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Pocd telling me the reason I'm anxious is because I KNOW that I want these thoughts or that I like/enjoy them ?

I’m so convinced I’m a pedo please help me I can’t explain anymore I’m dying I lost my dog (best friend) today I really need someone to talk to

TW, sexual abuse I’m not sure if this is reassurance seeking I just every now and then feel raw and confused. I cant tell if it’s false memory on some part but when I was younger we used to have a family friend who would come around and I never realized it till I got older but he had a rather inappropriate connection with me in the things he said and then I came out to my family about when I realized he had molested me, rubbing my back under my shirt and then touching my breasts. I remember this pretty clearly I feel but every now and then I feel guilt? I can’t tell if it’s my ocd, I’m sure it is but it tells me I’m lying, that, that doesn’t qualify as molestation and that I falsely accused him when even if I asked him as a child I can’t quite remember... that’s still wrong and something an adult shouldn’t be doing as well as the other ways he interacted with me. It just confuses me, I start to get anxious and can’t figure out if I falsely accused him despite the memory of it being vivid and that not being an appropriate thing. It feels horrible every time it comes into my mind and I feel uncomfortable.

Last 24 hours have been pure hell. Lots of intrusive thoughts. Lots of images and sensations of me committing terrible things. I know they are not me. I don’t even fear that I will or even want to do it. I need my brain to leave me alone. I struggle to enjoy sex at the moment. I feel like an abuser. I’m anything but! It’s the total opposite of who I am! WTF is wrong with me?? Why won’t my brain get the god damn memo??? I’m going to send my cousin, my abuser to jail and I’m going to ruin his life like he has ruined mine. I’ve had enough of this. Everyone is going to know what a perverse little paedophile he is. I’m in the process of reporting him. And screw the family - they can hate me all they like. He’s not getting away with it. I hate my extended family except two people. They can all go to hell!!!!

Is there different types of panic attacks or no. Also what’s an anxiety attack is there a difference? Idk what I’m experiencing

Anyone have ROCD - centered around your significant others friends / family members? Fear of wanting someone else. :(

If you had a college counselor tell you that you have OCD and even said he would play my story on an OCD commercial if he could, would you say I have been diagnosed? He technically can’t diagnose because he works for a college (even though he has a PHD in counseling). I’ve also been prescribed zoloft from my doctor for ocd but she didn’t technically diagnose me either. I always feel slightly ashamed for talking about ocd on social media because I haven’t TECHNICALLY been diagnosed. Can anyone relate to this or can give their opinion on if they think it matters that I haven’t been officially diagnosed? Then again, I’m not even sure what that process looks like.

Has anyone else been diagnosed with anxiety and OCD traits?

Does anyone know of people who have recovered from ocd? Or have you yourself significantly lessen the symptoms? I’m at a point where my hope for getting any better is very little. I need some hope

Hello, i have ocd and find myself washing my hands after touching almost anything that I feel is unclean. I worry that if I don’t wash them then contamination could occur or it could negatively affect me somehow. It’s gotten to the point where I think so unrealistically of when I should or shouldn’t wash them, causing me to not know what to do so I just wash them to be safe. Could anyone help me with ways to fix this issue or lessen it please.

i’m having a really bad night. my most common obsession is reoccurring and it is fear that i am pregnant even though i am a virgin. i will overanalyze even the smallest symptoms and used to go as far as searching the internet of symptoms for hours, calling the same hotline over and over to say my specific situation to which at one point they requested i not call because it was for people with a real risk, and i have also bought multiple pregnancy tests in the past. others think i’m crazy and now i’ve been diagnosed with OCD i understand why i get like this but cannot seem to see if my zoloft is working. with my other obsessions (i have a mix of pretty much every sub category of OCD) i don’t even know where they trigger from. my heart is racing and i feel like im terrified but have to hide it around others.

This past week has been rough. I am obsessing so much about my boyfriend. I obsess that I might lose him to another man. Or that I may not love him anymore. I don’t want these thoughts but I can’t stop them. They feel so real. I never had a reason to think these thoughts. We get along so well. I never asked for these thoughts but they just came and now I can’t stop them. I have been crying and very emotional this past week. I finally found a guy that I loved and now I’m afraid I’m going to lose him or have lost him and there is no reason for that fear.

Hey everyone. Feeling worried about judgment but at least I know I'm among friends here. My worst obsession by far, and since childhood, is sexual OCD. Particularly, my obsessions relate to incestual relations. Sometimes the thoughts include children and even animals. It's absolutely horrific and puts me into a short but severe state of what I might call shame-induced shock. It's like this overwhelming sensation to crawl out of my skin and just not exist. It was very validating for me to be put on Zoloft for my OCD after 10 years of mis-diagnoses. The Zoloft pretty much stopped all of those obsessions in their tracks and for the first time I felt like a normal human being. Not to mention, the fact that the Zoloft was effective helped me to realize that those thoughts had NO basis in reality or my actual feelings, and were simply a product of the disease. Lately, they've been coming back. Idk if it's my meds stopping working or maybe not having been in therapy for a while or something else entirely but I'm becoming more and more disturbed. It's to the point where I feel uncomfortable with and even resentful towards the idea of spending time with my parents because I don't want to think those thoughts around them and want them to stay away from me. I have no where else to talk about this to. I know it's only a symptom of OCD but I feel like disgusting and it's really getting to me. This is the kind of thing that caused me to drink and use drugs in the past. I'm now almost 2 years sober and I'm worried that these thoughts will effect my recovery. Thank you for listening. Means more than you know.

I’ve been too embarrassed to get help for it but my rOCD is seriously getting out of hand. I’ve been finding myself keeping track of the days my husband and I have had sex and when I notice it’s been even just a day after our usual, um... “interval” I sort of start to lose it. I’ll start demanding reassurance and attention because I’ll also be convincing myself that he is cheating or withholding sex from me or that he just isn’t attracted to me anymore even though I know none of those things are true and honestly I think I really am starting to drive him away because of it. Years ago I used to use period tracking apps that had adding intimate days as an option so I figured if I just deleted those it would stop but over a year later I’m still just making mental notes of it instead and I’ve realized I can’t stop. Half the time I’m not even interested in sex but it’s now just a compulsion that I have no control over. Please help!!!

Trigger Warning: please help! Had a kind of rough day after about a week of feeling decent. Question: I work in childcare, I have memories from before the ocd got bad of my eyes kind of naturally looking at butts. And sometimes, it would be kids butts. I kind of remember commenting on it in my head saying stuff like “wow that’s big for a child” or stuff related to that, and one time even a child came over to me and told brought me over to the monkey bars and told me that he could see a girls underwear, and I kind of looked before telling him it was rude to say that, it was kind of like my eyes were naturally attracted to it, kind of like a car accident I couldn’t look away. But I never thought of it again until the OCD started. I’ve never in my entire life pleasured myself to the thoughts of children, it’s never even crossed my mind until the OCD started, but I’m kind of convincing myself I am one. Ugh I’m so sick of this.

I find that I deal with more intrusive/unwanted feelings than thoughts. But few mental health advocates (that I have found) talk about this. Can anyone relate to having more unwanted feelings/sensations than thoughts?

If OCD fear is based on mistakes from my past, if I don’t acknowledge it then how can I learn from it and not repeat the mistakes?

Anyone have any tips for not constantly “checking your feelings” for someone you are dating in the early stages? I find it hard to be fully present and actually feel emotions because I am constantly thinking. Thanks!

hi, I’m emily and I’ve been living with ocd for about 2 years now. I’ve always had contamination ocd and always feel like I have to wash my hands after I touch anything. I don’t know how to live life without my hands being clean. For instance, i could eat something and get my hands dirty and I wouldn’t like how they feel. Do u know how to not wash ur hands in this situation? I also just think about my hands throughout the whole day and I just want to live a normal life like a normal person but my ocd is in the way. How do I become normal again?

I'm feeling really stuck right now. I'm more anxious and my OCD just keeps getting worse. It takes me FOREVER to get anything done. I keep getting stuck doing my rituals until they feel right & I end up being late to work or picking up my boyfriend or just whatever & it's getting even more annoying. I've been going to therapy since 2014, but it never really talked about my OCD. I mean, I have but I made it seem like I had it handled & that it really wasn't all that bad. Which, at some point, it wasn't... But now I know that I really really need help but I'm scared. I'm scared because idk what it's like to not have it. I was on Zoloft for about a year and a half and I didn't realise that my OCD was nearly gone until I came off of the meds and it came back in full force and then some. But I've had this ever since I was a little kid & I'm scared for a life without it. It never feels like the "right time" to bring it up to my therapist. It's like, if I tell my therapist about it, and I work on getting better, how will my family and I be safe? Logically I know that my actions or lack thereof won't change the outcomes of anything, but my OCD is telling me otherwise & it has a much louder voice. I guess I'm also nervous because what if I do get better & I'm happy, but then something happens that triggers me and my OCD comes back? Idk if I can go through that again. I feel like once I get rid of my OCD I'll be anxiously waiting for it to come back, do some rituals to prevent it from getting me again, then realise that I've just played myself & all of my worrying about the OCD has only brought it back. I'm sorry for the long post, I just needed to get my thoughts out there.