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I feel like Im being attracted to this therapist I may see soon. Ive seen his picture and spoken to him once and Im getting scenarios etc, no anxiety nothing. Just a little uncomfortable frankly idek what I feel when this happens Bizzarre thing is this happens with women too, like Id immediately start getting romantic thoughts with them and scenarios of me dating them and doing stuff, but the one with girls feel relatively nice although it becomes exhausting when it starts happening with every woman i see but the thoughts with guys feel more real and idk they just feel like they are more true and likely to happen This has to mean im bisexual right? Like it just feels like it is me, Im worried that Im full gay instead of bi though. Ughhh. Im so fucking sick of this.

I’m full desperation to find out if I have OCD or not. I'm currently dealing with HOCD symptoms, but how can I know it's not just denial? I don't go out with my girlfriends (actually I don't go out in general), I can't watch movies, tv shows or listen to music without being triggered. At school its feel just like hell, I try do avoid any eye contact, anything and anyone that can trigger my intrusive thoughts. It feels so freaking real and I'm scared. I constantly ask my self...Did you thought that on purpose? Did you look there because you wanted to? But what if it's not OCD and your lying to yourself and to other? Do I no longer find men attractive? Why do I find women attractive? Do you feel something? Can you have OCD and still be in denial? I started compulsively reading online, ruminating, avoiding, checking everything. I have always been boy crazy even after obsessing over similar stuff. But this time it feels different and I'm confused. This is not the first time I experience HOCD intrusive thoughts ( I have them since I was 12) but usually I was obsessing over them for about 2 week and then everything was back to normal. It has been like two months now and it has ruined my life. After spending more than 4 hours every day reading about OCD ( I think it has become compulsion) I found that a lot of stuff that I have experienced in my life could be due to OCD. My first experience that can be referred to as an obsession was when I was 11. Out of nowhere I started fearing vomiting up to the point where If I got any sensation that resembled a sign of vomiting I would have a huge panic attack ( I still have this till this day). Every morning before school I eat a Lemon and something small, but I make sure that it's not something that could make me vomit. Then when I was 12 I had fear of being pregnant. That was of course impossible but I believed it. To make sure that I'm not pregnant I had to punch myself in the stomach several times. Then the fear of getting sick came along. For the past 3 years I have examined every every twitch, every ache of my body. I was constantly googlein and visiting the doctor. I was so aware of my body. This summer as I went back to Bulgaria (I'm Bulgarian but I live in Germany) my condition got worse. I started experiencing stuff that I never had before. Thinking I'm schizophrenic, that I would hurt the people I love and that is just a matter of time before I have to be locked up. I remember making sure that there are physically stronger people around me who would have stopped me if I tried to hurt someone. I have also experienced ROCD, Harm OCD and Sucide OCD symptoms. Now not only I am obsessing over my sexuality but I'm also obsessing about whether I have OCD or not and whether or not I experience “enough “ anxiety regarding my thoughts. I started going to therapy and was diagnosed with anxiety disorder but I'm not sure anymore. I talked with my therapist about OCD and she told me that it's possible but further diagnosis won't be needed. She also said that when I feel distress i have to listen to music. ( music triggers me) Then my parents told me that I was self-diagnosing myself once again. ( They don't know about my intrusive thoughts) That left me with the question: Well if it's not OCD than is it real? I have been going through hell all my life and I'm only 17. I'm struggling, I'm desperate and my fears they seem to be so real. I know that I have to visit specialist but I'm scared that they will tell me that my fear is real and I'm just in denial. I don't have money to book an appointment with an actually specialist online and my parents wouldn't allow me to do that. But they don't know what an unprofessional one can cause. I feel like I'm lying about my condition to. Even as am writing this I feel like I'm just trying to convince you and myself by “adopting” the symptoms that people with actual OCD have.It is like I'm making all of this stuff up just because I don't want to accept the truth.

Its #flooffriday ! :) miss gyps and I hope to see today flooded with your floofs 😊 On an off note, if anyone is reading this and has experience with it...can someone give me some tips on how to deal with narcissistic abuse? I am THIS close to just cutting my dad out of my life lol

I've been really struggling with religious ocd for ages now and I feel so crippled by this one thought I keep having. Usually I think of a bad situation for no reason and then I have to ruminate in my mind if I would rather that bad thing happen and go to heaven or would I rather it not happen and not not to heaven and my brain came up with would I rather die right now and not go to heaven or give away my life to live so basically I can't win. I already doubt i don't believe enough so it's latching onto that. I'm in constant fear that I gave away my soul and I don't know how to stop that fear.

Tw I need some advice or something, Im losing my it. I dont even feel like a guy inside anymore, wtf is going on. Someone here told me its common for people to realize their gender is different once they realize their sexuality. Wtf do I even do? Im even more discouraged and embarrassed to seek therapy now, not feeling like im even a man? This is disgusting and horrible, am I actually changing? It feels like this is my true self that was hidden all these years. Wtf wtf!!!??

Hey everyone, i just wanted to say this to see if anyone else relates , one day i feel so confident about my sexuality and just happy and my ocd isn't that bad and then the next day my ocd gets so bad and it makes me question my sexuality and tell me that im lying to myself and that i'll end up marrying that gender and i feel so confused cuz just a day ago i was so happy and all the attraction i feel now i didn't have before ocd and it makes my head hurt i cant even watch youtube or movies i cant even walk past that sex in school

It feels like I’ve just found out I really don’t love him. I don’t really feel peace but ocd is making me think I do. I think. I don’t know I’m not anxious at all anymore they’re just feelings. Can ocd be feelings

Sometimes I feel like I wake up and I have anxiety but it’s not even about my obsessive thinking, it’s like my body is waiting for me to start having my regular obsessive thoughts and it’s making my body stressed. I feel like I’m always waiting for the other shoe to drop, and it almost feels like this dwelling anxiety makes my body try and find something to overthink about. It’s very stressful does anybody have any advice or can relate?

I had just “minded my own business” to who I presumed was a woman because she had explicit female characteristics and such only to discover that he identifies as a trans man in the comic I’m reading... 😞😞😞 I didn’t even know he was a trans man... I honestly thought he was a woman because of his female body parts... 😭😭😭 I don’t ever wanna be my HOCD or POCD or Real event OCD... 😭😭😭

Anyone have questions about HOCD? Im a survivor

OK PLS SOMEONE HELP.

I’m scared that I might have feelings for someone else, but I don’t want feelings for that person and it’s making me think that I have feelings for her but I don’t want her, I love my gf and only want her

I had to tell a white lie and i feel bad for beeing dishonest. How to cope with this?

How do you do an exposure WITHOUT ruminating? Is that impossible? I'm loosing it!!!!

People can change right?? I did terrible things..even last year. Probably even this year. Which would make me my fears. But I regret them so much,I generally just want to move on and be a better person, but I feel I don't deserve to..this isn't ocd making a little bad thing bad, these things were terrible. And I know it,, everybody would know it. I just want to love myself for who I am today, not my past. I chang everyday but I generally feel so much guilt and disgust. The ocd with intrusive thoughts that I wanna do it all again. Makes me feel I still am my fears...I hate it so much. This wasn't 1 mistake or 2..or even 3. It was so so so many disgusting, horrible,shameful mistakes. I did for years and years. And I mean 11+ years.

My boyfriend says it's flirting to talk to someone if they are attractive. I'm paranoid I've talked to my new co worker because he is attractive. I am so anxious right now. I keep asking myself "did I talk to him because he was attractive" and I think I did. I've done this before and it's caused issues in my relationship, and I'm scared if I tell my bf he's gonna break up with me. I didn't say anything flirting it was just like "hey welcome to our job" and "you're going to really enjoy working with Cindy". I'm worried I said things to him because he was attractive. I would have said it to any other new Co worker but I'm paranoid I said something because he is attractive

Happy Wednesday y'all ❤ I see a lot of y'all struggling today so I'd like to offer a different perspective. When you are focusing on gratitude, it makes it quite difficult to be preoccupied with your worries. Just like how practicing compassion for a person who might be annoying you in the moment makes it harder for you to ya know...be annoyed with them. You are offering them understanding and patience, so extend that offer over to yourself. Because you totally deserve it!:) Make a list of 10 things you are grateful for and really focus on the feelings of gratitude. I promise it'll lift your mood 💛💛💛

ERT Hi all, my ocd is around bad things happening in the world and I have just started ert. At the moment it is just reading news articles but it has been really difficult and led to high anxiety and stress levels. I don't know what to do! I feel like it's not going to help as surely reading about bad things is going to make me think that everything is bad as the news is extremely skewed towards negative things. So I don't see how it's going to help! I feel to lead a more happy life you would avoid the news and focus on the good, no?

To everyone who went through/is going through ERP, what has changed? I need motivation to do ERP

Hello everyone Im 25 years old And i think I'm having my worst ocd episode ever And I'm really doubting if it is ocd or starting to be psychotic Long story short : everything started after my dad pass away 3 years ago I started to have overwhelming anxiety that wouldn't stop and panic attacks Then the fear of going crazy steped in especially to have schizophrenia I took two courses of medicine which made me better But last two months after I cut my medicine things started to be really distressing My ocd started to littearly affect everything in my life especially existenal ocd After that the same fear came again fear of schizophrenia which littearly made me super aware about everything .... Some symptoms started to come again as : Illusions Hypnogogic hallucinations (before sleep hallucinations) Misidentification people (when i see some one totally strange for the first sight i feel he is someone i know or he looks familiar) Existenal panic (when ever i think about existince and what it would be looks like if there is no existince i get like a little panic attack and strange feeling) At last feeling deattached for a while when being alone And strange feeling and anxiety while being alone and looking at a mirror .......... I've always been concerned whether I'm at high risk developing schizophrenia So i read that there are some scales from people who are schizophrenic describing their strange experiences So i read every scale (caarms ' anomalous self experience ' sips) And i just could relate Which lead me to continues fear and panic which I couldn't stop that im at prodromal phase of schizophrenia ..... And yes that turn the sh** out of me I started new obsession which schizophrenic patients would have Like delusional non existing ( like truman show syndrome) I've had an idea about whether what I'm living is the same as anybody else or it's just me in this life but that was 15 years ago maybe when i was ten ...... And now i really can't stop thinking that I'm delusional and i will stop comunicating with people and this world is just a big lie thing Im really okay with any scenario about existince i even accept that stimulation theory but the things is like if im delusional then im schizophrenic .... And at last this obsession feels so real to me I don't even know if i believe that im being delusional and think that everything doesn't exist as if the people are robots and im the only one Or because i read about that i strated to believe and obsses ... Please help me Im so helpless