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Does anyone fear they are only not gay bc they are christian and have been told its wrong? So they're afraid they repressed or have been brainwashed into thinking they are straight

I was thinking for different things than I thought the intrusive thought and now ocd is telling me that I thought it on purpose and I feel socbad right now I am not calm I have been avoiding it for so many months and now happened ocd is telling me that I agree with it I am devastated

I really miss the days when I did not struggle with the intrusvie thoughts that I have had over the past year and a half. I'm not saying I did not struggle with other intrusive thoughts before... but a few years ago I wasn't struggling with the amount and different themes of intrusvie thoughts that I do now. It makes me so sad. I'm struggling so much that getting through the day is difficult. And my mom has been sick since the beginning of this year which makes me so worried and sad and I keep having all these other intrusive thoughts about what if my mom does not get well. I feel so heartbroken and trying to stay strong and have the faith and strength to keep walking forward in my life. That is what my mom always tells me to always have faith in God and to always keep looking and walking forward in life even through the difficult times.

Does anyone else fear that when they have the first initial thought that you “did do something” or “what if I did this” that when you try to disprove it or don’t believe it that later on down the rabbit hole think that you were just trying to not accept that your thought was in fact real and did happen. Thinking this is just my OCD but of course have doubt 🥲

I've been in a long distance and my ocd repetitively is trying to convince me that my relationship and boyfriend aren't even like real. This is bizarre I know obviously but it won't stop and it keeps popping in my mind like that's why you don't love him or you're living a lie. It's been so frequent that the panic has stopped but the thought isn't detaching. Someone please what do I do to get rid of it?

ERP for a memory of you "accepting" that you were bi and trying to figure out if you really did because if you did you feel like it must be proof and its true and that your family wouldn't love you anymore because they're against that so you just keep ruminating over the memory until you have no idea anymore what's real

Hello! What is the medium price for 1 hour of therapy. I am from a poor country from europe

Can ocd trick you into thinking you like the same sex? Right now my brain keeps sending me thoughts like "I like women...."

Ocd made me do a terrible thing in order to show ocd what happened and now I feel so bad and ocd is telling me that I did it on purpose idk what to do this is the worst of all I feel devastated

My so-ocd has gotten so so bad!!!! I can't tell between reality and my mind anymore. I got my attraction back a couple of weeks ago, then I went back into my compulsive ways..... I hate this shit! I just want my attraction to men back. I don't want to do anything sexual with woman, despite what my thoughts say.

I cant stop questioning and trying to figure out the theme? how to stop compulsions? What is going on? Will i ever figure this out? Why cant I stop thinking about it? No matter what I do I cant distract myself from this new ocd theme. I have never questioned my gender but now I seem to have both Hocd and Gocd. I identify as He/Him but now their is doubt. Anything I do and how I look is questioned and I need to make sure everything I do is manly enough. I have started with nocd but last appointment was a couple weeks ago. Friday will be m next appointment finally. The medication makes me feel worse now. I feel like I'm dreaming. How do you all deal with this?

For people like me on here who have been really struggling with feeling like you are drowning in your thoughts and feelings, The Happiness Trap by Russ Harris has been helpful for me to help apply the concepts of ACT. The last few days I have felt a little more in control of my mind and life

Does anyone else, when they have an intrusive image they can mentally feel how it would psychically feel? If that makes sense, like it’s so weird.

Apart from the support groups on here, does anyone do like video chats with each other? It would be cool to get to talk to you guys and just hangout! Just wondering.

Now I’m making up images in my head trying to know if I like it or if I’m sexually attracted to it, is this compulsions?

I wonder if anyone else notices this. An intrusive thought about the past comes in to my head. Without even thinking, my brain reassures me with a real memory proving the thought false. Then, in no time at all my ocd is doubting that memory or somehow changing it so that I no longer feel reassured and the memory that had previously reassured me suddenly becomes hazy. This all happens so quickly! Does this sound like typical ocd tricks?

do you ever get thoughts that like flash in your face like it’s going to happen or it is happening or that you’re going to do it or whatever the case is? idk i feel like that’s how my ocd is acting today. it’s been a while since this has happened so that is not fun and since it’s been a while it feels like this is all new to me but it’s not.

I’m starting to believe that OCD is indirectly telling us: “hey you need to face your fears if you want to move on with your life or else you’ll stay the same”. It’s weird to think and I can’t really explain it but OCD has arrived to my life to rearrange those maladaptive habits of mine. Maybe OCD is not a monster after all but just a wake up call. Perhaps OCD was meant to be so we can finally face those fears and evolve to become a better version of ourselves.

So this guy and i were in a situationship for a long time and we both started feeling like we need a little time off or him or ig because he said he needs some time cause he is mentally going through something and I understand that well cause i am too so we decided to take some time off of eachother and be in no contact for a while and hopefully if the door is still open reconnect better and healed later if its gods will and both of us want it but i have strong feelings for him so it hasn't been yhe easiest to sit with the uncertainty of maybe we reconnect maybe we dont and this is the end or 1000 more thoughts and also i am scared and before we took the no contact decision this is a thing that happened cause things were a little off for quite sometime which led to the no contact.. I spoke about my situation with a friend today and she said things that i have been thinking about and feel like hard pills to sallow because its true?she started by saying the maybe and maybe not decision of keeping the door open to reconnect later is a choice that we live in which cant let us heal and robs us from experiences with better men out there..and then she mentioned believing what he shows and currently he is doing his thing going out with who i dont know but yeah and he had told me that he is barely going out or hanging out with friends because he is going through something but it feels like its just me that he has an issue with or lets say the simplest lost feelings for me and didnt know how to say it so said it this way to me made me pull away she said i am not being truly honest with myself which i may or may not be but if i am not being honest about it then what is the honesty what are my intuitions saying what is my feeling except for overthinking that this isnt going to work? Why am i not accepting that? She also said who will put in so much work for a situationship and if there had to be work it already should have been put in now we haven't spoken in so long and now with time passing might not and move on so again he will be someplace else i will be someplace else and we will forget eachother like we came right? She also mentioned that she knows when a guy randomlv starts acting funnv and says he is going through something mentally which mine said but still doing his things it isn't that big of a deal and that he is living his life and there are very bleak chances of a situation like this to work out because this was inevitable and i am no different situationships always end like this never in something serious even if you want so and then she said you have been focusing less and feeling sad whereas he is doing his thing and enjoying and doesn't seem to care so clearly you are the one feeling bad in it and i also told her that I don't want to give into the same rut again and again its not okay either it be in or out but with the time apart and now moving on with our lives maybe this was never meant to be and we lost it and lost our time? And also maybe this is how it was to happen having hope is making it easy and she also mentioned that now people around will start saying you haven't been talking just move on which is why i dont even mention it to anyone and its like i am completely feeling numb these are all normal thoughts and concerns right and she says she can see how this ends and it isnt good sometimes third people who see it from the outside can see better so I should listen and quit the one sliver of hope also right? And most importantly what am i feeling do i feel the same and maybe i am just not accepting it? But i need to be honest and accept and i agree with everything she said? Yes cause the situation seems to be going no where and how lona can i hold on without feeling shitty about it anymore what is my intuition saying and my guy and just cause i am scared to accept rejection i am not accepting it sometimes things dont pan out the way we want and maybe this is one of those its out of my control and this time its not a thing i can force anything over its a human with feelings so it has to be want from both side atleast a little to make it work something to tell me he wants it but clearly everything says against it rn and are these all logical signs i am ignoring cause its my first time liking a guy so much and i dont want to accept the truth? But what is the truth? I know but i am not accepting what do i feel? What is my gut my intuition saying is this even ocd anymore everything feels blurry in my brain like i dont understand what to think about .. i said its not in my control the situation i put in gods hands but god also sometimes needs us to work to do something does he want me to do that ? To let go for good? Its just me in the relationship right? Does this make sense? Are these not valid points me just writing them down here dont make them ocd cause i want it to be... went from talking everyday to not speaking now aren't these just straight up signs? She said i am choosing to be in this pain and i dont even know whats true or false anymore everything she said about him may be true and am i hoping for something hopeless completely? Is this my ocd thinking at all?

Great! We are having my daughters 8 birthday party today, and the intrusive thoughts are pouring in! I feel like I deserve to be in jail and not at her party, because of these thoughts making believe/remember acting on said thoughts. I'm tired and all anyone ever tells me is "you thought you done xyz that time, the time before that, the time before that, and so on". People without this illness just don't understand what we live with everyday. Sometimes I feel like I have healed completely, and then there are times like today that I feel I will never get better and I will be miserable the rest of my life. I can't remember the last time I was happy and thought free, this shit sucks.

I’m currently doing ERP for somatic symptoms. I’m not sure if that’s exactly what it is. I’m very aware of myself,like just existing, and my voice. It’s hard. It’s lead to some scary existential thoughts at times. I also fear I’m developing some kinda psychosis. I know I’m not but it’s a hard feeling to shake. I’m taking lexapro and I think it’s helping? I’ve deal with this without meds and it wasn’t this intense at all. Has anyone dealt with this? Any tips? Any ERP exercises I could do?

Just as I think I’ve cracked it and bang it all comes back and i feel back to square one! Anyone else experience this?

As far as intrusive thoughts go, does your OCD ever make your mind repeat a troubling quote or maybe a few words in general that give you extreme anxiety?

I wanna go to therapy but i’m worried that i’ll be too shy to talk. Is it fine if i do that when its my first time seeing a therapist

The guy i’m newly seeing has asked how he can support me if I’m having a panic attack or how he could help in general with intrusive thoughts. Do y’all have any tips or do you have a go to that you tell your partner? Thanks. 🥰

and my mind started spinning on since you’re talking to this guy now something is going to happen with your other themes and they’re going to come true or happen. my mind started checking and it gave me anxiety, but now i’m sitting here thinking omg is this going to happen, are you going to look something up, are you going to do something bad. it doesn’t even give me anxiety at this point it’s just there since i’ve been on meds. idk i just want to go back to before this day now.

I have fear of abandonment and I’m all alone this weekend. OCD just made me realize that one of my closest friends has not answered her phone in a long time. My friend and I are close but she always takes days or even weeks to call back which is normal for us. For some reason, I have the urge to contact her, message her, search her online which is what OCD wants me to do. I already left her a message a few days ago. Today the feeling of uncertainty and abandonment is eating me alive. Can someone please give me some advise? Thank you!

It’s been a while since I have been on this platform. In August, 2022, I said goodbye to my OCD therapist. Excerpt from my OCD diary: Aug, 2022 I just said goodbye to my therapist. She texted me this morning “are you running late?” The second time in a row I had forgotten about my therapy session. Maybe the third time? All after I had knocked them down from an hour to thirty minutes. I simply had nothing to talk about. I consider my OCD in remission (something my therapist helped me to understand- as an obsessive compulsive mindset doesn’t necessarily go away, your response to the specific obsessions can). Full days go by that I do not think about my obsessions. When they rise, I continue to engage with my fearful thoughts by confronting them. I wanted to post again because I read an interesting excerpt on shame- which we know flourishes in an OCD mindset. “First, I know my physical symptoms of shame— the dry mouth, time slowing down, tunnel vision, hot face, racing heart. I know that playing the painful slow-motion reel over and over in my head is a warning sign.” (Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection) If that does not describe an OCD rumination storm I don’t know what does. And what is the fix? “Shame hates it when we reach out and tell our story. It hates having words wrapped around it-it can’t survive being shared. Shame loves secrecy”. (Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection) This resonated with the way I felt when I learned about OCD. When I found out what OCD was I could pull apart the shame I had been feeling and label it. I could define the experiences I was having. Rumination. Obsession. Compulsions. Anxiety. Pure-O. Groinal Response. There was power in exposing the shame I had; I now knew why I was having the obsessions, why I was doing the compulsions, and why I still felt like shit. Then without knowing Brené Brown’s strategy for tackling shame. I reached out. I found a confidant; my mother. I found a therapist. I found this community. I found other communities. I found a different therapist. I found books. I shared my story. I shared my shame. Not broadly from the rooftops. But to people I knew could understand, support, and encourage. I found peace through sharing my shame with you. Seven months ago I considered myself over OCD. It still comes up but it doesn’t rage. All this to say. Thank you for listening to me talk about my shame. The courage, compassion, and connection through this platform saved my life. Additionally, as a sufferer of OCD you are in the right place. Sharing shame on this platform is a step in the right direction; a step towards recovery. Finally, you know your shame. So grapple, tug, drag, grind, force your shame into the light. Tell other people about it. Not only does it starve your shame; it helps others to know they are not alone. It tells others to share their shame—kill it, don’t feed it. Thank you.

Can someone explain to me what derealization is? I think I’m going through this stage and it’s very confusing. I just feel “Okay.” With whatever thought my mind brings up and it’s causing me to start my obsessions over.

Can ocd trick you into thinking you forced the intrusive image??

Does anyone use art to help overcome ocd? I’ve recently got diagnosis, just before Xmas, and have started healing a lifetime of illness from ocd I’m an artist I’ve noticed ocd really flares up when I’m being creative Trying to be perfect, wanting to be sure of outcome etc Last night I realised I could perhaps turn this all on its head and fight ocd with being creative, like treat being creative like a practice, like yoga or meditation, I’ve started doing what’s called automatic drawing where you don’t have any plan, just draw and not correct mistakes etc, so everything is imperfect, my ocd defo hates it, whilst doing it ocd tells me to do one thing, I pretty much do the opposite Anyone else do this? Any tips would be much appreciated

I feel like I have to check the doorknob see if it's locked or someone will break in. This is scary. Please help.

Does anyone else with ROCD (or just ocd) obsess over intercourse? I obsess about it with my partner and almost everything that goes along with it. I’m also prone to infections so I obsess about those too

Has anyone else added details & gone ruminating / checking for them & then found some details that were in your false memory?! Never happened to me before until recently. I don’t think my false memory is real at all but the details keep me hooked as they feel like evidence. So now I’m caught in this loop of ‘my false memory is fake but then why were the details there’. It’s draining.

Whenever I feel a bit hope, my mind hits me with the thought I'm just pretending and this will never work out and I never was in love. It makes me very uncomfortable. What do I do to prevent such thoughts? They have made me emotionally numb towards my partner and I know I love him a lot.

I’ve been giving in a lot to compulsions this week, I think. What I know is only from what I’ve read, so I’m not always sure what is a compulsion and what is okay (I have my next therapy appointment on Monday). I do have an inner sense, though… and I’ve been ignoring it. I’m not sure why. When I feel anxiety, I often become angry or irritable, and just about every day this week, something happened in my relationship to cause anxiety and I full-blown gave into the wave of anger that followed and fought with my boyfriend. What followed was the negative cycle of self-blame and fear. He says he feels like the bad guy all the time, and I feel like a horrible partner unable to love, because I know it’s me (or my ROCD) that makes him feel that way. It’s very discouraging, and I feel like I’ve fallen off where I was doing well. This appointment can’t come soon enough—I need some practical tools for these moments, and signs and signals for what is a compulsion/obsession and what isn’t.

Does anyone have problem that you start to avoid things you enjoy doing (like art) just because you feel the activity itself will be ”contaminated mentally” if you perform the hobby while having bad thoughts?

I already posted about this before but I'm so stressed about it and I can't get it out of my mind. I just moved schools because there were so much problems in my old school and everyone didn't like me there. There were so many made up reasons such us me talking shit about someone when i didn't do that and also it was mainly people disliked me because of my relationship. Anyways, I have friends here now but one of them has a guy at her bus who is friends with one of the girls that hate me and he always tells my friend. He told my friend he doesn't like me. The thing is that, I keep thinking that I'm such a terrible person because all those people like an entire school can't be wrong and I'm the right one which also makes me anxious. But what really turned my ocd high is that I keep replaying stuff that happened last year and I think about how I was wrong and that what if my fried finds out about them. I thought of a situation and I had the need to confess to my friend and I did but she told me it was wrong but your intentions were good. Then I was scared of thinking about anything from last year which indicates I'm a bad person. Later my friends and I were talking about SA and how some friends don't usually stand up for their friends when that happens to the. Then a memory cane to mind. Last year i was walking with my friend and there was another girl with us and then she said that a little boy slapped her as*. Before, i used to thinm that we all laughed but then i remembered clearly that I'm the one that started laughing first and I think I side it's because of the way the girl said it but what if that wasn't the case like I think I did because I found it fhnny because it was a kid that did it and i think that's actualky why i laughed. She laughed withe me too and it wasn't taken seriously. And I think I kept laughing about it afterwards and then she was like saying stop laughing but still in a joking way. And also when we told my other friend at that time she was concerned while we were laughing. I feel like I'm terrible person and that what if my current friend finds out. I keep thinking about this and getting stressed. It's been a week or more since this and I'm so nervous like what if my friend finds out since people from that school don't like me and she has connections with them.

I’ve been dating my bf for a bit and I love him sm. He truly is great. But I keep having dreams where I cheat on him with random men I’ve never even met/seen before. And in the dreams I always have a feeling like I don’t want to be doing this, yet it happens anyways. I feel like I wouldn’t cheat on my bf. I love him and even when I was single I wasn’t the type to hook up or flirt with guys a lot. But I have this nagging fear like I’m gonna cheat on him even tho I don’t want to

Having ocd are you also afraid to have sex with your partner? I have a terrible problem with this and don't know what to do. Before, it did not cause me any difficulty.

hello guys.. i just need to rant for a bit but i don’t know where to start. i feel lost and confused and sad. just sm

My brain attaches random/made up memories and meanings to songs and it ruins the song and I can’t stop thinking about the memory when it comes on… it makes no sense!! Why can’t my brain let me enjoy the damn song without tying something to it?? 😭

Even tho the OCD throws a TON of emotions and lies at me, when I think about the fact that these thoughts aren’t me. When I remember that it’s all a bunch of garbage and I’m not responsible for all this stuff. It gives me a lot of relief. It brings peace to remember I am NOT these thoughts. It takes away some of this shame and guilt. I think we all need to remember that!

this is really a disorder where you never truly know who you are.. anybody else feel that way? like who am i at my core? what’s my values? who am i? :/ am i a good person? am i bad?

Recently, I've been scared that I intentionally "search" for the content of my obsessions in public and online. It can sometimes feel like I somehow "like" these thoughts and I'm just in denial about actually secretly liking them (when I know I don't). I guess what I'm asking, does anyone relate to getting these sort of thoughts? Like you're scanning the room or your mind for triggers.

Good job to everyone on here, you survived another day! I know it was hard but you did it!!!❤️

I’m so fed up trying to question if it’s my ocd or I just don’t love my boyfriend anymore! How do you know!!

i was finally able to attend a social event without obsessing over covid

What happened to all my obsessions? I had obsessions listed and each included categories, triggers, and exposures.

Anyone else? I hate ocd!!!!!

I've got a constant urge that I've lost the magical feelings I had for my boyfriend and I need to find a new crush to be happy again. I'm afraid I'll end up liking someone. I know I want Noone but him but this thought won't leave my mind. It's like my mind is convinced I won't be able to revive my own self back unless I get a new crush with all those exciting feelings back. Please someone going through it help me out. How do I work these urges? They are making me feel as if I'm attracted to men I don't even want.

Eye movement desensitisation and reprocessing. Anyone tried this? I’ve read a lot about it being used as treatment for ptsd and even ocd. Studies show it can improve ocd as effectively as erp and even better when used in conjunction. I tried my first session and I actually felt a notable reduction in my anxiety thereafter. Not a magical cure, but I have a few more sessions to try. I did still engage in safety behaviours thereafter but it’s a start. I’ve done a lot of cbt which was great but I find is not as effective with me at the moment for some reason. Well, while I await intake for an ocd therapist / group therapy program, my psychologist is helping me a lot and I’m happy with the emdr. Hope this is something you might like to explore or help ease your symptoms too.

okay so a while ago when my death ocd started back in December I had a thought that someone’s gonna go through my phone when I die. and I was with a friend and she was watching my phone and she said “ what are you gonna do when you die and someone goes through your phone” and I haven’t had that fear sense December and that just kinda made me think “ what if it was conformation.:(

I’m not in therapy yet but I’m working hard. Leave your tips for anyone on the search for some relief, the internet isn’t always helpful. Here are mine. Say out loud “I’m done with this” “I’m done thinking about this!” “I don’t need to do that” “I am having the urge to do a compulsion right now and it’s really hard” Wrist rubber band Leave the room or area Talk to someone Listen to classical music Take DEEP breathes and BLOW OUT Shake off your body’s anxiety Even jump around “I can do this” “I can trust myself and keep myself safe” I hope this helps any of you. I’m struggling right now. I need to go to bed and can’t do these things. So it’s me against my thoughts and phone compulsions. Take care ❤️🌙

Its unbelievable to me how few therapists & so called mental health professionals Do NOT understand how to Treat OCD" ?? How is this possible when OCD is such a debilitating mental health illness that millions have? I and millions others suffer everyday with No help & unless ur wealthy enough to afford one of the rare therapists that actually treats OCD then ur left alone with nothing! Its just not Right!! ALL counselors & therapists SHOULD be skilled & trained in ERP & treating OCD. Its disgusting they have degrees years of schooling and OCD is completely left out as if we don't matter when it IS a REAL medical mental health condition!! I just don't get it!!

It’s so hard having these intrusive thoughts, I don’t understand how one day I can be completely fine and then they came on and now I’m just depressed and lost myself. I have no enjoyment in anything I can’t do anything I love I just sit and cry and it gets progressively worse. I want to be happy again I was looking forward to so many things this year and it’s all ruined. Has anyone gotten over or learnt to cope with ocd? I just want some hope

Courage is waking up every day and choosing to find the good, even if it’s just one thing. It is sitting with uncomfort and resisting compulsions. It is putting one foot in front of the other even when it hurts. Each of you have courage.

Does rocd make you feel disconnected from your partner? And does make u feel like you done deserve them? I also think that when i feel like i messed up or i had a feeling that was wrong for the relationship, i just close up

challenge is: Do 1 thing that would trigger you, today. try to stick with it and remember to not ask for reassurance after works & try not to do any conpulsions ( washing hands , double checking, asking someone for reassurance, searching on google ur worries etc ). good luck!! remember to reward yourself after you do this exposure therapy ( it can be something small like a coffee or a piece of candy )

i remember i had seen a tiktok about breast cancer and made an appointment the next day with my doctor for a check up and now it’s the same with a brain tumour and i’m so scared? i know i should accept it and move on, but i just searched up her symptoms and want to cry :((

How do you guys deal with intrusive images. With intrusive thoughts I can say “maybe maybe not” but it doesn’t seem to help with intrusive images :/

My mind is really obsessing over someone else that isn’t my partner. So I will think of my partner first then this other boy will replace my boyfriend face and name and I’ll just be like why no stop like I don’t wanna think of that other boy just my boyfriend. It’s so annoying and stressful. I just wanna cry because I don’t wanna think of that other boy and it’s like my mind will replace what I imagine with my bf with this over boy. I don’t want this boy to pop up in my mind anymore. My minds telling me I like him and it feels like I have to say it with my tongue and I don’t wanna. I don’t like him I jus love my boyfriend and I don’t want anyone else but my mind makes me feel as if I like this other boy and I don’t like that and I just really want tips on how to handle these thoughts. Also earlier I admitted that this boy was attractive then later I’m like no he’s not that attractive now I feel guilty for finding him attractive but it’s like I can’t make up if he is I don’t think he’s that attractive but then I will feel like he kinda is idk. I don’t wanna find him attractive nor think of him. My mind makes me feel as if I have a crush on this boy that isn’t my boyfriend and it’s like I know I don’t but it feels like I actually do and I don’t wanna think that I want it to go away I just don’t know how.

ERP is helpful, but is it also bad because it exposes you to high levels of stress, can stress caused by ERP affect your health? ( looking for medical opinion)

Has anyone done nuero feedback for ocd intrusive thoughts and depression? If so, what were results?!

Does anyone else often feel like you either do what you need to do (like actual responsibilities) early? And struggle with feeling like it’s going to be late if you rest first to the point of being unhealthy? How do you start putting things off without the stress AND without actually becoming irresponsible?

I’ve done touches of erp but just began nocd. I’ve really turned a leaf with sitting with the anxiety without doing hardly any compulsions and tbh I feel awful. I don’t understand because I am allowing and I am sitting in the anxiety without making it try to go away and I know i am having success but I don’t feel successful. I am very feeling oriented and it messes with me to know that I am doing a good job but that I feel depressed. It doesn’t make a lot of sense…

Does anyone feel like if they’re not in a constant state of panic because of their thoughts or if they don’t feel anything it means their coming true? And it even “feels” like it’s coming true? To prove that you don’t want them you do compulsions after compulsions just for it to stop and the anxiety sort of comes creeping in?

Venting again. No reassurance ty. Idk I feel like if I ever stop having these obsessions and these thoughts, maybe that will mean that I never had OCD in the first place. If I don't prove that I'm miserable with this condition, all my thoughts will be true, and I was just using OCD as an escape goat for it. Maybe that's just the intrusive thoughts talking again.. I'll keep trying to get better, things are going to be okay.

When people say something i always put them in negetive way.. Iam also addicted with many bad things.. Iam kinda lonely.. So i usually do bad things or see bad things like(s**videos and c** videos as well) so it affects my brain and i kinda i used to it.. So it’s ok to use to it.. I sometimes feel to stay away and i did as well but i again did the same things. Sometimes it makes me sick.. What should i do.. I can't go to the psychologist cause It's far away from home and iam a student i can't afford the price.. My family also don’t suppirt my mental health..i also face depression and anxiety.. What is the problem iam facing ?

Today has been one of my most difficult OCD days ever. And lately I’ve been feeling great. My day to day responsibilities have felt doable and easy. But for some reason, today and yesterday, my OCD has been SCREAMING. It is all I can do to not ruminate. It takes all of my effort. What is happening? I was doing so well, it seemed…

im stuck in rumination rn and every time I try to distract myself i feel absolutely awful im so scared not to ruminate

It's me. This week has been so fucking much and working on the step we're on with our therapist has been exhausting. We couldn't work this week because we've been so unstable. But that said, doing the work feels so good. It's hard to describe how something that causes so much discomfort can also feel like healing. For the first time we're not running, not even from POCD. Or at least, we're getting so much better at not running. We haven't told our therapist yet about what exactly our "darkest theme" is but we're gonna, I know it. We're gonna get there and we're going to tell her without crippling fear and shame. But despite this week knocking the whole system on our ass, I only cried a little in therapy today and to me that's a win, especially considering I had a pretty major revelation in therapy.

I’m sitting here thinking about how thankful I am for my dad. I love how I can talk to him about my OCD without judgement. Whenever I have a particularly bad anxiety spike, or am so deep in despair, he’s always there to listen and help me calm down with meditation or other calming techniques. After a check-in with him, I always have a deep sense that everything will be ok. To create some positive vibes in this sub-section, I’d love to hear about the people you have in your life that you’ve been thankful for during your OCD journey.

I tend to think that my intrusive thoughts is what I want and it’s not and it hurts me on an emotional level and takes a big toll on me because I have depression and being young and not knowing what’s going on in my life makes it even worse stress on top of stress

Anyone here that's been dealing with SO OCD for a long time wants to talk? I could use someone

I’ve found this is common in ocd. Anyone else have it? My entire life revolves around not throwing up. I have done it before and obviously I survived it so idk why my brain has latched onto this. It’s just a part of being a human yet it rules me. I was around someone with a virus this week so I am spiraling and being obsessed with “am I coming down with something”. Anyone ever conquered it or have any advice?

how to deal with unnecessary excessive guilt? it has to do with false memories on what if I cheated on my bf in the past and forgot, ik I didn’t, EVER, but it feels so real and affects my every second of my day, how do I deal?

Tonight I walked to my freezer to get a piece of chocolate pie. There are two pieces. So tell me why I’m suddenly terrified to eat one because my brain instantly attached heavy consequences to the piece of pie, and I cannot eat it. Consequences that have nothing to do with pie, but consequences that scare me. Pie has no cosmic powers, at least that I’m aware of. I stood in my kitchen, cried, and yelled at the voice of my OCD whom I’ve named Patrice just for moments like these. This whole ordeal took less than a minute. Anything can be a trigger, even in the midst of great healing. But I’m ok. Still can’t eat the pie, and I’m swearing some more at Patrice, but I’m ok. Lol.

I see how harmful it is in my relationships, especially those that do not go as expected, when I compulsively text those how I feel and my thoughts. I think it is harmful to them and myself as well. Especially because my assumptions can trigger my worst fears and also sabotage the connection or friendship. Does anyone have experience and copying methods to stop telling people every thought? Especially when someone discontinues conversations.

Does anyone else start having intrusive thoughts about why they aren’t worrying about their breathing anymore?!

my thoughts feel calmer when i’m around my partner. we just spent an amazing couple of days together and i barely had any intrusive thoughts, if i did i was easily able to push them aside and not let them destroy the moment. now that we’re apart, the thoughts are back. i think it has everything to do with the fact that i find it so hard to feel connected to people when i’m not with them. i don’t think twice about whether or not i still love my siblings or friends when i’m away from them, it is solely with my partner and it makes me so sad. i can’t function with these thoughts and i just wish they would go away. does this happen with anyone else?

anytime I make plans or someone asks me to go somewhere my brain always says “ don’t go” “ something bad will happen” and it’s so draining because I wanna go out and have fun but instead I’m scared wondering if it’s anxiety or intuition

So I just lost one of my closest friends. I feel guilty about the whole thing. But him and his gf been broken up for 6 months and I asked him if I can get with her and he got pissed basically calling me fake which I understand it was just in the moment I thought of it. I never did anything with her and I don’t even text her. I apologized for the whole thing but I just don’t know what else to say that would make the situation better. Any advice?

Can ocd try and make you think your attracted to someone even tho I’m not at all for example I like something and they like it to then I get a thought like “that means you like them like wtf Idk if this makes sense

I was triggered today by being in a doctors office. I got really bad heartburn out of nowhere and it made me feel like something is wrong with my heart. I have never felt heartburn during anxiety before. Has this happened to anyone else? It did happen once my anxiety was triggered, so it seems it was that.

It’s as if my mind or mouth wants me to leave my boyfriend for someone else. I don’t want to nor think of that. I hate that when I start to feel calm and try to accept it the thought just ends up feeling more real. Like what if it’s true what if I actually want to leave my partner what if I end up leaving him for someone else what if I end up finding someone else so attractive that my mind tells me to leave my partner I don’t even wanna find anyone attractive anymore cause what if I end up liking them I don’t want to Im scared I will :/ what if I end up falling for someone else and leave my partner…I hate these thoughts so much I’m afraid of them happening I don’t wanna leave my partner nor do I wanna catch feelings for anyone else while I’m in a relationship. I just wanna be with my boyfriend and him only no one else.

I think one of my best friends has rocd. She has a boyfriend and she loves him a lot, but she has the constant fear of liking other boys, losing him, not really loving him etc. She has described me how she feels and what she does and I think she definetely fits in rocd. My other friends don't understand it - they are giving her reassurance right now (we are texting) and in my head I'm like NOOO THAT'S SO WRONG DON'T DO THAT!!! What should I do?? Should I tell my friend? I'm not a therapist, it's not my job to diagnose her, I could be wrong, but I also wanna help her... please give some advice🙏🙏

How do differentiate a false memory from a real one or an intrusive thought vs a real thought?

So I had a few intrusive thoughts today that really scared me and made me feel vulnerable and like I wasn’t recovering in a way but I’m trying to break myself out of my funk because the truth is there just thoughts and they mean nothing and I’m in recovery and doing so much better

I’ve been anxious and recently lost my job. I guess with my low mood the intrusive thoughts are swarming

I feel like im slowly losing myself, I feel crazy. Ive delt with what I believe is POCD for years now, Im 18 and everyday is a struggle. Every second of the day my mind is having an endless conversation with itself trying to either analyze if im mostly attracted to young teens. Its gotten to a point where I dont understand if its groinal response or genuine arousal. I see young teens mostly on tiktok but also in real life and if they look attractive then it feels like im going to have an erection and sometimes I do and they happen really quick and make me feel disgusting. Sometimes i know its groinal response but other times its too increadibly real and I always try to analyze if they actually mean something. I’m never in my life going to do anything to a minor, but just thinking that its what im mostly attracted to completely ruins me and has destroyed my life. I haven’t had peace of mind or felt happiness in a long time. I don’t know what to do.

I love my boyfriend to death, I just wish his sex game was a little bit better. I sometimes think that like I wish he was as good as the people from my past. I don't like that I am comparing because it gives me anxiety. Is this a normal thing to think about? Im not trying to ask for reassurance, but I just feel like like a bad gf because I dont want think about other people. Its also making me feel guilty that I liked having sex with the other person more, and I just wish my boyfriend was like that if that makes sense. I think the sex was better with the other person because he was emotionally unavailable and I always chased for the feeling of being good enough plus I think I was infatuated with them. He isn't a good person for me at all thats why I ended it with him. But I do not having that "feeling" with my boyfriend, my boyfriend is safe, secure, and loving. I don't know if it's because I am not used to being in a safe and secure relationship or what but it could also just be the issue that my boyfriend doesn't tend to last long in bed. I just feel guilty for even thinking this because I just want to be with my boyfriend and thats it and I don’t like how my mind is like “the other person was better at sex, you should be with me him” and I don’t want to be with him. Currently crying, sorry for posting twice in one day but today is just not good lol.

I have a really bad hoarding problem because of my OCD and I don’t know what to do 😢

Feels like I can’t access my old brain. It’s like your stuck, you feel like you’ve changed as a person and don’t care about anything and when you try to care you can’t even express it. Anyone experience this?

…everywhere. This is the hardest theme I’ve ever dealt with. I’m afraid of diseases and infecting other people. I feel like I can’t function in society sometimes. I take pics of everything but I know that’s not helping at all. I mean car handles, bathrooms, containers, boxes. For some weird reason, I think a syringe will just pop out of nowhere and I’ll get poked. I just started seeing someone too. And it breaks my heart that I feel like I don’t deserve, or I am not capable of dating because of this fear that I have. I’m afraid to infect them or the people I love if I don’t pay attention and stay aware that there is a syringe everywhere a possibility when I know there’s no possibility. My thoughts I know are illogical. I just want to feel normal again. I’m sick of it.

What are everyone’s thoughts on what that statement means. Acceptance of uncertainty. Is it that I am accepting that I don’t know if something will or will not happen?

I've been single for 3 years and finally started seeing someone new. We're boyfriend and girlfriend, met a few friends, been about 3 months. But neither of us are vocal about how we feel and that makes me think he doesn't like me/see future with me/am I wasting time/do I even like him. It gives me such a pit feeling in stomach and I eventually ask these questions out loud and ruin an evening. He's very caring and affectionate and no reason to suspect he doesn't like me, but I know me nagging will likely put him off. When I'm single I'm fine. I've been like it in relationships before. I want to be the fun, happy person I am not let the anxiety sit forefront.

so i believe in God and i’m gay. anytime i ever do anything that has to deal with me and another many or thinking of it or anything i feel like God is upset with me, something bad is going to happen; or since my thoughts have died down i think maybe my thoughts will come back or they will happen. i was wondering if this fall into religious OCD or if anyone else out there deals with this like i do?

My dream is to have a baby I used to be amazing with children but since I developed pocd I’m terrified of them. Will I ever be able to be a mother?