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After getting more acclimated to hocd thoughts, I started to fear that I have schizophrenia. I’ve been meditating a lot and have been mindful and in a really good headspace. I’ve been able to take a step back and recognize that this is just another topic of my ocd, and instead of reacting in fear and ruminating/what if-Ing everything, I’ve been able to just shrug off my intrusive thoughts and just live alongside them. Almost all day long yesterday I had the repetitive thought “schizophrenia” just popping into my head over and over. With other intrusive thoughts, I feel the fear attached to the thought, and immediately start asking “what if?” And ruminating about it until I work myself up into a huge mess and start googling for reassurance. Although annoying, I’ve been able to step back and just live with the intrusive thoughts this time, not ignoring them, but recognizing them and noting them as what they are, shrugging them off, and going on with my daily life. Eventually, I notice that they have stopped for a while. At some point, they inevitably come back, but the sting and the fear is becoming less and less. Sorry for the novel guys, but today I feel strong, and today I choose to excel and fight my ocd. We all have the strength to overcome this. We can do it. And we deserve the better life that we are working towards daily.

Any others thought about going into the the field of physcology ( social worker, therapist, counselor) for OCD specialist?

Hi everyone. Has OCD impacted your abilities in work and/or school?? Things at work have pretty much gone up in flames for me at the beginning of last year and I haven’t worked since then and I am doing well in college but I need a job and I don’t know if I’m ready to work or if i can cope etc. could anyone share how their ocd impacts work or school? Makes me feel so alone

Is checking same sex pornography for groinal response a compulsion? I feel alone dirty, scared depressed sad

Are we with ocd condemned on using antidepressant for the rest of our lives?

Does anyone with HOCD find that everything is turned into something sexual and your mind tells you you want to do these disgusting things?

Anyone else with emotional contamination?

Fuck! I'm craving for reassurance rn but hell naw hahahahahaha I need to stick to the plan. It's like I'm addicted to cigarette. Thought keeps bombarding me.

anyone else had ocd from a very young age? I’m talking like, I remember obsessions from when I was 6. and my family remembers my symptoms from even earlier. I didn’t get help until I was 15 because my family isn’t big on mental health. anyway, it frustrates me that I genuinely don’t know what it’s like to live without ocd. Sometimes I hear/see people talk about how they just wish things could back to how they were ‘before,’ or that imagining what their life was like before onset helps motivate them in recovery. But I don’t have anything like that. in fact, it’s almost scary to think about recovering completely because I don’t know anything else? it depresses me

So, just want to share an experience with you guys. So I’ve been struggling with pocd and today i hung out with my best friend and her kids and went to the playground. I’ve been struggling with this for months now but I never told her, my best friend, that i was struggling with this because of her being a mom. But today, I finally told her to get it off my chest. Not only was she understanding, but she asked me to hold her baby boy multiple times and to go to her daughters room to check on her as she napped. I feel that today was a big step for me. And so, I think it’s important that was do what scares us and that we reach out to people. Although we have to rely on ourselves to heal our minds, its a journey we cant totally walk alone.

I feel like my therapist just doesn’t understand. He tells me the same thing each time and every time I tell him I’ve tried and it doesn’t work for me so i don’t know what else to do.

i have really bad contamination ocd and i can honestly get through my days without panic attacks but it always requires that i have hand sanitizer, wet wipes and access to wash my hands and be able to shower afterwards. i’m feeling like there’s no hope because i can get through the days okay and i try not to let other people know about it because i deal with it all privately but i’m afraid i’ll never be able to stop with all of the cleaning throughout the day. does anyone have tips to stop cleaning their hands or anywhere that may have gotten “dirty” or anything like that? thank you (:

What are exposures you all do for rocd?

Did anyone here managed to completely overcome ocd? And if yes for how long did you have it before you heal ?

Today I will buy CBD oil!! But I dont know if a seller knows the best dose for OCD!!!

Almost sure I have a concussion. I got it on Saturday and my headache since then has been hurting. Then the idea popped into my head like what if my brain is bleeding or what if I die in my sleep and now I’m super anxious and don’t know what to do because it’s so late at night and I can’t go to a doctor right now

Hi Everyone- I’m going to give myself 2 weeks to see if I can make progress battling contamination OCD using the tips and tools from people here. Some that I have found super helpful is sitting with the uncomfortable thoughts and letting them be vs doing the compulsions. I have major contamination issues with the public dirty bathroom feeling like it spread all over me. Any other tips on how to battle those thoughts? If I am unable to reduce 1.5 hour shower time I’m afraid I have to take my meds but I am avoiding it if I can try the “tools” first. I don’t have a therapist yet but my GP gave me my prescription. So if you have contamination tips and tools, please send them my way! For those who already sent your tips in the past, thanks so much! Lark

Hello guys sorry for the extreamly long post. Today’s has been a horrible day with my Pocd and religious ocd. I’ve been having a hard time with a memory I have that has been triggering both of them. I think I was the junior year of college and my dad would bring home scary movies that we would watch together (my mom) not so much. So he thought this movie was a horror movie and we watched it and it was ok at first. It was about a investigator and his son who had a brain tumor. The investigator was on a case to try and catch a pedophile(hate that word). And his son want to help him catch the guy. In the end you figure out it was all in the sons head when he was in a coma recovering. There was one scene were the investigator was looking at pictures of and he came across pictures of little kids and it showed the back of them and pocd freaked out. My dad asked if I wanted to turn it off. Personally I now with my clear head I would turn off that shit in a second. And be like “nope bye Felicia”. But I was so fricken numb at the time I didn’t care but I remember feeling uncomfortable and nervous. And I was telling myself it was almost done. I felt that if I did turn it off I would be giving in to my ocd. Well we finished the movie and we all know what happens next yep I start thinking I’m a pedophile because I watched the movie. And I started testing myself to see if I was by going back to that one scene with the picture. I know I’m not because I’m disgusted at the thought of someone making a movie like that. But it also affected my Religious ocd. Am I a bad person. Am I going to hell now because I watched this horrible movie. I don’t know. Everything is just so frustrating. I usually never watch movies like that I always watch paranormal movies or the serial killer ones like Friday the 13th. But never anything like this. Can you guys help me Thank you and god bless you all ❤️❤️❤️

hi ! i am new here. i think that i have ocd , i am 14 and i have a lot of symptoms . i told my doctor about this and he laughed at me he just said, and i quote “some people have it so bad that they can’t even can’t get out of bed” . i was beyond shocked and pissed , he just compared me to other people who have it worse. he said that if it got any worse to come to him and ask again and he will see if i needed a person to talk to. here are all of my symptoms : goes back and touches / smells things over again checks locks constantly the number 4 - 4 ppl in my family pausing video and listening closely to make sure their all okay, will sometimes get out of bed and check in all of them “if u don’t do this - they will die” 6th grade- would kiss picture of us all and say a prayer on each of their faces- would get angry if interrupted scary thoughts of hurting people even though i know that i never would repetitive thoughts- thinking of the same over again repeating conversations in my head and analyzing each word - even simple things counting syllables in words many times - sometimes even w/o even being aware when someone mispronounces a word i will say the way they said it and then the correct way 4 times always going back to check things. lights, doors, family, etc. stopped watching scary movies bc they always triggered bad thoughts ex. someone in the movie gets murdered by getting hit w a bat. my head makes me think of me doing the same thing to my family stopped having sleepovers in fear that i would hurt them. i knew i wouldn’t though confessions can’t blink at “harmful objects” it’s a lot i’m sorry. i told him these and he still didn’t believe me. please please please pleaseeee hey back to me

I’ve had hocd for around 7 months now, wasn’t too bad at first but has been getting progressively worse and worse, partly because of a lack of sex drive but also because I frighteningly only experience arousal when thinking about men but nothing happens any more when I think about women, literally zero. I try not to judge other people, but I wouldn’t really want to be gay, cos it would mean that my whole life was a lie from before this came along. I don’t mind other people doing it but it’s never been my thing, and now I can’t even get any feelings for girls like I did before. I try and ignore any thoughts that come along about how I must have been gay from the start and attribute that too OCD, while accepting the possibility that it could be real, but the arousal in the wrong context is too disturbing to let that pass. I just wanted to know if anyone was experiencing something similar. Bit of background: I’m a virgin and have always had a relatively low sex drive for a long while after coming off watching porn, but before the HOCD struck. Had POCD before and that was awful but always related to girls not guys.