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My health ocd is getting really bad and out of hand. I woke up and at this moment it felt like I had some kind of band around my leg, but I did not. Therefore my fear for MS immediately came back, and I'm freaking out. I literally googled all day for symptoms and now I want to make an appointment with my doctor. The most fucked up thing about this is that it really feels like my health is getting worse

So I just visited a therapist for the first time and he recommended that I simply laugh at my OCD and tell it that nothings wrong when it tells me that I’ve done something bad when I obviously haven’t. This however is different to what I’ve heard being the best treatment which is to agree with everything your OCD tells you in order to expose the fear or something. What should I do?

I feel too "bad" to redeem myself or deserve recovery. I know it's just my OCD but every second I'm awake another completely different memory hits me and I'm filled with guilt and regret and paranoia. It never stops. I really don't know what to do. I'm in therapy and I'm trying every day but it's so hard to get better when you feel like you need to punish yourself for every move you make. I'm not sure what kind of treatment could help me when I have a new obsession every half hour and they're generally based on my past/real events. If any of you feel this way I'm so sorry :(

I experience hocd and it honestly has traumatized me and put my mental health in the worst state it has ever been and I’ve never questioned myself if I was gay/bi or whatever up until the hocd came out of nowhere and spiraled about a month ago. (Including the fact I’ve made out with all my girlfriends and never felt a thing). Now I’m scared to even go around another girl or my friends one on one. Ive been in a relationship with my bf for almost a year and do NOT want to lose him. I saw my life with him and now I worry about everything and everything feels like it’s going to fall apart. One of my friends told me “you may have never had the gay thoughts until now but now you are seeing it in a different light and maybe need to go out and try it now” which I can’t stop thinking about. I don’t want to go out and try. I don’t want to leave my bf. I just want this all to go away. Any advise on any of this? Or any comments toward what my coworker told me?

Groinals are so confusing because I just had one when I was thinking about a guy and it felt the same as the ones I get that I don’t want (when looking at women) now I’m scared this means I’m bi

I don't wanna reassure, but I hopefully want to try and help the people on here that have TOCD. I am a trans person, If my life ever gets better I'm planning on surgeries, name changes, the likes. I wanna tell yall that I have never seen a transgender person in denial...like ever. And I'm around trans people all the time. To trans people including me the thought of being in the body of the gender you identify as literally feels like a super hero dream. You love to see yourself like that, you feel extremely happy seeing it, you love it, you feel like youre doing covers for vogue and killing all the evil-doers on the planet with your latex corset and acryllic nails (well for me at least). There is not a smidgen of anything telling you that you picturing yourself that way is in any way, shape or form WRONG. In fact, as a trans person, my biggest fear is that my transgender identity might be viewed as fake, attention-seeking, bandwagon-hopping. I'm scared of having the way I want to be is going to be seen as me desperately trying to follow a trend. I'm anxious that I'm not trans enough, that people wouldn't call me transgender, despite my desire to alter my body drastically via surgery, so you people that are sitting there terrified out of your minds that you might be transgender - that is ridiculous. I want to look like myself desperately, and I'd go to great lengths to achieve that. This is what all trans people want and have been wanting for the longest time. So if any of yall don't fit that description - it's time to devalue your fears and start ERP-ing. Yall start affirming that youre trans, yall start browsing male clothing, yall start thinking about how cool it would be to have a chest binder or a pair of tiddies, etc. and eventually your brains will see that this whole entire thing is full of shit. I promise yall that. Period.

If you did ERP using this app, how long do you think it would take to get better?

Anyone with false memory ocd able to see the false memories in detail? And they feel real and you remember every little detail but you still know deep down it never happened?

I literally cannot stop picturing disgusting sexual shit to check and test for arousal and I see that my groin gets movements and growth. That shouldnt happen. If I wasnt a pedophile then that shouldnt be happening to why is it happening...Like someone please help me, I can't believe this is happening to me

As a child(around 4-6), me and this girl at my babysitters used to play girlfriend and boyfriend ?? I can't help but use this as some sort of proof. I wish I never did that, I cant remember if it felt right or not and it's scaring me ugh. Why did I have to do that whhhhhyyy

Please help! I’m currently visiting my brother in uni but these past couple months I’ve had a fear that I’m inlove with him or have a crush on him or something. It makes me feel sick honestly. He’s always been quite a popular guy. Many people know him and he’s had a lot of girlfriends etc. And because a lot of guys around my area tend to be so similar, he embodies some traits that I would consider my ‘type’ which I hate. Is this evidence????? I keep seeing all this proof that I do. Little things that add up. But then yesterday, I asked myself if I’d have a crush on him if he WASN’T my brother and the fact that my immediate answer wasn’t no scared me. A lot. I keep worrying that the only thing stopping me is the fact that it’s unlawful, and not the fact that it’s just absolutely sick!!! Plus I always feel the need to be cool on his presence, which I do with boys I like. I guess it’s mostly because I want to prove to him that I’m not as wimpy as I used to be (because he used to think I was kinda childish and pathetic) but still. Please please help. I don’t want to like him! I’m so uncertain; I hate this.

This is the second time i ever had a same sex dream. I don't clearly remember but it was a girl who after having some drinks was just caressing her cheeks against mine and we accidentally kissed. It felt like a feeling i never had before with any guy out there and felt nice and satisfying and now as i woke up even though i am busy with my daily work the thought about the dream is returning to me every now and then which is irritating

Anyone struggling with hocd going through this: growing up (18 now) I've never had a boyfriend or even my first kiss. I'm super awkward with that type of stuff for some reason and just don't know why. So any opportunity of having a serious boyfriend I was always uncomfortable and said no. That also had to do with me not liking my body and thinking that a guy would find it super ugly and unlovable. So with that being said I'm afraid I'm a lesbian or bi and like I don't find boys attractive anymore. I'm scared cause I want to be with a guy but I'm afraid I'll never find a guy I want to be with and find out in the long run I'm a lesbian or something. I don't want to be with girls but ocd is kicking me in my ass. Telling me that only girls are attractive, picking apart anything I find attractive on a guy and it makes me sad. Also sorry for the tmi but I'm afraid I won't find a penis attractive and that's that and I'm lesbian. I know I have to accept the unknown but I'm truly terrified cause of my past that it is set that I'm bi or lesbian and just was too stupid to know it.

Im lowkey accepting everything. I sccepted i dont like boys anymore. I accepted that i lost my attravtion. And the acceptence comes with not really missing it anymore. I lowkey think its more about forgetting what it used to be like to really be into boys to the point where im like aight, i dont miss it bc i dont know what im missing. It just feels emptt but im not continuously feeling sad about how i dont like boys and how im missing them u know. Im jusr like numb and i just be like uhhh when am i going to feel snything again.

Trigger warning - is it possible to have an eating d*sorder theme ? has anyone had this ?

I have a first date tonight with someone from tinder. We are getting drinks at 8. I think hooking up might be a possibility But I am getting serious cold feet. Super anxious about it. I am afraid I’ll get a panic attack on the date and it will ruin it. Or that I would be sooo fucking awkward on the date that it won’t go well Haven’t been on a date in over a year. What should I do? I can’t reschedule. And I know that it isn’t going I get easier for me if I don’t try. I am literally gagging and dry heaving for past day about it.

Talking to my boyfriend about taking a break until I can figure this shit out ? feeling like I know the underlying cause to my themes

I just started dating again after nearly a year of being single I downloaded tinder and I got two first dates with two different girls this weekend. I kind of impulsively booked one on Saturday and one on Sunday because I felt like unless I make plans, then They might lose interest I am very nervous. Especially considering I have a strong feeling at least one wants to hook up. Which I am for because i haven’t has sex in a long long time. So I have a lot of anxieties about it. One is a fear I will have a panic attack when I am on the date. The other is the pressure of talking or meeting with more than one person. I want to find someone I eventually could have relationship with. I have these obsessional paranoia about juggling more than one person at a time. Even worried about continuing to use tinder to find someone new. I know it is crazy. It is tinder. They probably talking to other guys too. And I haven’t even met these girls yet. I just have this insecurity about being honest about that. My relationship ocd has always trapped me in bad relationships for fears of rejection and also because of loneliness and insecurity. So I don’t have a history of making good judgments when it comes to picking people. I am mostly worried about how to come up with alibis to one or the other girl about my plans with the other person Worried text messages or stuff will happen that will lead to the other finding out. If not now, eventually if things go well with both The long and short of it is. I feel pressure to pick and settle for one girl before I even meet any of these girls and I have only been talking to either for a week on text message. I just feel a ton of pressure and I know I shouldn’t put all eggs In one basket. And work on being social. But I have a lot of anxiety. This weekend feels more like work than excitement. I don’t want to cancel. Too late for that. But I don’t know how to handle the pressures of juggling more than one interest. I feel pressure to give my undivided attention to each so I won’t be rejected Does anyone have any advice or strategies on navigating this?

Not sure how much of these thoughts I can take, I feel like everyday I'm getting closer and closer to insanity. I can't get the thoughts out, I can't see a reason to live, I can't do anything. I just hide in my room because of this monster I think I am, and feel like I shouldn't be allowed outdoors. I don't wanna die but this pain won't go away. I hope one day it gets better.

how long should my obsessive thoughts last about my boyfriend if i have rocd ? usually i have a bad period where i think i have lost feelings for him and then it comes back but i’ve been feeling anxious and having these constant thoughts for days now. i’m trying not to do my compulsions but even when i do i don’t get the feeling of loving him back i just don’t get the constant thoughts and anxiety. is this rocd or do i actually just not like my boyfriend ? i’m not formally diagnosed with rocd but i have done so much research and my habits and thoughts sound exactly like examples of those suffering from rocd. i thought that i had it and now i’m scared i don’t and i just don’t love him. but then i also know that that’s another symptom of rocd that the ocd convinces you that you don’t actually have rocd and you just don’t have feelings for them so now i’m scared and confused. can anyone tell me if they think that i have rocd please