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I need serious advice if anyone can give me some it would be greatly appreciated ever since my cousin passed due to suicide from paranoid schizophrenia and then my dad passed right after I get thoughts of what if I got schizophrenia and I get paranoid thoughts about paranoid thoughts it’s so weird it’s been hard to be around family and friends I’ve only been diagnosed with ocd anxiety and depression please any advice would help I’m sorry if I’m doing to much I’m just not feeling well

I hate that I no longer have motivation to do the things I once loved..these things helped me distract myself but now It feels like nothing works anymore...

I am always thinking about my past. I keep notes of every single detail. I keep calendar. I always try to have a clear image of everything from the last days, months, years. I am overthinking all the time and this ruins my life. If i lose control of what happened the last days my mind somehow dont function and i get really depressed. Is this ocd? Anybody else with same problem?

Can intrusive thoughts come with feelings? My intrusive thoughts affect my love for this music group who I love so much, they question whether I truly love them. These thoughts make me feel as though I actually don’t like them and I sometimes get feelings of irritation or being annoyed by the group which is so horrible?

Y’all, I am asking for some help. The media uproar going on about race right now is REALLY triggering my OCD. It feels like the entire white population is being labeled a bully. I am trying to do better in areas where I feel like I have given into stigmas, but I know over all I love EVERYONE. It’s just overwhelming to have everybody yelling at you from their Instagram posts all at once. Plus a loved one is dying. Please help. I feel like I am spiraling & I am so confused in this battle.

I need to get this off my chest. I’m losing a friend. She has become a very hateful person. She’s racist and homophobic and transphobic and just this and that. The list goes on and on. She doesn’t respect me. She’s hurt me so many times in the past and not once said a meaningful sorry if she ever said sorry at all. And she will not see she’s getting worse with her paranoia and refuses to get help. Instead tries to tell you your own faults. I feel like a terrible person for being friends with her for so long bc I heard all the hateful things she said and I was always too scared to ever say or do anything. Another mutual friend just cut her off after we found out stuff she both did to us. Now I’m trying to cut her off. I just feel like I’m a terrible person because I was even friends with her for so long. I feel horrible and it makes me wanna isolate again.

I am freaking out over if I have rabies or not. My dog missed his shot by two weeks, and in the span of that time he got into a fight with a cat. It's been another two weeks and we're trying to get him vaccinated but it's been hard trying to schedule during corona, and I keep obsessing over if he bit me or not. I feel like I'm going to die and I cant stop panicking over it and my family thinks im stupid for worrying and are just making fun of me.

huge ocd spike during a make out. The thought I had while I was turned on felt gay and now I’m crying again. When does this end

Hey I'm feeling pretty hopeless right now. Before I get to the main point I'm gonna give some background info: I'm going into my third year of University and it took years of constant denial to get treatment . I originally came in for my skin picking but after multiple appointments I was told I have OCD. I never thought I perfectly fit into having it because I was never organized nor am I a "germaphobe". I later learned everything made sens From being afraid to interact with little children (afraid I would assault them just from staring too long), all the way to staying up all night convinced someone would kill me if I didn't hide all the knives in the house. It took me just one month ago to sleep in my bed alone (after I stopped my rituals with my stuffed animals as a kid I was convinced they will harm me when I least expect it, and sleep beside my mother). It even explained why I had somatic rituals when I was a child (constantly balancing the right and left side of my body with repetitive touching until it felt right). Finally, after switching from cipralex (did not help) to Zoloft (currently on 150mg) I feel as thought my life is coming back. The reason I'm feeling distressed is that my main psychiatrist referred me to a CBT waitlist in a hospital. Well I just had a virtual meeting with him today... And he basically asked if I have cleaning rituals. I said no, I told him about my previous compulsions the first time I talked to him and told him the medication has SIGNIFICANTLY reduced my anxiety and compulsions that I only do two rituals a day (~3 hours). At the end of the appointment he told me that I DON'T HAVE OCD or anxiety and suggested I go off my meds. Now I'm doubting if I have OCD to begin with, even though I fully know I do as my main psychiatrist has been so caring and making sure I recover. It really sucks because I feel pretty invalidated?? Am I overreacting or in the wrong? I don't know how to feel right now. Any input would be appreciated. Thank you

I have a question. How are you guys been feeling with whats happening in the united states? I have been very very sad, i ve been crying a lot and i feel powerless. I am fr Mexico and there are things i think i can do to help (like open up conversarion groups with friends about the racism Mexico has) but i am afraid of people’s responds. I dont like to read negative comments they really affect me even though i don’t want them to.

As the anxiety goes down is the attraction supposed to go down too? My anxiety has been reduced but my attraction to the same gender is still there which still bothers me and makes things more scary.

i really don’t wanna go on medication but i’ve been in therapy for 2 months and i don’t seem to be getting better. i don’t know if it will get better with time or if i’m going to need to go on meds. i’m scared i’ll become suicidal, worse, or even become dependent on them. does anyone know if my intrusive thoughts can possibly go away with time if i really try or does that require meds? the thoughts are present all day long over basically everything i do. also for anyone who’s on meds how has it changed you with your ocd?

I have such a hard time with the Kinsey scale. It is so hard for me to accept that getting turned on by women in porn or like sexual materials doesn’t have to mean I’m gay. But that knowledge is what keeps me from getting up in the morning, being with my boyfriend, and having a satisfying sex life. I’m so paralyzed by the idea of being gay or bi that I don’t even live my life. I’ve suffered with HOCD for 5 years, had moments of recovery, and am now back to square one. In the recovery time, it never even crossed my mind that I like women. I wanted to hook up with men and have sex with men and date men. Now that I’m back in OCD, it’s like all that progress is gone.

hello all, does anyone have any advice for false memories? like you know in your heart you wouldnt/didnt but your mind is telling you otherwise and creating the feelings/thoughts that you did do it.

Hello How does anyone deal with family members that know you struggle with real event pocd and they treat you horrible for what you did? I have to always excuse myself when something is said or a stare to see if I’m okay around kids. It’s a horrible feeling because it makes me think I will be alone foreverrrrrr and a pedo. I would appreciate any tips.

forgive yourself. you know more now than you did then.

I called a mental health provider today and had a short interview to see if they could treat me. When I tried to explain what kind of outcome I'm hoping for she kept interrupting me, saying how my wording was wrong. Apparently I had to state it just right so it aligns with their treatment objectives or something? By the end of the call she said she would bring my case up with her colleagues at the next meeting and get back to me, but now I feel like I did something wrong, like I should have expressed myself more clearly and done more research beforehand. I feel so ashamed, and so invalidated :(

My theme is HOCD but, I just read the bible and had an intrusive thought of me st*bbing Him. I hate myself for that. Religious OCD is taking over me now too. It's just that after I had the thought, the wind started to blow and the rain came. I asked for forgiveness but, I'm still scared He is dissapointed on me. I'm having thoughts like He is going to send me to h*ll or I may not be able to wake up tommorow. How can I cope with this? I'm thinking He is dissapointed on me because it startd raining and it's getting stronger. I hate myself, and I feel like I don't deserve Him ang His love.??

Does anyone know how to be calm during what's going on in the world rn? I live near a city and shit is going down. Police are being too violent and so are the rioters, I just dont see how this situation will be resolved. Trump is already bringing in the military (?!?!?) and I feel like the next step he wants to take is a civil war, because the man always resorts to the extreme in situations. I feel like we need a leader from both sides to stand up and have a plan to work things out, everyone is just running around in mass chaos without a set of goals they want to reach. I want the police charged as well, and I want justice,but after they're arrested what will we be pushing for? I'm just confused as to where everyone stands, and am terrified that it's only going to get worse from here. What is going to happen...

Is racist ocd a thing? I've been having thoughts a lot lately if am I a racist? Or do I not like black people? Am I against them? I just want it to be know that I'm not against them, black lives matter! But I just keep on constantly having these thoughts and they are causing me distress cuz I don't want to be a racist. I even get feelings of not liking them even though they have done nothing wrong. I feel like a horrible person and want these to go away.