now my brain make me feel like I don’t care anymore, like I accepted the fact I’m a bad person, that I like these things, and would be into these things, but I don’t want to be. I don’t want to be these things. But why does it feel like I don’t care anymore? Why does it feel like I don’t care that I’ll turn into this person? Like I don’t have an anxiety anymore I asked myself if I found these things. I actually attractive, responded with yes and it felt like a yes, and it doesn’t give me an anxiety anymore??? Like it makes me feel like I accepted it and that I am a bad person, but I don’t wanna be a bad person??? Like it accepted the fact that I’m going to be attracted these things, I’m not attracted to these things??? it’s so complicated. I don’t understand. Why does it feel like I don’t care anymore? I feel like the only person who cares in my body right now? Like I’m not worried I’ll be a bad person anymore inside I’m not, but outside I do care to be a bad person??? I’m so scared. This means I’m gonna turn into a bad person. I know I’m not, and I will never be one. But why Is this happening? Is it a positive reason? negative reason? It just makes me feel like I wouldn’t mind him to be a bad person. But I would, but I just isn’t making me feel that way??? I can’t tell what it means anymore? I don’t wanna be a bad person. I don’t want to be. But every time I get a picture it’s just like I don’t know what to think anymore. Please help me.

For two years, I didn't have ocd symptoms and I was practicing mindfulness, no avoidance and occasional exposures on my own related to the theme and my intrusive thoughts and feelings got way lesser and I didn't have the symptoms for two years and I was doing compulsions related to meta ocd now and then, now my ocd is back again and I'm doubting the recovery process, if I can recover and fear of ocd taking over my life. So now my ocd wants to compulsively check if I'm getting better, if I'm doing the recovery right, if recovery is possible and if I even recovered from real event theme as I was only feeling better and ther was no doing better and it was just time when my ocd was gone. But if you ask me, I would say I can live with my real event theme thoughts and I don't have any triggers regarding it. I know this is my ocd speaking, but did I actually recover from my real event theme ocd or not?

So I’m new to this platform and my ocd is getting extremely bad and out of control to the point where I can’t stop my mind and I just go to sleep crying night after night. I can’t get help because it’s super embarrassing to admit and my mom wouldn’t believe me and what if the doctors don’t believe me? What if nobody believes me and they think I’m stupid or crazy? How do I tell them I need help? I’m 14 years old and I’m scared and I don’t know what to do, I’m on this platform because I feel like somebody on here might know something and I urge you to please help a girl out

Is Hoarding an OCD Disorder or something else...??

Two weeks ago I was on a walk with my husband and daughter at night in a small town. I felt something flutter past the back of my knee and thought maybe it was a bug. Then I happened to look up in the sky and saw a bat flying around. My thoughts immediately jumped to rabies. We got to the car and I checked my leg, but it was too dark to see much. So I checked again once we got home and saw a small, red swollen bump. I ended up going down a Google rabbithole all about bats and rabies. I didn't sleep that night, but after that I was able to sit with the anxiety for the most part and it slowly eased over the next few days. Now it's 2 weeks later and I've been feeling under the weather for 3 days. Chills on/off, back is a bit sore, and anxiety is at an all time high. I don't want to go down fighting rabies of all things!

I have had soocd for 5 years and it impacts me all day everyday every minute. I’ve read that some people only have it 1-2 times a month or for like two seconds a day and it scares me that I don’t have ocd. Because mine is legit constant and so scary

i am a christian. i am constantly terrified of offending God and going to hell. i love God so much but this so scary. i feel like a really bad person. i have to pray in specific ways at specific times of the day in a specific order and sometimes it feels like a chore. i feel so bad about this. the reason i became a christian in the first place was mostly out of fear. i feel so bad admitting all of this but i really need help. i wanna continue being a christian i think but it’s all so scary and stressful. praying has become a compulsion, i feel like a terrible person with every sin, and it’s so exhausting. also, i’m a lesbian and i’m so scared God will send me to hell for that. i can’t change my identity. i’ve tried, but i just can’t like boys. i’m so scared and sad and terrified and stressed. i have no clue what to do.

Why is my brain telling me that I wouldn’t mind being a p, that I could live with it and be fine with it, and I am really a p because my situation is too unique…. I didn’t agree with it but I allowed myself to think about this, and it just made me feel like I did agree to it. I’m worried that I’m lying to myself, I really don’t want to turn to into this person, my WHOLE LIFE i was attracted to older people and never ever felt this way until now (false attraction) it makes me so convinced and it puts me in a dark space. It’s hard to think right now.

I have a crippling fear of anything relating to vomit. When I’m relaxing or just hanging out, or even trying to fall asleep at night, sudden vivid thoughts of people vomiting comes into my mind and they play over and over and it’s literally the most intrusive thought pattern that I have. I also am terribly afraid of people vomiting in public, I try to avoid sports events, bars, parties, riding the subway, amusement parts. I love these events but I cannot shake the fear that I will be vomited on (or near by). I do want to also note that I am not afraid of myself vomiting. I’m sorry if this sounds awful, I was just hoping to know if anyone else may experience something similar or have any suggestions how to cease this awful imagery??

Recently I’ve been having scary intrusive thoughts about hurting myself or others. I’m so scared, what do I do?? I wouldn’t hurt a fly.