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Can someone just talk to me ? I need to let this out . I have no support here no one understands

I'm starting to feel like this obsession will probably end up lingering in my mind for the rest of my life. But, strangely enough, I think I'll be OK either way....

does medication help with stopping ruminating?

Hi everyone! I wanted to ask a quick question. My partner and I are interested in taking the next step in our relationship - getting engaged then getting married. However, I obviously still struggle with ROCD which distresses me. I am very attracted to him, but have these thoughts that “he’s not the right person for you” even though that couldnt seem further from true. If anyone on here is married, can you share how you made the personal decision to get married to your current partner? Thanks in advance!!

Anyone else with hypochondria? My therapist recently diagnosed it as part of my ocd I guess. For example I am terrified to death that I have ADHD and that it is just going under the radar. Any advice on dealing with this type of ocd?

Please, I really need help right now. I know not to ask for reassurance, so all I am asking for is moral support and comfort. I am struggling with what I believe to be a false memory, as it feels virtually indistinguishable from a real memory. It happened almost immediately after the event, which brought great alarm, especially since I couldn’t sort through the gaps in time. The thing is, the images that popped into my head go against all my moral fibers. Deep down I know I would never— or even could ever—bring myself to jeopardize the well-being of anyone. In fact, the first night I had I repeated my actions a few times to prove nothing bad happened. I was able to sleep well at night with only the vague impression of something bad, I think. So, I payed no mind. The next day, it all worsened. I avoided compulsions for a while, but the thought lingered. It startled me, like I thought: “Maybe this is not OCD, what if it really did happened?” Of course, I listed all the reasons why it couldn’t possibly have happened. I physically repeated what I really believe, or hope, happened. Yesterday, or maybe the day prior, I was struck with a vivid image. Again, I avoided compulsions without much anxiety, then I caved in. I asked my family what they thought, watched some videos, and did some research to solidify that what I imagined is a false memory. None of which were much help for long. I even cried later that evening—a couple times. Every time I don’t react to the intrusive thought, a suspicion arises, like it of must be true. But how? I mean, it’s almost entirely improbable. After constantly trying to piece everything together, it just feels like a jumbled mess of fact and fiction. I’m having trouble moving on... I dealt with this in the past and later realized how silly I was, but it always sucks being in the middle of it. I am now questioning, what is real? what is fabricated? I am now unsure of myself and the true nature of who I am. OCD has stripped me of my confidence. I hate this. I truly feel alone and broken as of recent. I wish I could flash forward in time to show myself it’s all OCD trickery. But, unfortunately, I can’t. If this is OCD, I know I should not ask for reassurance, but can anyone give me comfort? Has anyone experienced something similar? If so, what did you do to better yourself? Can you give me some moral support? I am so mortified at the idea of past and prospect of the future. I don’t really have the want to eat as normal and have trouble sleeping at the sheer amount dread and doubt. Thank you and much love!

My therapist who isn’t familiar with all the types of OCD said that there’s something wrong with me and that this isn’t ocd. He said ocd shouldn’t tell you to do things like hurt people. I’m scared.

My life and happines and soul have just been sucked out of me, im so empty and sad and dry, no motivation. I try so hard to find reasons to keep myself going. Struggling to be happy and enjoy things, while deep down i know everything is meaningless when im not myself. Its so freaking hard to stay motivated and do things when in the end its for nothing. If this wont go i wont be happy and thats a fact. If i will never feel like how i used to before hocd i wont ever be happy and thats so scary. I just had flashback from my life before and in a split second i felt how much easier everything was. I loved life, took care of myself because i wanted to be in my best state. All because i wanted to be the best version of myself for someone out there. Now i hate myself and cant bring myself to do anything cause there isnt someone out there for me anymore. I just want to be happy living my life again, enjoy the small things. The magic feeling that came with being in love and having crushes was indescribable and now its gone. All there is for me is school, friends and family and i know thats important but we all know a person needs love. A person desires it and gets lonely when they dont have it. And imagine being lonely and being incapable of being in love only cause of their stupid overthinking brain. I just wanna be normal, fall in love and make the dreams of my younger self come true. In the flashback i sensed how low ive got. Its insane, it feels like i dont wanna die but right now im just floating trough life because theres nothing else to do. I could only imagine what would happen if i became myself again. Like everything would change, my mood, my joy, my motivation would go up and i would be excited to do things again. I know theres more to life than finding love but knowing that im not capable to ever find it is tough. Especially when its something ive dreamed of since i was a child. And doing all the other things like school, hanging with friends and hanging with family is so hard when theres constant anxiety around. And its not that i havent been attracted to someone, there have been boys i kinda liked but its never more than that. I havent fallen in love once or felt more than just attraction towards them. And thats sad because i see boys i know i wouldve fallen in love with but my brain makes it impossible so there are so many chances i missed to finally having a boyfriend due to this. Now i have to stay away from boys so i wont hurt myself when I realize i cant be with them because im screwed up in the head. I could never give them my love because there isnt much love in me anymore. The true me has happiness but i dont anymore im just empty. And i dont want to be in a relationship when im empty. I want to be able to be good to them and love them and be happy and confident. Because this also took my confidence, i once was so confident and excited to meet new ppl and now im really insecure and negative and i dont dream anymore and i dont want to be a sad draining person forcing myself to be in love with someone. I want to be truly me in a relationship or i dont want it at all. I also attract the wrong people now cause my vibe and energy is just off. Im not the bubbly girly me anymore now im the depressed sad shy akward girl because everything gives me anxiety. Im losing all my teenage years cause of this. I always dreamed of being 18 and now i am and it couldnt be worse. I had so much potential i thought i was strong, undefeated, untouchable but all it took to destroy me was that one thought: what if im gay

I ended a toxic relationship with someone . It’s been 6 weeks since I called him and he is toxic . I have a compulsion to call him . Please help me

How to know if it is an intrusive thought? Is it by the level of distress it gives you? I spend a lot of time figuring out 'is this really OCD, or its an important thought I should engage with.' and thus the engagement of figuring the thought has already begun. Pleeeease help, I appreciate it 💟💟💟

Note: This has nothing to do with the Tag. Good Morning Everyone! I thought we could all use a bit of joy this morning considering everything going on around us. So I was wondering what are some of your favorite hobbies? Also, who is the person you are most thankful for in your life, and when did they last put a smile on your face? :D For Me, I love art, I wanna become an animator or character designer, so I love coming up with stories, characters and the worlds they live in! As for most thankful, I’m most thankful for my parents who has been with me patiently throughout my cod Journey. Just the other day we were laughing our head off as my dad told us a dream he had about me finding my Ms. Right and umm... Let’s just say she was quiet forward! XD

I felt like i needed to come out but something didnt feel right ? 😞

I am so scared I could die. Please help. I can’t find anything online of someone going through what I’m going through. For some reason in the last month I’m afraid to have any medicine in me. Just the thought of having it IN my body I feel i I could claw at myself to get it out of my body. I think I have an infection and I’m sitting here thinking I may need to go to the hospital. If they try to give me any meds I’ll go crazy I’m sure of it. What if they strap me down. What if I swing at someone or get up and cause a crazy scene. Why am I so convinced it will happen? Idk what to do. This feels like the end of my life. This infection is in my mouth and needs to be taken care of ASAP. I have a long day at work tomorrow and haven’t slept a wink. I’m so scared

Got WAY too high and had a strange and severe panic attack just over a week ago, convinced myself I was having a stroke or something. Since then my ROCD has decreased, but I’m constantly having obsessions about whether I had a stroke or whether I’m going to have a stroke, and I feel like my brain is foggy and I’m over analyzing every little twinge in my body or every time I have a memory slip or have the slightest bit of a headache. It’s the first time I’ve gotten a new “theme” since realizing I have ocd. Weird as hell.

I just wish that I was dead and didn’t have to go through this shit anymore. I’m tired and just want to feel normal.

I’m having major episodes around my real event ocd it’s forcing me to avoid certain people and makes me obsessed that everyone knows. I don’t know what to do because it feels like maybe it’s just guilt over what I did. I feel like trash 🗑

Anyone have any tips for Somatic/sensorimotor typs ocd? Hyper focus on bodily sensations such as breathing. I find this one often comes back extremely bad when I least expect it. Things like meditation and focusing on the breath stuff really triggers me.

This might sound weird but can any Christians who believe in saving yourself for marriage talk? I'm really anxious...

Someone made a very homophobic comment in my class today, I tried to explain that being in the LGBTQ community wasn't a bad thing, and now I feel like that makes me gay. Like bc I stand up for they're rights that makes me gay. Fuck u ocd

So I drank too much last night. I’m not hungover, and I am well over legal drinking age. Now I’m nervous, anxious and worried about everything. Having a child, my marriage, my sexuality, my OCD, my house, the idea of turning 30, my career. Anything my OCD can pick up on is creating conspiracy theories, that’s what my husband calls their to make me laugh or feel more normal) Some days, like today when I shoot myself in the foot I just get so wound up and annoyed with myself. But I am making yet another deceleration that I AGREE TO LIVE A LIFE OF UNCERTAINTY AND THAT GOD HAS EVERYTHING PLANNED WND THAT IF ANYTHING WERE TO CHANGE HE WILL AHOW ME RHE TRUTH. anyways, happy Monday and pray for ya girl