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Hi all, I’m new to the app. I have OCD and anxiety. I am pretty new to my diagnosis- just 3-4 months- but knowing that there’s a label to how I feel is relieving. I also have dermatillomania (skin picking) which is one of my compulsions. I got put on medication- Zoloft- almost immediately after my diagnosis (I’m up to 200mg/day now). Something that has been coming up more frequently is my obsession that something bad is happening to my family. I won’t get into the details but I vividly imagine my parents, siblings, or friends being injured or dying. Can anyone who has experience in these areas give some tips? I feel pretty alone right now I’m how I feel and sometimes I feel like there’s something wrong with me.

Anyone else with HOCD scared it’s internalised homophobia

Hey guys! I have now two ocds! The HOCD + being afraid that it might turn in to pocd! So my mind is in a real garbage! Last night while I was having intercourse (rare thing nowadays since sometimes I'm afraid to have them) a girl image came to my head and flushed it away! Than a picture of an adorable baby kept coming! So I made an huge effort and it finally got away and I some good intercourse! But now I feel bad for not having stoped the intercourse! Does this make me a bad person? I didn't want to stop although the images were trying to do that! I thought if they disappeared it would be ok! But now I feel a really bad person

I miss hanging out with my dad without this foreboding feeling in the background. I find it hard to maintain eye contact with him now and I feel super awkward around him because of my incest OCD. My compulsions include looking for symptoms of incest or if it's possible for someone like me to do it. I've always noticed people who commit incest rarely regret it and they just don't mind the guilt. My mind would tell me.. "stare for too long in your dad's eyes and you'll fall in love." Or "Oh, you're looking away. That's because you have a crush on him." God... I'm looking away because of these damn awful thoughts. I just miss hanging out with him. I feel like our relationship is going to wither. My incest OCD got over the fear of doing incest part but because I notice dad a lot now because of my obsession, my brain made me think I fancy him. Yes, I do find dad handsome but that's totally normal. However, OCD makes this as another hole to victimize me. "Ooo~ you find your dad handsome. That means you fancy him too." Geezas.. if I find cars beautiful and dolls cute does that mean I'm attracted to them? Nice logic, brain. I would never commit that horrible stuff with him. I love my dad so much and it hurts me that it will never be the same?

I’m curious.... what are some of y’all’s compulsions? Some of mine are like excessive hand washing and not touching my face at all

One thing i have learned is that im never gonna win against these demons might aswell enjoy the ride while it lasts haha

My boyfriend of a year and a half broke up with me last due to how terrible my rocd and ocd in general has gotten. I’ve been on zoloft and ever since I had started to take I felt like it was tearing away the important emotional aspects of my relationship. He said I was emotionally abusive and I knew i was being abusive it felt so beyond me to control it. I feel like the most awful person alive

Sometimes i just look at woman when theyre pretty idk i just do. Idk if it means something and i feel like i didnt do it before hocd. Idk if it comes with hocd but i just be looking and idk if it means im attracted or if im just looking or wateva. I dont really look at boys like that anymore because im not attracted to them at this point with hocd. But why would i look at woman tho?

I am almost convinced that psychedelics are the solution.

i always used to want a bf soo bad and i would get so jealous and kinda sad when i saw guys being cute with their girlfriends and now i don’t even care. like i’m not interested in anyone. and it scares me bc i didn’t lose my attraction bc i still see guys and i’m like omg he’s so cute and stuff but then i ask myself if i would date him and i can’t see myself dating him. and it makes me think i don’t actually like boys. and the guy i had liked for yearssss and wanted to be close with so bad, i don’t have feelings for him anymore. anyone else with hocd have this? you still have the physical attraction but you don’t want a relationship. it’s freaking me out

Hey guys, it's been really difficult finding a professional, so I'm turning to you guys in the meantime. ..If I stop the compulsions, then what happens to the obsessive thoughts? Why do the thoughts and anxiety keep recurring? Does it eventually stop? For me, obsessive thoughts usually come with anxiety first, then the feeling of "being stuck in the essence of an event that actually occurred in my past (the thought), and feeling disconnected from my present reality". At that point, that's the factor that makes me resort to the compulsion. It's seems to be the only way of final relief. Do I just wait it out and that feeling eventually goes away? Does anyone else feel the same?

Any one use alcohol or drugs to cope with the anxiety of ocd ?

I’m in crisis. About to throw up I am on the bus, but it’s full. I live in Mexico if that can make you imagine the scene a little ??‍♀️ There is a lot of people talking and touching me and there’s almost no air and I can smell everyone around me and it’s making me real uncomfortable. I wanna cry. Please help me. I feel like I can’t breathe. And my stupid iPhone keeps calling to voice control even tho I deactivated it and it pops up like every 5 secs but I wanna hear music but- HELP ME.

Does anyone know how long it can take to get rid of pure OCD?

My constant unwanted thoughts makes me more and more distanced from my girl :(

I really need help. I have been struggling awfully with my ocd recently it started off as pocd and I still have that but now I am constant ly and I mean constantly whenever something isn't occupying my mind thinking of the worst thing possible and it is destroying me, has anyone else had this, like I'll be playing with the dogs and I'll get the thought to sexually assault it then I'll try ignore it and do something else. I get thoughts about stuff that is the worst stuff I can imagine and it feels like I'm doing it on purpose even though I hate these thoughts and I would never ever want the thoughts to happen. Any advice would mean the world to me right now, I'm having a breakdown and I've got nothing but this app

Today I did a speech about the misconceptions around OCD. And it was going okay I guess. I was shaking a lot because it was scary, but that was only inevitable. Then when it came to answering questions, it all went downhill. I was asked by my teacher what link I had to the disorder so I straight up said it. I said I have OCD, to a class of 30 and to him. And I regret that with all my heart. For the past year, OCD has been ME. It has torn me and shaped me and ruined me and hurt me and made me. So when I said it, and didn’t get the reaction I guess I hoped for... it broke me. Nobody cared. Nobody cares that I had struggled. That I’d cried. That I’d felt so alone. I wonder if I’ll ever be understood by anybody. I fear I looked like an attention seeker for saying it. Or a liar. Or someone trying to gain pity. I don’t know what to think or do. I care so so so much about what they think of me. And nobody even cared. I guess I’m just feeling sorry for myself. Which is so dumb. But I don’t know what else to do. I poured my heart into my words and now I don’t have any left. I’m crying, because I just feel so silly and sad. I wish I could go back in time and not do it. Because now I’m just left feeling so anxious about what I looked like, and so sad about how nobody cared.

It’s baaaaaack....just looking for some support. It’s been a pretty good run for the past few months, and that has been nice. It never really goes away, but it just gets to a low level and the anxiety wanes too. But, I know this disorder cycles and for me it is back. It hit last weekend, and now the anxiety has increased as have the urgency of the intrusive thoughts. I have been here many many many times before and I know it always passes, but when you feel terrible there can be this urgency to making it go away now, and to also wonder why it gets worse from time to time. I know that I just have to feel the feelings and wait for it to calm down, but as we all know it can be hard on our mind when it returns. So, just seeing if others experience these ups and downs. And, just had to write about the hard feelings. Thanks all!

Has anyone with POCD actually had children after suffering with their theme? I want to know if I can ever actually have kids despite having suffered from POCD. I also suffer from HOCD.

In denial or hocd? I DONT KNOW I LITERALLY CAN NOT TELL WHAT IS REAL OR NOT AND IM GONNA LOSE MY MIND