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I saw 3 bisexual TikToks on my feed in a row and now I think that they’re signs; it’s triggering me. Just had to write that down. Thank you.

Has anyone done CPT (cognitive processing therapy) for trauma and anxiety? I’m in the middle of it now a few weeks in and I’m more triggered and anxious than ever. My OCD doesn’t help the situation. Sometimes I feel like my OCD gets in the way of CPT fully working.

A few years ago , I was pro choice . On Pinterest , I would like comments that were pro choice and saved pro choice pins to a feminism board. I was like 14-15 at max . I feel really guilty about it , Cuz I am very pro life now . If someone else got an abortion , I would have influenced their descision so I would ah e a part in that . Then again how I influence someone else with my opinion is out of my control . I just liked and pinned what I agreed with at the time . I can’t decide whether my guilt It justified . Do I have a part I. Someone else’s abortion ? ( I don’t mean to give hate to anyone who is pro choice this is just what’s going through my head .)

sometimes i can disregard my false memories for weeks on end but then they’ll come back and seem even more real which sends me into doing compulsions and seeking reassurance, what i’ve read about false memories is that if the thought starts with “what if i......in the past” it’s a false memory cause if it was real you’d 100% remember it but i’m scared that i might’ve done something inappropriate to my sister ( when she was 2 ) like held her in a wrong way or put my hands on her in a wrong way in the past, i can’t remember doing this i just have really vivid images and high anxiety which makes it feel real, i fear that i might have done something inappropriate but like not seen it as inappropriate at the time? but that also doesn’t make any sense because i definitely wouldn’t touch a child that way because i feel no attraction towards them at all i’ve always been attracted to people my age so there would be no reason for me to do that. Then i also have thoughts like “maybe you saw it as funny or as a joke” but that doesn’t make any sense either, i know that i’ve patted my sisters butt when she was younger and used to crawl because i found it so cute. I wish i could remember everytime i’ve been affectionate with her so i’d know for sure if i ever did something bad but no matter how hard i try i cant, everything is so fuzzy. i just started my last year in high school and i really want to enjoy my last year with my friends and i’m also taking a lot of courses that i like this year but OCD makes it impossible. i feel like i can’t just disregard these thoughts as false memories cause what if they’re real? or what if i’ve just convinced myself that they’re ocd and they’re actually real? i’m sorry for the long post but can someone please help me i feel hopeless i don’t know how much longer i can put up with this, i’m anxious all the time.

ik i’ve posted about this before, but i feel like this can’t be ocd. i had questioned my sexuality before, and have had thoughts about that pop into my head from time to time, and they never made me happy, but everyone else on this app says that they never even thought about it once before their ocd, but that’s not the case for me:(

Just because something is POSSIBLE doesn't mean that it is LIKELY/PROBABLE. This is a great example. - At first glance, the statements may appear contradictory. In fact, I'm a bit worried that some science deniers are going to see it and go "Aha! Proof that NASA is out to dupe us!". However, both sentences are true to the best of the top experts in the world's knowledge. - Here's how. The earth is roughly 4.5 billion years old. Presuming that we don't nuke it into non-existence, the planet will survive for another 7.5 billion years before the sun expands enough to absorb it. Yeah, life will be gone loooong before then, but the hunk of rock that is Earth will still be circling the sun for an incomprehensibly long time. That means that events (like major asteroid collisions) that are extremely unlikely to happen at any particular moment in time are essentially guaranteed to happen eventually. - So why am I talking about this? What does it have to do with OCD and mental health? Great question! Anxiety disorders tend to include overestimation of threat/risk. We make the mistake of thinking that because something is POSSIBLE. It is also PROBABLE. Then we start acting as though the feared event is going to happen for sure very soon instead of responding according to it's actual probability of happening. Helloooo compulsions! To function effectively in our lives, we need to respond to actual risk, not imagined risk. In this example, yeah, an asteroid will collide with Earth and cause major wreckage. But it's definitely not worth the average person worrying about or preparing for. Dedicating energy, time, and money towards asteroid doomsday prepping (or whatever other unlikely event you dread) will likely interfere with doing the activities we want and need to do to have meaningful and enjoyable lives and relationships. - What slim possibilities are you treating as highly likely events? What consequences does that have on you, your loved ones, and your life? - Side note: climate change is a super high risk. It's already happening. Addressing that is not only reasonable, but imperative - Citations for statistics: https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.express.co.uk/news/science/1174815/nasa-asteroid-chance-of-impact-earth-space-2019-end-times-nasa-asteroids-news/amp https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Future_of_Earth

Can’t stop thinking about how scary death is. Wish I could be immortal. I don’t want to know what death is like, or experience the death of a loved one. I hate knowing that there’s nothing I can do about it.

Does anyone know how to deal with seeing weird thoughts looking at chicks or trying to think about a chick? 2 words pop up everytime my mind wants to think about a chick. It saids Dude, dick every time. I want to do an erp session by looking at pictures of chicks and letting the thoughts pass. I have done this already but in doing so it just brings back the HOCD does anyone on here know at this point what I should be doing or not doing? Cuz honestly living like this is hell. It makes me not want to wake up it makes me not want to eat. It makes me not want to go workout. It makes me angry. If anyone knows how to deal with this please let me know.

Does anyone have any tips on stopping ruminating? I'm doing exposure therapy and struggling to break the cycle of rumination.

Does anyone else with contamination ocd struggle to trust certain things? I really dont trust hand sanitizer which sucks. We went out today and I thought I grabbed a railing so I used sanitizer but always feel like maybe my sanitizer is fake or something. Or like....to me it seems crazy that you wash for 20 seconds but only have a few seconds before sanitizer dries and you're supposed to trust it. Sometimes I struggle to trust disinfectant as well but I honestly have no choice in that. I have to trust it or I'd give myself a heart attack.

Does anyone with POCD have children? I want to have children in the future, but the idea of it really scares me because of my fears. Something I have been learning in therapy is not to make fear-based decisions. So it’s definitely something I want to do, but I just wanna know some of your experiences with this.

I’ve reached a dipping point in my recovery. My Wellbutrin (it’s now been a week on it) has eased my depression but now I can feel anxiety welling up. I’m paying more attention to my thoughts. It’s starting to interact with my ROCD again. It’s hard for me to be intimate with my boyfriend even though I want to but it’s the constant what ifs and if I’m using sex as a compulsion (ex: checking) also, my libido is kind of nonexistent right now. On top of that, my therapist wants me to start writing out my intrusive thoughts so we can assess them next Monday. I have found myself procrastinating it. Not out of laziness, but I think I’m scared to do it. It’s physically putting it out there that’s not my brain. What if they are true, what do I do, what can I do, etc. I’m just feel like this is a tiny roadblock even though I’ve barely started :/

Does anyone here practice tarot in a healthy way? I really want to do it but feel like I might be setting off ‘magical thinking’ and scrupulosity ocd I wanted to use it for secular introspection/inspiration. But people tell me to not ignore the spiritual part of it bc its like talking to the universe. And I admit sometimes the cards feel eerily accurate or relevant. But thats the problem? Ideas like manifestation and “looking for signs” have given me problems before. I even feel like I hear weird noises after using tarot. It made me paranoid. anyone relate to this ? I spent too much on these cards and don’t want to return them lol

Anyone feel comfortable giving the reason behind their username? For instance, mine is obviously my first name combined with the year I was born ☺.

murphy’s law is freaking me the fuck out

I was putting my boy to bed last night like I usually do. And i had an intrusive thought that felt like an urge to touch his bum but more between his bums and private bits So I put my hand on his bum like I would anyway if I was comforting him, but then i started to move my hand over his bum to check for arousal or anything I stopped myself as i felt bad, but then I questioned how I'd touched him so I put my hand back on to check how I'd touched him. Then I stopped but checked again to see for arousal. This has happened befor but I touched his leg I know I have no intention of touching him sexually it kills me But is it wrong that I did this or is this a common thing that happens with pocd?

Failed.. Gave in to my compulsion. Can't stop thinking about the worst case scenario now.

I’ve lost my sense of identity now (I don’t know how I am or what I want). I recently read that we can force ourselves to love people, be in denial when it comes to who we really are and develop attraction to an array of different people before and after puberty. Now it seems like my whole life is a lie. Has everything been forced? Am I secretly bi and in denial? Ugh, I hate it. To make it worse, I was recently watching a TV game show and a question about Katy Perry and her songs popped up. My immediate answer was her song I kissed a girl. Obviously, I took that as a mental sign. On top of that, I’ve had many “uncertain,” crushes (I wasn’t too sure whether I really liked them) that have actually developed into love. Now I’m wondering whether I forced myself to feel that way and I feel horrible; I just want to be with a man, not a woman. The idea of touching a women inappropriately makes me want to cry and throw up; it generally makes me distressed and uncomfortable. I don’t know what to do because I don’t know who I am anymore; I was so boy crazy and romantic beforehand. Now I’m plagued with anxiety and uncertainty.

Woke up with suicidal thoughts this morning. I developed a new compulsion of looking at reddit forums similar to my situation. This particular one set me off and now I really feel unlovable. Just like the girlfriend he is describing I am also 27 and tried a sugar baby site for 2 months and was taken advantage of and it was also poor naive decision making on my part. The men on here are so cruel. https://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/comments/dwjg87/should_my_28m_girlfriends_27f_sugar_baby_past_be/?utm_source=amp&utm_medium=&utm_content=post_body

can you be straight and still have had experienced comphet crushes ? (don’t search it up if you don’t know what it means please)