Anyone who struggles with dream orgasms about horrible things this is what helped me! Wholeheartedly accept that they may happen every night. I found the more I didn’t want them the more they occurred (so unfair right!). I don’t really get them anymore because I allow them to happen and don’t judge myself and ruminate in the morning if they did… this seems to be the treatment with all OCD symptoms!! Don’t trust your brains way of trying to help you. It doesn’t know the way. Your OCD therapist does!
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Having a hard time with my ROCD lately. It went away for a bit and wasn’t more than a background buzz but now I feel like it’s coming back with a vengeance. Between the struggle with my low libido from being on Prozac and then any miscommunication I have with my fiancé I feel like I’m constantly testing how I feel in moments of affection or intimacy. It continuously yo-yos my thoughts between feeling scared I’ll be abandoned for not being able to perform to feeling like “maybe we aren’t meant to be because I don’t feel right in this specific moment.” I hate it, I just wish I could be normal like everyone else. Sometimes I fear I’ll always have ROCD and the relationship will fall apart because of it.
I couldn’t burp for 25 years… it gave me constant panic attacks bc I felt like I couldn’t breathe when gas was trapped especially after I ate. I got a procedure done a year before my extreme ocd began. But I am now afraid that all those years of constant panic attacks (which were probably way more attacks than the normal person with panic attacks or anxiety has) will have contributed to the stress and tolerance level and make me snap and do my fear. I know I won’t find anyone else who is like me and also has ocd. So I feel like I have no statistic to find relief off of. I’m so scared and I feel like I should just lock myself up incase. I wouldn’t even know if I did my harm fear or not because I have false memory ocd…
I hope this isn’t triggering but, the thing I don’t understand about ERP is why it’s a good idea to agree with your thoughts? For example, if I have an intrusive thought or false memory that I killed someone I don’t see how it is healthy for me to genuinely convince myself that I might have actually done that it seems bizarre
I had a really bad night of rumination. In my past I’ve seen some porn that I didn’t realize was wrong, and I feel like I deserve to burn in hell now. It was cartoon porn of characters that were underage and I never even realized this until a few months ago. I was just doing some simple scrolling through social media and saw a post outing a groomer who was only 16. I first saw this disgusting porn when I was about 17 so now I feel completely irredeemable knowing someone younger than me did this. Waking up everyday I have extremely low self esteem and want to isolate myself since the last thing I want is to do anything to hurt children, and I’d honestly kill myself before even thinking about doing something like that. I so quickly see everyone attack pedophiles online, which is understandable, but it is so scary since you know your past mistakes aren’t just mistakes to those people. I became hyper aware of all my past actions, and feel so undeserving of life. I wasted my chance at being normal by looking at this stuff before and it’s all my life is now. I can’t have fun, I can’t sleep as well, I fear I’m something I don’t want to be. It is such an impossible thing to deal with. My actions got me here and there’s nothing I can do to be good again. It feels wrong that nobody knows since if they did I know they’d hate me. Why did I ever find this stuff, maybe my mental pain is just a fair punishment for my past actions. It all feels so wrong, I just want to cry, I just want to delete my past, I feel like a traitor to myself. I even told my mom who used to be a therapist about this whole situation and she says I’m normal, so why do I always feel tormented by this. I feel I stand alone and could never defend my actions if this ever got out like in my mind’s reality. Can you be forgiven for looking at underage cartoon porn, because it doesn’t feel like it’s possible even if you genuinely feel guilty for looking at it, and did it without the intention of even looking for it at all. I’m a mess and just want to feel like myself again, it’s been so long. My OCD sometimes convinces me that I wanted to find this simply for the reason the characters were young. I just had no idea. This subtype is even more distressing than when I has suicide/death OCD like 5 years ago. I’m in college and it should be the happiest time of my life, but instead I’ve been stuck with this and it feels impossible to escape from.
Is it still ERP if you don't do it on a scheduled basis, but you just expose yourself to the trigger whenever you come across it?
Is it possible to have ROCD about friendships? And what differentiates ROCD from social anxiety or FOMO?
How often do you guys fluctuate between clarity and non-clarity? For me it’s every like 15 minutes. For 15 minutes I will know that it’s just the ocd and then for another 15 I will be thinking and trying to figure out if it is actually ocd.
ocd is so funny cause why am i beefing with my brain over a what if thought
Does a compulsion to a specific obsession have to be the same each time for it to be considered an OCD loop? Sometimes I respond with avoidance, sometimes I respond with reassurance seeking, sometimes I respond with rumination. All to the same subtype of OCD. Sorry for all the questions from my account. I want to better understand these things so I can catch them and let the thoughts pass through. Sometimes it's really hard to distinguish this from depression due to the sad nature of it all.
Can I have some advice? Specifically from Christians with OCD? But others welcome too!!! So, I keep remembering these sinful thoughts I had years ago that I keep ruminating over whether they were true or intrusive because I didn't know I had ocd when they first started and I can't remember all of the details and how much anxiety they caused etc. They are worrying me now though and I don't know what to do. I keep trying to accept that they could have been true but then I get worried when I'm around people because I feel like they should know and they would think of me different if they WERE true so then I feel I need to make sure they weren't true. Any advice??
Can OCD make you fall out love with your partner. When I'm not with her it feels like there's just nothing there anymore. I used to feel so involve with her id even cry and not it feels like nothing is there. It feels like her love for me is getting stronger and my love for her is just disappearing. I find her attractive still but it feels like the romance has gone. And sometimes it feels like I just don't care, it feels like I'm just in this relationship for no reason and that hurts me. How can I go from being so deeply madly in love to feeling next to nothing. And with the HOCD as well it just feels like this is all just the process of 'finding my sexuality,' but it just doesn't feel fair it feels like a cruel trick that life has played on me. Making me feel like I want to spend the rest of my life with someone and then slowly taking It all away and deciding that actually I don't want it at all. When I see attractive women I still get turned on but it just feels dead, and like id rather be with a man now. WHAT'S GOING ON! And even as I'm writing this It feels like denial like Im just saying this to hide from the truth. My brain is saying "you don't really think this, you're just saying this to hide from the truth."
So, one thing I've learned during my treatment is that: OCD will never go away, these thoughts are present and will be for as long as I can think of. But I can learn how to manage them, to a point that they feel just like regular, boring thoughts. These thoughts might start appearing less, but they are here to stay.
Just Remember OCD is a Mental Bully If your flying in a Plane and the Plane says you are 20,000 ft high but you looked outside and you could see the ground , what would you believe? You are not your thoughts Say your mind is a Pool and thoughts are Balls , A thought pop up and you push it down with Compulsion and Avoidance , it will pop back up and add another thought until your mind pool will be filled with balls/thoughts
can ocd make you unsure if you said an intrusive thought out loud or talked to yourself out loud?
Does anyone else have rocd pertaining to a future relationship? I want to get treatment but everything I have seen so far about rocd talks about current relationships. I want to get treatment so that hopefully I can be in a relationship in the future without rocd.
Hey everyone. I have been struggling with HOCD for about a month and a half now and recently for the first time had two days where I felt a bit of relief. I was able to quiet my intrusive thoughts and remember that they are simply not who I am at all, and it felt so great to feel like myself again. However, I am struggling with constant intrusive thoughts again today and everything seems to be triggering me. I keep trying to remind myself that thoughts do not equal reality, but it is so much harder than it was the other day and all I want is to go back to feeling like myself. Also, I think the most distressing thing for me right now is the fact that, as a straight woman who has always been boy crazy, these HOCD thoughts have caused me to feel like I’m losing attraction to men, including the guy I like. Any tips/words of wisdom and encouragement would be greatly appreciated so I can work on healing my relationship with my thoughts and go back to feeling the attraction to men that I have always naturally had and loved.
Freaking out freaking out!!! Oh my god what if my partner and I aren’t compatible!? What if I’m just with him bc of attachment!?!? My intrusive thoughts are calmer. What if I am just afraid to break up with him… I know I love him but it feels fake when I say it…. 😞 is breaking up the only way to find my answer!? Someone on Reddit says ROCD can stem on real problems and she broke up to see if her ex is compatible for her…
It turns out he give attentions to other girls, just to feel better about himself. Can you help me find a compromise? Remember the post about me stressing because my bf was giving too much attentions to his female friends? He is the kind of guy that can really understand and listen women; the sensible one that the girls compare to theirs bfs, asking "why can't you be more like him!!" And I am super stressed because of that Today I talked to my psychologist. She told me that he has no bad intent, he doesn't want to cheat or anything like that. He just want the "medal", the "trophy". He like feeling like the men described up, it is like a compliment for him, so he keep searching it! I Don't know what to think about it. I switched from jealousy to pity for him. In both cases, I can't stand the fact that when we are together with his friends, I am put after all the others female. I know that he wouldn't cheat, but for me attentions are everything, and it Is like saying "you are less important". I talked with him, but it is his personality, it is difficult to change it! Now my psychologist and him both agree that the solution is find a compromise. Do you guys have some ideas of what that could be, without making him changing to much, and at the same time that make me feels happy again? What could be a compromise in this situation? I tried to find some, but my rocd today is really bad, so it's being hard... I could really use some advices!!
The people on this app and the rest of the OCD sufferers around the world are some of the strongest people out there. We walk around on a daily basis with a monster in our heads but continue to fight. Add in potential comorbidity of anxiety and depression and it's almost a recipe for disaster. But, we need to hang in there everyone, some days are going to be worse than others but there is a purpose we are here. Regardless of religious or philosophical views, we are here to help others and that's what we need to do with our fellow OCD-sufferers. I have said it before and I'll say it again, if we can overcome this, we can virtually overcome anything.
Feel like a freak. It’s hard when you’ve been having less intrusive thoughts for a while to have it come back. I’m having incest OCD and it conjures the most disturbing images and feelings… I don’t want to be in my house with my parents because I’m scared of myself. Advice for letting go of images or sounds that stick in your brain?
It really feels like I've lost feelings for her😭. I wake up anxious every morning. When she is not online, intrusive thoughts like " has she found a better person than me" "is she ignoring me" come to my mind and I have that. More than that it feels soooooooo real that I've lost feelings for her but I dont want to. Please help do yall relate 😭😭😭
I was watching a movie and when a gay couple appeared, the thoughts came back. I also had a groinal. I tried to think that it was okay and that I shouldn’t worry about that. However, I felt down there the doubt: “what if I want to be with a woman? What if this response is actually yours and you’re just lying to yourself? What if you were always interested in other women and never saw it? What if…..” I just hate this. I’m so tired. I can’t feel the attraction that I used to feel by men, I keep think about women and their bodies. I rethink every single thing. If I see a beautiful woman the thoughts appear, if I see ANY homossexual related thing they also appear. I just want to be myself again.
this is gonna sound weird but do you ever not hear the thoughts but it’s like you can feel them there still in your head
Does anyone with pocd get like “spam” thoughts and like your ocd takes one topic and runs with it and makes it relate to your ocd obsession
I know I had soocd at first. I was stressing out a lot about it and it made me feel weird and hyper attentive around males (I’m a male). Now, I feel genuinely attracted to them and there’s no anxiety involved, no hint of something off. Well, I do feel mentally exhausted after having those feelings as if my mind was running. Is it still correct to identify this as soocd. I don’t even have the desire anymore to be with women but the few times where I do, I have a profound happiness, like yes, this I what I have been searching for. I can’t tell the difference anymore between intrusive and real thoughts. Oh, and I’ve lost my sense of being a man. It’s like my mind doesn’t want me to. I’m trying to sit with the uncertainty but I feel like it’s not working. I think I have moved on from soocd and I’m finding out what I am.
The obsessive thoughts. It's THEIR fault. Because of them, I don't experience happiness and this has changed my relationship. It wouldn't be like this now if I didn't have them. I hate them so much... I can't change how it has been affected my relationship. WHY ME? WHY HIM?
It’s strange. Just since being on this app I’ve realized how often I engage in compulsions but I didn’t realize they were compulsions! I am always checking myself to see how I’m feeling and I constantly google search to see if other people feel like me. I didn’t realize that compulsions can also be more thoughts.
The worst part about OCD is the "invisible suffering" that goes on for those who have it. Often times it seems as I am just going through the motions at work or in my social life but, as many of you can probably relate to, there is that dark cloud over our heads at all points throughout the day. Even on "good days" I still feel like I go through a tremendous amount of mental pain but it's only considered "good" because it was less severe than an all out episode. I don't wish this God awful disease on anyone.
cried for 5 hours straight call that a world record 💪🔥💯 grind never stops
okay idk if this has to do with ocd or not but i think it seems a lot like i just can’t handle uncertainty. I’ve always for the last like 6 years of my life worried about “how are you supposed to know this is what u really want” or something along those lines. It used to be more existential. I would constantly think like “what if this isn’t what i’m supposed to be doing with my life” or “what if i’m just wasting my life away” i wouldnt let myself enjoy anything because i would just keep telling myself “oh well ur life is gonna be over some day so why would u let urself just enjoy it now.” then a couple months after i started dating my boyfriend i started to get really bad rocd. there were obviously specific things that i focused on, but there was always that underlying thought of “how do u know this is who u really wanna be with”. like the idea that there are a million people out there i couldn’t get over the fact that i have no way of knowing if i’m with the right person. yesterday i started to get bad trans ocd again, which i’ve had on and off before, but it really made me upset. today i just started thinking like “I literally could have any identity, any gender, any sexual orientation,etc.… so how do i know if i’m really who i’m supposed to be now?” like i could just be making it all up because that’s how i was born. like there’s no way to know and that’s so scary. and at this point i feel like i have no actual hard proof that i am the gender that i am or that i do like boys, etc. So how am i supposed to just keep living my life how i am. i realized that that last thought is really similar to the existential thoughts i was talking about in the first paragraph so it made me think more about how it probably is ocd. i just don’t know what to do because how am i supposed to just keep going when there is literally no proof that i’m not doing the wrong thing.
[Insight on NOCD app] I'm going to be honest, this app is great for the ERP tracking, but lately I decided to delete it because I realized I was addicted to people's posts. It made a huge difference on my intrusive thoughts. This place became not only my compulsions, but also my triggers. What's funny is that I didn't have some of my thoughts before downloading this app, but reading people's posts created new ones for me. Which is kind of awful. I like the idea of NOCD for doing this, but there is no control here and you must know that while it feels good to vent and share, there's other ways to do it. Being here and reading others is keeping me in the OCD loop and making me feel a lot worse. This app is exactly the same as the /OCD on reddit and I hate it for that. I'm not even kidding people, please take a break from this app sometimes and see how you do. And if you realize you cannot delete it, it might be because you're using it as a compulsion/reassurance, and it is not helping you. I had to download it back because I'm getting a NOCD therapist, but honestly I wish I didn't have to.
i have mainly sexual/violent intrusive thoughts basically about everything and my biggest issue is always being hyper fixated on where my hands are at all times to the point where i get a tingling feeling that feels like an urge but i always have to make sure they are placed correctly or ill develop some sort of false memory. i guess this is a compulsion but i’m not quite sure.
I feel so much guilt. With everything I’m going through, I’ve tried talking to my mom again about it and how I’m feeling and she basically said that I’m a good person who’s done horrible things and it really hurt because I never had bad intentions ever. I feel so much guilt it’s unreal. Of course I care what my mom thinks she’s my mom. But when I told her about what she said, she said it was a miss type and I don’t believe her. I think she was trying to cover it up. She even tried to say I’m putting words in her mouth but it’s a message I was literally reading it. I want to give up I feel like I don’t even deserve to be here or be happy. I just wish I could erase everything. Why was I so stupid back then? 4 or 5 years ago? I hate myself. I know the woman I want to be and become but I’m so held back by things I can’t even control
Has anyone felt like they acted on an urge? How do you cope with it? I’m suffering from a false memory, or what I hope is a false memory. I keep trying to replay it in my mind to check it (rumination,checking-keeping track of my compulsions) but I can’t remember the details clearly so of course my ocd brain is making me think the worst. I can’t stand it! Has this happened to anyone else?
Does anyone struggle with what others would think of you if your past thoughts or current where true? How do I deal with this? It makes me want to confess every thought or make sure every thought was false and its not helping
I have ROCD it started when I saw in some website (like things about the future) that said that what I felt for my boyfriend was platonic, so it was my trigger. Before that I was the happiest person in the world, I’ve never felt so in love. He is everything to me, the most suportive person ever, the most loving human and I love him. Well I lost contact with reality, I don’t know what love is anymore, that pure, simple love turned in panic and overchecking every time I kiss him, every time we are intimate. Just my mind won’t stop, and I am so tired, I just want to be with him, quite, and let him love me. I feel that I have a monster inside me, I don’t feel like I’m in control, something is living my life, I am just surviving
can anyone describe ways of depersonalization, i feel like i struggle with it but i’m unsure
Is OCD a protective measure taken by the brain because we react so heavily to our thoughts? So it is actually trying to bring the thought to the forefront of our mind to keep us safe.
I just don’t understand myself… I don’t understand anything anymore… like why my feelings won’t come back at all… 😞 I had some moments of clarity.. but what if I am just denying this now… I even told myself I feel trapped within my own mind but yet I can’t seem to get out… right now my partner feels more like a friend than a lover which is not what I want… I want to be in between.. where he is my lover and friend.. not just friends.. I love him so very much but whenever I talk or am around him it’s like I feel nothing for him… I had moments after a hard day at work and come home to see him I would smile and give him a hug telling him I love him. But right now nothing… my partner also brings himself down a lot too so my ocd tends to bring up his personality. I just wanna love him like before so we can have a happy life again.
My therepist told me to think of intrusive thoughts as a little dog trying to protect you that cannot understand what is an actual threat and what is not so it barks at everything. It takes the power away from the thoughts and stops demonizing them.
Anybody else experienced depersonalisation/derealisation while struggling with intrusive thoughts?
So I'm currently experiencing a lot of partner focused ROCD. I'm obsessing about my relationship being perfect and my partner being perfect. My brain is seeing his flaws as red flags and reasons to leave him. I see my ocd patterns here and but then I think what if im just blaming this on ocd and Im just ignoring these reasons to leave him. Has anyone else experienced anything similar?
Hello guys, i'm new here! Im in a realatonship right now for a month, and i think i have ROCD. Im really bothered rn, my obsessions came for two weeks ago. I can't stop thinking about; "What if my boyfriend's doesn't love me?" "I will lose him." I have compulsions too. I have to repeat the chats in my head that we took online, and if i find out that something is just "normal", i panic, because im afraid of he lost intrest. Sometimes im panicking because our relationship isn't "perfect" we just get along.(What if i lose him???). Booked a date with my psychiatrist, but she cannot receive me just in january 22rd. I can't deal with obsessions. I'll go on a party to my boyfriend's on friday and im really upset. I want to be OK. I want to chill down. His friends will be there too, and im afraid of that he'll ignore me because of his friends. Idk. Is this a part of ROCD? My compulsions are checking and analysing every message we took. And irl im doing this too. Subconsciously. "He didn't smiled at you, he's just hiding his feelings, he lost interst, he doesn't love you anymore." I need some help... Some understanding ears... Some sedation... And im really thankful, if you read all of these... Have a nice day, and stay strong!;)
I see all these quotes about relationships on Instagram saying don’t waste time on someone whose not right and if you love someone you know etc and it’s stressing me out like it makes me feel so guilty and I’m trying so hard to get over ROCD but I’m so scared about finding out that I should just end things because I want to be honest with my boyfriend I don’t want to find out I do t have ROCD and it’s really just not right between us it makes me feel sick cause I want it to work out so bad :(
Is it common with ROCD to only have negative thoughts about your relationship? I love my gf and I can say a lot of things I think are great about her. Yet all of my "natural" thoughts are just about the relationship failing, and me focusing on my mistakes and feeling guilty (OCD has helped me make a lot of mistakes) and thinking negatively about her even though it makes me feel crappy because I just want to think positive things. I am starting to get so anxious before going to sleep and waking up because I am struggling to deal with everyday feeling this way. Sometimes I want to breakup with her just so all this shit in my head will go away. Then I feel guilty for thinking that because I love her and want to make things good.
Anyone have any tips for communicating to your therapist when you get so anxious that you can’t think clearly to say what you want? I know I need to tell my therapist this, but find it so hard when I can’t think. I keep having sessions where I regret not being able to tell her things or mention what’s happening. I was hoping so might notice how I have difficulty communicating and answering her questions and bring it up but I guess it’s not obvious to her.
I wish I had real friends that I could share things with. I'm so mad at this one guy, who used to be my best friend. Many years ago he challenged my religious beliefs and made me feel stupid for being part of a religion. I've spent so many nights worrying about him That his dumbass opinions about politics and religion were infiltrating my brain. Trying to break free from it.
I have a question for other people with Religious OCD or anyone that can help. Is it normal to feel guilty about not praying, worshiping, reading, etc enough? I struggle everyday feeling like I’m not doing enough and i also struggle to feel God’s presence. Like if I’m doing something or just relaxing enjoying myself I get this feeling like I could read right now and do more. I normally read at night before bed because its the time I’m most alone and not around family (I just like the be able to be personal with God) but when i wait till bed i get this feeling that I’m doing something wrong like that i should have done it at a different time and it would be better. And then I start worrying I’m not putting God first when i try to but i alway fall short. I try to pray every time before I eat, pray generally throughout the day and before bed. I try to listen to Christian music when i can but when i chose sometimes to listen to older music even though there isn’t anything wrong with the songs I feel so guilty because I should have listen to Christian music. I also feel guilty when i enjoy a gift or get a paycheck because its like i don’t want to put anything before God and i don’t want to enjoy this thing because its of the world in a way. Its materialistic. I try to read at least a devotional and the verse of the day and any verses that go along with the devotional i try to take to heart. I do that daily unless I absolutely cant i don’t normally miss a day of that ( i know devotions cant replace reading the Bible by yourself. I try to read like more of the Bible daily but reading the Bible itself sometimes triggers me to worry so Im slowly trying to get into more of my own personal study) I’m really lost in what to do. My anxiety was doing better and i was able to feel God. But for a past few months its been dead I don’t know if I’m worrying to much or something. I try to get into the Bible but everything has become so much more stressful because of how much I worry about how I’m doing in my walk as a Christian. Its like i want to feel God and i want to be better so bad but it wont happen. I know i cant earn anything i just don’t know how to do better. I know i could read more everyone could but what if im not doing it right or just not enough heart put into reading. I have tried but im not sure what to do.
For anyone that does NOCD teletherapy this service is secure and can’t be heard by Zoom right?
Hi... alright it's taken me a lot of thought and guts to ask this so I'm just going to say it right away. I'm 17 and I'm struggling with perfectionism ocd and maladaptive daydreaming. Apparently the ocd started when I was about 8 or 9 but I just recently put a name to it and discovered that this is acc what's been going on-a whole lot of things make sense now. The problem is,no one knows. And having been in this community for a while,I know a lot of you understand how hard this is. I don't want my parents to know cause,their part of what caused this in the first place and they'll just think I'm being dramatic. And even if they DID know,we can't afford ERP. I am however trying self care and even though it's really frustrating and slow,I just really want to get better. However,I really think I need to talk to someone. And the person who keeps coming to mind is my boyfriend. He's also 17, but he's just... wonderful. And really mature for his age. He recently came close to dicovering my ocd(he saw this app) but I stopped it. We've been together for a little over a year now and we're really happy. What's stopping me from telling him is,he has his own problems. That and I keep doubting myself about whether this is the right step. Knowing him, he's going to be supportive in the way he can,but I just keep doubting myself and asking"what if".... I know some of you might have been through something similar so pls advise me,am I self sabotaging by telling him or is it a step in the right direction??
Is is anybody familiar with feelings of depersonalization and derilization? I have had persistent struggles for 8 years straight. Those of you who may have experienced it truly understand how horrific it can be. I'm working for any sort of advice, Medication recommendations, Or any types therapy anyone would know of That could potentially help. I was told by a specialist that this is an OCD spectrum condition.. Thank you all.
Hello my name is Charlie Today I had a phone call with a mental health proffesional about some issues ive having at home and at work mainly OCD related Upon answering a long questionaire on OCD questions scalling from 1-4 1 - Midly distressing 4 - Highly Distressing The highest score you can get on the questionaire is 40 (Above 40 being classed as clinically OCD) (Below 40 bring classed as not clinically OCD) (Not a formal diagnosis) I got 74, this has triggered a lot of my OCD behaviour to get worse particulary intrusive thoughts I told the person on the phone about an issue I was having about viewing explict content online had contributed to my intrusive thoughts I stated it was nothing illegal. I stated that the content I was watching got more intense as time went on and it was more fantasy to the point where I didnt know if it was real or not. I said that what I was watching didnt align with my values and what I believe and who I am as a person and that I seeked help via online coaching because of that reason. The person on the phone said nothing you said indicates your at risk to yourself or anybody else so and that theres no reason to break confidentialty and that I shouldnt not worry. They then said that my assessment would be discussed with the persons supviser But im having all these intrussive thoughts that there both going to talk about the issue with explict content and that its going to get misunderstood To the point where they break confidentilality But ive gotten help with these issues and Im managing them and I know im good person and I wouldnt hurt anybody but i cant stop thinking about what the person I spoke to will think...
Checking my feelings for my partner is ruining me ! Any ideas on how to work on not checking ?
Anybody else have a problem/obsession with food?
I really need to convince myself that thinking isn’t action
So I had the most amazing couple of days since I came back from college and I was totally fine with my sister and literally had like no issues. Then this morning I’m starting to get afraid and question myself and I literally freaked out in the kitchen and had to retreat to my room and all the memories of the worst parts of the past year came flooding back and I just got so upset. I’m trying to calm down I just don’t understand and I have to babysit today and I’m terrified cause I just feel kinda wrong and I don’t know how to feel ok with my sister now it’s so annoying
I’ve had a really low sex drive after my dad passed away and now with POCD it’s become non existent. Last night I tried to have sex with my girlfriend and I couldn’t get aroused, these days I don’t even get an erection throughout the day and this has been going on for a month. Right now I’m dealing with a thought that completely shuts me down and makes me doubt myself and last night was terrible for me. At this point I don’t know what to believe and I am at my darkest place with OCD
My soocd feels like it takes up everything in my life. The triggers are everywhere. I am a straight female, 18, and I have a wonderful boyfriend, my ROCD used to be my main theme but now it’s shifted to SOOCD. I’ve always since I was a little girl dreamt of having a “prince” and a family. And when I experienced bad ROCD I feared that when I start a family it wouldn’t be with my partner. But now with SOOCD whenever I think of my future of having a family I have intrusive thoughts about it being with a girl(really embarrassed to share that)..and I just don’t like it! I wish I didn’t have those intrusive thoughts. I’ve always loved imagining a future with my boyfriend and now I feel like OCD has just taken that over. Anyone else? It’s like the intrusive thoughts are almost instant. So annoying!! Sometimes I fear this will last forever😫even though I know it won’t.
Yes, some days can be slightly better than others in terms of severity of symptoms but I will be honest, I don't see how people can "conquer" OCD. Just thinking back over the years and how sneaky OCD can be and it is able to adapt to the things you value most at that specific point in your life. Does anyone else feel this incredible sense of "doom" or is this just me?
I know it isn't properly rocd, but I want to ask, do you have tips to switch to a safe attachment style?? Someone told me about attachment styles (avoidant, anxious etc) and I am so thankful!!! You made me understand better my situation ❤❤ I have a really insecure-anxious attachment style! And I am sure that a lot of my beliefs/bad habits make my rocd worse (and my relationship harder)! Do you have some advices/experiences/apps/ books/ everything that maybe could help me??
I swear I wasn’t doing this bad until I started Prozac.
I go on vacation next week. Considering how bad my ocd is atm there’s a good chance it’s going to ruin an otherwise great time spent with my family. :(
I’m tired guys. I have ROCD and now I don’t even feel like I do. I fixated and obsessed for 3 months now on my parents “physical appearance”. I never wanted to do that I never cared before nor did I feel they were flaws. I feel so guilty that I spent this much time about it and she knows about my thoughts and now she is insecure. At what point do you let the person you love go. Anyone with Partner focused ROCD.
i always struggle when i feel like i don’t worry about something i used to worry about a lot, it makes me worried and then i wonder if i still care about it said thing.... this case being my person
My body dysmorphia makes me want to give up everything
Hey everyone. I’ve been super absent on this app lately. Typically that’s due to school, but I finally have a better explanation. After an eye movement therapy session two weeks ago, I am officially two weeks free of SO-OCD rumination and compulsions! January 12 2021 was my first SO-OCD intrusive thought, meaning it’s been almost a year. I haven’t felt this… okay since last December. I just wanted to share this with all of you. I am so, so happy. I hope everyone here is well. To all struggling- YOU GOT THIS!
I’ll admit when I first started doing intimate things I was a very selfish lover, I thought my guy got his pleasure from pleasing me and it was also all I knew from porn. I didn’t stop to think he wanted to be pleased too and honestly avoided it (mostly due to anxiety and insecurities) until he expressed to me that I made him feel unattractive. Since that moment pleasing him took on a whole new meaning and as I gained confidence and experience I started enjoying it a lot more. Honestly I’ve always felt anxiety and fear around intimacy, it’s hard for me to be so vulnerable and even harder to feel “worthy” in bed. I always feel like there’s this standard I need to reach and that I need to think and feel and perform a certain way. Honestly, I don’t need sex in my relationship to be happy but it’s still something I really want to share with my partner and I really want to be that comfortable around each other and grow that passion. I feel like my rough start and trauma around sex means I’m doomed to ever have good sex with a man because my soocd makes me hyper focus on the overly-sexualized female erotica and porn and “male gaze” I grew up wanting to be. Girls is pure aesthetic , I find it attractive because I want to look like that. But with guys it’s about their smell, the shape and warmth of their body, their personality and energy. I feel like girls are more “aesthetic” but I’d much rather be with a decent guy with an amazing personality than say the most beautiful girl in the world. I hate my mind😒 last night I cried while listening to my playlist I made my boyfriend because I miss everything about feeling confident in my attraction and love to him.
I’m so upset. After years of battling my feelings about relationships and sexuality because of OCD I finally find a guy I have a huge crush on and he asked me out, gave me loads of compliments and was lovely and sweet. And he’s just ghosted me :( I feel like giving up. I’m 22 and never been in a relationship- barley kissed a guy! I feel like I’m destined to be alone and watch all my friends grow up without me. To make things worst I’ve just tested positive for covid too :’( I’m so sad
Not saying this to brag but maybe to inspire others to do/feel the same: I think im doing a good job distinguishing what feelings are real and what feelings are false/intrusive feelings 😊 esp the ”you wanna know how killing someone feels” and the false feeling that comes with it: once you know how to separate them, it becomes sorta funny! Like on the tinder app or something. Real feeling - swipe right, 👉🏻false feeling - swipe left! 👈🏻
Just did a big exposure and watched a lot of “ I thought I was straight until x” videos of women in hetero relationships realizing they were lesbians in their 20s and 30s and I’m so scared and uncertain. I feel like I would actually be insane to have made up all the feelings I have felt for men consistently over the years, and I’m simultaneously afraid I’m bi and just don’t know/can’t figure it out. Today is hard and a day when I feel like I don’t have ocd and I might just be lying.
Why is it when I feel love that’s when I know I love him!? But when I don’t feel love it’s like I really don’t love him at all…. 😞 it’s like I confirmed I don’t love him… but answering all theses questions my friend asked me showed me I still love him. But I am worried about not being in love… 😞 but when I feel love more I really do know I love him a and want to stay.
Hi guys so I think I’m experiencing a relapse in treatment I have been unable to cope with sense of attraction and it has got me into a stage where I’ve had to check my sexuality the last two days on a row. I feel terrible like it’s gonna take so much to get back on track and I feel I’ve let the people helping me down any advice would be great thank you
I’m so terrified. I’m scared that this is real and that I’m only obsessing over it and it’s following the OCD cycle because it scares me, or because I’m supposed to. It really does feel real. It must be real. I must be a p* and it’s just dormant. I see so many signs. I’m so scared. I’m just talking, not really seeking much. I just want to feel safe within myself.
So I feel like I accepted I’m gay and I’m in the closet. I can live my life without a care in the world but I have this thought in the back of my head that I am gay. I don’t think this is OCD anymore. I just want my old life back and even saying that doesn’t feel right. I feel like this is my life now.
Anyone with HOCD struggling to open up to family members in fear that it means you are “coming out,” even though you don’t not want to have these thoughts? I have kept all of my intrusive thoughts in and want to open up to my family but I know it will make them look at me differently because these thoughts go against our values and have never been something I have had before. My biggest fear is that by sharing this with them and beginning my ERP that these thoughts will become true, which is the last thing I want.