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Help! TOCD!!! Has anyone got TOCD on here? I have a few times obsessed about this theme but HOCD usually takes over. But today was the first day for a huge obsession of TOCD, I am so worried I FEEL manly, like I really feel manly, I don’t feel feminine a lot of the time and this really scares me. I am so confused and I read some Reddits for people becoming transgender and I really feel that’s how I feel but I really don’t want to be a man, I just want to feel womanly. This is so scary 😭. I’m not sure how much longer I can take of this OCD, today was the first time that I thought I’m not sure I can live a life like this. I don’t know who I am anymore. Sorry to be so negative! Hope everyone is doing okay out there ❤️

today is a bad day and i am quite convinced i'm bi in denial and feel sick

For those struggling with with ROCD do you let your partner in on what’s going through your mind? My boyfriend is my go to person to talk to about anything going on my life and really the only one who understands ocd but I feel it can be hurtful for him if I share intrusive thoughts about our relationship.

Anyone here struggle with suicidal OCD? If so and you have experience please help me understand what I'm doing wrong. So am I supposed to sit with the thought of harming myself. Zip... That's all, or do I tell myself and BELIEVE I'm going to do it? I'm so confused. I feel my brain already tells me I will, why would I try to give it more power. Please respond

I had a random memory (not sure if it’s real or false) that when I was young I googled ‘child porn’ to see what it was like. Obviously nothing came up and I didn’t see anything but I’m feeling ashamed for even searching for it. Now I know I’m not attracted to children whatsoever, but the fear and guilt is coming from even searching that out of curiosity when I was young. I don’t even know if this is a real memory or not but it feels real and I feel as if I can faintly remember but idk. I’m really struggling rn, especially since I was doing so well with my ROCD, it’s now taking the form of POCD which is utterly destroying. Please someone help.

How do you know the difference between resisting ruminating compulsions and avoiding?

when I get groinal response it lasts for so long even when I want it to leave is that normal?

Hello if anyone has any questions about how to expose/cope with certain OCD thoughts, feel free to type it in the comments. I've learned many things throughout the years that worked for me that can also be helpful to you. I'm happy to help and share what I know so ask away lol

Does anybody have trouble falling asleep due to intrusive thoughts? I fell asleep at around 2 in the morning because I was my thoughts just wouldn't stop. I usually like to distract myself so I would watch a show until I fall asleep but in this case it was really difficult. Last night I was tired but I was scared to fall asleep due to my intrusive thoughts.

Is there any kind of cbd or vitamins that help with anxiety and ocd ?

Please, please help; just reply something. What do you do/tell yourself to make you ACCEPT UNCERTAINTY, especially when you feel your worst fear is 90% true but you don’t know and must not check? What are some acceptance hacks for uncertainty as well as for mistakes/guilt/imperfection? Thank you

Hi guys my mum just had a go at me and saied you just need to do yoga she get so cross with me for being like this I have the same thoughts every morning that I can’t shift and it so scary and my mind jumps from one thing to another and goes from past events to another quickly I’m just in bed crying my eyes out I just want my brain to calm down I’m so scared I’m going mad I’m already on phycosis meds but fill like I’m getting worse I don’t no what to do

Anyone else experienced loss of attraction with this theme? I can’t even tell what attraction feels like anymore, as whenever I see a guy now who is relatively good looking I overanalyse it and worry I’m just experiencing comphet. Does anyone have any good tips about how to do exposures with this?

I’ve actually tried writing this multiple times and keep getting scared. Scared because - I don’t want to be the exception. I recognize that this is typical OCD, but my OCD has been manifesting itself not in anxiety - mostly it’s just this dull nagging feeling. This feeling says that I know I’m gay - it’s like I can feel that it’s true. Yet it’s not a clarity - it just feels like this truth that I don’t want to accept. Writing this and not erasing it - is in a way an exposure so I’m going to post this. Because as I reread it, I’m scared that if I post it - people will read it and be like- oh yes that is different from everyone else. I think she’s actually gay. I try to accept the thoughts as they are - thoughts, but then things like friends will comment about cute guys and suddenly I’m reminded that maybe I don’t notice guys as much as them therefore : I’m gay. I’m trying to lean into the uncertainty - just this dull nagging starts drilling in deep overtime.

Wait guys, kind of random but does anyone else’s OCD come with images too? Like I imagine a cop or whatever came to my door, gave me summons for court against a Karen, and I just forgot about it/lost track/wasn’t paying attention. I can’t seem to think of this happening at all, and I’m confident nothing happened but it’s driving me crazy knowing this might have happened and I just forgot about it. Like going outside now is weird bc I can’t tell if a cop came or not with summons for a Karen lawsuit and I forgot about it. This just fing sucks bc I was so close to feeling calm, not doing compulsions, recognizing ocd, accepting uncertainty of the fact that we can get sued, but then this thing came up. I don’t know what to do- it makes me want to check online to see if I’ve been sued, ask family members if they can look it up and all. Anyone can suggest me as to what to do?

My religious OCD is freaking out again. Over a lot of things but this time one of the main ones is the awful things that have been done under the guise of Christianity and how some people then see all Christians as toxic and evil by default. I know I can't do anything about those people's beliefs but my brain won't shut up and won't stop going in this spiral either.

I want so bad to tell my fiance what's really going on with me, but i don't know how to...or if I should.

I’ve had many different intrusive thoughts over the years, but I can’t seem to shake this obsession with my heart. I continually think it’s going to just stop or that it can’t handle being elevated. I don’t even have family history of heart disease or heart attack or anything of the sort. I keep myself healthy between exercise and diet. I’ve reassured myself a million ways from Sunday. I saw a cardiologist once, years ago, who reassured me that my heart palpitations were nothing to be afraid of. I try to look at every workout as an exposure, pushing myself to trust my heart and ignore the thoughts. But sometimes I just want to relax and enjoy dinner with my boyfriend or being out with my friends without ruminating over what would happen if I had a heart attack in the restaurant, the bar, where’s the nearest hospital, can I trust the people I’m with to know what to do, etc. It’s exhausting.

A saw a comment saying if I lose my virginity I’ll know who I am, is this true, cause I’m afraid I won’t like it with a girl, and that I would with a guy, if I need to do this to be free, I have a girl that wants to do it so should I, I also don’t want to lose my virginity for a while, but if I need to to be happy, I guess I need to

Does anyone struggling with pocd feel major anxiety when they have to look after their neice or nephew? I'm really trying to work on not ruminating but get triggered anytime I'm asked to look after someone's kid. I don't say no because I know avoidance doesn't help.