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So I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD, (I’m a minor) but I have a feeling I might have it. I do have ADHD and have been medicated since 1st grade (I’m in 10th grade now). What can I do to help some of my urges? Here are my symptoms: -I pick at my skin. It’s pretty bad and it is getting out of hand. I started with the acne on my face, but that quickly spread to my chest, arms, legs, and now my stomach. I can’t wear a tank top outside and I take up a lot of my day picking. I have tried a lot of things like wearing clothes that cover up the affected areas and fidget toys, but I can’t stop. This is my worst symptom. -I can’t help but feel awful if my room is not organized or if items aren’t placed strategically, but when they aren’t I can’t find the energy to fix it. It never leaves my mind and gives me bad anxiety. -I always feel like I’m doing something wrong and tend to replay anything that happened when I talk or hang out with someone. This is especially bad after a day of school. I can’t help it, it like takes over my mind. -I kinda pull out my hair. It falls out naturally and nowadays I try to get as much of the hair out as possible. It’s kinda become a new obsession. It’s naturally wavy and I have a lot of it, so I never brushed it, but I am trying to start brushing it again but that just encourages it more. -my go to stress habit when I can’t pick at my skin is to run my nails through my eyebrows and get as much of the oils, skin, or eyebrow hairs out as possible without making them noticeable. -If anything is out of sort, like on a presentation if a picture and word bubble is not in perfect position to match everything else, I get really anxious. If I’m not walking in a certain way or my pants aren’t high-waisted, I get really anxious and will not be able to function. It’s more like if everything isn’t perfect then I get bad anxiety. If you have any suggestions for trying to help these habits, mostly the skin picking, please let me know ASAP.

People on tik Tok rly saying OCD is a blessing for some people ??? and people are like “I have ocd and this joke doesn’t offend me” or “you’re all making a big deal out of nothing” like people don’t understand ocd in the slightest I’m so tired. If they heard ocd for some is the fear of being a pedophile, or stabbing ppl with knives, or any taboo subject at all maybe they’d think differently. But knowing these types of people if they actually heard what ocd really entails they’d probably be judgmental. Because people are jerks.

Are people in their 20s more prone to develop ocd and other confusion regarding their identiy?

Hi guys, I know this question may sound weird, and I apologise if it so or if you find it offensive in any way, but is anyone here with POCD who lives with their children or younger siblings and struggles a lot, especially if you are really close to each other, and often quite affectionate as well? I live with a younger brother, he's 8 years old, and he is really bonded to me. Because of that he really loves to be affectionate with me every single day. Well, I don't mind that, I find that really sweet, and because I always wanted a sibling I appreciate that he likes spending time with me and that he sees me as a caring sister (well, not always but you know what I mean). Due to my POCD I'm rarely enjoying the moments I spent with him. Honestly, I spend more time analysing my thoughts and sensations, or if I have any urge to harm him in any way, than having fun. The current problem I'm dealing with is that I think I've abused him. I know it's sounds terrifying, and there is a part of me that doesn't want to agree with this statement, but there were moments, including one yesterday, when I impulsively kissed him after having a combination between thoughts, feelings and sensations. I don't know why I keep doing it. I really don't want to harm my brother (or any other child!). But weird moments like this happen, and I'm tired of them. I feel like a true monster and I don't know how to move on. I've never seen people having this issue, so this probably means I'm evil and an abuser. I really want to go to the police and confess, I have this immense urge to do so. I'm really sorry if you find this post disturbing. I promise that's not my intention.

So, I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD, but over the past year I’ve developed something that seems very much like it. It might be OCD, but I don’t know. I have very strong urges to move my body in certain ways or touch certain things in certain patterns or an amount of times. An example of this is when I’m typing on a real keyboard I repeatedly hit buttons that I don’t need to hit because I almost constantly have the random urge to. I get a very strong tingling sensation inside of my body that almost hurts when I resist the urge. I don’t have any emotional parts of OCD, I don’t really worry about things or have anxiety very much. I used to have anxiety, but this has kind of replaced that. There are a few people in my family with symptoms of Tourette’s, I’m not sure if it’s full on or not, so my situation may have been influenced by that. Any advice/help is greatly appreciated!

i need help, if ANYONE can give me guidance PLEASE. I NEED IT. im a minor, i cannot tell my parents about these intrusive thoughts im having, so i cant get a therapist, nor can i get diagnosed. im scared i am a pedophile. i experienced a groinal feeling a couple days ago when i saw a picture of a little kid. I DID NOT REALIZE IT WAS A KID AT FIRST, but i freaked out. i freaked you guys. i even unfollowed the account i saw the picture of the young cchild on. im so scared that i am a pedophile. i cant live like this. what if i am but im i denial? i cant do it. ive experienced something like this before. i had a thought and obsessed about it about it. but i even think back, what if i wasnt obsessing? i was constantly online looking for answer for the thought. i was constantly confessing the thought to my ex (the thoughts were about him) and im just terrified. AND THEN, I HAVE THOUGHTS THAT SAY “you are a p*do and thats okay” BUT I DONT WANT TO THINK ABOUT THAT. I DONT WANT TO THINK LIKE THAT. i just want to be a normal teen. i wanna be worry free. i dont want to be a pedo. i wannt be happy. please any guidance you can give me i need it. does it sound like POCD to the people who have experienced OCD? or am i in denial. i cant live with myself being a pedo.

hi.. i really need to breathe so i might as well just type everything here. when i was in 7th grade, i had this moment where i thought i had liked a girl. we were really close and we did everything together. in my friend group, there were 2 girls who were dating eachother. i respected them si de they were my friends but i really didn’t seem myself w girls. and that’s when it hit me. i thought i liked this girl n i was curious, when in reality i wanted to be her friend. i told her n we went along w it. but, i couldn’t take it anymore tbh. it felt foreign and sick to me since ive always been attracted to boys. anyways, that lasted a day because i didn’t like it. now my hocd is making things worse, showing me how this is proof that i’m bisexual. i bet that counts as experimenting but.. i didn’t like it. my mind keeps telling me that i enjoyed that even though it was 5 years ago. i was a little kid. after that, all my crushes have been boys n i basically forgot about everything that happened because the past doesn’t define me. i was a curious 12 year old girl, who wanted to know how it felt like and didn’t like it. tbh.. it makes me sick to think that i was open to that. i’m a lgbt supporter but i don’t see myself like that. i want to get married to a guy, be with a guy, so everything w a guy.. not w a girl. i wish that my brain would stop using this as an excuse that i am truly bisexual.. when i’m not. it makes me cry so fucking much. i want to go back to before quarantine. seeing myself w a girl now makes me feel disgusted and I DONT WANT IT! i literally can’t do this anymore. i wish i could get in a car crash and get amnesia or something... i would do ANYTHING to forget about these thoughts n to not be bi. something that also triggers me is that the girl i experimented w is a lesbian now.. please someone help me. i was doing so well and i can’t even bear to look at myself. i don’t want to be bi. i want to be straight:(

What do I do if I get intrusive thoughts during sex? I feel like this is emotionally scarring me. Right now when I get intrusive thoughts the anxiety makes me more aroused (or maybe I'm in denial)and it makes me want to stop having sex all together because I feel like I'm being violated by my own brain. I dont like the thoughts so don't tell me that I should like them, that's like telling a sexual abuse victim to try to appreciate their abuse.

Idk if this is possible but with HOCD I’ve lost my attraction and feelings for girls is this possible or not? I’m super duper worried about this

in need of a distraction. comment your favourite film :)

Soooo I scheduled a call with an NOCD therapist to talk about therapy. I’ve NEVER told a therapist or really anyone in full detail my thoughts and I’m excited. I feel like I can deal with the anxiety I just really hope the results are life changing. I’m definately willing to take the plunge and do the work. How would you describe life post erp or ocd therapy?

I’m really nervous to do my new ERP exercise. I had an appointment with my therapist today and told her how I’m dealing with these intrusive thoughts about my mom that keep wanting me to look down at her chest or something like I have to keep saying “no I don’t wanna do that” and it’s been stressing me out a lot and making it hard to talk and be around her because these thoughts come in. My therapist said for an ERP that I should start with looking at pictures of my mom and purposely look at her chest in these pictures in order to conquer this fear and move past it. When I’m able to deal with that she said to do it in person. I know I have to do it do finally get over this issue but I’m so nervous to do so that I feel nauseous, like I keep thinking “what kinda of psycho would purposely stare at their mom’s chest??” I know it’s the OCD making this an issue in the first place tho but still. Any encouraging words would be helpful :(

Hi, I just got here. I’m kind of unsure about this because I don’t know if I even have OCD. Though, if I think about how I have problems with perfecting things and then stress about everything and can’t ever calm down, it kinda makes me wonder if I do have it. I don’t want to be like this anymore. I also don’t want to be annoying to my partner anymore so here I am.

The tax filing deadline is tomorrow. Does anybody's need to recheck their entries and math kick into overdrive while preparing taxes? Any fears of being convicted on tax fraud and being sent to federal prison?

I can't stand my mind and my thoughts any more

Just got off the chat with my therapist. Immediately triggered by late bloomer lesbians who loved their SOs. I love mine but I can’t orgasm and I’m afraid I’m not turned on enough by him naked. I’m so so so so scared I need a woman to be satisfied or that eventually I’ll take action and be with one. I want to vomit but it almost feels like I’m turned on in my groin. I’ve been working through ERP but these types of stories are 100% a huge trigger for me

PSA TO ANYONE WHO HAS RECOVERED: Had a bad day yesterday. Although I’m feeling better today, I’m feeling super depressed. Only started the day out with a little bit of anxiety. But I’m just scared. ‘What if the thoughts/feelings come back? What if this time I actually go crazy? What if this time I agree? What if I never get better?’ I need any kind words from anyone who has gone through this.... please any positivity helps (no reassurance please)

Does anyone find that alongside their intrusive thoughts that upset them, because they are observing their thoughts so closely they notice lots of other strange thoughts - it’s just those ones don’t upset you? I can have thoughts of hurting myself, breaking things, driving into oncoming traffic etc and they don’t bother me because they aren’t my theme, yet give me a thought of sexually or physically assaulting a child and the whole experience is hugely distressing.

I really don’t care anymore about being gay I give up. at first this gave my chronic depression and everyday I’d wake up I would wish I never did cause it was so bad, I’d wait hours just to back to sleep. but that was about 2 months ago these thoughts have done exactly what I feared they do I’m not scared of being gay anymore and I have no resistance to it, now someone could ask me do “I wanna be gay?” And obviously I would tell them no not a chance I wanna go back to my old me. But saying that now it just feels like I’m lying to myself. I’ve lost my normal self, and can’t even think ab my friends normally anymore or any male for that matter, it feels like I don’t wanna get better and that this isn’t ocd at all and I’m just turning I DONT GET IT AT ALL my whole life I’ve been into girls dreamt about my future wife and it feels like I’ve had that all stripped away from me I hate posting about this shit cause I feel like I’m the only person going through this who is in the end actually gunna realize they are what they fear and I have no resistance to it anymore.

I flipped a few days ago and threw the key to my boyfriends house on the floor and left with my family because he wouldn’t show me his phone to prove his narcissistic ex doesn’t still text him inappropriately, but still insists the texts they HAVE exchanged are only about their mutual work. Why the fuck wouldn’t he show me then? Is this rocd or? I was meant to move in with him but it’s all gone wrong lately because he became unwell basically having a nervous breakdown which led to a drink problem ? she was partially responsible because she’s been NOTHING but trouble since we met. Also during all of this his dad died and his mother has cancer now. His ex has shown up unannounced at the house before now, and also threatened to again about a month ago. She also claims he still loves her even though he despises her. She used to attack him at work, she’s a violent pos and shags married men. I’m paranoid, but he swears he’s innocent (which I believe) and is constantly reassuring me. but I don’t trust her. I think she feels she has rights to him and I’m upset by it. He’s inviting some friends over this week but won’t tell me what day. They’re mutual friends. I know she’s possessive over them hanging out without her so I am convinced she will catch wind of it and show up too, and for a quiet life he will let her because I’m no longer there to say “absolutely not”. He swears it won’t happen and is getting upset that I think she will! But it’s not my fault because when he first moved out from their shared house, she used to invite herself shopping with him, demanded to shower at his house when her bathroom was being done and threatened to brick his windows in when he wouldn’t text her back. She hated that he met me and accused him of being destructive when he uploaded photos of me to his social media. They own a business and he worries if she’s displeased, she will cause him to become homeless from her frantic bullshit. As a result, I feel I need to drive there to see if he’s telling the truth, and that she won’t be there. I also bought a security camera I May or may not use to show the outside of his house to catch her out if she does show up at his house and then I will call the fucking police. I’ve had enough of her harassment. I can’t tell if I’m being irrational partly because of ocd or not